xpiratepunkx's Journal

:: 2006 1 April :: 12.53pm

isnt it the greatest fucking feeling when you realize you have no fucking friends at all, your boyfriend is a jerk ,and all you wanna do is fukcing go fucking shoot yourself in the head but you dont have the guts and you have to work at 5

yeah fucking great. go to fucking hell. i swear all of you.

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:: 2006 30 March :: 11.17pm

thank you to everyone who said i did good at the talent show. shannon said i missed 3rd place by like 3 points so that kinda sucks but oh well..

"I was hungry! Where's my dinner?!" lol..

and La Cookaratcha La cookatratcha.... lol

but i got to hang out with roman all night and he came to the show and it was fun and i just miss him. ugh i just hate like not seeing him more than once every other week. RAR.

but yeah, i'm glad i did it because it just makes one feel accomplished and whatnot. so... yup.

omg and roman was driving me home tonight and there was this bright light and i swear.. we were the only ones driving ... it was up in the sky this bright circular light just following us everywhere we drove... even when we turned on my road it was still following us. i was so scared i was like screaming and roman was freaking out to lol all while keeping his 'manly' stature of course. Only when we turned into my driveway did it go away and i think it's only because of that bright light we have up my driveway.. I duno, but it was like the first time I actually thought I believed there was like a ghost or something. AHH freaky! Seriously!

Oh and ONE more thing. that GIRL -*ahem, ahem ahem* Jess and Lindsey know who I'm talking about- has got the biggest head and today I just told her to shut up. Not really but in a nicer way . Like seriously, what the flip. UGH! I hate people like that. Shut up. You're not as cute as you seem to think you are.

-Jess

:: 2006 30 March :: 7.13am

ahhhhhhhhh i'm scared.

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:: 2006 29 March :: 10.18am

oh and seriously... when did 3rd marking period end? hey, dont get me wrong i'm GLAD it did... but i was completely unaware of it. YEAH for your information, I REALLY WAS. jeez you coniving b8****88*8888*.

:: 2006 29 March :: 10.10am

omg what a humongous b itch. seriously! i hate when you ask someone a question... i didn't aruge or complain or anything. just asking an effing question and she acts like i'm the hugest idiot in the world

I SWEAR TO GOD I F UCKING HATE SCHOOL SO MUCH ... I WOULD SAY WHAT I WANT TO DO TO IT BUT YOU KNOW.. I'D GET IN TOO MUCH TROUBLE. SCHOOL, YOU CAN SHOVE IT..

SEVERAL ANNOUNCEMENTS MY A$$..............

UGAH;;LKFJA;SLDKFJS;LDKJFLKJASLKJSA;LKFJAS;LK I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I'M DOING IT.

:: 2006 26 March :: 6.17pm

sooooo maybe i'll go back to sleep for the 3rd time today since my life is so effing pathetic.

and boring.

and .

ugh fuck you seriously. fuck you and how much you unappreciate everything you have . you fucking whore.

:: 2006 23 March :: 10.19pm

I've been gone for far too long, I want to come home
Well, to put it lightly, I haven't felt this dejected, irascible, neurotic, and disoriented in so long. Honestly.

I have decided I am going to play piano in the talent show. Please don't laugh at me.

I feel like since I hate and have hated high school so much that this will be a good way to end it. It might and hopefully will be a "happy" memory to leave school with. I guess.

And I don't know I just feel like my body is in 12 different places at once. I'm not all here and I can't stop biting my nails which I know is just gross and that is so not like me and when I develop a new bad habit, I know something is really wrong with me.

I feel so full like I need to pour everything out. I thought I did last night with that little breakdown but I guess I just filled right up again. In the worst way.

I guess that's it.
Jess.

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:: 2006 23 March :: 3.53pm

So...

I have an interview at Menard's tomorrow... (like I need another job, or another new one for that matter..)
I don't know what I'm doing in my life...

I'm doing this thing that I don't want to do at all.

Yeah, what's new.

:: 2006 20 March :: 7.16pm

oh. one more thing. I miss my friends.

and am I ugly?

:: 2006 20 March :: 7.14pm

okay so well 2 more pages to go.....

ugh! suck me english paper! go to hell!

:: 2006 20 March :: 2.40pm

Nobody get too close to me...

I might taint you with my unholiness!

:: 2006 20 March :: 1.54pm

can you believe i'm honestly STILL procrastinating to start writing this paper and it was DUE TODAY?!?! .....

so yeah... maybe i'll start it sometime today...

:: 2006 18 March :: 10.39pm

and well blah blah blah and then she was dead.

ughghghgh the end.

Oh! But I see Roman tomorrow.... thumbs up! way up.

:: 2006 17 March :: 2.34pm

uggggggggggggh.

:: 2006 16 March :: 2.19pm

I've kissed...
01. [x] on the cheek.
02. [x] on the lips.
03. [x] on their hands or fingers.
04. [x] in my room.
05. [x] in their room.
06. [x] of the opposite sex.
07. [ ] of the same sex.
08. [x] a little younger than me.
09. [x] a little older than me.
10. [x] with black hair.
11. [X]with curly hair.
12. [ ] blonde hair and blue eyes.
13. [ ] with red hair.
14. [x] with straight hair.
15. [ ] shorter than me.
16. [ ] with a lip ring.
17. [x] who i truly love/loved
18. [x] who was drunk.
19. [ ] who was high....
20. [x] in the morning.
21. [x] right after waking up.
22. [x] just before bed.
23. [x] late at night.
24. [ ] who i had just met
25. [x] who I really didn't want to kiss.
26. [x] just talking not dating.
27. [x] on a bed.
28. [ ] in a graveyard.
29. [x] at school.
30. [x] against a wall
31. [x] at a show. (what kind of show?)
32. [x] at the beach.
33. [ ] at a concert. .. well kind of
34. [x] in a pool.
35. [x] who was/is a good friend.
36. [x] in the rain.
37. [x] with a mole on their body
38. [x] in the shower
39. [x] in a car/taxi/bus.
40. [x] in the movies.
41. [x] in a bathroom/laundry room
42. [x] in the dark.
43. [ ] on a roof top.
44. [x] under water
45. [x] while driving
46. [ ] a stranger
47. [ ] more than one person at once
48. [x] crying
49. [ ] goodbye forever
50. [x] when i was drunk.
51. [ ] who didn't speak english
52. [ ] in a hot tub
53. [X] in an elevator
54. [ ] an ex
55. [ ] last night.
56. [ ] Just today.

wellll good.