Yesterday was my last official day of work.
Kinda sad, really.
I learned how to actually do billing input and everything and I told JoJo I would come in a day next week to see how much I remember and refresh and learn some more before I take home the laptop and network myself.
After work, I picked up Noreaga and then Shawn and dropped him off at Tim's house and went back to my mom's.
I chilled there for a while and then I took Nore back to my house.
My mom called me a little bit later and asked if I wanted to go to WalMart, and I definitely needed to get shopping done, so she picked me up.
It's so cute.. NORE gets a treat everytime he has to go in his crate when I leave..
kinda like how he knows the difference from his crate being punishment and having to go in there because I'm leaving..
Well, when we got home he went outside to pee and when I came in I went to give him a treat (a cracker). When he saw me go for the cracker box he shot off to his crate, excited.
I was like, "awww bless your little heart, you don't have to go in there!!"
After Wal Mart, I just came home and put away my groceries and eventually went to bed.
I hate going to bed lately.
April said you know it's getting close when you have a hard time sleeping..
..and boy do I ever have a hard time sleeping!
Every time I move I can feel my hips pop and crack and I can't even roll over or anything.
THEN, I hate to wake up because sitting up and getting out of bed is the hardest thing ever.
Today I didn't do much.
I was suppsoed to go to a party with my mom but I didn't feel good so I ended up falling asleep and taking a nap.
I woke up a little later and started to clean.
I painted the first coat of a bookcase I've been meaning to paint for a while and then I went in the bedroom and cleaned up a little and rearranged a few things to make room for the pack n play and the bookcase I'm moving in there.
So pretty much I've been doing laundry all day and yelling at Nore.
I still miss Justin. It gets easier but I still miss him.
I can't wait til he comes home.
He asked me if I would want to go with him after the baby.
I don't knwo yet.. I have to think about it.
He said he talked to them and they said they would give us our own room and a crib for the baby.
I said I didn't know because what about my job and what about Nore?
I told Justin that Nore is all I have had for three weeks and he is my baby.
He talked to them about it and they said they wouldn't have a problem with bringing Nore and Justin said we could just do it for a little bit and since I will be working from home anywyas...
I dunno.. but I do know that I have to go because Nore is pissing me off.
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2007 21 April :: 3.49pm
:: Mood: too many things
:: Music: Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
Back-- for now
We got our asses kicked in Poultry. We got 6th out of 50 teams. I'm glad that it's over, but I cried. It was my last State trip ever. We did the best out of all the teams that went up there though, so that was cool.
It was probably the most miserable trip I have ever been on, though. I was definitly at the peak of my illness up there. Plus, my wisdom tooth is coming in, and instead of being a polite one, it's growing up underneath my other tooth, so my face was all swollen and ugh. It was still fun though. Miserable and fun. Oxymoron much? Renkoski kept me amused.
My parents came with on the trip as chaperones, but it was alright they're not too terribly bad in public, and all my friends like them. Plus... they spent a bajillion dollars on clothes for me when we went to the mall. I was happy. I got 3 shirts and a purse from Aeropostal, and 3 shirts from Maurices; all for Senior Trip, which is in 4 days.
I found out on this trip that we're going to be getting $350 back on Senior Trip. We did so freaking good at earning money throughout high school. That means we had $9100 extra, because each person gets that amount, and there's 26 people. oh mah gah.
I miss Kelly. I want to talk to him, but I want to go back to sleep as well. He's not on so it's looking like sleep-- after I unpack though. /le sigh
<3 him though.
It's time to get the breath right
So I grab the Crest and toothbrush, circular motions to the left, right
Just enough to see the teeth sparkle a bit
I fill my grill with Listerine and then it’s gargle, gargle, spit
And now that’s good hygiene, you know what I mean?
And my mouths the definition of so fresh and so clean
I feel it’s only right, since my words all I got
And nobody wants to listen when your breath is hot
But that’s a story in itself so I head to my bedroom
Throw on some drawers and pick out a costume
I think ill rock these blue jeans and this tee shirt
And whats a little be delicious gonna hurt??
