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2004 12 January :: 6.30pm
:: Mood: hahahhaha
i did it i did it i did it i did it i did it i did it i did it i did it ..... haha lizzy you would be so fucen proud!! i love you jessie, meg, kelsey, and katie!!!
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2004 12 January :: 6.27pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: um..... dunno wut its called!
best friends!
tears run down my cheek
the anger in my eyes
i thought it was forever
till' the end of time
what was it that happened?
why'd u have to change?
now nothing will ever be the same!
Tingle through my fist
the pain in my heart
i thought it was forever
till' the end of time
what was it that happened?
why'd u have to change?
now nothing will ever be the same!
butterflies in my stomache
the pain that filled my soul
i thought it was forever
till' the end of time
what was it that happened?
why'd u have to change?
now nothing will ever be the same!
true bestfriends.... together till the end?.....
...... not this time!
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2004 12 January :: 4.19pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: killswitch engage
ok so today was a normal erock day, nothing special. shawn (my moms boyfriend) picked me up from school and got me mcdonalds. my mom called me while i was eating with shawn and told me about what she found out about school. my school starts at 8:00 and we get out at 2:05, thats 45 minutes earlier than i get out in east rockaway, COOL! well, i dont know what else to say. today i have a therapy appointment and then im going school shopping for supplies and then bjs and then pc richards with my mom and shawn. soon im going to get clothes for school, leave some comments and tell me where i should go school shopping. ughhh im bored and im waiting for my mommy to come home so i can look this fuckin italian regents book over which i have to take at the end of january, UGHHHH :( blah
i.heart.you.very.muchly.timothy.odonnell.<3
[[ ...*theres no one left thats real*... ]]
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2004 11 January :: 10.11pm
You're Most Like The Season Summer ...
Whoa.... Passionate eh ?? Typically you're a fiery,
zesty dominant person. As the hottest season,
you certainly ooze Sex appeal. You have
confidence which draws people to you, and you
have the makings of a good leader.
However sometimes your exterior is stronger then
you are and so you scare people off before they
can get close.
Well done... You're the most memorable of seasons
:)
?? Which Season Are You ??
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2004 11 January :: 9.32pm
:: Music: Ying Yang Twings-"Say I Yi Yi"
LaLaLaLa
i havent written in her for a few so let me catch u up.... hmmmmm NOTHING is new lol im a boring person... well tomorrow is a half a day and Brittany, Manda, Kelsey, and I are goign tanning!!!! lol then i think back to britts house for some hot lesban actin(j/k if u didn't know) and then idk what!
VERY GOOD SONG!!
Deep Blue Something
Breakfast At Tiffany's
You say... that we've got nothing in common...
No common ground to start from..
And we're falling apart....
You'll say.... the world has come between us
Our lives have come between us
But I know that you just don't care..
And I said what about, breakfast at tiffany's
She said: I think I, remember the film
and as I recall, I think we, both kinda liked it
And I said , "well, that's the one thing we've got
I see you.... the only one who knew me
and now your eyes see through me
I guess I was wrong ...
So what now.. It's plain to see we're over
And I hate when things are over..
When so much is left undone
And I said what about, breakfast at tiffany's
She said: I think I, remember the film
and as I recall, I think we, both kinda liked it
And I said , "well, that's the one thing we've got
You say... that we've got nothing in common...
No common ground to start from..
And we're falling apart....
You'll say.... the world has come between us
Our lives have come between us
But I know that you just don't care..
And I said what about, breakfast at tiffany's
She said: I think I, remember the film
and as I recall, I think we, both kinda liked it
And I said , "well, that's the one thing we've got
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2004 11 January :: 9.55am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: none at the time!!
Manda sent me this!!!!!
burning with ecstacy
welts upon my skin
droplets of sweat
rolling down rouged cheeks
this immortal glow
it lasts forever
like a ray of light
glimmering across the sea
emblazoned visions
passing through my thoughts
unsure emotions
but this burning ecsacy.. this i feel
you touch my skin
and my world falls to darkness
once ive pushed the rock uphill
you roll it back down
once i reach the grapes
and cup my hand to drink teh water
you take it away
pull it away
taunting me
but with you i cant dissmiss it
i can and will be submissive
tranquil, captivated by you
unsure emotions
but this...
this burning ecstacy i feel
Its really really good!!!
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2004 10 January :: 9.58pm
:: Mood: blah!
:: Music: MILKSHAKE!!
im listening to milkshake.... the best song ever!!
Manda thank you so much for all the help!! i love you forever babe!
jessie some people can be so damn jealous lol!
i was thinkin about us!! we used to be the best of friends... but now what... nothin! nothin is what!! i never see you... i never talk to you... but i cant stop thinkin about you... about that year... about school... about after school.... and about when we were together! all the time....................
http://phosphorus.subprofile.com/v.php?id=102103&nick=%n
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2004 10 January :: 8.55pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: suga suga
i am soooooo fuckin tired!! omg i love lizzy! she is so cute!
haha i saw a certain person at the Basketball game tonight but i just looked at him! (lizzy knows who im talkin about(cock))
hahahahaha
i havnt slept for like 3 nights... i dont know why.... i just cant sleep! but im gunna go try to sleep even tho its only 9 and i still needa watch the football game!!! i have some stupid shit thing i gotta go to in the morn. w/ my mom so whatever...
the basket ball game was.... INTERESTING!!!
