And be a simple kind of man...

:: 2004 9 November :: 11.34pm
:: Mood: upset

what the hell is wrong with me anymore?
i'm sitting here checking my e-mail.. i just started crying after i read an article on breastfeeding babies. "it's so good for them" "it's a bonding experience" "babies grow up healthier" "babies are less likely to be obese when they grow older" okay.. what the hell? i feel so guilty for not breastfeeding, it's my fault if gabrielle isn't going to be healthy when she grows up.

anymore if gabrielle cries, i cry with her. i feel like i'm doing everything wrong. no ones here to help; i'm doing everything on my own, plus i have to take care of the house, school work, my sisters, myself.. and i don't even have a job.. so i have to get my mom to buy everything for me. it's all to much for me anymore, i'm getting so over whelmed, and i feel so guilty for having to ask my mom for everything.

the other night gabrielle was crying and crying because she had a stomache ache, i sat there and said to myself i wish she would shut the hell up. then i realized what i said and freakin cried for like an hour after i got her to bed.

what's wrong with me anymore? i wish someone understood.

2 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2004 9 November :: 9.25pm

im gunna try to write a long update tonight.. about my life..

alright well today wasnt bad.. i have an art midterm tomorrow though.. =( dont ask, i know, midterms in november? its complicated.. i missed my stop on the train today.. me, erin, lex, julia, and erica.. cuz we're brilliant.. ms. postler was gunna lemme skip the global test today but if you miss the test you get an essay instead i was like fuck that im taking it and it was easy so yea.. i had a latin test today! hard as shit! grr i was sooo ready for that test and she puts the stupidest little stuff on it.. i was like grrr..

basketball's starting for julia and omg their practice doesnt start until 530 so they're home at like 8.. and they have to stay at school cuz it takes 45 minutes to get home and back to school so they're in school for 13 hours.. ouchh that sucks..

i dunno why.. i just cant shake the need for a guy right now.. just all the stress and everything.. i need someone to talk to.. not just like joking around like about serious stuff.. i used to be able to talk to tim about anything.. yea now hes too busy with his other life. i mean, in the summer he'd call once in awhile just to check in cuz hes in breezy the whole summer.. now hes like, when i text him he barely says a word.. im like ok, go ahead and drop me.. no but, for real, i need a guy who's gunna be there for me.. not like shawn, not like matt (lol we still arent talking lmaooo), not like tim... someone better.. err its bugging me lately..

haha but guess who;s coming next saturday!!!!!!! *ali knows* lolol aaaah! im sooo happyyy<3

omgg me and julia and bri.. funny convo right now lol

Hottshott8 [9:37 PM]: we get pizza tomorrow
Hottshott8 [9:37 PM]: !!!!!!!!!!!!!! and its FREE
BlindedByTears2x [9:38 PM]: lol
BlindedByTears2x [9:38 PM]: i know!
Hottshott8 [9:38 PM]: lol then after we got prank vadim
BlindedByTears2x [9:39 PM]: what are we gunna do?
Hottshott8 [9:39 PM]: lol i gotta think of something
BlindedByTears2x [9:39 PM]: lol
Hottshott8 [9:39 PM]: like it has to be the kik ass prank phone call
BlindedByTears2x [9:40 PM]: lmao
FoXy BrI BrI 3 [9:41 PM]: OMG AHAHAHAH BE LIEK ITS MONICA LEWINSKI
Hottshott8 [9:42 PM]: lolzzz
Hottshott8 [9:42 PM]: yea but thats for the white house
Hottshott8 [9:42 PM]: we gotta thin of one that fits vadim
Hottshott8 [9:43 PM]: like sumthing american he wouldnt no about
BlindedByTears2x [9:43 PM]: omg lmaooo
Hottshott8 [9:43 PM]: lol
BlindedByTears2x [9:44 PM]: im like crackinn up that was good lol
Hottshott8 [9:44 PM]: lol
Hottshott8 [9:45 PM]: i no lets call and be the pizza place and say he owes 500 dollars..be like ur money isnt good cuz its not amercian fortified and stuff...and then he l be liek wat and we ll be like dotn act liek u dont no wat we r talking about ...we no ur 100 percent american...and ..i dunno thats one idea..but we need soemthing funnier
BlindedByTears2x [9:45 PM]: omg
BlindedByTears2x [9:45 PM]: rofl
FoXy BrI BrI 3 [9:47 PM]: NAHH HES GUNNA NO
BlindedByTears2x [9:47 PM]: omg but it would be soo funny

im sorry i cant get enough of these girls lol.. alright im gunna update so i can have a seperate one for julia.. its FUNNY! lol alright brb..