I’m feelin’ kinda lovely but my
Tummy is growlin’ so I’m feeling kinda hungry
So I hit the kitchen and I’m wishin’ there’s some food in sight
What do ya know? I got that Cinnamon Life
And now I’m real happy, fill my salad bowl up with cereal
To my surprise it’s Jackson Five up on the stereo
I turn it up my words can’t describe my reaction to
wakin’ up and listening to prepubescent Michael Jackson
Open up the Frigidair what do we have here?
Seems like just enough milk to fill my morning craving
Peep out the window just to see if Nore is misbehavin'
He’s staring at me with a grin like ‘Yo, let me in!’
So I begin to fill his dish with Kibbles N’ Bits
Let him in so he can eat, and I’m eating my shit
So now we both full and well fed,
Happier than that fat rat Templeton from Charlotte’s Web
Now its time to get our walk on
NORE can get his bark on
It’s a beautiful day maybe we’ll get our cedar creek park on
I know the lake is at its finest
I’ll grab my backpack, this leash, and maybe make a sandwich
I better grab my ghetto blaster and a few tapes,
A thermos full of water and a bag of fresh grapes
Some more tapes cause you know that music comes first
And what’s a little Jackson Five gonna hurt?
I just ate a french bread pizza and I am about to cook dinner in a little bit.
I guess we're going to have pork chops again. (we, as in me and nore)
he's barking at me right now like an asshole.
i don't know what he wants so i ignore him. he does this everytime i'm on here.
Work was alright today.
Usually, I hate going out to the Monessen office because I feel lazy over there but I didn't mind it today really.. and then Dan let me leave at about 3:30 so that was cool.
Tomorrow is supposed to be my last day and all I'm going to do is head out to Rostraver around noon to learn some extra billing stuff with our office manager to take the laptop home.
I told her I doubted I was going to be ready in one day so I told her I would come in next week to work with her if she felt like I needed to.
Other than that, I'm just chillin.
Being bored but relaxed. =D
I like to be by myself but I was going through my phone and I miss Becca. =( We used to hang out every day when we went to school and now I NEVER see her except only in pictures.
It's nice out today.
It's getting a little chilly, but it's nice.
I'm gonna go call Justin.
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2007 19 April :: 12.18am
:: Mood: sleepy. sad.. but sleepy.
wednesday night
Work was alright today.
Tiring.. but alright.
I came home and played with Nore.
I've just been chillin here.
I talked to Justin but he sounded real tired and he said he was gonna go find something to eat and never called back. =( I'm figuring he fell asleep, though. He ALWAYS calls. I can't wait until the 27th for him to come home.
I hope I get a lot done around the house before he gets here so he is surprised.
At about 10:00, Lesley called and asked me if it was alright if Javonn walked to my house. Haha? I said he could if he wanted to, but that it was kinda late. Well--he procrastinates and 11:00 rolls around and I texted them and told them I was going to bed within the hour.
Right now I am watching Tyra.
This episode is on sex addicted women.
This sixteen year old girl may have been pregnant and she was telling Tyra how part of her wants someone to love and take care of and another part of her knows she's too young and needs to finish high school.
The girl's mom said if she were pregnant she has two choices: to either give it up for adoption or have an abortion.
The girl got mad and said it wasn't her baby's fault and he/she deserved to have a life.
I think that's sad.
Abortions obviously ruin lives of unborn childs (literally), but they also ruin the lives of the people who have them. Sometimes women can't even carry a child after an abortion and sometimes.. in cases like this one where young women are forced to have abortions by their parents.. it ruins them emotionally. It may not be right away and tehy may not even realize it.. but years later it can show and it can have serious mental effects.
I'm just glad to be having this baby now. I'm glad I graduated and I'm glad I have a good job. I'm glad I love my boyfriend and I'm glad he has been my friend for a long time. It makes it so much easier when we are as close as we are and that he's there for me as much as he is. We went through rocky parts and cheated on each other and fought a lot but we got over it and I don't think I could have a better boyfriend than the one I have now.
