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2005 19 May :: 8.41am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: country shit.
i♥brittany marie.
well.. brittany slept over last night :) again. we had a grand ol time. we watched "White Noise" it kinda sucked. but oh well. my moma dukes is picking us up from school;taking us to britts;taking care of her mom;shade is getting us food;and then shades gunna take us to my house;brittany shall sleep over again. ive been having an awesome time while brittany has been over :) well.. i cant wait till after school. :) its gunna be effing awesome. :) anyway, jon texted me from his moms cell this morning in class. and we talked for a few. then he said he couldnt talk,and to write him a note and that he loves me. and i wrote him a note. saw him after 1st;gave it to him;i started walking away.. and i guess he wanted a hug and i didnt even notice. so when i went back to give him a hug hes like "whatver" and gave my 2 friends a hug. i was like fuck you then ya poop. i didnt say that but i wanted to. wow, i like him alot. i dont want to put hes like permenantly attached to my heart. its crazy. he could take my heart out of my chest throw it on the ground..watch it break;and i'd still love him. but when he takes my heart he gives it back in one piece. most of the time.he has no idea how much i like him. well..i dont know if he knows. but then again i like robin. : \ me&him are buds :) hes like "emily will you be my bud?" and im like "heck yess" this was yesterday on the phone :) it was cool.he makes me happy. :) golly. i hate this.poop. ok well, im gunna go now.
later.
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2005 18 May :: 8.21am
:: Music: brittany.
poop.
hey guys. well.. ive been slammed with work in my computer class. Grah. they "hose" you as Hill would say.. at the end of the year. its sucks rank ass. well this weekend i hung out with brittany. we went to alicias party. Then brittany slept over on sunday. we went to school. nothing interesting happened monday..that i can think of right now. yesterday went to work. called robin. talked to him for a bit. then went to the doctors. for my 3--month check--up. i need my glasses i dontk now when my moms gunna get off her lazy ass and take me. anyway, after that i went to work. me&ben had to stay till freaking 9. then we had to go to walmart where i was gunna meet jon. but i didnt look for him. lol. me and ben got gas. then headed home. we blarred some sweet music. everyones tellign me and him to go out. and shit. and we're like "we're like family" what the crap. its none of anyones business about me &him. his ex--gf's like.. thats how we started as she laughed. hahahahaha. thats like so totally funny. hahahahaha. fucking blonde headed noisy ass noog. she needs to seriously shut it. anyway, so far today is going alright. me and alison almost got into a huge fight. thank god alicia started talking. i got new medicine yesterday. i took it this morning. i feel the same..
Side Effects: May Grow Penis.
hahahahaha. funny stuff. i really like *him* what a poop. jeez. grah. i dont know what else to say. im out.
later.
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2005 16 May :: 11.58pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: are you who you wanna be-switchfoot
lifes been so hectic latley
well well . . long time no write . . just havent had the motovation. .im still not in the mood . . but im extreamly bored and waiting for my boyfriend to call me . . so i figured . .why not?!
anyways . .i have had so much going on latley between school. .and this piece of shit place i work at called ` papa johns ' . .and my grandma. .mikey. . kriSs & her house [[ im so sorry !! ]] rememberance of casey june sullivan. .and soo much more . . i havent had time for much of anything
well . .yesterday. . i woke up early and left danny`s house [[ he was going to work =( . .and kriSs. .and i decided to go to the mall. .after much contimplating !! we got a pina and a pretzel cause there the best yummy. .and we bought some clothes . .i was gunna buy a bunch of cute thongs but i was being cheap !! so i didnt . . and i regret it . .[[ oh well ]]. .then we headed off to work . . got some ice cream first though yummmmmy =) worked . .blew everyone was ready to walk out. . it was a rough night. . i left early with kristen`s car . .and came home to shower . .
she called around 1030. .went to get her . .and we headed over to mikey`s accident sight . .we walked around & talked about what happend. .and what we thought. .
oh god--> earlier on that day we went to kristens house. .to see the damage [[ for my sake anyways ]]. .it was awful straight from a movie. . i was shocked. .my hair smelt so bad of smoke by the time we left. .yuckk. .
yesterday was a ruff day
today however went a whole lot better !! thanks to my wonderful boyfriend <333 and our damned fishies =) heh. . we went down to galdea and 411 to get the tank. .gravel and what not. .cause we had to get a bigger tank that takes up our whole room ;)
but the dummy that my boyfriend is. .forgot is check book at home. . ya kno. .back in boynton so we drove back home. .had some dinner. . it was so fuckin good ;) yuuuuuuummmmmmmmmy
and then we bullshited around for not to long and headed back up there. .to buy our shit. .and do you know. .what i convinced my lovley boyfriend to do ?!?
black & hott pink gravel
mwahahaha =)) how awesome ehhh ?!
and then we have a pink calm that opens up and squirts out bubbles. .haha =)
anywho. .we bought that. .and went back to our house and got everything aranged. .and bla bla bla. .
