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:: 2004 2 April :: 11.31am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: nothing im in school...ok nvm candice is singing...addicted...

Taurus: You are practical, passionate, possesive-- and possibly the world's most loyal friend.
Special trait: You have an amazing fashion sense
Deep Secret: You can also have a bad temper when provoked.
Best Matches: Virgo, capricorn, Pisces.
Best Avoided: Libra, Sagittarius, and Leo.

There will be no holding you back this month: You will go where you want to go, and do what you want to do, and if others don't like it, too bad! But heed the advice of a friend on the 25th, evem if you have to chanmge your plans. It seems she knows something about your love interest that you don't.

me?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

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I know your bitchin and complainin like you got it so tough
We're sick of all your cryin will you ever shut up

So Keep bleeding your fake blood till no one even see's it
If thats the best you can make up, at least act like you mean it

Give up the grudge, shut your fuckin mouth
why you gotta judge everbody but yourself
Take a look around, there aint nobody home
I may be a loser but at least i'm not alone

xonixieox

:: 2004 31 March :: 4.23pm
:: Mood: happy

ok so i love douglas sherman! he is the nicest person ever! me and traci now worship him! Thank you sooooooooooooo much Doug!!!!!

<3 NikkiE!!!

:: 2004 30 March :: 11.16pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: the reason-hoobastank (its me and dereks song)

1) Using band names, spell out your name:
Maroon 5
A static lullaby
Rage against the machine
Incubus
Sepultura
Slayer
Atreyu

2) Have you ever had a song written about you?:
lol, i've tried
3) What song makes you cry?:
good charlotte - hold on

4) What song makes you happy?
the reason - hoobastank (because its me and dereks song)

5) What do you like to listen to before bed?
anything really

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 4'10" and proud mofo
HAIR COLOR: dark brown with blonde highlights
SKIN COLOR: peachy?
EYE COLOR: hazel
PIERCINGS: my ears
TATTOOS: nahh

r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: my bat mitzvah pants
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: until the day i die - story of the year
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: nada
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: cold :-/
HOW ARE YOU?: i heart derek, other then that ehh

d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: not really...except in hospital elevators
HAVE A BAD HABIT?:yahh
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: most of the time

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: any day now
CONDITIONER: herbal essences
BOOK: frank mccourt (im in the process of reading it)
MAGAZINE: cosmopolitan
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: ice tea
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: skyy vodka and cranberry juice/mikes
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: parties,concerts,hang out with my friends
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: ummm lets say smile empty soul

h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: yeah
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: nope
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yeah
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: yeah i have
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yes, i have
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: nope, can't say i have
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: she knew, but yeah
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: nope i haven't
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: lol deff
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yeah, 8th grade was the last one
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: of course

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: single...but i hope not to be soon cause he's amazing <3
GIRLFRIEND: never, im sorry
SEXUALITY: hetero baby
CHILDREN: i wanna adopt 2
CURRENT CRUSH: derek
BEEN IN LOVE?: yeah, and my heart was broken when he moved to florida :(
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: i miss joey <3
BEEN HURT?: yeah, i have plenty of times
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: going out with mafia man
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: umm no
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: no, but i need one...you have one for me?
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: my mixtape of greenday,yellowcard,creed and hoobastank
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: black, definitly black
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: being with my friends
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: derek
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: im not sure
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: honest caring people
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: go to concerts

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: the other day
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: i dont remember
YOU GOT E-MAIL: yesterday
THING YOU PURCHASED: cake batter and crunch bar ice cream from coldstone
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: jerry springer
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: uhhh i dont remember

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: i dont really agree, but im kinda pro-choice
TEENAGE SMOKING: i haven't had a cigarette in 3 weeks, are you proud?
SPICE GIRLS: they were amazing
DREAMS: i have WEIRD ass dreams

i talked to derek today on the phone for a while and he played guitar for me and he called me to say goodnight. he is amazing. we decided today that hoobastank the reason is our song

dmbmustang8766: i love u 2 babi
->aw i definitly love this kid :)

i heart derek
i miss joey so much
i love ~~bacci~~

6 .from you. | .to me.

:: 2004 30 March :: 8.25pm

im blank
clean and empty.
vacant and unjaded.
all this life around me
contained segrigated
meant for all and not for me
wont you hold me in the moonlight
wont you kiss me under the stars
but you dont know me
i am new
i am empty...
i am hollow
look right through me
look right through
please dont bother to explain
your silence says enough
your lies have binded me
and i am nothing
turn me over
start a new
no one knows me
just a girl behind a mask
a life behind the lies
but you wont see me
i am new
i am empty...
i am hollow
look right through me
look right through

