B.a.h.e.b.i.k.

:: 2004 7 April :: 10.07pm
:: Mood: distressed

things are.. wierd lately.. i can't tell if i'm having a good day;; a bad day..? umm..

:: 2004 5 April :: 4.40pm
:: Mood: calm

i was in 7th period, when i really started thinking about all these things that i wanted to talk to jim about, and i figured i might as well just write them down because i would forget what i was thinking about. well, by the end of 8th period i had a 3 page letter to give him. it basicly has what i'm feeling in it, and i'm glad i wrote it all down.. but i don't know if i'm going to give it to him or not. i'll read it over and make sure it doesn't sound to stupid.. but yeah- i think i will give it to him..

got report cards today.
english- 91%
global studies- 76%
history- 57%
science- 79%
algebra- 86%
advanced word processing- 93%
child development- 97%
health- 83%

i brought most of my grades up, 3 went down, but only by a little bit. i did really good except for the history grade, but my mom knows about it already.

:: 2004 28 March :: 9.16pm
:: Mood: coughing and feeling blah

sitting at home, really tired.. i did a lot more than i expected to do today.

my aunt loraine called around 9:20 to see if i wanted to go with her and my gram to a little fashion show in the mall, and at first i really didn't want to go, but i got up and got ready. we left at 10:45, went to exchange a couple things, went to wal*mart, fashion bug [i got a pair of lounging pants, and 2 long sleeved shirts] then we headed off to the little show. we left around 3, then went to sams club to get big lipton tea bags for my uncle, and some chicken for dinner. we all came home, unloaded our bags and my aunt made some of her gooood spaghitti [sp?] and the chicken we bought.. then we all just lounged around and talked. i went out and sat on the porch for a little while, then everyone came out- it was such a nice day today. i guess jim is supposed to come over sometime tonight.. pssh, he pisses me off so bad. i called him around 7:00 and told him that my aunt and i could come pick him up later because she had to take dia home and he lives right down the street from her.. but nooooo- he had to wait til his mom came home. wtf? he has more excuses than people do assholes.

:: 2004 27 March :: 3.57pm
:: Mood: bored

i didn't go to school friday.. first of all we all slept in, and i was coughing/had a fever- so my mom just told me to stay home. i got up around 8:00, then got dressed dropped nichole & i's algebra project off at school, then went to the bar. it's almost done being decorated.. the BAR part is awesome, all decorated and everything, but they're still working on the pool room/dining room part. it's coming together great. can't wait to get pictures of it, i'll post them on here. [that'll probably be around the 14th/15th of april.. thats when the "Grand Opening" is!]

jim stayed last night. for the first time in about a week! grrr. he went home again today. him & his mom are switching rooms for some reason. i don't know- stupid if you ask me. but whatever.

well, it's time to go.

xx.jena

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:: 2004 23 March :: 5.09pm
:: Mood: cranky

its funny how your enemies always seem to turn out to be all your best friends; best friends.

:: 2004 22 March :: 10.39am
:: Mood: tired

i'm in school.

lets see..

my mom bought a bar.

i accidently deleted my internet explorer. so now i can't go on any sites at home.. until i talk to jim and see what he can do. i hope he can fix it.

i have a 90% in english (woohu! thats great!) i brought my health grade up from a 56%, to an 82% (thats even better!) oh yeah. i'm very proud of myself.

i had a bad weekend. :(

i want to eat. my mom gave me $27 for lunch and things. :)

thats all i have to tell.
xx.jena

:: 2004 15 March :: 11.05am
:: Mood: i have a headache

i forgot to tell everyone that jim, his mom & i saw an oscar meyer weiner truck saturday on the way to the hospital!

but anyways, last night jim & i went to my house around 9. we went to sleep at 10-10:30. woke up at 5:50, jim woke up at 6:30. he went to work, i came to school. and here i am now. blah.

our history project didn't get done. miscommunication i guess you could say. but i don't know. i was actually trying in my f-in classes- and now i got a 0/60. hip-hip-horray.

thanks a lot.

anyways in good news, i'm getting my permit soon.. i guess. jim doesn't really want me to get it, and i'm really not in any hurry to get it. my mom wants me to for some reason. but whatever. i'll get it if she wants me to.

i just printed out some pictures for rochelle of a sponge, flatworm, & a jellyfish.

i have to go, periods almost over.