Tomorrow, I have to go to work at the Monessen office around 1:30 because our PTA can't make it.
I was supposed to have Friday off, but Andy asked me if I could come in to the Rostraver office sometime around 12 or something to do billing with our office manager.
Friday is my last day so he wants her to show me how to do actual billing input rather than posting.
That way I will have a lot to do when they send the computer home with me.
I should hook my fax machine up so that way I can just receive and send them stuff without having to leave my house. (haha, lazy)
This Tyra is actually pretty interesting.
I know a bunch of girls who, when I was in high school, had sex with a bunch of guys and I always wondered why they would do that to themselves and this is kinda answering that.
I guess when you look at these sluts and whores who think they're so hot you're really looking at someone who has been hurt in the past, probably by a guy, or anyone that really hurt their self esteem. Easy girls don't think they're so hot at all and that's why they have to take the slutty pictures on myspace and stuff to get comments from guys to feel pretty.
That's kinda sad, actually.
Anywyas, I think I am going to fix Caitlin's myspace and go to bed.
My puppy is real tired and he wakes up too early for me if he goes to bed first.
I was up forever last night. I couldn't fall asleep for anything.
When I finally did go to sleep I was having weird bisexual dreams about having to sleep at B.O.A.R. Physical Therapy in the Rostraver office with like two of the Pittsburgh Riverrats and this girl that likes girls.
I woke up this morning a few times to Nore trying to get me up
but it was official when my mom called and he heard the phone ring because he was not going to let me pretend to sleep. He knew I was up after he heard that damn phone.
So I am out of milk--that means no cereal for breakfast unless I run to BP--WHICH i am too lazy to do. So.. I have resorted to potato chips and my Easter basket.
I have to work at 2:00 today. Probably til about 7:00 or something.
Justin texted me this morning and said he was goign to work and to text him when I wake up.. but I'm about to get a shower so I will do that in a little bit.
Don't you always feel like more of a dirtball when you wake up after sleeping REALLY good? I do. That's why I love to take showers in the morning. =D
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2007 18 April :: 8.30am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: People talking... my favorite *eye roll*
Leaving today at noon for state... ugh. I wish to be shot.
Some bottombrain left me early last night -- I won't mention names, so I had lots of time to pack things I won't need.
I still sick as hell... I hope I get over this soon. Coughing suckzorz.
My nails are already starting to die. I think she was in a big ass hurry so just half assed them. I wanted to keep them until Senior Trip but I'm thinking that's not going to happen. Then again I might just go have them touched up and then they'll stay. Hopefully anyway.
Uh that's pretty much it. I'll be getting back on the 21, then on the 25 we leave for Senior Trip until the 30. I'm going to miss Kelly so much.
Ugh. Nore was begging to go out so I let him.
Well, he usually comes in and out to check in,
but he wasn't... so I called him. He didn't come.
I didn't hear him jingle. (That's how we know he's
where he should be and not at the neighbor's.)
Well, I sat here and called him a few more times.
He didn't come. I started to get nervous so I got up
and I went to the porch and started to yell for him.
He didn't come. I couldn't hear him jingle.
I started to get really nervous--he ALWAYS comes
and I live right between 51 North and 51 South.
If he saw a bunny or something he would chase
after it--especially if I wasn't there to call him back.
I started to yell for him and yell for him, "Nor-baby,
want a treat?!, Come inside! Come Nore!!!" But
he wasn't coming. Then I heard a car screech to
a stop. My heart dropped. I ran and got my shoes
and a coat and ran out of the house. I was about to
run down the steps when his chocolate ass comes
running up them, happy as ever. I don't know if
it was him that made that car's tires screech or
not, but I do know that he is definitely getting tied
up in the yard when he goes out from now on.
I am glad I don't have to work until 2:00 tomorrow.
