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| spinoangel (profile) wrote, on 10-4-2003 at 10:31am | |
| Current mood: awake Music: something corporate - "globes and maps" Subject: dammit, i cant stop listening to it!! |
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| so. i haven't written in a few days. idk writing in woohu seems to be such a hassle now but like whenever i actually go and do it, i just seem to write and write. *shrug* i guess i'm weird like that. like all of us. so in the past few days, i've had much fun. considering that they were school days. things at school are just like stable and it feels all fine. i havent had an emotional outburst in like 2 weeks =) i know danielle is proud of me! so last night danielle and i had our usual fun. you can read the basics in her journal. i'll tell ya some more details. target... love that store. danielle: these are christmas lights... right? =D. idk why i remember things like that. she looked SO funny in the mask. soooooooo funny. better luck tomorrow dvd wasn't there so we couldn't buy it. otherwise we couldve just gone home and watched it since cabin fever sucked. anyone who likes that movie is seriously messed up. i mean.... the sex and the blood and the grossness and the ignorance and stupidity. those kids deserved to die. they are the stereotypical annoying teenagers. they say fuck like three times every sentence. ugh. and seeing those boca girls.... its sickening. i need a new friend. everyone has like new friends this year. and at dinner i was like "i want a new friend..." and danielle said everyone knows me already. *shrug* hmmm. i <3 my parents. i love my mom laughing at her own jokes. it was sooooo funny. talking about stick shift my mom: you have to shift a lot of things at once. danielle: it takes coordination me: yeah it would be good for you to be learning stick shift and the drums at the same time. my mom: at the same time?!? hahahahahahahahaha. so things are pretty good. i think i think about things too much. especially listening to this song. i want a boyfriend like REALLY but then i don't. i just still feel like i miss just having someone there. and luan, being the loyal boy he is, was always there to comfort me. *i wanna feel you breathe me*. feeling someone just like breathing next to you is a great feeling. and sometimes ... i just. yeah you know what i'm talking about. all you single girls know what i'm talking about. i wish we could all have boyfriends for the holidays/winter time. wouldnt that be great? we'd all be so happy and in love. i don't think that'll ever happen with me though. there's no one for me to love. no one is even my "eye candy". yes, alan is hot, and brandon is hot, and i still think chad is cute... but eh? i'm sorta like... who cares. and sometimes, it's just so tempting to go back into that "crushing and in love" mood but i know how hurt i feel when i do it. so i can't. but .... if only you knew the temptation. =\. sometimes i feel like i'm being used. and i'm not special. but... i guess i use him too. it's not a healthy friendship, is it? but he makes me happy. weirdly. i just can't like him. it's like i've forced myself to think i don't. it would just hurt. and he has a crush on someone so.... i will probably type this song EVERY time i write in here *light breaks underneath a heavy door. and i try to keep myself awake. fall all around us on our hotel floor. and you think that you've made a mistake. and there's a pain in my stomach from another sleepless binge. and i struggle to get myself up again. i wanna hang onto something that wont break away or fall apart like the pieces of my heart.* |
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sameen | 10-04-03 3:26pm we're new friends!!! |
spinoangel | Re:, 10-04-03 8:19pm thats cuz i feel like we've been friends for so long already. =) |
sameen | Re: Re:, 10-04-03 11:03pm |
alwaysfalling | 10-04-03 7:26pm driving stick and playing drums at the same time... lmao.... imagine the madness |