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2008 11 April :: 8.03pm
Death.
So I went to the doctors this morning at like 8:30 because my temperature was 103.2 and I kept having cold chills and body aches and I couldn't swallow and blah blah blah. So, turns out I have strep throat.
I get home at like 11:20ish and sleep until about an hour ago when mom woke me up with a delicious bowl of soup.
So yeah, I are teh dying =(
Oh, and no Kelly unfortunately, which makes me even sadder.
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2008 8 April :: 3.14pm
School makes me sad and I want to quit. -.-'
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2008 4 April :: 8.16am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Baby Mozart. on tv.
Update.
Well i had my daughter she was due jan 9th, but came about jan 2nd 8:59am
i'm very happy.. shes 3months now, and shes precious. i love her so much.. she has changed me for the good! and Lance is a great father; so together were a great family. i love both of them and vise versa. Lance started his new job almost 3 weeks ago, i love it.. so he gets paid today! i'm excited to finally have money i have being to poor.. but what sucks is he drives alot and is hardly home.. he works 3am to 1pm sometimes 4pm. i miss makin him breakfast lol. oh well, money money money, gotta pay bills, i plan not to work for awhile i don't trust noone with an infant as of what i always see on the fucking.. tv.. news.. ugh.
i'm on alli, i'm trying to lose weight, i only like 4 lbs so far.. and like 2 inches.. of course i need more. before i got pregnant i was 5'5 and 158 lbs or something, and now i'm atleast more than at lol.. and i liked that weight i was sooo happy! but of course, it was worth it i got my little girl Elise Renee, aw.
but yes! i need to take it off.. i'm trying, i'm having a party tomorrow night, elise is going to grandma's wooo! i'll miss her, but i can't wait to make jello shots..
anyways thats all i'm reporting.
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2008 3 April :: 6.07pm
KLahlakHHhLkauHHHlakeayhlairahh.
--- I just found this message and translated it in order to save the world. You may all thank me later.
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2008 29 March :: 1.22am
:: Mood: okay
Smoking away
After Mom's party I stopped at Jenni's; she wanted to cheer me up and I wanted to talk a little. We smoked and I went with her to pick up Scott and we smoked again and watched tv. I love hanging out with Jenni. It's always so mellow. I think that's why she's my best friend. It's always drama free. :)
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2008 30 March :: 5.58pm
Fucking hell.
My family treats me like I am THE fucking stupidest person alive and it just makes me so happy. Man, I just cannot get enough of it.
Michigan is seriously looking better and better every damn day. I can't wait until this semester ends.
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2008 28 March :: 3.35pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Bottle It Up - Sara Bareilles
Not that I want Jacob to leave, but I'm ready for my life to go back to normal. There is a certain novelesque appeal to staying out late and singing along with Cher, Celine Dion, HIM and Rent songs at three in the morning, but after awhile I start to miss normal things like Kelly and having my homework done and of course sleep. If Jacob was here all the time it wouldn't be so bad, I wouldn't feel as though Okay, he's here for a limited amount of time, I have to spend every last second with him until he's gone again.
Also, this time is rather bittersweet since I do believe I'll be gone before he returns, and then upon my arrival back for school he may be gone back to Columbia. So there's definitely a more urgent need to hang out with each other at all points in time, thus making a mess of my life.
I haven't talked to Kelly in a long time, and there's no one to blame but myself. Hopefully he understands and doesn't hate me and want to rip my throat out.
Fingers crossed on that one.
Anyway, Trevor has a basketball game tonight, and he's outside shooting around by himself and so I'm going to go out there and play with him. I need to be a better sister to him and Taylor. I need to be a better girlfriend as well.
My life sucks right now because I'm realizing that I'm a horrible person and that's certainly not the most delightful thing to come to the realization of.
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2008 25 March :: 4.46pm
Doctor's appointment tomorrow because some weird shit's been going on. Should know what the issue is -hopefully- after that. It's at 2:45 and the hospital is 30 minutes away from my school, and I have class at 5:00 and I of course have no idea when I'll be done... so yeah, stress. Lots of it.