We are super slow and they don't really need me,
but I said I would come in around two and Todd
said that was fine. Then Thursday I can go in
around the same time unless, for some reason,
a bunch of people call and say they want to schedule
for Thursday.--I doubt that will happen though.
On Friday it doesn't even look like they need me.
..and that's my last day. It will be nice to take a
break, you know? Then I get to meet Jaycen &
start to have fun. Haha. I am so excitedddddd!!!!
Obviously we are going to take lots of pictures.
Justin's next tattoo he made an appointment for,
he said it's probably going to be his last one for a
while. He is getting Jaycen around his wrist to tie
off his grafitti sleeve. I am going to get one too..
I'm just not sure where yet. I would like it on my
wrist but then again, it's a little cliche and I hate
tattoos that everyone else has. Plus, I would want
it somewhere where no one can see unless I were
to show them. That way I don't have trouble
getting a job or anything. You know? I mean, if
I didn't care I would have a black, white, n gray
japanese sleeve.. but.. I do.. so.. yeah. Anywyas,
We'll see what happens.. it will be a surprise.
If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I got to say is I must have done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I got to say is I must have done something right
Justin might be coming home for this weekend
and then going back out to work for the week
and just coming home for the 27th and staying
for a while so he can stay with the baby. Then
hopefully he finds another job that he can work
locally and doesn't have to travel!! I hate that!
He told me he picked me seashells on the beach
the other day and he sent me a bunch of pretty
pictures from out there and the view they have
on their balcony and stuff. In a way, I hope he
comes home this weekend because I miss him,
but then again I hope he doesn't because that
will save him money AND I can get more stuff
done around the house to be more of a surprise
for when he DOES come home. =)
Anywyas, I think I am going to bed now. Even
though I don't have to wake up early tomorrow
for a chance and I get to sleep in and go to work
late. Nor-baby is still really tired and he is trying
to get comfy on the couch when I know he would
rather lay in the bed for the night! =D Good night!
My doctor's appointment went well.
Except for the fact that sitting in the waiting room for 45 minutes is a bitch.
Oh and the fact that she was very rough and pretty much killed me.
However, she was amazed at my tummy and told the nurse that I would make the perfect model for a baby study and the felt all around for different baby parts and she showed me where the head was and everything and how he was sitting in there and just everything.
I wish Jusitn could've been there this time.
She also told me that they're going to hate me at the hospital because she guarantees that I go home in my old jeans. hahaha. yeah right.. but i loooooved that one.
i can't wait to have this baby and then start exercising.
(yeah right, i'll probably be sleeping 24/7)
You say there's no place you'd rather be when you're lying next to me.
I say there's no one I'd rather see when you're lying next to me.
You say you are totally complete when you're lying next to me.
I say even your tears would taste sweet when you're lying next to me.
You say a better place can not be found when you're lying next to me.
I say let's make my bed a playground when you're lying next to me.
After that I went and picked up my mom and we went out to Greensburg to give them my letter to Sarah. He was surprised it was typed, I was like, "hmmm...??" Hahaha Dur. It would be trashy if it weren't!!!
Then, I picked up Nore, dropped my mom off at home, went to the bank and then met Cam at my house.
Now, I'm just sitting here chillin, watchin videos on YouTube.
Being extremely bored and lazy when I should be cleaning my house.
The bright side is that I dropped a whole plate of dinner all over my couch! =D
Gotta get ready to go to my doctor's appointment. It's at 1:00.
Grr.
Nore is outsite playing. =)
I wish we had a fence to keep him in so we wouldn't have to worry about the neighbors bitching about him shitting in their yard.
We should throw it in their pool next time, hahsa!!
I'm just kidding, just kidding!
After my doctor's appointment I am going out to Greensburg to take a letter to Sarah to the juvenile place thing. I gotta do that by 3:00.
THEN I gotta go meet Cam to take him this money Justin owes him by 5:00.
BUT, First I gotta come back to the house to get Nore though, he needs to get out and go for a ride.
SO! It will be a busy day. =D
Cause after I meet Cam I have to call April and see if she has money that I need to get off of her.