thennnn. .we filled the bath tub up. .and put our bubble maker and the calm inside to make sure they worked. .heh it was so awesome. .anddddddd then we went over to zac`s to get a disk. .to fix his brokencomputer--> [[ =\ ]] then to publix to cash a check. .and thennnn to baskin robins. .and home. .ate some more of that yummy dinner we had. . .then juss chiiiiiiiilllleddd =))
came home after bullshiting outside--> forever ;). . <33
and here i am. . lookin codes up for him . .and resarching things for our oscar fish. .wich need names. .
any ideas ?!
comment some !! =)
daniel & ashy
forever &always ;)
i love you <3
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2005 15 May :: 12.38pm
:: Mood: contemplative
our fishiesssss !! =)
hah . . meet the namless fish =\. .
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oscar fish !! --> ` grumpy fish ' <33
heh
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2005 14 May :: 1.38am
:: Mood: calm
got boredddd
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2005 13 May :: 11.22pm
:: Mood: crushed
how could you
my dad just got home. .
he looked so hurt. .he has this look he gets . .when hes full of pain . .and i cant stand it . . it eats at me. . and he had it. .i knew he was upset. .and i know why. .thats harsh. . i read papers. .and it made it look liek hes some type of wild animal . .and that has to be how he feels. .
my mom was in the kitchen and he walked to her that look in his eyes. .and tryed tryed to give her a hug. .she walked right past him. .and whent in the bedroom and slammed her door.
my heart broke. . i never wanted to hug my father more in my whole life. .
hew went to the bathroom and walked to the bedroom door . .she locked it . she actually locked him out. .
i watched him walk to the closest door . . his eyes filled up with tears get a blanket and lay down on the sofa. .in his clothes he couldnt even change . .
i feel awful . . i hate that look . . then what followed . .
it reminds me of the goof troop movie . .when the son is really mean to the father and you can tell how hurt the father is . .
shes so cold hearted .
=( your not a bad person daddy . . just have a problem . .
were trying to help .. but shes out of hand . .
i love you dad. .
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2005 13 May :: 10.55pm
:: Mood: crappy
think ya can do it ?!
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2005 13 May :: 1.08pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: stained-been awhile
its been awhile since i could. .
hey fuckers. .hows it going ?? im really bored and dont wanna go to work tonight. . im in such a bad fuckin mood. .nothing ever goes right. .any fuckin ways. .i really wanna go to a movie tonight or out to dinner. . juss. . well ---> cause. .doubt itll happen ..
whattteeevverrrr
fuck offf ;)
and have a great fucking night
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2005 13 May :: 8.47am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: country poop.
that little ratty ass bitch.
yesterday was a crazy day.. i havent smoked in a long ass time. and yesterday ashleys like come on lets go, so im like sure why not. so we did and she showed me how to do this thing.. idk. it was weird. all i know is i kept doing it over and over and over again. and i couldnt walk. it was like i was drunk and high at the same time. i was laughing..and i was dizzy. and then all of a sudden i sat down on the ground in the middle of the hallway. just sat there for like 20 min. feeling like i was gunna throw up and heavy breathing. i was sweating so bad and it felt like there was 3497457 knives stabbing me. i was supposed to be in class. so finally i got up..still feeling like shit. taking deep breaths and ashley was holding hands with me.. i was too out of it to care. Shes like a sis so it dosent matter. but i had her spray me. and i went into class. i felt really weird. like i was gunna throw up. had the smell lingering on my clothes. my teacher kept glaring at me.. i fell asleep in class..in which i barely ever do. anyway, after 4th per. i saw ashley and we have 5th per. together so we went to smoke again.. but i didnt cuhz i still wasnt feeling good. this girl stopped and stared at us. and then ashley was done so we went back to class. as we were walking back, we hear "ladies" and we're turn around and this ladys like "i was just informed that you 2 were smoking" and we just stared at her and listened to what she was saying. shes like "why even bother at the end of the year? since it is the end i'll let you off, but dont do it again" and we're like "ok, thank you" and ashleys like.. if she wouldve done something i wouldve told her that you didnt do anything. we got back into class like 15 min. late. and ashley did all the talking. im horrible at talking to teachers cuhz i get an attitude. so she talked to her. and then i went on the rest of the day feeling like shit. guys, dont smoke. thats my story. the end.
i swear
if i could take your pain and frame it and hang it on my wall
maybe you would never have to hurt at all
im painting pictures in red and blue
a portrait bruised just like you
and now youre walking away
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2005 12 May :: 8.51am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: something corporate.
wow.. ive been really happy lately. i love it. im falling for jon all over again... i dont know if its right.. but its how i feel. i cant help it.
tonight we fly away so high
tonight we fly away
you know the moon is full and
i cant live without you
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2005 11 May :: 8.22am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: hawthorne heights.
poop.