:: 2004 9 November :: 1.40pm
:: Mood: depressed

..i just feel like crying

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:: 2004 8 November :: 3.22pm

i stayed home from school today.. (yay!) and mom took me to the doctor (boo!) and its just allergies so im not gunna die (yay!) but the secretary suggested i get a flu shot (boo!) and i hate shots!!!! oh well.. omg i wanna write a long update for you guys soo bad but i have 3 tests tomorrow.. nice thing to come back to, right?? ohh well.. i gotta go study, im typing up an outline for latin.. fun.. hope everyone feels better than i do!

<3 kris

:: 2004 8 November :: 3.04pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: the house of mouse on tv.

please vote!
i re-did my journal again.. VOTE!!! tell the truth, there's no way i know who voted!

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:: 2004 7 November :: 1.12pm

is it impossible for me to just get better?!?!?!

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:: 2004 6 November :: 10.04pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: Law and Order SVU

so bored.
Yesterday Jim came over.. he stayed for a few hours.. we watched The Day After Tomorrow or something like that. He left around.. uhhh- 3:30 am or so. I don't really remember. Today was boring- I didn't do anything.. so here are some quizes. I'm very bored anymore. Nothing good to write about.

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:: 2004 6 November :: 11.15am

aaah! im still not better!!! ive been watching disney movies all morning.. thats what i do when im sick.. so far i've watched 101 dalmations and aladdin.. the little mermaid is next.. lex called me before to see if i wanted to hang out cuz yesterday i said that i did but i cant today im still too sick.. i cant go to matt's game today.. and its playoffs! grrr.. oh well.. im gunna update, finish my game of minesweeper and watch the little mermaid lol.. ttyl

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:: 2004 5 November :: 12.19pm

funny convos.. more will be added all the time.. i need somewhere to keeep them, 'cause they make me laugh.
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yadiffy04

:: 2004 5 November :: 10.05am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: Black Mountain Side-Led Zeppelin

Hey pplz, Well, Im leaving in ten minutes to got to school, and then to my gparents for the weekend, Aub is going to Vegas, and Im gonna miss her, and I dont get to see Sami, or even call her. Oh, well, I say the HS band preform last night, it was very cool, then after wards, Aubrey wouldnt stop giving me hugs, but she had to leave early, cause something happened. So then shawna had like 5 peices of pie, and was hauling through the halls. It was pretty funny. Well, Ill update later!

Stevo

"Live is not measured by the breaths that we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."

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:: 2004 5 November :: 12.38am
:: Mood: tired.. but i can't sleep

I AM 59% ASSHOLE/BITCH!
I am abrasive, some people really hate me, but there may be a group of other tight knit assholes and bitches that I can hang out with and get me. Everybody else? Fuck �em.
Take the ASSHOLE/BITCH test at Fuali.com

yay.. everyone take this test, and leave a note with your results! yayyyyyyy.. wow, i'm bored.

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:: 2004 4 November :: 7.13pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: ciara feat. petey pablo - goodies

blah blah blah.. i've been thinking. what makes jim stay with me? i mean really..

i'm a bitch to him all the time, so is my mom. the other night i yelled at him for something so stupid.. okay? still he's nice to me and everything. i mean why would he want to be with me.. i have a baby. we'll it's his baby to, but he can leave any time he wants. i told him that.. we've definitly been through our rough times and i've "broken up" with him plenty of times.. but none of it ever lasted. he would always call back or come over and we'd make up. i don't know; maybe he really does love me.

<3

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:: 2004 4 November :: 5.47pm

well the only reason i went to school today was to present the group project so i wouldnt be the only one missing from the group and mess up the whole thing.. so i go to school and i get to 3rd period and WE DONT DO IT!!! omfg im gunna go crazy..