Aaaaaaaanywyas, i gotta get in the shower becuase i usually last like an hour in there with Nebby Nore.
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2007 17 April :: 2.49am
:: Mood: can't sleep...
:: Music: Gym Class Heroes.
We break ourselves down
and build ourselves up in disappointment.
How fragile we are!
So fragile we are, we just don't show it.
We shake up this town
and shoot down the stars for our enjoyment.
So sexy we are, we just don't know it!
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2007 16 April :: 10.59pm
:: Music: can i atleast get a raise on minimum wage??
oh nore, nore, what is the matter?!?!?!?!
eh. i haven't updated in a couple days. i haven't been on the computer much, really.
which is surprising because how bored i've been lately.
i am sad without justin.
atleast i have nore, i don't think i could manage without him.
well.. 11 more days.
speaking of nore, he's being an asshole right now.
i am seriously going to beat his ass.
he keeps barking in my face for no reason what so ever.
if i ignore him, it makes it worse.
and then i yell at him and he gets real low and then climbs up on my lap and licks my face which is annoying too.
i don't know what the fuck he wants but he is pissing me off.
i still love him though.
it's not his fault he's getting on my nerves,
he was locked in the crate all day while i was at work for SEVEN hours!
that makes me mad because my mom was supposed to come over to let him out but she never did, and if i would have known that she wasn't going to show up at all, i would've left the key for serg or something because he would've stopped by after work.
we took these pictures the other day to e-mail to justin:
it makes me miss justin more when i think about the day he left.
he went to the mall with shaun to buy pants for work that he would need to take down there with him.
when he came back, he said he had a present for me.
he had my favorite perfume and same scented lotion which is like $70 for a little 4oz thing and another $40 for 4oz of the lotion.
then he sprayed all his stuff with it before he packed everything up so he could smell me when he got down there. =(
anywyas..
i ahven't been doing much.
i go to work, i come home and play with nore.
the baby's room is all set up.
maybe tomorrow i can go to Babies R Us to get the diaper bag i want?
also, i rrreally need to start packing for the hospital.
i had a doctor's appointment last week and i'm over 1 centimeter dialated.
i have another appointment tomorrow but i'm not really looking forward to it.
last week internal exams started and i hate them.
this baby is so big i don't know how he is going to fit out.
that's weird.
and scary.
but.. a lot of bigger sissies had babies so i think i will survive.
=)
like i tell people when they ask me if i'm scared, "it's like someone whose scared of roller coasters getting to the top of the hill and wanting to get off..."
there's kinda.. no turning back now. haha.
it will be worth it in the end--i can't wait to see my baby!!
=D
..I don't know if I can be without him for two more weeks.
I cry every single day. I don't want to leave my house, I don't want anyone to come over--I just want him to come home.
=(
I am bored and sad and lonely.
I hate it.
I just got off the phone with him right before this sentence.
Now I'm on the phone with Christina but I'm taking long breaks between tthese last three sentences.
Okay, now I"m OFF the phone with Christina.
It's probably a good thing she called or I'd still be crying.
I hate that he's gone.
It's weird when I have spent every single day with him for as long as I can remember and even before we were living together I would atleast see him every day.
..and now I haven't seen him in.. today is the 5th whole day.
My mom keeps on trying to tell me that it is going by fast and he keeps on saying that he'll be home before we know it.. but I feel like an ass because I can't stop crying and I want him here.
Today I woke up and got ready for work.
I didn't really want to go, though because I was like--dead tired.
I have been so worn out lately that I feel like I'm starting to get sick.
I called work and Andy answered and I asked him if Todd needed me.
Andy asked Todd and they said to come in if I felt liek it so I just stayed home.
Did I mention that Andy wants to send a laptop home for me so that a week after I have the baby I can work from home until I'm ready to come back?
That would be soo awesome. I would LVOE that.
That way I don't have to take forever off of work but I don't have to worry about going in too soon or even leaving the house and baby.