Anyway, I've been rather busy as of late, and therefore haven't gotten on like ... ever. Last time I talked to Kelly was Saturday I think. I'm horrible, I know, but Jacob's only down for a limited amount of time and I have to have my Jacob time cause I'm soooo going to miss him when I leave here. *sad face*
However, do not for one second think that I don't love you completely KJE. Cause I do. <3
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2008 22 March :: 9.26pm
halou
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2008 20 March :: 9.08pm
:: Mood: Cracked Out kthx
:: Music: Towler going on and on...
Okay so last night I was hanging out with Tylor, his roommate Carl, and Tessi at Tylor's house... in fact I skipped my classes to do so (which was kind of all right because one class was canceled anyway which I didn't know so I would have shown up for it and been screwed) and then Carl and Tylor made us DELICIOUS lasagna which made me orgasm.
Then we went down to the basement -which was cold and wet because it had flooded = NOT awesome- and Jacob called and was like "OH EM GEE RESCUE ME KTHX" because he wanted to come home early but his mom couldn't come get him. This was at like midnight. We were going to use Tylor's mother's truck because it's effing huge, but his parents flipped out and wouldn't let us drive so late in the dark because we didn't even know how the fuck to get to Columbia. So, we decide to leave at 6:00 in the morning so I had to spend the night in the little guest room which was super cold so I died, and then we got up and went... and hauled ass and it still took us 10 hours there and back. It was crazy, but soo fucking fun. I've never navigated a trip, and I did this one. I did pretty awesome too, despite the fact that Mapquest had us going to Kansas City for no apparent fucking reason, so we skipped a few steps and made it perfectly fine.
Best road trip EVER.
Now I'm sitting here waiting to get out of class and ignoring my professor because he's going on about miosis and, well, fuck that shit, it's **boring** so yeah. After this shit is over with I'm going back to Wheaton to hang out with everyone some more, even though I've only had 3 hours of sleep and LOTS of Amps.
Huge sugar high. It's fun though.
Anyway, Kelly I love you LOTS and you're amazing and I miss you oooh so much. <3333
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2008 19 March :: 12.08pm
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: Even Angels Fall - Jessica Riddle
Alright, Kelly already gave the play by play so I won't bother with that, but honestly I had the best time while I was up there... even while I sat and watched him play WoW, CoD4, Portal, and Warcraft, despite the fact that he thinks I was bored.
We hung out with pJ and Mandie... and she was super quiet. I have a huge feeling she's not like that all the time. I'm probably considered quiet while I'm up there too, but that is so not the case.
The shittiest part of the entire trip was going home. I had dreaded it before I even left home, and it was ten times worse than I had expected. I'll be up there sometime in May if everything works out as planned, so it's not too long of a wait, but it feels like it's going to last forever. I've only been home for two days and it already feels like weeks.
I had a long ass delay in Milwaukee on my way up there, arriving in Michigan six hours late, and then on the way home I got a two and a half hour delay in Kansas City. I have the worst fucking luck traveling, I swear. It's completely ridiculous. Anyway, I got to Joplin and Ashley and Mom had come to pick me up, and we were all starving so I bought everyone dinner and then I got home ready to sleep but of course everyone had a million questions and I ended up not going to bed until about two. Then I was freaking out because I had additional homework to do, but my classes were canceled thanks to the TONS of rain we got which caused all the roads to flood. Sweet deal imo.
I was hoping classes would be canceled today as well, but it quit raining around eight this morning and the suns out so everythings clearing up. Lameness.
But yeah, that's that. I miss him so damn much.
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2008 15 March :: 10.25am
So Kelly and pJ went off to do their AirSoft deal, and I'm in pJ's room stealing his internetz. They've been gone for like an hour and I already miss Kelly :(
Monday is going to be so full of fail. I don't want to leave. I'm coming back sometime in May after schools done to stay for the summer, but that seems like forever away.