robin called me yesterday for the first time. i didnt tell him to or anything. :) i talked to him for like an hour. then i had to go to work. i was at work for like and hour then i called him and he wasnt home. :\ me and ben had a heart to heart. it was nice. he was gunna let me drive his car a ways home.. but i didnt feel like it. so poop. got home last night ... ate . my mom told me she saw billy,bryan, and alicia when she went to get the food. billys the one that has to talk to my mom about us hanging out this summer. cuhz hes in college. hes a sophomore now :) ive been having weird dreams about him and other people lately. its weird. and i had a dream about a bunch of weird stuff last night.. and its all been happening so far today.. im like whoaaa. thats freaky as a bit. i let jon use my phone yesterday starting in 4th per. and he would give it back after 6th per. i gave it to him so we could text. :) well after 6th per. hes like ill give it back to you at the end of 7th. so im like ok. so i used brittanys phone to talk to him. then after 7th i couldnt find him. so i used alisons phone to call him and hes like im in overflow. im like WTF?! im on the bus. and hes like ill give it back tomorrow. im like w/e. so he better have it.. or i swear to god. its dead i bet. cant wait to see the lovely pictures he took with it. lol. oh well.. i love that kid.. so it dosent matter. well... i have nothing else to say at the moment. catch you guys later.
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2005 10 May :: 8.41am
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: got a single silver bullet shot right through my heart... to prove i cant survive without you.
poop.
i was in a great mood this morning.. cuhz me and alison listened to this mix CD on the bus.. :) and we were happy and jumping around and yeah. but then i got into computer and britt said something and i didnt get mad at her... it made me think. i dont know. maybe i shouldnt take it seriously.. but if thats what she thinks then maybe shes right. now im in a poopy mood. :\ britt i know your going to read this. dont be mad and dont feel bad about what you said.. cuhz hey you're probably right.. and i hate for you to be right on something such as this.. but hey truth hurts. and i'll get over it. thanks for the honesty though. :) i love you very much. well anyways, this bitch decides to take me and alisons seat this morning on the bus.. im like WTF ?! little bitch. i mean if she didnt talk shit to robin.. then i wouldnt really care.. but shes deffinetly not on my list of cool kids. i dont even know why she sits where we do. we all talk shit about her and her friend.. so whats the point ? if your bus talks shit about you... LEAVE GODDAMNIT ! she gets put to shame.. i tell you what . :) but its really funny. anyway, im having an alright day.. im not wearing a shirt under my jacket.. and alicia and alex said that they're going to pull the zipper down before the end of the day.. so im trying to get a shirt lol . oh well. oh and dont ask why i didnt wear a shirt lol. i felt like being free....? lol. well im gunna go. gotta read britts journal :)
catch you guys later.
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ill breathe you in
i won't let you down
i won't hold your back
i won't make a sound
i know what scared you the most
being alone
just like them
being alive
feeling so... dead
at least you'll have my... heart
you know you shine so bright
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2005 9 May :: 8.11am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: the fan. its this awesome band... it goes wooooosh.
im the happiest ive ever been. :)
well guys... my weekend was pretty cool. got off of work at 5. called anysia... went to her house. then went to some play ; her sister was in. it was horrible. but me,anysias mom, and anysia made it so fucking funny. it was awesome. people thought we were literally crazy. it was funny. :) then her mom dropped us off at my house. we got dressed up... dresses panty hose,make up, hair, and everything.. wanna know why? we dont know. just some random thing. thats my middle name.. :) anyways, saturday didnt get my hair done cuhz my mom is gay. hung out with anysia. went to target got my mom some pretty random/awesome mothers day presents . :) dropped anysia off. went home. i dont remember what i did. sunday.. went out for brunch at some super fancy place. had to wear a dress. grrrr. with makeup,high heels,hair,blah blah. My feet hurt so bad. After that. went to my grandparents house. tanned for a bit, then went on the computer.. met this really awesome kid matt. hes really hott.. and hes awesome ! i love that kid. :) we talked about alot . we have ALOT in common. we're saving up money to see eachother... but he lives in the same town that i have family in so i can just visit them. :) that'd be cool. he likes me alot. and i like him. we're cool. and we're both going to the vans warped tour ! :))) soo... im in computer now.. and its really gay. he thinks he's teaching us stuff... we're not even paying attention and we'll forget by tomorrow . lol . oh well. well im gunna go. catch you guys later.
shake down you make me break for goodness sake
i think im on the edge of something new with you
shout out dont drown the sound ill drown you out
youll never scream so loud as i want to scream with you
*matt*
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2005 8 May :: 10.49pm
:: Mood: in love
you & i have a better time than most
caneven dream. . have it better than the best. so
we can pull right through whatever tears at us,
whatever holds us down & if nothing can be
done, we`ll make the best of what`s around.
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2005 6 May :: 9.34pm
:: Mood: gloomy
FUCK EVERYONE
... that is going to the keeny cheesney concert
=( x 497u546897689749867985476585795475 and ten
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