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| sushininja (profile) wrote, on 12-7-2003 at 9:38pm | |
| Current mood: tired, lonely... Music: GY!BE (you know what that means Carmen) |
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| Hmm...Friday, I had school, just like any other day...at the end, I had my audition for District Honors band...I believe I did well, although I don't really feel like waiting a whole month for my results...too long to wait...bah...hmm, and then after school, I hung around with Carmen...went out and bought Mario Kart Double Dash (which kicks ass by the way...) She had plans, so she didn't come to pep band...I got Ian to come to the game, so we fucked around at the game...boys won, who cares...basketball is really worthless, just a bunch of dicks running around on a wooden floor playing with their balls...after the game, went over to Megans to hang out...was pretty fun, although not many people really wanted to play "Battle of the Sexes"...afterwards, on the way back to my house, James and Joshie had a "fender bender" that resulted in the consumption of most of my night...after that, I went over to Carmen's to talk...ended up staying a bit late, resulting in the grounding of me until Friday the 12th... Saturday, I woke up at 8 oclock, to argue with my parents, causing me to be 20 minutes late to work, 9:20...wasn't very productive at work, just talked about Jamaican's and their weed with Janet...after work, I sat in the parking lot and talked wtih Carmen...then I went and picked Coomes up, to hang out for the day and night...we played a ton of Mario Kart, almost to the point of completion...Also played Leech Hunter, part of RE0...very fun...we went and visited Carmen at work, got him some food, and then ventured up to Best Buy, where we bought some really crazy anime...quite a good time also, except for the fucking long line...called Britt several times, she told me not to die...which I didn't, and then we went over to the Devers upon our return to B.G. Crashed their game of Monopoly Junior, and then partially buried her sign in her front yard...good times...went home, caught Brian and Daniel at their house, and banged on the window...yeah...Carmen came over soon after that, and then we sampled the crazy anime selection...2 Excel Saga episodes, 1 Lupin III episode, 1 Heat Guy J episode, and 2 Haunted Junction episodes...Heat Guy J was just cool, not crazy, but the other three, oh man! Carmen left at 12:30 (supossedly 30 minutes later than the should have stayed)...Coomes and I played more Mario Kart, almost ad naseum (hehe, I love Mrs. Dunn)...Was up till 2:30, barely able to keep our eyes open, and unfortunately missed Carmen's call...sorry hun... Woke up around 8:45, went down and had breakfast...got into another arguement with my mother...Carmen believes I need to choose my battles, and to not say what is on my mind at the current time...went to church with Carmen and Coomes and my mother and sister...apparently I don't pay attention to the sermon...afterwards, took Coomes home, and then Carmen home...went out, and got donuts...came home, got whupped at Euchre, and then just loafed around...not a very productive day, although I did come to a conclusion about something...something I've been noticing...more on that later, though...I finally cleaned out my rat cage, which heavily needed it...Ishmael needs a bath, bad, so I will give him one this week, as it is FREE *cries*...didn't go up to T-Town to get my i-Pod, because the coupon we had excluded the i-pod...more money for me to spend...bah...took a nap tonight, an hour or so...had a meager dinner, leaving me hungry (of which I still am)...I usually eat when I'm bored, but apparently not anymore...yeah...' So what I realized is that it's not good for me to be alone...it's not the loneliness alone (AHAH, pun not intended) that causes this, but yeah...I need to be around people to keep my thoughts pleasent...at work, when I'm all alone, my brain wanders, to very dark thoughts, leaving me extremely depressed...as they did today...only God knows what this week is going to bring...and this is bad, because I shouldn't need to depend on people for my sanity and happiness, but apparently I do...not too good if you ask me... I'm probably going to go Christmas shopping this week...I really hate Christmas shopping...I do...not because of the money, but because of the thinking involved...I never know what to get people, and whatever I get them seems so trite, it doesn't feel like it's worthy...I feel ashamed when I do this... Quote of the day: "Why am I crying, I want to know. How can I smile and make it right? For sixty days and eighty nights and not give in and lose the fight. I'm going back to the ones that I know, with whom I can be what I want to be. Just one week for the feeling to go and with you there to help me then it probably will." |
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| Anonymous | 12-07-03 10:50pm I caused a lot of this...and I'm sorry.
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shiznit05 | 12-08-03 3:34pm Christmas shopping is a bother, i get fairly frustrated also, but dont even think about buying me anything, it'll cause less stress and i dont deserve presents |
sushininja | Re:, 12-09-03 9:27pm Everyone deserves presents, even the naughty ones... |
shiznit05 | Re: Re:, 12-09-03 9:34pm thats not what i was implying...its just that its not necessary alright? |