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| Toki (profile) wrote, on 9-10-2003 at 12:44am | |
| Current mood: Pissed Subject: Lowlyness |
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| Okie....first of all I cleared a bunch of crap outta here....woo space! So overall, it was a crappy day. It was actually okay till tonightish. First, Jill was making me think back to last year for this thing she's doing and I remembered stuff I didn't want to and that made me mad at me...cuz I was soo stupid! Why didn't I listen to Zak?? He knew what he was talking about with the whole not letting friends influence my decision thing..I mean, he probably doesn't remember saying it, but now I realize how right he was. Why the hell can't I listen? Anyways, then when Mel was telling me about her and Charlie tonight I said something little kiddish as a joke. Then I started to be serious, and she started to talk to me like I was 10 years old, cuz she thought the way I thought was "immature" and "stupid" and even though she said that she didn't really think that, I can't stand feeling stupid...grrrr... I dunno why...but its not fair....I want to love life right now cuz I agree with what Yasamins been saying about how life is good, but I just can't see it right now...cuz either I'm putting myself down or orther pple do it for me and I hate feeling stupid! Cuz I know I'm smarter then how smart alot of pple treat me, but when I try to show it, they just make fun of me and treat me like I'm 5 years old....I may be 4 feet tall but I'm freggin 16 years old..the same age as mostly everyone...only a year younger then some and im sick of being treated lower. I dunno, I want things to be like they were during Les Mis. I wasn't happy, but I was ignorant. Atleast I didn't know how stupid I was. Anyways, got assistant props..Wooo! Big crew to work with, but funness ahead...Anywho...sleep is good...So I shall converse later...Bye! ~Me |
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mudpiegrl | amo, puella {i love you, girl}, 09-10-03 3:01am never choose ignorance over stupidity. Stupidity is easily cured by paying attention; ignorance must be forced and learned against. you arent stupid, you should know that by now. if you believe you are, then i guess you are...i suppose wahtever you believe of yourself is true, because you are your own worst critic and you hurt yourself. someone could tell you something a million times and if your belief and confidence in your opinoin is stong enough, no one can change it. no matter who, no matter what they say. and so i suppose, if your decision is fixed, i am typing a load for nothing. if you want to be smart...then hell, you are. ignorance are those girls who are naive and clueless...or just idiots...you, my child, are anything but ignorant. you observe so much more than the greater population. your logic is far beyond 16 years, and your brain is developed fully in intellegence to that of an adults. Sure, there is always more to learn, and do learn something every day, but your knowledge extends farther than the average 16 year old, specially if you add in all the druggies...youre attitude on life is advanced because you have realised that despite all you have to deal with, tis life and there is no point in being miserable and/or acting so, whether becasue life is too short or because you dont want to bring down fellows. i wouldnt even bother describing this all to you in such detail if i didnt truthfully believe it, so no doubts there...am sleepy...sweet dreams night |
Toki | Re: amo, puella {i love you, girl}, 09-10-03 12:39pm :-) thank you Jorie...but the one thing is that I KNOW I'm not stupid..I mean I do stupid things and I act slow sometimes, but I know I have some brains, I just hate when people act like I'm stupid or like I don't know what I'm talking about. Cuz I understand alot more then people say... I mean I may not know alot of STUFF, ya know, like school stuff or stuff or stuff about theatre or music or whatever people have up on me..but I can learn..and some people think cuz they have one thing up on me, I'm stupid..and I don't like being lowered, I'm already physically shorter then everyone...I don't need to be any lower..that is all. I am done...thank you Jorie...tu es una amiga bien(lol....baaddd spanish) |
mudpiegrl | Re: Re: amo, puella {i love you, girl}, 09-10-03 1:07pm  (reply to comment) |
mudpiegrl | grr Re: amo, puella {i love you, girl}, 09-10-03 1:08pm (reply to comment) |
mudpiegrl | Re: grr Re: amo, puella {i love you, girl}, 09-10-03 1:09pm fuck it
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Anytngbtordinary | 09-10-03 1:45pm Patrice, you are not stupid and you know that, everybody knows that. Im sure people dont mean to make you feel stupid but if they do just dont let them get you down. Believe in yourself because you are an amazing person and you just need to realize that. Don't let others put you down because if you let it get to you it drives you crazy and you start believeing what they are saying even when its not true. Back with the Zak thing, not letting friends influence your decisions, dont let them do that to your thoughts either. Well...thats about enough avoiding doing my project for the day. Talk to you later!!!
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Anytngbtordinary | 09-10-03 2:09pm Patrice, you are not stupid and you know that, everybody knows that. Im sure people dont mean to make you feel stupid but if they do just dont let them get you down. Believe in yourself because you are an amazing person and you just need to realize that. Don't let others put you down because if you let it get to you it drives you crazy and you start believeing what they are saying even when its not true. Back with the Zak thing, not letting friends influence your decisions, dont let them do that to your thoughts either. Well...thats about enough avoiding doing my project for the day. Talk to you later!!!
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sweetyas | Smartness, 09-10-03 9:31pm Patrice i agree with the zak thing about ignoring ur friends, cuz trust me some of them Cough Yasamin Cough, r stupider than u. U dont to be back in les mis times cuz u wouldnt know the butt theory or the smell theory. I know it was a cruel cruel world back then. No theories! |