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2004 12 October :: 11.37 pm
yes, i fit into my jeans from BEFORE i was pregnant.
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2004 9 October :: 3.48 pm
:: Mood: calm
a picture of gabrielle.. and other things.
a picture of gabrielle
1 day old
i have a whole bunch of other pictures on my digital camera, but i bent the cord that connects the camera to the computer to upload them onto it.. so for now, that's the only one i have. :(
i haven't updated in a long time, or noted anyone- sorry for that! i've been recoperating from delivery, and most of the time i'm just to tired to sit on the computer. but i'm feeling a lot better now.
i've just been at home for the past week.. i can't believe gabrielle is already 8 days old! it's gone by so fast. she's such a good baby- she hardly cries.. and only wakes up 2-3 times a night. *knocks on wood* i don't want that to change! lol
i'm just sitting here waiting for jims mom to get back to pick me up. she came out here about 20 minutes ago to get gabrielle and myself- but jim told me she wasnt' coming until 5:30-6:00, and my mom has the car seat in her car. so she ran out to buy a car seat. she should be back here soon. we're going to a picnic. jim will be there around 5:30-6:00.
*yawn* i gotta finish getting things ready to go for gabrielle, i'll update more later!
<3 <3
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2004 4 October :: 2.24 am
:: Mood: happy
Gabrielle Marie Kress
born on 10/1/04 at 12:57 pm
length 22' 8 lbs. 11 oz.
washington hospital
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2004 30 September :: 7.04 pm
:: Mood: shocked
i'm having the baby tomorrow!!!!
i went to the doctors today, since i'm 2 days late the doctor is just going to induce me tomorrow. i have to be at the hospital at 6:00 am.
WISH ME LUCK! i'm scared!
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2004 28 September :: 3.37 pm
:: Mood: excited / scared / hopeful
:: Music: our lady peace - clumsy
today's the big day!
..but no baby yet.
i can't believe it's september 28th already.. ahh. i just want to get it over with! i'm scared. i think everyones more excited than me; i'm more scared than anything. well it's an exciting / scared feeling.. but i just wish everyone would stop asking me if it's time yet. it really really gets on my nerves.. i'll tell everyone when it's time!
i just hope the baby comes today; i can't stand being pregnant anymore.. i hate having to pee 3 times an hour! haha- *sigh* i'll probably end up being about 2 weeks late just because i said that.
wish me luck!
<3<3
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2004 23 September :: 9.19 pm
:: Mood: giddy
*hopefuly* my last doctors apointment today!
i went to the doctors today, for hopefuly my last apointment being pregnant! my next apointment schedualed is on the 29th- a day after my due date.. so i'm hoping i won't have to show up! :)
i'm 3 centimeters dialated!
woo! go me! the doctor said i'm doing great, and then when i do go into labor he thinks i'll be already about 6 centimeters dialated; which is a pretty good thing.. that means i won't have long to wait til 10 centimeters, then i can have the baby. :)
only 5 more days!
amy.. damn 2 inchers! :-0
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2004 21 September :: 10.08 pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: charmed on tv
it's been a long day.
today was a really long day.. i woke up at 6:30, fell back asleep til 7:00 and called jim. then i noticed that my sisters weren't up yet so i got up outta bed and woke them up.. anna threw this big fit because sam wouldn't get her something to wear, and that kept me up so i just stayed up. i hung all the baby clothes up and sorted everything out finially. then i fell back asleep around 11:30 and woke up at 12:45-1:00. i woke up and re-did my journal.. then i browsed online for a bit. then i made some dinner for me and my sisters. anna helped me clean my room. it looks good- i set up the playard.. i had to open something up- it was driving me crazy. *yawn* my next doctors apointment is on the 23rd (thursday).
[edit] 11.17pm my gram went into the hospital today- she has some sorta infection. everyone pray that she's okay and out soon. [/edit]
only 7 more days!