Soo.. I layed down on the couch and took a nap with NORE.
We slept until liek 2:00 when my mom called and said she was coming over.
I made myself two ham sandwiches and started eating lunch as she walked in.
We went through some more baby clothes and stuff and we separated them in sizes and then I just started washing blankets and sheets and everything.
Ugh. The last load is in right now actually.
I'm watching Scarred though.
This show is fucked up.
It almost makes me want to throw up and if I didn't have like a really strong tolerance to this kind of stuff I probably would.
Justin can't watch this show...
I am glad I had Christina to talk to.
She asked if I wanted her and Kris to come over, but I just want to be by myself.
MJPerry24: you are going to have so many baby friends over in years to come
MJPerry24: who come over just to see you
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2007 13 April :: 7.15pm
:: Mood: cold/sick
:: Music: the storm
I am so miserable. I'm sick and grouchy and stressed. I think I was kind of rude to Kelly earlier and then now he's not on and I didn't mean to be but... ugh. He'll be fine. I've been mean to him before.
I was hoping I wouldn't be sick for Prom but there is no way that I'm getting over this by tomorrow. *le sigh*
Tomorrow we're apparently getting sleet and snow and blah blah blah.
Last years Prom was shitty too because it was all windy and our hair died.
Monday I brought up that tonight Kandace, Tessi, and I should go watch Disturbia. Then they were like "ooh let's bring Travis (Tessi) and Kyle (Kandace)" which left me the fifth wheel so I decided not to go. KC heard about this and is pretending to be Kelly for me tonight. lol it kind of makes me laugh. So I'm going to go watch the movie and I'm excited. Scary movie on Friday the 13th. Fun.
Now then, my dad ordered my boutineer for Jacob because I didn't have time to stop by and do so. I gave him very specific instructions. He brought it home tonight... it looks like shit. It's ugly, small, and doesn't even match my dress. So before I go get my nails done I'm going to stop by a different floral shop and see if they can get one done in an hour for me.
Anyway, it's storming like fuckin crazy so I'm gonna go.
My body is so dead tired but there is not a chance in hell that I can fall asleep.
I hate going to sleep anymore.
I miss Justin a lot. It like--gets harder every day.
I just can't wait til he comes home.
I didn't even think I would miss him this much.
I went through some more baby clothes today with my mom.
She came over and did my dishes and stuff.
I just wanted to update because I was bored.
But... it's about quarter after 1 now and I have to work in the morning.
Plus, my eyes are burning and I think me and Nor' are gonna hit the road.
I am going to go into work about 12 tomorrow, but only til about 2 or so.
Then--I'll probably come back here, eat, take a nap, and do some more arranging of Jaycen's room.
I can't wait til Justin comes home and sees it, he's going to be so surprised. Well, he might not be because he probably expects me to do it, but still--it's all set up all cute and stuff. We just have to buy a dresser and a book case and it will be good to go and all ready.
I am so excited to have the baby but I don't want it to come any sooner than the due date because I'm so afraid Justin won't be here.
Okay well I got side-tracked and its now 1:45 so... yeah I'm done.
Something in your eyes makes me want to lose myself in your arms.
There's something in your voice that makes my heart beat fast. I hope this feeling lasts the rest of my life.
If you knew how much this moment means to me
and how long I've waited for your touch, If you knew how happy you are making me--
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much
So yeah.
The first night without Justin I definitely bawled my eyes out like a little baby.
Me and Nore went to bed and I started to cry really bad.
Nore looked at me with his head tilted to the side and then when i reached out to pet him, he started to lick my hand.
He knew I was sad.
I had to work yesterday though,
so I got up and got ready for work.
Then, I took Nore down to my mom's.
It was sad leaving him there because she had to trick him with a treat, but when he saw I wasn't there, she said he sat at the top of the steps and cried.
I went grocery shopping last night though.
It sucks cause I kinda splurged and bought a ton of stuff with money I don't even have yet. I withdrew my account so I had to borrow $20 off my dad. Haha. Ooops.