:: 2004 14 March :: 1.17pm
:: Mood: silly

last night jim and i went with his mom. first we went to the permit place for jim, and he needs to get his contacts.. he can't see outta his right eye!

after that we went to fridays to eat, [jim payed for us!] i got chicken alfredo and cheese n' broccolli soup. it was good. jim got a swiss mushroom burger and i don't really know what jim's mom got. some sorta chicken & potatoes. after that we went to target- jim got a game for the computer and some lime tic-tacs for me. his mom got some things to. after that we went to the hobby shop in robinson- jim bought me Smart Mouth. [it's so fun!] and he got a little modle car thingy. i dunno what exactly it is. it's cute though. :) we finially made it to the hospital by 7:00 to see jims brother freddy. he's doing good.

we got home around 12. i actually got to stay at jims house! woohu! so i called my mom and she said it was okay. we all woke up around 9:00, and jim made some breakfast around 11. jims mom left for work around 11:30-12:00? and now we're just waiting for her to go to the mall to get jims contacts, then i don't know if i'm going with them again to see freddy, or if she'll just drop me off at home.

thats all. -yawn-

:: 2004 7 March :: 5.29pm
:: Mood: pissed off

what was supposed to happen this weekend:

friday- i was supposed to go over amys to do our history project.

what actually happened this weekend:

friday- amy went to her grams. so jim and i stayed at my house again.

saturday- i went to jims house to print pictures for our history. and amy was supposed to be home sometime that day. and then she tells me that she can't come home because her gram hurt her knee, her pap was at his sons for the weekend, and her mom wouldn't come get her. so okay.. i was screwed over. so i had to call my mom and have her come get me- which she is so pissed off because she was on her way to pittsburgh for the night.

today- i'm just lounging around the house actually LOOKING for pictures for our history project. jim should be here sometime tonight; he's going to see his brother in the hospital..

yeah, kelly and i are tired of getting fucked over.. huh kelly?

:: 2004 6 March :: 11.38pm
:: Mood: pissed off

you should never cry over spilt milk. unless of course, you are stranded on a deserted island and a magical genie shows up and offers you a lifetime of pleasure, fame, and fortune in exchange for your last glass of milk and you leap with glee and nearly spill your milk, then after you sigh in relief that it hasn't spilled, you step on a clam shell and drop the glass, causing the genie to disappear and leaving you to live out your days on a diet of coconuts and dead seagulls.

:: 2004 1 March :: 7.52pm
:: Mood: worried
:: Music: fingereleven - bones and joints

i actually had a pretty good weekend..

friday- went to jims around 5 or so. his mom got home around 6:30, we watched out cold together, jims mom thought it was so funny.. =D so then a little later we ordered from kuzins- jim & i drove up to get it. we ate then i went up amys around 9:30.

saturday- i woke up around 10:30. didn't get ahold of jim til around 12 or so? i went down his house from about 4 til 8 or something. amy had to go to the hospital to work or whatever. so we just chilled at his house. later that night jim amy & i took a ride out to bentlyville to subway- then we drove around cokeburg til around 10 or so. we had so much fun- haha. that was a good night

sunday- bad day.. huh jim?

:: 2004 25 February :: 11.03am

happy birthday jim, love you so much sweetie! :-D

:: 2004 20 February :: 7.21pm
:: Mood: drained

i'm at jims house right now, i'm going to rochelles later tonight though.

happy birthday amy. love you!

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:: 2004 14 February :: 9.38pm
:: Mood: depressed

my pap died today.

..happy valentines day

:: 2004 12 February :: 8.26pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: finding nemo on dvd

i didn't go to school today, i felt/feel like shit. i stayed up my aunts came down the house around 6:00 a.m. i went back to sleep until 6:30 [i catch the bus at 6:45] and then i woke up and just told me mom that i wanted to stay home. so she let me.. and i didn't do anything all day except go on the computer and eat soup. blah.

my aunt bettys being layed out tonight and tomorrow. my mom wanted me to go tonight- but i told her i didn't want to because i'm sick, and just don't feel like doing anything. so i'm going probably tomorrow night. i don't know, i hate those things.. :(

my paps heart rate was only 27 today.. but my aunt said it goes up and down all the time, but this is the lowest it's ever been. my gram called her son [my uncle dave] he lives in flordia. she told him that he better come up to see him.. which means he's not doing well at all. it's kinda scary to sit and watch him like that, and not be able to do anything. everyones always crying- and so am i. i know everyone has to die sometime, but it's too soon. it's too soon.

i don't think i'm going to go to amys, jims or rochelles this weekend. i don't know yet- i guess i'll see how things go with everything. i don't want to leave my pap right now.

i wish jim was here with me. i need someones shoulder to cry on..