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2004 20 September :: 4.59 pm
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: baby einstein's "baby bach" - #3 on the cd (it's a long title to type out!)
the music is on my belly with head phones for the baby.
i stayed at jims house all weekend. just got home about an hour and a half ago.
i don't know, theres nothing really to say- i never feel like updating in here anymore. i guess because i really don't do anything to write in here.. haha.
we rented some movies, barber shop 2, thirt3en ghosts, and the butterfly effect.. that was an awesome movie- we watched the different endings and i didn't like the directors cut. :(
my mom and i are going to go to baby depot today to exchange some things.
jim got a job at psi- it's a trucking company. i'm so happy :)
*yawn* i'm so tired anymore. the baby kicks constantly and keeps me up all night.. i'm ready for her to come out! :-P
only 8 more days!
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2004 17 September :: 1.03 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: yellowcard - ocean avenue
so my gram and i were looking on the calendar the other day and we noticed that the 28th [the day the baby's due] is a full moon! i dunno, i really think i might just have this baby exactly on the due date- that would be neat.
<3
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2004 14 September :: 8.19 pm
:: Mood: excited
i went to the doctors today..
and i'm 1 centimeter dialated!!!!! omgosh! i'm so excited! :-D
the doctor gave me an excuse to not go back to school until after the baby is born.
only 14 more days!
<3
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2004 13 September :: 12.35 pm
:: Mood: bitchy
only 15 more days til the baby's due.
i stayed over jims house for the weekend.. i had a good time. i don't really feel like typing out what we did though- i'm tired and i want to go home and take a nap. only 2 more periods after this one.. i don't know if i'll make it though. i stayed at jims house last night and went to bed about mindnight.. so i'm falling asleep in class.
i have my doctors apointment tomorrow- *yawn* it's after school this time which is good.
i'll guess i'll update more later.. maybe not- i don't know yet. depends on how i feel.
i can't believe it was 9-11 already.. 3 years.
<3
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2004 9 September :: 9.08 pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: CSI on tv
survey
Read more..
<3
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2004 8 September :: 3.52 pm
:: Mood: tired
give me lots of hugs!
give me hugs!
(click that!) ^^
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2004 5 September :: 10.01 pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: orgy - stitches
i'm sittin' here over jims house.. the baby is kicking. it's getting closer and closer to the due date- only 24 more days, i'm scared!
i've been over here since friday.. yesterday we went down to the park and the coal miners were having a picnic so we got something to eat and hung out with some people. i saw my sisters [they're at their dads house this weekend] there because their dad is a coal miner. and it was my sister sams birthday yesterday so i got to say happy birthday to her. :)
we didn't really do anything today- we were going to go fishing but then our ride didn't show up. so we just chilled at jims house. we made pork chops, green beans and white potatoes for dinner. it was good.
tomorrow we're going with my brother and his girlfriend to the renassiance festival tomorrow.
we're going to watch some tv..
<3
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2004 3 September :: 12.49 pm
:: Mood: stressed
right now i'm in 6th period study hall.. blah, it's been a long day. i didn't go to school yesterday, and i wasn't going to go today- but at the last minute this morning i changed my mind and went.
i'm going over jims house tonight; i can't wait to get out of the hell hole of a house. i hate it there, and i hate watching my little sisters. god i almost had a break down last night and almost killed anna. [jim, you know what i'm talking about.] i can't handle all this anymore, it's to much stress. i've been a wreck the past couple of days.
our periods are shortened today because we have homeroom/activity period.. so that's cool. i can't wait to go home and go to jims house. i miss him.
