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:: 2016 29 September :: 8.42am

what does the sun keep a' shining
what does the sea rush to shore
don't they know it's the end of the world
it ended when i lost your love

i wake up in the morning and i wonder
why everything's the same as it was
i can't understand no i can't understand
why everything goes on like it does

i just needed it to stop. i'm worth more than to feel like shit all the time.
no matter how shitty being alone was, being hurt by someone who loves you is worse

i really hope you can get better. i shouldn't want to change you, but if you want to be with me you have to hit my bar. harsh maybe but how else will we get what we deserve...

:: 2016 28 September :: 8.48pm

timing is everything and mine is terrible.

:: 2016 28 September :: 7.36pm

breaking up

the worst feeling

anchors pulling at the pit of your stomach

you feel the weight of oblivion dragging you

into the murky impossible depths

your soul a rotting carcass in the mariana trench

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:: 2016 27 September :: 9.40pm

what is real

and just a dream

:: 2016 27 September :: 6.04am

after the shit storm that has been the last few weeks, there is a light on the horizon.

finally finished the office. i've never experienced office life quite like that, but i can relate at least a little. excellent show.

now to finish quantum leap.

:: 2016 24 September :: 12.28am

definitely not getting any sleep tonight

:: 2016 22 September :: 10.12pm

if i close my eyes and imagine laying in my favorite field of clover and sunlight with you, will you ease my pain?

if i hold out my hand in the dark will i find yours there next to me?

i wish i could cuddle with you again, in the early morning hours in your leather chair. could i forget all that's happened since then? can we sit in the golden montana sun and snore our lives away? i miss you so much. i wish i could have hugged you one last time.

why are things always so fucking painful? why are people so terrible? why does everything turn into a burning pile of charred ash and cinder..

i just want to sleep forever. i feel so dead inside.

:: 2016 22 September :: 8.24am
:: Music: FIDLAR bad habits

sometimes i really want to become a drug addict

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:: 2016 22 September :: 6.56am

the sun is no longer up when i go to work :(

:: 2016 21 September :: 9.17pm

a lil drunk

feelin pretty grood

not worried about too much besides my internet being a fucking bastard

y u no netflix & chill, vizio?

going to portugal. the man in november. bought everyone tickets for their birthdays. i love me some scorpios man.

what da fuq for halloween doe.. dayman and nightman? harambe and a banana? the fox and the little princess?

i don't know man. i just don't know.

:: 2016 16 September :: 2.11pm

gotta take a picture.

but first gotta find the damn thing.

still haven't unpacked from my move a year ago.

:: 2016 14 September :: 8.07pm

I don't like the way I'm feeling right now

my stomach sinking

all the blood rushing to my trunk

I just feel so frustrated that you won't talk time about anything.

:: 2016 13 September :: 12.04pm

this dead heart of mine is a heavy burden to carry.

I used to think maybe I wasn't meant to carry it alone

but every day that passes it seems more and more like a fact

I am not made to be happy. I am not made to love.

I am not made for anything. I am a tamed animal that's been left alone to waste away.

this hollowness I feel grows more every day. temporarily am I filled, but only to have it slip out of my cracked base.

i watch the wind through the trees and feel the brisk autumn air against my exposed flesh.

I feel nothing but meaningless inside.

:: 2016 13 September :: 7.52am

disappointment

why can't you be a little more responsible?

or why am I such a responsible old windbag?

:: 2016 8 September :: 10.05pm

I can make it if I tired

I closed my eyes I kept on swimming

:: 2016 5 September :: 11.13pm

splurged on some new clothing today. torrid was having a buy one get one free clearance so I stocked up. a lil reward for paying off my car! I deserve it!

I just hope it all fits. the shitty thing is no returns... but let's be honest I'm too fucking lazy to go into a store.

I have some Blazers that never get worn.. I want to start wearing them more often just because. I'll dress up on Tuesdays, since men have tie Tuesday.

and maybe I'll get some new lipstick too...

:: 2016 31 August :: 9.07pm

maybe I really am just not ready

I fucking hate that motherfucker. I hate who I've become. who he trained me to be. I am so weak. still a slave to those putrid habits.

I am broken indefinitely. with broken strings it's hard to fix oneself.

:: 2016 30 August :: 8.05am

reasons I hate work:

- nothing ever works
- offshore processing
- NOTHING EVER WORKS
- OFFSHORE PROCESSING

:: 2016 28 August :: 10.27am

oh my god I am tired

:: 2016 25 August :: 10.08pm

off to the tri cities for another Mexican birthday celebration and the taco guy

he makes the most delicious tacos, and to watch him prepare them is a treat

camping out in the back yard in a tent

it's going to be how you say

el mejor

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