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wont you touch me like you did before
and feel these lips of mine
touch them like you mean it
and hold me like you never want to let go
you touch me and i shiver
my skin once cold feels so warm
i am warm when i am with you
when i touch you
when i see you
when i kiss you
all is calm and my heart feels on wings
i take flight in my mind
i just want to feel beautiful
i just wish i was needed
couldnt you want me
is it too much to ask
i stare at this empty reflection
nothing but an echo in need of improvement
screaming for a change
wont you sink the teeth of time into me
cling on for all i am
suck the life from these veins
i wish to be gone from here
i wish to say goodbye
and feel you kiss one last time
touch your hand like ill never let go
lost in spirit but never in mind
in my dreams nothing can be wrong
so ill dream away...
and sleep for eternity
that way ill never let go of that simple rock
pulling me below
the depth of the ocean the height of the waves crashing upon fragile bones
i am everything i never wished to be
you will forever be the everything who never gave a damn
the only thing i couldnt have
the flawless imperfection
the freckle on your cheek
wont you touch me like you did before
and feel these lips of mine
touch them like you mean it
and hold me like you never want to let go
i just want to feel beautiful...

1 .from you. | .to me.

:: 2004 29 March :: 8.29pm

my hands touch yours
and your body is such a sweet embrace
the sun flashing vivildly over golden strands
yoru a touch of heaven
a taste of grace
a void in my heart
no boy could replace
and my heart it burns
and my arms they yearn for your love
your touch
your body next to mine
and with each kiss i grow more aware
that these lips are toxic
each touch is pain
but i dont care
because each whisper from your pink lips
falls upon me like petal
silk upon my skin
but dont stop.. cause no1 hurts me like you do

(chorus)
come on abuse me more i like it
these sins feel like pleasure
and its floating me away
intoxicating my emotions
you blininding my fears
theres no one who can hurt me like you
and thats the way it has to be

i dont want nobody elses kisses
all the others are the same
without the bitter and the sour
the sweet tastes old and plain
my heart grows even stronger
every time you push away
speaking silver plated lies
each time you speak my name
spill my heart upon this table
this hidden love for you
touch me sweetly hold me gently
then ease me into pain
you hurt me with each word
but dont stop.. cause no1 hurts me like you do

(chorus)

(bridge)
when we kiss,
when we touch
can you feel, my hearts crushed
when we talk
when we love
can you feel, its so much
can you tell me
just liek this
is it heaven, or pure bliss
am i here, forver more
hold me baby and abuse me more...

so when i close my eyes
and fall asleep
will you watch me as i begin to weep
take my cold pale hand
and hold it next to yours
i wont give up your love
i am not unsure
and in this sunset
i look at you
all thats beautiful
all thats true
behind these smiles
behind the lies
and all these broken
allibies...
i cant stop
this pain i feel
may not be love,
but it feels so real
nobody hurts my heart worse than you
i take the pain and tortue... cuz i love you

cocopuff

:: 2004 28 March :: 9.51pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: 504 Boyz-"I Can Tell"

hi
well i just wanted to write in here cuz im really bored... yea soo hello

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:: 2004 28 March :: 8.26pm

We gave it our best try
But then it was goodbye
We were better off alone
But now that's all gone for you
And life is wrong for you
But I can't help that

You don't need love
It's a question of obsession
So drawn to your own reflection
You want someone
Like a personal possession
To shine light on your perfection

Call me up a thousand times
You're hanging on the line
Waiting for me to react
But we've been here before
And when I closed the door
I never wanted a second act

I saw it all clearly
But you didn't hear me
Thought our love was centre stage
But now that's all gone for us
And you are dangerous
And I can't help that

Gave my heart a thousand times
And I can't count the nights
That I cried myself to sleep
But now I'm so over you
And I see what you do
Your sincerity's kinda cheap

Remember the mind games
Driving me insane
When my life was not my own
And even though you have gone
It still carries on
And I can't stop it

You don't need love
It's a question of obsession
So drawn to your own reflection
You want someone
Like a personal possession
To shine light on your perfection

-obsession - kylie Minogue

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me time :-)

im walking away
from all that i had
im leaving today
please dont be sad

just know im happy
in my new home
and if you think about me
then your never alone

if im gone
will my presence linger
will you hold me
will i still be wrapped around your finger

will you hold me
the way you did
or will i be gone
oh god forbid

cuz i am leaving
be glad im saying goodbye
im walking out that door
please dont start to cry

fore, if i see your face
a glowing blue
i will fall because
i still love you

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:: 2004 28 March :: 1.02pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: i hate everything about you- 3 days grace

