Glitterkisses | 06-27-04 6:05pm Jenna why do you even say things like that?
I've tried so hard to be nice to you, and be a friend, because I consider you one.
I hate talking about Jon, because you know how worked up it gets me. I *HATE* Jon, and it's even more frustrating when one day you see and agree on the things I'm talking about, and then the next you're inviting me and jess into conversations with him totally let him walk all over us. When all we have done is try to help.
I don't mean for this to sound mean, but I listen to your problems and I'm glad you can talk to me, but I'd rather not talk about Jon...ever. I've said that before too. But you still talked about him...so I just continued to listen. Thinking it would get better. but...here we are, and now you're basically saying you hate me because of who? Jon.
Erika is my friend to. She has been for a long time. And I'm not out to make you mad, or go behind your back at all. You think I'm just going against you, and I'm not. I tell you what I think you should know so you dont get hurt, and I've told Erika what I thought she should know so she doesn't get hurt. You're both my friends, and I wish you'd have a little more understanding with that. I'm not taking sides, I mean....I don't even want to talk about this right now. It's so dumb. I try to kick Jon out of my life, and yet still I hear about him ALL THE TIME! I'm just sick of it. Which I think is totally understandable.
You're absolutley right, you shouldn't tell me anything, EVER again about Jon. Things would be a million times better. For the both of us. Because all it seems to do is cause conflict. It's your life, not mine. My advice is no help, and what I think about Jon, or the two of you...doens't have any effect on anything...and it shouldn't. I think that you need to figure it out on your own. Which for all I know, you might have.
But it really hurts that because you can't see I'm on both sides, and trying to watch out for *both* you and Erika, because you're both my friends. That you think I'm stabbing you in the back because Jenna I'm not. You are my friend, and I don't understand how it's so easy for you to say things like "well yearbook is going to suck" and even say anything at all. I'm sorry if you think I double crossed you, but I'm just watching out for Erika too. Like a friend should. That, I can't help. And it'll always be that way, just like I'll always watch out for you...like I HAVE been trying so hard to do. It's your life though.
I just can't believe you even act like we wont be friends, or aren't friends. But whatever.
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