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| shiznit05 (profile) wrote, on 9-2-2003 at 4:40pm | |
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| wow...times change so much im starting to think my uncle was my rock, ever since he died my life has just been odd, its been such a rollercoaster, so many feelings just coming at me, i cant even understand me half the time. i mean think about it, my uncle died at the end of july, since then, ive lost what i thought was a really good friend of mine - i mean we never see each other anymore, we never talk, word has it he hates me, but i dont know why and that hurts, but its ok, ive been hanging out with different people lately, i spent a whole day with jackie and i've never done that before, so she and i are closer now, i've played some pretty weird truth or dare games so ive learned more than ive ever wanted to and given out far more then i ever wanted to, im becoming friends with this new guy, hes pretty cool, always fun to be around someone new, ive cared about people more so than i ever have, i mean i was genuinely worried about ian when he was so exhausted after the game, i was scared to let him go off my himself, i ask people more often how they feel, who cares about me i want to know about them, and i never really used to be like that, idk, the last few months have been odd, the one guy i thought i would never get over, im over, i just wish we could be friends because hes a cool guy and i would like to just talk to him again, we used to have the best conversations, and before my uncle died guys consumed my thoughts, i used to always think whats wrong with me, am i so ugly that guys cant like me, is it physically impossible, am i that horrible, now ive come tothe realization, i dont need a boyfriend, i have friends, i have guy friends, im happy and nothing can change that, and right now life is good, so no one go around messing with that ok? |
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sushininja | 09-02-03 7:37pm It usually does take a huge change to make you think about what really is going on...
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shiznit05 | Re:, 09-03-03 4:21pm not necessarily, things would get better, but for how long? |
sushininja | Re: Re:Mraw, 09-04-03 8:01pm Probably not for long, and then it'd go into the shitter... |