chibikeriana
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2015 25 October :: 7.58pm
i don't even go by keriana anymore...
The other day, a friend and I were showing each other embarrassing journal entries from our past. I dug so deep, I found this journal. I can't even look at the username without cringing anymore. Who was I. Everywhere I look is vague entries and that particular brand of pretension you only get when you're a teenager who feels too many emotions and thinks you are, somehow, the only person who has ever felt those emotions, ever, and therefore you need to find a brand new way to articulate them.
It's so weird. I need to continue my slow process of archiving this journal, but this journal has so many entries and so much history and spans so much -- by the time I was using LJ, I wasn't updating nearly as much as I updated this; these days, I updated my DW maybe a dozen times a year. A part of me really misses that old journaling culture!
And now we have twitter.
Anyway, as horrendously shameful as the contents of this journal are, I'm glad this site has stuck around. They're still memories, even if they're.
Weird.
Thanks, 14 year old me. Thanks.
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I'd love somebody like you..
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littledamion
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2008 30 March :: 10.00pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Goldfrapp *Eat yourself
Zoom zoom zoom
So we've zoomed to the future.
Gosh, I've changed. Not so bitchy and volatile and rambly, I think. I hope.
I just won the Gates Millennium Scholarship. I've been accepted into Saint Mary's of Moraga, Boston University, Boston College, and I'm waiting on Tufts and Harvard.
Things have really changed. I want to lock up this journal, but Woohu doesn't make that easy. I remember when Woohu almost shut down, they offered to print your journal and send you it... that would be nice right now. I want to remember how I've changed, but I don't want these entries to haunt me if and when people I know stumble upon them.
UPDATE: I just went back and turned about a hundred or so entries to "Friends Only"
I'd love somebody like you..
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littledamion
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2006 21 January :: 8.42pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Beyonce *Yes
It goes on.
Life goes well.
How about yours, old friends?
:]
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I'd love somebody like you..
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xThisTimeImperfectx
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2005 11 June :: 8.27am
Fill In The Blanks
I ____ Allison.
Allison is ____.
if I were alone in a room with Allison, I would ____.
I think Allison should _____
Allison needs ____.
Allison will never ____.
I want to _____ Allison.
Allison can ____ my _____.
when I think about Allison, I ____.
Someday Allison will _____.
Allison reminds me of _____.
Without Allison ____.
Memories of Allison are ____.
Allison can be ____.
____ is how I describe meeting Allison.
Worst thing about Allison is ____.
Best thing about Allison is _____.
Allison _____.
If Allison was a flavor of ice cream she would be _____.
Allison is my _____.
I wish Allison would _____.
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xThisTimeImperfectx
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2005 18 May :: 10.28pm
Lalala. So I'm sitting here..straightening my hair. I'm deeply in love with myspace. xD
Hm. Let's see. Soon I'm suppose to be hanging out with Maia. She's really hot. :D
I have absolutly nothing to say
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xThisTimeImperfectx
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2005 14 May :: 10.50am
omg
So last night was DEFINATELY Friday the 13th.
School was fine. After school..
Steph, Chase, Scott, and I walked home from school. We split up by the over pass. Chase and Scott, to scott's house, and Steph and I to the library.
The library was okay. Nothing really happened there. We soon left the library and went to Dunkin Donuts were we had a cigarette. We finished, and went back to the library. Stayed for a few minutes, and when we got out, Andrea was there.
Andrea and Steph went to go change for the show, and I went to my house to change for it.
I put on makeup, fishnets, a skirt, and platforms, and then I called them. They said they'd call back and then I was all eh okay. And then I decided to call andrea 30 minutes later. While waiting for them, Sakura called. I feel bad I just had to hang up suddenly when I saw Andrea's car pull up.
So Andrea's mom drove us to Steph's house where we had to RUN to catch a train and we missed it because I was in platforms. Andrea said it was her fault but I blamed it on myself.
So, I had a cigarette and we waited. I did Andrea's makeup, and then Steph called her mom to pick us up to take us to the show. So she did, and in the car I did Steph's makeup.
So we got to the show, and everything was going great. We moshed a bit, smoked and bit. And then we went back upstairs from smoking to listen to My Only Hope. I got some pictures, but Im way too lazy.
So after they finished...we went downstairs for another cigarette. As we were smoking it Steph's mom walks in. It went kinda like this:
"YOU'RE SMOKING!? YOU'RE SMOKING!? NO NO NO COME WITH ME."
So we put out the cigarettes and run upstairs with her. We had a long talk about it, and she was only there because Andrea's mom found out where she actually was. Steph's mom was actually /cool/ about the smoking thing though. THANK DAVEY.
We drove Andrea to where her mom was and Steph's mom drove us back to the show. We stayed up for the last band and then we went down for another cigarette. This is when I got smoke in my eyes and teared uncontrollably. xD It was pretty funny.
Then we left, got lost and some guy gave us a ride home.
THE END.
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xThisTimeImperfectx
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2005 4 May :: 12.57pm
i've been sick lately. ._.; it sucks. i thought i was gonna like die last night. but i didnt so yay?
Lalala.. okay. i think im gonna go play video games.
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xThisTimeImperfectx
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2005 24 April :: 4.33pm
o_O I want to RP.
..Maybe that's because right now Im redoing that thing I did such a while ago .. "Komoia"
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I'd love somebody like you..
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xThisTimeImperfectx
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2005 14 April :: 5.40am
Twenty-six years and seems like I've just begun
To understand my, my intimate is no one
When the director sold the show, who bought its last rites?
They cut the cast, the music, and the lights
This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone
Twenty-six years end, still speaking in these tongues
Such revelations while understood by no one
When the new actor stole the show, who questioned his grace?
Please clear this house of ill-aquired taste
This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone
Give me something, give me something
Give me something, give me something
Give me something, give me something real
I lay strewn across the floor, can't solve this puzzle
Everyday another small piece can't be found
I lay strewn across the floor, pieced up in sorrow
The pieces are lost, these pieces don't fit
Pieced together incomplete and empty
This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone
This is my line, this is eternal
How did I end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone
I'd love somebody like you..
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xThisTimeImperfectx
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2005 12 April :: 9.51pm
IM UPDATING
UPDATEUPDATE.
I'd love somebody like you..
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xThisTimeImperfectx
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2005 3 April :: 8.42pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: File 13//AFI
Photoshopping.
Read more..
I'd love somebody like you..
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xThisTimeImperfectx
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2005 1 April :: 10.23pm
I'm really fucking TIRED of all my friends doing drugs.
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I'd love somebody like you..
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xThisTimeImperfectx
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2005 26 March :: 11.17pm
Y - Yes
N - No
O - Of course (obviously)
* - Already have done it
( ) go out with me?
( ) hold my hand?
( ) give me your number?
( ) let me kiss you?
( ) have sex with me?
( ) play an SM scene with me?
( ) watch a movie with me... even a really sappy one?
( ) let me take you out to dinner?
( ) drive me somewhere/anywhere?
( ) take a shower with me?
( ) be my gf/bf?
( ) have a fling with me?
( ) listen to me if I called you, crying, even if you were out with all of your friends?
( ) buy me a drink if I didn't have money?
( ) take me home for the night?
( ) let me sleep in your bed?
( ) sing car karaoke with me?
( ) sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
( ) come and pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
( ) dance with me in the rain with no music?
( ) re-post this for me to answer your questions
I'd love somebody like you..
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xThisTimeImperfectx
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2005 26 March :: 9.48pm
:D K so I don't remember how pathetic I was, i'm deleting some past enteries.
I'd love somebody like you..
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