Anyway, I'm fucking tired but I don't want to go back to sleep because it's already well after ten and so I wouldn't sleep like at all tonight and the cycle would be never ending.
Ugh.
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2008 11 March :: 6.11am
You should be sorry that you're a chimo
and that your new girlfriend is a stuck up bitch.
Good luck with that bud.
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2008 6 March :: 6.09pm
liek holy ballzorz n stuff.
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2008 4 March :: 10.35pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
liek life k
Apparently no Kelly tonight, which stinks. I had a bad day and he's good at making me happy again. I think I failed a Biology quiz because I apparently studied the wrong thing, therefore rendering my knowledge on what we were +actually+ supposed to study = fail.
I wasn't the only one who did it though, so maybe he'll cut some slack. Doubtful, weird little bastard. His fly was open throughout the lecture tonight. I giggled.
Anyway, three more days. I'm excited and anxious. I still need to pack and get some homework done.
It's supposed to snow Friday, so I hope that doesn't mess with my flight schedule. I'll probably strangle someone with my sock if it does.
Seriously though, I hope that everything goes smoothly. I'm worryied about my flight to Grand Rapids out of Milwaukee because I have like 20 minutes to get off the plane, find out what gate I'm at, go through security, and board. Sometimes it takes longer than 20 minutes.
Sooooo... Fingers crossed for sure.
*sigh*
Kelly: comez bak plz? kthx.
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2008 25 February :: 6.06pm
:: Mood: cold
I am fucking sick. I am sneezing, I am coughing, I have a sore throat, and I am either blowing my nose a trillion times per minute, or my nose is of no use and I cannot breath out of it. Oh, on top of all that, one second I'm burning up and the next I'm shivering.
In spite of all of this, I decided to come to school to do some homework... Yeah, I'm retarded, I know. I just want to curl up and sleep, but I've got to get this shit done. I'm just waiting for everyone in the computer lab to lynch me next time I sneeze, because it's not cute little girly sneezes, it's fucking loud as hell.
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2008 24 February :: 9.02pm
-Bash-
Breadfan- this morning my dad went to go to the bathroom, but my little bro was already in there, my dad turns the knob but its locked, and in his deepest UT voice my bro shouts "DENIED"
Breadfan- My dad just walked away scratching his head
Dreyer- ROFLMAO
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2008 21 February :: 6.40pm
Longest day EVER.
Almost every school in Missouri was canceled today and the weather was like completely fine. It was below freezing, and it rained all day, but yet the roads weren't that bad at all, so there really wasn't any sense in canceling everything.
So, I spent all day with Dad, Taylor, and Trevor. It started out fine, but then we all just got sick of each other and everyone warped into assholes. Therefore I confined myself to my room to do homework, read, watch movies, and play guitar hero 3. When I get on the computer, my keyboard is broken. I'm still not sure on what happened, but one of the little incline things on the bottom was broken off, and like everything on the right side didn't work. I kind of gathered that Taylor and Trevor were fighting and the keyboard was used as a weapon. We have like 4 keyboards, but that was my favorite one so I'm pissed, but whatever, there's nothing I can do. I want to do something extreme and like horde all the keyboards, along with this one, in my room so they can't be dumbasses and break anything again, but that's like completely immature and I don't exactly want to stoop to that level, but seriously... wtf.
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2008 20 February :: 6.11pm
:: Music: Earthquake Weather - Beck
There's like 2 weeks before I leave for Michigan and that's like weird. It seems like it should be a lot longer time period than that, not that I want to wait a lot longer, but my 'to do list' just kind of keeps growing. I have like four big projects for school to do and like no time to do them, but I have no choice.
Anyway, time for class. Joy...
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2008 17 February :: 7.14pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Taste of Ink - The Used
Went shopping with Ashley today -and spent far more than I needed too- I got four shirts, some sleep pants, some underwear, and a book I needed for my Literature class. We ate at Applebees and ... ugh. I didn't like what I got so that sucked, but Ashley let me eat her mashed potatos, and I absolutely love them so I was kind of happy. Other than that I've had like the best day ever. Mom didn't even harp on me about spending money and questioning how much I spent so that made it even better.