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2004 10 January :: 5.15pm
:: Mood: anxious!
:: Music: um... none!
alrighty.... this thing is confusing!!
today is alreaddy an interesting day!! im so bored... but for some reason i am nervous. im going to the game with Kate-lyn and traci! suprising huh?
i realized that my friends are the only people who make me happy!!!
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2004 9 January :: 10.50pm
:: Mood: Fucked Up
:: Music: seans voice
the sadness the night brings
intolerable
you are intolerable
i cant take you, undertsna dyou
adn u wont let me fucking in
i dont knwow hat the hell im doing wrong
but i met you and i need you
and iw ant to a;ways hear you
your voice makes me calm and u actually make me happy
and its intolerable
inconceivable
i just cant imagine what pain this could envoake
and i keep bringthing these evils back to haunt me
but you , u seem different
ur what ive come to need
and whast ive come to feed
and what i come to for life
and in u i find my sancuary
my peace
and u in you i find myself
just dont let me go...
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2004 9 January :: 3.43pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: thank you - lil bow wow
and the oscar goes to...
well things havent gotten too much better in teh past couple days
dont think im psycho or anything like that but recently suicide has seemed liek a pretty good idea... these people i am acociated make me feel like shit and i cant stand it any more. ive fucking dealt with it for years and its really building up now to the point that i feel as if i am going to explode with anger and passion and upset and PISSED OFFness argg i just wanna stab a couple ppl >:o every person who makes fun of me or calls me names or whoever makes fun of my poetry or copys my tests or anything to bring me down i hate you./. and u dont deserve to be in my presence. i am a great person and you for your shallow veiws should be the ones put to death.
it is insane to call me crazy.. and expect any1 to believe you. i am a very level headed girl with ambitions and views just as everyone else normal in this world.. but who wants to be normal i want to stick out in a crowd, im teh type of girl with teh attitude who needs to be noticed. im teh type of girl always looking for recognition. constantly looking to see if i fit in. when in reality i dont want to be like everyone else. i just want to be liked. by ppl i like. but i shouldnt waste my time...
ands with guys ah ppl tell me to move on tehres other fish in teh sea. but thats not the way i want it to be with me i am a girl who sticks to my beliefs trying my hardest not to veer towards hipocracy. i knwo im not perfect, and id never claim to be. i am not infallible, and i am not impune. but i just wish to stick out..to be liked.. to be with some1. for some1 to genuwinly care about me...
but i guess those wishes are way out of line. my heart has hopes as welll... and i need to fulfill many things... i guess maybe if i was good looking id have more friends, in this shallow damned world. well, were all going to hell for our sins... every1 who has hurt me, will pay for it...im just not going to stoop to their level.. i wont be as bad as them.. i will control myself becuz i have more respect for myself. and i will not limit myself to selfish games.
well.. all in all... just shut ur mouths if u talk about me. becuz its so stupid...you are ownly making yourself feel better... u as a person are crying inside... so u feel that every1 should feel just as bad as u are.. whenevery1 is only here to help u...
--write back later..
-manda
pick up the knife get up the courage
your stupid.. just get up and do it
why cant i press down this blade
why dont i end my life?
cant take the names they call me
why wont these tears stop pouring our of blackened eyes
they dont stop and i cant atke ti anymore
nothing goes my way
i guess theyd call me selfish
but i dont care
life is mine for the taking
and now i shall take my life
and all this blood shed on me,
soon washed away by tears
my life as fragile as a rose
i hold within my palm
each petal slowly falling
until my day has come
im going someday eventually
why wont they take me now?
ill escape into teh sunset
and leave all my problems
and finally be happy...
just let me be happy...
just let me go...
just let me bleed
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this life is mezmorizing
terrorizing.. oh what beauty
they come to me to help them
cant they see that im bleeding?
the wounded can heal pain in others not themselves
and i am not alone, i hope that i can say
but ignorance just holds me
in its cradle on the brink
i use this artificial love to hold me in your arms
and keep this smile on this crying face
i could cry a river of tears and they couldnt care to notice
i live in this world of fake emotions and fake love
eveyrhting has failed me
i have succeedded to fail myself...
theres no1 to put my faith into
nothing that wont leave me
using this drug as my medicine
it dulls and numbs the pain
ina worlf of fantasy
where all is full of laughter and
u never shed a tear
and i cant wait to get back to this safe haven
which rescues me from home..