Last night was better.
I only cried when we said good night.
He said, "see ya soon."
He had the chance to come back until the baby comes but he decided against it because one day of work isn't enough and he doesn't want me to have to go back to work.
I hope he's having fun out there.
BUT I also hopes he doesn't go back after the baby and finds a different job around here. You know?
Today my mom is coming over to help me paint the baby's closet.
We are going to start moving stuff in there and everything.
I have to organize his clothes and stuff--but we still have to buy a dresser for him! And a bookcase!
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2007 8 April :: 3.03pm
:: Mood: an emotional mess
He left.
I told myself all morning that I wasn't going to cry but when I let everyone out downstairs and he turned around to give me a hug, I saw him cry and I lost all composure. =(
Now I'm on the phone with his mom and texting him and he's telling me he hopes I hold the baby in until he gets back, haha.
Ahh, I miss him already.
But! I have to get in the shower to go down my gram's for Easter dinner.
Well, quarter after 1..
Justin is leaving in about 45 minutes.. =(
He is going to Ocean City, MD to work with Shaun for three weeks.
The next time I'll see him we'll probably have a baby.
If I have it while he's gone he has to take a bus to Baltimore and then a plane to Pittsburgh so he can get here in like a couple hours and not miss it.
I told him he HAS to hurry though because I'll be scared by myself.
He's the one person I'm closest with so I'll feel better if he's there.
I wish Liz could be there.. she's the one person that I can actually talk to about anythign and she understands.
It always makes me feel better to talk to Liz about stuff.
She was one of the first people that I talked to about being pregnant.
Ughh! But it's going to be SO weird without Justin.
for THREE weeks.
I've been with him every single day since..
since July 2005.
Atleast I can get some cleaning done--he is so messy.
The first thing I'm about to do is paint the baby's closet and then I can start moving things in the room.
The closet is the only thing that needs painted.
Sometime this week my mom wants to run to Babies R Us to buy a diaper bag and also I need a dresser and a bookcase.
I guess I'll miss my lame boyfriend.
Even though I get sick of him like ALL the time--I'm really sad he's leaving.
Anyways, I'm gonna go..
I ain't tryna fuck ya man, erry'one knows he my numba one fan!
I don't have shit to update about but I'm bored so I figured I'd do it anyways.
Shaun came over last night and helped Bub paint the rest of the baby's room. =D
Did I tell you we've decided on a name?
FINALLY!
I wanted the name "jace" but he hated that.
he said it wouldn't be so bad if it was "j-a-y-c-e,"
so I said I'd go along with that.
well, then he changed his mind and said no, that's dumb.
then--i came up with it.
i hate the name Jason, right?
Well, I don't know why, I just do.
BUT!! For some reason, the name Jaycen isn't that bad to me.
So.. I asked Justin.. and he said YES!
=D I was so excited. haha.
Everyone knows the baby is going to be called "Jayce."
--Well, except Justin. ;]
But anywyas, that's the name--jaycen matthew marish.
Ugh.
Justin is at work.
Ludwick got him a job. Haha.
But--Shaun got him a job, too.
I'd rather him work with Ludwick, though, because if he works with Shaun he'll be gone for like 2 weeks at a time and come home for like a weekend. That sucks because he'll never get to see the baby, but if he DOES do that, I don't have to go back to wrok--so.. it's up to him.
Ulgh.
I have a lot to do today.
I'm going to take a shower (cause I haven't yet--i know, scuz, right? it's like 1:00 in the afternoon! yuck)
Then I have to clean the house like a maniac because everything is messy except for the kitchen because I cleaned that last night.
THEN! I have to wait around for Justin to need a ride home.
When he gets home, I guess I'll go grocery shopping--but I really don't want to.
I hate going out of the house, I'm such a loser.
We need fabric softener really bad but I only have like $20 in my bank account until my paycheck comes through on Monday.
For some reason, my electric bill went up $200.
I have nooo idea why that is, but I guess I have to call on Monday and see what the fuck is up. Why would it do that?
