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2016 22 January :: 8.06pm
hell has no fury as a woman scorned
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2016 18 January :: 8.42am
I wish people cloud hear what they sound like sometimes.
would you tell a burn victim you can't be friends because you find having healthy skin too important?
there are nicer ways to say no.
people are asshats.
fuck Monday's
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godessalthena
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2016 13 January :: 2.10pm
Do you believe in always,the wind
said to the rain
I am too busy with
my flowers to believe,the rain answered
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2016 9 January :: 6.20am
is there a difference between liking something because you're good at it and being good at something because you really enjoy it?
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2016 5 January :: 7.37pm
why I am quiet:
I speak my mind, and everyone systematically tears my idea down.
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2016 5 January :: 1.54pm
still feeling like shit, but made it into work. trying not to escape into work requests and music, because everything else just feels like too much.
things don't go how you want them to. and people keep hounding for things they'll never get. and my patience is wearing thin.
I hate being a woman. I hate society. I hate how we raise our children and I hate how we all feel worthless and powerless and insignificant.
I've lost 20 pounds since I've moved home. I can see it all pretty much left my belly. I don't know if I want to be skinny, but being at 200 pounds would be pretty cool. I guess. I don't fucking know.
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godessalthena
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2016 4 January :: 6.08am
after sweating profusely all night and waking up to more sick, I called out of work today. first day of the new year and I can't make it in.. hopefully the rest of the year won't be this way.
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godessalthena
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2016 3 January :: 9.36am
fuck I'm really fuckin sick. I wish I had drank heavily to deserve this, but I didn't.
fuck
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godessalthena
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2015 31 December :: 6.51am
it's like trying to sleep on Christmas Eve when you still think Santa is real
maybe it's finally my turn
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godessalthena
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2015 30 December :: 7.30pm
today was really quite good. best day I've had in a stretch.
and I am shitting my pants.
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2015 29 December :: 6.58pm
I probably don't say this enough, but my dogs are just the best. I see bjornes paw prints in the snow and I can just imagine him prancing through the snow with my dad, walking up to the garage with his little grin. his adorable butt wiggle for a tail wag. when he smooshes himself into the corner by the hate waiting for me to come home.
I love when I get home and come up the basement steps, and he is up there with his excited face and tail fluttering furiously, and then his twirling happy dance around me as I take off my coat. he really is the sweetest baby boy.
and rika.. well shit she's just adorable. she always snuggles extra close to my hip at bed time. the way her tail wags extra wide when I get home. and all those little sweet kisses. she always is trying to hump bjornes face, and sometimes she does it with a toy in her mouth over his side, and growls up a storm. it's like she's trying to jump over him.
and her little Charlie Chaplin legs. and making her dance. she loves me best, and that just melts my heart and fills it with more joy than words can express.
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side note:
I miss the sun. it's been overcast and snowing for a few weeks now, I've almost forgotten the color of the sky, or the warmth of the sun. I'm not sure how I survived in Seattle. I need the sun!
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godessalthena
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2015 23 December :: 4.38pm
fucksmoke the pain away
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2015 19 December :: 6.49pm
going out with Zoe to boomers for the first time in forever. I'm excited but also anxious. I feel something ominous in the air. I hope I'm just being a weirdo.
I need to be more honest with myself. analyze less, think more.. if that makes sense.
I wonder if I'll ever feel free again.
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2015 17 December :: 8.50pm
what's it feel like to be a ghost?
louder, now, louder now?
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2015 16 December :: 7.58pm
if I could have my way.. oh what things may come.
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2015 6 December :: 12.29am
a very dear friend's best friend committed herself to the great below today..
she's taking it in stride (I think?) but my heart hurts for what she must be feeling inside. that girls life is seriously a shit storm and yet still manages to stay positive and avoid cynicism. I admire her greatly. I wish she didn't live so far away.
it's so mysterious.. the land of tears.
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2015 5 December :: 7.31am
I forgot how beautiful the sunrise is..
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2015 3 December :: 9.48pm
I spend my free time reading the craigslist missed connections. I do it with my demon. he sits next to me and tells me, "you'll be alone forever, no one will ever want such a damaged and cynical fat bitch like you." and as the romantic comedy plays in the background I can hear him laugh at the absurdity.
"love doesn't exist. not for people like you." it's hard to ignore him. it's hard to stay positive and optimistic, when all around me relationships crash and burn. you never really know who you can trust. humans lie, cheat, steal and back stab. we kill each other and hate each other arbitrarily, we hate whole groups of people for imaginary bullshit reasons.
there have been more mass shootings so far this year than days in this country. my aunts both have cancer. I have no future.
i miss sex. I miss enjoying food. I miss sleep.
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2015 3 December :: 9.27pm
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
- John Churton Collins
That though the radiance which was once so bright be now forever taken from my sight. Though nothing can bring back the hour of splendor in the grass, glory in the flower. We will grieve not, rather find strength in what remains behind.
- William Wordsworth
Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap, but by the seeds you plant.
- Robert Louis Stevenson
in what lies our power to do, also lies our power not to do
- Aristotle
We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone.
- Orson Welles
rarely do members of the same family grow up under the same roof
It takes a lot of time to be a genius, you have to sit around so much doing nothing, really doing nothing.
- Gertrude Stein
Nothing is more dangerous than an idea when it's the only one you have.
- Emile Chartier
We open our mouths and out flow words whose ancestries we do not even know. We are walking lexicons. In a single sentence of idle chatter we preserve Latin, Anglo-Saxon, Norse: we carry a museum inside our heads, each day we commemorate peoples of whom we have never heard.
- Penelope Lively
We live in a world in which we need to share responsibility. It's easy to say "It's not my child, not my community, not my world, not my problem." Then there are those who see the need and respond. I consider those people my heroes.
- Fred Rogers
believe nothing that you hear, and only half of what you see
those who see present events as part of an unfolding narrative that relates past to present to future have an advantage over those who see events only as snapshots in time
- Derek Abell
No two persons ever read the same book.
- Edmund Wilson
Neither genius, fame, nor love show the greatness of the soul. Only kindness can do that.
- Jean Baptiste Henri Lacordaire
How simple life becomes when things like mirrors are forgotten.
- Daphne du Maurier,
In the presence of eternity, the mountains are as transient as the clouds.
- Robert Green Ingersoll
The door of a bigoted mind opens outwards so that the only result of the pressure of facts upon it is to close it more snugly.
- Ogden Nash
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2015 2 December :: 4.26pm
nothing tastes good and my tummy always feels like shit.
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