:(
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2004 2 September :: 8.59 pm
:: Mood: content
Bored? | | | | | | | Why not pretend that you're going to kill yourself? | | Support? |
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2004 1 September :: 9.39 pm
:: Mood: bored
haha, the funny things i find.
when i bite into a york peppermint patty, i feel the cool rush of skiing in the alps, skating in alaska, or bobsleeding in lake pacid! but while i'm enjoying my york peppermint patty, the rush makes me oblivious to the chocolate melting in my hands.
the chocolate gets on my keyboard, my mouse, my desk, and every to every other spot to which chocolate can stick.. and when i go to throw away my york peppermint patty, i trip over a shoe because im to bussy looking for a paper towel. i fall over and hit my head on the corner of my desk, cutting it deeply. the sight of my own blood causes me to regurgitate my york peppermint patty. getting up and runing to the phone to call 911, i slip on vmy own vomit, fall down again, and break my neck.
and so my warning to all: dont smoke pot before eating a york peppermint patty.
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2004 31 August :: 9.36 pm
:: Mood: exhausted
right now i'm just sitting here with jim.. he's playing playstation.
i got picked up from school at 11:30 today. i had a doctors apointment.. i gained 4 pounds.. i weigh 164. everything looks okay, babys heart beat is strong. jim & my mom went with me.
i fell asleep in class again today, i need to start going to sleep earlier.. 10:00 is to late i guess. blah- the baby kicks and keeps me up all night. the doctor said if i could make it through the next 2 weeks of school that he could write me an excuse for the rest off til i have the baby.. then i could go back in 6-8 weeks. but i don't think i'm going to do that.
blah, i'm so tired- time for bed.
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2004 29 August :: 9.18 pm
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: taking back sunday - a decade under the influence
i woke up at 9:00.. i went up my aunts and helped her get food ready for my baby shower.. by the time we were all done with everything it was almost noon.. and we had to leave by 12:30 to start setting up and everything for the shower.
people started getting there around 1:30. everyone except 2 people from jims family that we invited came.. i was so glad! almost all my family that we invited came to. i was so happy that people actually came. i stressed myself out for nothing.. [you were right kristen! lol]
we got so much stuff! a lot of the big things on my regestry were bought for me like my swing, highchair, palyard, and exersaucer. we got so many outfits and blankets, and everything. when we brought everything home i didn't have enough room in my room so we had to fill my living room up.. ahh. i don't know what i'm going to do with all the things!
jim came to, his mom had to leave early for work so he video taped the whole thing.
i'm still so happy about the turn out. we got so many things that we needed.
anyways, jim came back to my house with me for a couple hours, we went swimming and went through some of the things that we got. he's coming back over tomorrow.
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2004 28 August :: 8.40 pm
:: Mood: nervous
omgosh, my baby shower is tomorrow at 2:00.. i'm so nervous. today my aunt loraine, aunt di, kelly and i went to set up for it.
what if no one comes?
i keep sitting here and thinking about it, i've been stressing myself out about it for a week or so now.. god i can't believe how scared i am.
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2004 25 August :: 5.58 pm
:: Mood: tired
first day of school today for me.
i'm trying everything in my power to stay occupied so i don't fall asleep. going to school today made me so tired, but i don't want to take a nap because i won't sleep tonight.
all my classes are great. i have a super schedual, i love it. my first 3 classes are upstairs, then the rest are downstairs. i only have books for 3 of my classes, one of which i won't even need for half the year; so that kicks ass.
everyone was telling me about how i looked great and how well i was doing. everyone thought i was only like 4-5 months; i was like "no.. i'm due september 28" everyone was like "whoa, you look SO little!" it got old after a while.
in my 5th pd. fitness class this ariel and erin [freshmen] kept sayin' shit. first ariel pulled my hair so i turned around and told her not to pull my hair.. she denied it and everything i said something else, turned around and they started giggling. then a little bit later the same girl put her foot under my butt a little bit so when i sat back i would sit on the tip of it. and when i did she was like "you sat on my foot!" i was gettin' so pissed off by then so i turned around and yelled "well maybe you shouldn't have put it under my ass; then there wouldn't be a problem!" and we aregued for a minute.. being that she did both of these things while mitch [our gym teacher] was talking was rude. then a few moments after that she was like touching me with papers all over the back so i turned around and i swear to god i had to hold myself back from like hitting her in the face and i said something to her and turned back around. after that she was talking to he friends and mitch got really pissed off. she started yelling at them, i had to laugh cause she'll kick the shit outta them if they don't straighten up. haha, i can't wait.. anyways; after mitch was done explaining everything about the class i asked her about how i was going to make my gym classes up after i had the baby- and she told me to come down and let her see my schedual. when i was going back to my seat ariel was like "hey, come here" and i was just like "what do you want?" and she appoligized to me and said that she didn't know that i was pregnant. --i mean what does me being pregnant have to do with anything? i don't know. i find it kinda funny.