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2004 8 January :: 9.51pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: more to life- stacie orrico
aright yesterday was fun. i hung out with joe, who is as cool as fuck! i went on my pace interview and they seemed like they liked me. anywayyyyy today i went to school and came home, didnt do anything special. later my mom took me out to dinner with shawn and we went to outback and i got cheese fries :-P wellllll earlier today my mom told me that i got accepted, im sooo excited that i get to leave east rockaway feb. 2..blehh im really excited but alittle mad because in pace they dont have italian so i have to take the italian regents and im gonna fail , im SO not prepared :( a lot of bullshit is going on my life and i honeslty cant deal with it but whatever. joe is sweet as pie and would be REALLY good boyfriend material but he doesnt want a girlfriend, well see what happens. well, i dont give a fuck about any of this crap anymore. all i know is that everyone in erock needs to go kill themselves and then i would be really happy.
Your Opinion On
Cherries: cherries are yummy and fun to eat
Abortion: personally i think its disgusting...
Saddam Hussein: needs to die
Beaches: i work at the beach and i dont like them cuz i look bad in a bathing suit
Matchbox 20: dont listen to them
Labels: need to be stopped. there just so fucking stupid
Love: i wish i was in love
Family: i wish my family cared alil more
Hate: is a strong word...
Life: i hate mine, can i have a new one?
Toe Socks: can get really annoying
Moving: not fun
Winter: i hate winter
Grades: are really important to get into a good college
What Does This Word Make You Think Of?
radio: music
roller coaster: scary
sunflower: yellow
soda: diet coke
shaving cream: shaving my legs
nude: mmmm
socks: white.. ?!
the number twenty four: legal!!!!
v.i.p.: important, oh
prison: bad people
keyboard: letters
blow: a cock...
suck: a penis
whine: babies
i.heart.you.timothy.odonnell.<3
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2004 8 January :: 4.12pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: Afi-
Fuck off!!
u know some people are really gay...... and if iv said it once i have said it 3000000000000 ect times... i hte ppl who make fun of other people... shit jsut grow up!!! do u have ne clue of how strong ur words really are!? they hurt more then u know!!! and not jsut me but my friedns to...a nd when u hurt my friend ur hurt me!! i love my friend more then nethingand all i ahve to say is if u don't liek me or my friends then ur not worht the WASTE of time it takes to fight with u... go ahead don't like me... u really think i give a fuck!? obv ur retated to not liek my friends because all my freinds aer awesome ppl...and if u don't like me chances are i don't like u either so i really don't give a fuck..... but when my friends are hurt soo bad by ur word that they are cryign thats when u need to got he fuck away and stay the fuck away!! u lost all my respect and any feels if i even had ne towards u..... sooo take all ur pussy over used comments that u think ppl care abotu ans stuff then up ur ass!!!!! i jsut don't give a fuck.... and don't try to tell me ur sry when everyword u said abotu me u ment... im not having that either.... if u don't like me and my friend u don't knwo us...a nd if u do know us and at one point we were friends and now ur tryign to say shit.... well fuck u everthign u say about us u do the same!!! hypacrits PISS ME OFF!!! fuck u don't call me a bitch if u r 2! don't call me a slut when u urslef is a slut or a man whore!!!! so fuck u!! go away i don't care about u and i don't care if u hate me, and if u hate my friends and ur mean to then u have a problem wiht me!! freidns are family!! and ill do nehtign for my family and u better watch the fuck out cuz im not even fuckin kiddind ne more!!! u pppl and all ur bull shit have pushed me to the edge buy making my frined soo sad!!! fuck u i don't care.... u hate me that mean i don't give a fuck if u die!!soo shut ur mouth and try to go b cool and talk shit to ppl who care what u have to say cuz me and my friends don't!!! so u bounce!!
MUCH FUCKIN LOVE TO ALL MY SLUTS THAT GET BITCHED AT FOR BEING SLUTS WHEN THE GUYS DO THE SAME!!!!!! BITCHES I LOVE U!!!!
<3 THE #1 SLUT!!!!!
now fuck off....
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2004 6 January :: 6.03pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: ozzy osbourne
okkkk so today was fine. i woke up at 6 took a shower,did my hair,and woke amy up (she slept over my house) then i went to school and whatnot. during lunch my mommy picked me up and got me wendys and then she sent me back to school (oh what fun!) well whatever, anyway after school my mom picked me up and then we came home and i decided that i wanted to get my new nextel. ack soo we wait alittle or whatever and i went on the computer and then we left and i got the new i730 nextel. bleh its such a hot phone! tomorrow im only going to 1-4 and my moms picking me up 5th period because im going to pace for that interview or w/e. well, that should be fun, ACK my mom is sleeping in the city friday & saturday and coming home sunday night. me and amy have the house ALL TO OURSELVES. boy do i love my life. well, sometimes, haha........
My life is rated NC-17.
What is your life rated?
[[haha amy look, my life is rated nc-17 too]]
i.heart.you.muchly.timothy.odonnell.<3
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