xpiratepunkx's Journal

:: 2005 3 November :: 10.11pm
:: Mood: tiredish.

mmmmrrrrehhhhhhhh
baby doesn't get out of work until 2 which means i am sitting here doing nothing.

i finally joined the world and got a cell phone. hoooooooray~!

i got to work today yay so i got some money. i kept making good tips i was so happy.
i think i did really good on my chem test yesterday which makes me so happy.

i love roman and jess and thats about it frankly.

i couldn't stop thinking about your stupid ass today. not your butt. but you. because you are a butt and i dont know why you kept popping in my head but get out you stupid stupid nasty disgusting girl. go away.

i'm watching south park.
andndndnndndnd i'm finally seeing roman on saturday

Will anyone watch Elvis, my kitty, over Christmas break? Please. he needs a babysitter.

:: 2005 30 October :: 10.41pm
:: Music: Ben to the Folds

"i wish it was last september where we could lose ourselves in clouds everyday"

no i dont!

" 'If you really loved me,' she said. "I wouldn't have to be so mean.' He likes to remember when. Such a shame to ruin this bright, lazy, sunny day. The cruelest lies are often told without a word. The kindest truths are often spoke and never heard. She said 'You've been pushing me like I was a sore tooth. You can't respect me but I've done so much for you.' And he said 'Well I hate that's it come to this. But baby I was doing fine. How do you think that I survived the other 25 before you?' The end is growing near. And we're treading water now and holding back our tears..."

I am unprepared and I just want a break. I don't know what I can do or how I will do it. I am so scared and worried.

I'm waiting up for you again, though.

TOTALLY UNRELATED: I had a lot of fun with Stef. She has an awesome apartment and a great catch of a guy. I hope they get married soon. I love Ben Folds and I hope that me and Stef hang out again soon because that was fun and we could party.

I want to just go away. But with you.
ABABABABLK Dont you hate when people just stop talking to you online...? :0( I do.
Also, a mullet-lady made me cry at work yesterday. Bitch.

Went to Roman's today. It was a perfect and beautiful sunny day. I love him.

But somebody help me straighten out some things please.
With a little Love ,
Jess

:: 2005 27 October :: 10.16pm

im gonna fucking throw up. i am freaking out so bad. so fucking bad. its not even fucking fair.

(ONE)

:: 2005 27 October :: 9.46pm

i totally forgot to mention- i'm going to see the best fucking entertainer tomorrow night.
ben folds here i come

for the THIRD TIME!! woooooo!

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:: 2005 27 October :: 8.12pm

god i fucking swear i can't wait till i get to move out of here. there's no reason to be here. no fucking point and i can't wait until i'm gone and never see any of you assholes again.

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:: 2005 27 October :: 3.13pm

iugggggggghhhhhh! I hate school and i can't wait to be out of here. people are so ridiculous and i can't deal with them at all anymore. EVER

:: 2005 22 October :: 2.44pm

UGGGGGGGGH

EVERYTHING'S GOING WRONG TODAY!!

WAKE UP!!!

:: 2005 19 October :: 10.03pm

i need you.

i am sad.
:0(

:: 2005 17 October :: 10.25pm

god does anyone know where i can just get a stupid fricken timer that counts down days for you woohu . FOR SOME REASON I'M HAVING WAY TOO MUCH TROUBLE WITH THAT.

fucking STUPID ASS FUCKING DAY.

:: 2005 15 October :: 11.30pm

i feel so ........ like... like a major failure. I guess we did really bad today at the competition and i wasn't even worried about it at all and didn't even care if we got a bad score (that doesn't mean i didn't try though, becuase i did try to do well) but then when i hear we did bad, wow it just makes me feel really bad. i feel like such a failure but hey when don't i ? I really think if i was a neonatel nurse and i help a baby return to health, i will feel realy accomplished. i think it's what i really want.

i hate being left out and i hate not having fun with everyone else. i hate that feeling. andi hate being away from roman when everyone else can just walk down the hall if they want to see him. i have to drive 40 minutes.

i really need to brush my teeth and stop getting fat and eating ice cream.

seriously, when do I get to have some fun? Be crazy? anything....?

oh i almost forgot about the crazy lady and her fricken HOOLA-HOOP rings. which are oinion rings. she orders a full order of rings. then tells me i can send them back to the kitchen and take them off the table and her bill. i ask whats wrong and she yellls about how it's not a "HEAPING PLATTER of HOOLA HOOP rings" and how Jerry wrote her an email about how it's a HEAPING PLATTER and how a basket is NOT a platter. Well guess what lady?! Jerry knows nothing about the food or anything else. And i dont her that. "jerry doesn't know what he's talking about" She was a bitch so i didnd't even care. They left me 2 bucks. Whatever bitches. Who writes a restaraunt a freaking email asking about their oinion rings anyway?! freak. UGH.

I am not in a good mood. I wanna go cry or something. i'm freezing too. time for an electric blanket and some sappy music.

:: 2005 13 October :: 7.04pm

oh my gosh so the one day i'm scheduled during the wekk they send me home and then now i realized i could have gotten to the FAFSA meeting. wow i was actually in a good mood and now. wow. aa;lkfjas;lkf grrrrrrr.

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:: 2005 12 October :: 9.32pm

This entry is not goign to make any sense. but i am going insane. i dont have to prove my love to anyone but roman. and i mean no one else needs to see anything. that's as far as i'm going to get into that. i am going crazy. college i dont even know what i want to do or antyhing anymore. i feel like i've basically been told i should not go into nursing. my brain is so crazy i can't even type a whole sentance without backspacing 8 times. i feel like i'm running around with no stopping. i'm constantly forgetting about things. i feel like the only time i get i need to scoop up for myself. i am broke and i dont know what to do. i need to enroll for college for duel enrolling and i dont know what class to take. i need to take the freakin act's . i need to apply for fafsa.
i have so much to do but i dont know where to begin. i want to just lie down and sleep with you and never get up.
and i can't shake the thought and i want it.

:: 2005 9 October :: 11.10pm

wow what a way to ruin a perfect weekend. thanks a lot guys . Guess the tally is down to one now. Whatever, i'll deal with that.

:: 2005 9 October :: 3.22pm

last night was so fun. the most fun i'd had at a dance. and the before and after of course. i love roman and yay.

:: 2005 4 October :: 8.17pm

i LOVE you roman!