i saw jims cousin racheal today! i forgot she was coming to this school this year, she went to trinity before. she said she was suprised to see me because jim told her that i wasn't going back to school and just getting home schooled.. what a dork he is. i only have lunch with her; and that sucks.. but i'm glad i at least have one period with her.. she's really cool.
i'm really excited about my baby shower.. it's this sunday! i can't wait. but i'm really nervous- i keep thinking no ones going to show up; that scares me so much.
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2004 24 August :: 3.43 pm
:: Mood: upset
:: Music: matchbox romance - promise
..i try.
but i don't think just trying is good enough anymore.
..i really don't think that i should be here anymore.
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2004 23 August :: 11.54 pm
:: Mood: thinking hard.. a little stressed
:: Music: coheed & cambria - a favor house in atlantica
stupid piece of shit.. i accidently deleted my entry from the 16th. stupid asshole.
i spent the last almost week with jim. i had a great time. i finially met his dad. he's great. we stayed at his house 2 nights.
i got home today around 8:00. i walked in the house, and the kitchen, bar room, and dining room was clean when i left on saturday morning- because sam and i cleaned it. i come home to a fuckin' mess. god i was in such a great mood until i saw that. my mom & george left sunday morning to go on a little vacation with the girls and their friends craig & sherry;; they have 2 boys about sam&anns age. dustin was here the whole time; and i guess didn't lift a god damn finger to do shit around here. our bathroom toilet overflowed 2 weekends ago while i was staying over jims and my mom had went somewhere.. and dustin didn't do anything about it and just left it there. so now we can't use that bathroom. maybe i bitch to much.. but it looks like i do everything around here except pay the god damn bills. i practicly take care of my 23 year old brother. what the hell is that? he should be out of the house. i spent my whole summer watching my 2 little sisters while my mom and george were at the bar. they "have to be there" yeah fine.. i watched them. but i'm tired of it now. i'm being taken advantage of. i might be pregnant but that doesn't mean shit.
it's just kinda like i'd much rather move out and have to pay my own doctors bills than to stay here, have my mom pay but be a prisioner in my own house. i mean i have 3 places i could go to stay right now. and all of them very serious about me living with them. but i mean; if i left- my mom and george would be screwed.. because their live-in-babysitter wouldn't be here anymore. then what would they do? omg- my mom would actually have to.. spend time with my sisters. pssh. i don't even think she can handle them nagging her all the time anymore. she'd go crazy.
maybe it'd be easier on my mom if i just moved out anyway. nothings been the same ever since she found out i was pregnant anyway. i'm just a big burden she has to deal with. i can move out if i want to- i'm an emancipated adult now that i'm having a baby even though i'm under the age of 18.
i just keep thinking about what i said in the last paragraph over and over.. and i'm not sure what to do. i just need help.
i need a hug and for someone to say it'll be alright. :(
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2004 12 August :: 2.11 am
:: Mood: loved
xx interrupted (2:07:14 AM): i need you. :-P
pouncer was here (2:07:33 AM): you got me;-)
xx interrupted (2:09:10 AM): do i got you forrrrever?
pouncer was here (2:09:39 AM): absolutely
i <3 you baby.
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2004 10 August :: 9.40 pm
:: Mood: anxious
so i regestered at baby depot [burlington] and target..
target
baby depot
you just have to type in my name to see them: Jena Pust my list will come up.
make sure you take a look!
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