I mean, granted, it went from an estimated reading to an actual, but still--my first one was actual and it was still only $45.
I keep on getting these weird hurty things in my tummy.
I don't know, but I think they might be Braxton Hicks Contractions.
They feel like cramps at the top of my stomach.
I can tolerate them, because I've had so many freaking thigns wrong with my stomach, but still--they're weird.
I get them in the middle of the night and I wake up feeling liek I just did a million sit ups before bed. Weird, huh?
I don't know what they are.
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2007 7 April :: 11.17am
:: Mood: ditzy
:: Music: Taylor singing Joy to the World (wtf?)
I finally got my prom dress!
It's red and poofy and really hard to explaine...
I'll just post pictures of prom. It's going to be great.
We can't all decide where we want to eat though. Some want to go some place dumb like Burger King or Taco Bell.
Others want to go to Hooters.
Some want to go Chedders.
And still others want Ruby Tuesday's.
Who the hell knows.
I worked Thursday night for Bao because she was really sick, then Tessi and I went out to Kyle's to hang out with Kandace, him, and his roommate Joey. We drank, played a ton of drinking games and had a great time. We played Circle of Death (I think that's what it was called) and someone got the rules card and said that any time you had to drink you had to stand on your chair and yell "I love cock" at the top of your lungs. Problem? The ceiling fan was on and directly above the table. lmao we all almost got beheaded but we were too smashed to care. It was great fun.
Kyle has this huge ass poster of Johnny Cash on his wall, the one where he's flipping the camera off, and I swear his middle finger looks like a dick. It's hilarious.
Last night I finally got to talk to Kelly after shopping all day. <3 him!
Anywhores, I am going to Neosho with Ashley now in a desperate attempt to find something to wear for tomorrow. I <3 shopping.
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2007 4 April :: 8.33am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Pain - Three Days Grace
Lets review how great my sub is in Accounting:
1. Starts the day off telling us to be quiet so she can call her boyfriend
2. Makes me go down and get the bullitan because she "doesn't want to walk that far" ... wtf. I'm fine with getting it, whatever, but her excuse is lame. Our school is so fucking small.
3. Stops in the middle of reading said bullitan to text people. This goes on for about 10 minutes.
4. Finally finishes the bullitan.
5. Hops on a computer and starts checking her myspace.
6. Gets asked about what our assignment is, goes "oh yeah..." and hands us a worksheet.
Oh golly, we're so lucky to have her.
Anyway, apparenlty I'm getting sick. I've been losing my voice at random intervals and I've started coughing and I've been sneezing all morning.
This needs to be gone by Prom. How miserable would that be.
The school got everything blocked again, gg them, whatever.
Everyone was freaking out about not being able to get on myspace (because it's obviously a life line) and they were informed by some one of greater knowledge than they that they could find a proxy to get around the block, and so they latched onto unipeak.com. That would be fine, but when you can hear people informing others of it by screaming it down the hallways wtf do they think is going to happen? Are they so dense they actually believe they'll NOT block unipeak as well? Dumbasses.
Annual Ferris Fees
Estimated Budget Cost
Tuition and Fees - $11,502
Room and Board - $7,532
Books and Supplies - $1,246
Travel Expense - $1,282
Personal Expenses - $860
Loan Fees - $50
-Total - $22, 474
*dies*
BUT!! There may be hope yet...
Aid I'm Recieving
Federal Pell Grant - $4,310
Fed Sup Educ Opportunity Grant - $2,400
Residential Life Scholarship - $2,000
Fedreal Perkins Loan - $4,000
Federal Direct Subsidized Loan - $3,500
-Total - $16,210
That leaves me with the amount of $6,264 a year to pay, or $3132 a semester. Still a whole whole lot.
Kelly mentioned that I should look into getting ... something, like citizenship to the state of Michigan. That would drop my total to about $10,972 which would help me a LOT. I could then get rid of the $4000 loan and still be getting $1,238 more than owed.