Name:: Marissa
Nicknames?:: riss,rissa,mariss,riss-ma,lil pisster,pissa
Age:: 15
Birthday:: november 16
Where you living?:: new york
Height:: 4'10"
Weight:: ummmmm
Favorite Clothes:: jeans and a tshirt
Favorite Shoes:: etnies
Hair Color:: brown with blonde highlights
Eye Color:: hazel
Glasses?:: nah
Braces?:: nope
Piercings?:: in my ears
Tattoos?:: nopes
Choose or Lose
Morrissey or Marr?:: morrissey
Wendy's, Burger King or McDonalds?: wendys
New York or Los Angeles?: los angeles
Paper or Plastic?: plastic
1980s or 1990s?: 90's
Fruit or Veggies?: fruit
rock or rap?: rock
sun or moon?: moon
winter break, summer break or spring break?: spring break
Kerry or Bush?: kerry
good or bad?: bad
Now a bunch of giggling 10 year old girls run in
gay straight or what?: straight
describe who you want to be in a relationship with: derek<3
Describe your last ex: ummm flamer.
Now you name some favorites
Movie: schindlers list,gothika,jack,jawbreaker,shallow hal
Song: maroon5-this love
Band: korn,maroon5,something corporate,killswitch engage
TV Show: 7th heaven,any day now,everwood
Fast Food Place: wendys
Class at School or activity at work: activity at work
Cereal: cinnamon life
Now I ask you about ur friends: funny,nice,fun to be around
Whos your best friend?: sammi and jaymes
Name the first thing that comes to your mind when u hear...
dog: barking
trees: tall
dishes: dirty
Linkin Park: numb
Adobe: huh?
Paul McCartney: idk!
Hawaii: hot
Supply and Demand: toys?
Savings and Loan: moneyyyy
sex: guys
snow: white
past: is gone
regret: everything i've done
Mexico: pretty
drill: saw?

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2 .from you. | .to me.

:: 2004 27 March :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: ace of base - its a beautiful life

fun with the boys and then the girls
soo last night was aright. i went to dance then came home and took a shower and then brian,joelle,and eric came over and we chilled in my house for a little then they decided to go to taco bell so joelle drove us and then i went back home and i got a call from kristi and her,leslie,and paris came over and then we drank. it was fun, i lovvvvvve the boces girls sooo fucking much :)

well, saturday was shit - went to charlie browns for dinner then got some coldstone. took some things to the new apartment.

i ~~heart~~ you od

xonixieox

:: 2004 27 March :: 12.42pm
:: Mood: sad

ok so im at my grandmas house for the weekend because my mom and dad away... thank god!! but today me and traci we supposed to do something but she is apparently doing something with jess so w.e i fucking dont care anymore! so im gunna call christina and amanda in a lil while to see if we are still chillin tonight! they are the best anyways, i love them so much! i havnt seen christina in like forever!!

well yesterday was... interesting!

so 1st period me amanda and traci dont go to 1st period, but we sit in the caf and wait for lizzy... when some fucking bitch teacher is like where are you supposed to be! we were like study so she was like "good i will escort you down there" so in our way down to "study" traci is like what day is it guys? we all act stupid and this fucking bitch brings us down to ms. bertucci's office! amanda was like well i have geometry and i sed me 2! She was like we needed to get some work done so we wouldnt get in trouble! so ms Bertucci gave us passes and we didnt even get in trouble! it was fucking awesome!!! lol...........

then me and meg skipped real study with Krista, and went into the bathroom! they had a ciggarete and i was good so i just sat there, and i was facing the other way and a fucking teacher walked in! it was so bad she was like i smell something funny in here! i jumped so high... and then she thought i was smoking!!! hahahahahahahahahha

i T w A s F u C k I n G h I l A r I o U s!!!!

<3 NikkiE

loserxdork

:: 2004 26 March :: 12.02pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: some airforce movie or something

im in school right now in the science room and my science teacher and charlie are in here. charlie is watching some airforce movie...heh. todays friday i have dance and then i dont know what else..hopefully something good

i have to start painting my new room and move in my shit

i love you all :)

6 .from you. | .to me.

:: 2004 24 March :: 9.34pm
:: Music: story of the year

my grandma is leaving the hospital tomorrow morning and then going into rehab.

15 .from you. | .to me.

:: 2004 24 March :: 9.06pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: alanis morrissete - what if gd was one of us?

just a slob like one of us...
haven't updated in a while. my school had gym today LOL we only have 3 days of gym in my school. today we went out into the woods and we did 'project adventure' type things...it sucked soo bad. we stood on a log and i stood in between spencer and kevin and i swear kevin almost made me fall like 30 billion times..LOL we did some like big see-saw balancing shit, lol. ummm idk we're going out to climb the wall and do the high ropes (neither of which im doing) im not sure when. i have to hand in my economics project tomorrow. HOPEFULLY denise finished the poster part of it. if not im FUCKED bill will shoot me well, i hope all of you have a good weekend.

i ~~hate~~ love you <3

cocopuff

:: 2004 24 March :: 4.12pm
:: Music: Joe- "More and More"

SEX!!!!!!!!
I crave it!!! i want it!! i need it!!!!! im going crazy!LOl i want sex!!! lol mayb it jsut the song... ut i really want sex!!

lol well today was a half day... and if ur wonderign y i am home soo ear;y its cuz i have a gay ass dentist opp. today at 4:30... yea but ne way.... i went wiht like 30000000 ppl to go watch a fight that never happend.... it amkesm em mad that it didn't happen.... then after that everyone kinda split off ito groups.... lol and then it was me kelc manda and jess.... hehehehe we had fun... ya soo thats my day.... fun huh!?

Damn fight should have happend!!

off to get ready for the dentist:(