<3
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2008 14 February :: 8.53pm
http://www.cracked.com/article_15853_6-cutest-animals-that-can-still-destroy-you.html
/dies laughing
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2008 14 February :: 3.24pm
liek happy valentines day n stuff...
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2008 12 February :: 1.48pm
:: Mood: lonely
I've been house sitting this past weekend, and will continue to do so until Friday night. I'm enjoying the time away from the house. The downfall is that they only have one phone line, so I can't really get online because I don't want to miss a call from the home owners in case something happened, as it did last time I sat for them, so I rarely ever talk to Kelly. I think I've talked to him once in the last four days, and then I got disconnected and I couldn't get back online.
On top of that we have gotten another ice storm. It isn't as astronomical as the previous ones, but it seems worse since I'm all alone. Plus I have to go outside in the freezing rain or snow and feed and water cattle, dogs, and cats. As enthralling as that sounds... not so much.
I was hoping that school would consider it bad enough to cancel class, and because of this I didn't really study for my test tonight.... Ha. I got screwed over, because it is in fact NOT canceled. gg me. My English class was canceled, however, but surely not because of the weather.
Anyway, here I am not studying mere hours before my test. I've gotten so bad about this stuff. In high school I always had my work done beforehand, knew all the material for my tests... Now I hate my teachers, I hate (most of) my classmates, and I hate school so I simply don't do things because it makes me mad. This doesn't affect anyone but me, so I don't know why I do this. It's not as though I can fail to do my things and then be like, "Ha, that'll show you," because no, it doesn't "show" them, I simply will fail. End of story.
I miss Kelly. I love talking to him, even when we don't talk. If we're both busy doing our own thing and only say a few things ever so often, I'm fine with it. I just like knowing that he's there for me to ramble on about anything and everything as it happens. God I love him.
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2008 10 February :: 9.07am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Tattoo - Jordan Sparks
Insomnia seems to have quite the grip on me lately and I am thoroughly exhasted.
I have a huge Biology test Tuesday that I need to study for, and finish some assignments.
Homework can wait though, because I have shopping to do after church.
sweetness.
-I think "Tattoo" is a retarded song... but I can't help but love it. Don't worry, I'm very confused by this as well.
+Edit+ I found the most fucking amazing purse thing at PacSun, seriously. It's not a purse though, really, it's more like a carry-on... but I enjoy it so it shall be my very large, super sized purse. It's got gray straps and detailing, and then little white and baby pink Roxy signs all over it. <3x20
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2008 6 February :: 9.45am
:: Mood: drained
I've bought the tickets, now I just need the 7th to get here.
I had a horrible dream last night though, I was on my way to the airport, and for some reason my entire family accompanied me, and then I had to take a trolly to get to the check in desk and get all my tickets and whatever, and then I realized that I didn't have my phone charger, and I panicked a little bit, but then Mom said she would just send it to Kelly's, and so I was alright. Then everyone but Dad was gone and we were walking around (I haven't decided what happened to the trolly) and the airport turned into this carnival like place, but it was Missouri State University, but it was also still the airport because we were looking for the check in desk, and then I was like "omg I forgot to get my luggage" so I didn't have any clothes or my charger and then I forgot my license, but I still had my school ID, and I finally got to the check in desk, but only after we had to run through this wooded area... it was retarded, but it was like scary and I woke up with my heart like pounding and in the dream I was crying non stop.
All my previous trips up there have killed me on the way up or back, the bus... fuck, between the man in scrubs with a bandaged head and an erection, and the biker/cowboy with a pint and ashtray breath, and the man with the stained, cat urine pillow... well yeah, I'm done with that, and the other one like all of my flights were delayed, and the flight from Kansas City back to Joplin on the way home was delayed for 6 hours. It is damn near time I have a nice trip I would think. I will so slay someone if this one makes me die too.
*acts intimidating*
School/homework is taking over my life.
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