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christini (profile) wrote,
on 12-7-2003 at 9:10pm
Current mood: upset
Music: soemthing corporate- konstantine
Subject: can ONE day pass where i dont feel the need to go postal on one of my parents?
i hate that they find the need to provoke me each and every day.
i hate the way i let them get to me
i hate the way i let them make me feel like shit.
i hate that im so sensitive
i hate that he made me love him and then wasnt here to love me back
i hate how i became so cynical and pessamistic
i hate that i became so insecure
i hate that i question everything
i hate that i get so stressed out.
i hate how people can be so fake and mean.
i hate the amount of stuff i have to do and the amount of time i have to do it in
i hate that i never have any me-time anymore.
i hate that they dont support me.
i hate that im never completely happy.
and that im turning 16 in a few days and theres nothing i want more right now than for it to just be overlooked and to be left alone in my room where i can sulk and eat as much ice cream as i want for ever and ever.
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spinoangel

12-07-03 9:35pm

... life is a bitch. *hug*

<3

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colombiana

12-07-03 9:42pm

christine.. as i read your journal i cried. i understand so much of what you said. i know just how you feel. i know people say that but its so true. i understand you so much. and i just want you to know that i love you and you are such a wonderful person. i'm so happy i met you, and im so happy i have you in my life. i love the things you tell me, the advice you give me. and i wish i could offer you that. but im not a good advice person. but i will always be here to listen to you and do anything it take to put a smile back on your face. i love you so much. don't be sad. it's your birthday week.
love always and forever
- natalia

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christini

Re:, 12-07-03 9:55pm

<3 thanks both of you. for caring.
i guess i just feel so lost... but im glad i have people like you beside me to help me through. and not just you , but all my friends. the ones that i talk to and complain to, the ones that make me laugh at stupid things, i dont know what i'd do without you guys <3

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lizzy

12-07-03 10:29pm

2 more weeks baby. then i'll be bringing over the mint chocolate chip :) and we can eat it everyyyyday. feel better christini. we're all gonna make u feel sooo especial for ur b-day....

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pinkyfers

12-08-03 6:25pm

awww...christine...feel better...trust me...when your bday comes around, you wont want the ice cream anymore. all your friends will be there with you and you'll forget about all your problems. and even when they're not there in person, you shouldnt feel upset because you know that we all love you.

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lana

12-09-03 6:37pm

aww christine.. as i read your list of things you hate.. I had to agree of 99% of them. I know that we havn't talked in awhile, and I'm not exactly sure what's bothering you, but I promise, things will look up soon. =)

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christini

Re:, 12-09-03 7:36pm

<3.. thanks
they already kinda sorta maybe started to a little

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