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| fadingintoblue (profile) wrote, on 6-29-2004 at 10:34pm | |
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| I know I'm feeling bad for stupid reasons. I can't help it; I feel guilty. I was really socially awkward when I was little (now I'm just regularly socially awkward), and I had a lot of camp counslers who didn't seem to care about me. I want to help the girls in my group. I care about them. I'm passionately pro-camp, I think it can really help people. But there's a girl in my group with special needs, and I can't handle her. I'm not even the leader, but I still feel responsible. Her mom got called and she came to camp (she was going to work next week anyway). She's a really nice person. But she flipped out this afternoon. She apologized later...but I still feel terrible. I know there are other things making me feel crappy right now, but I'm not going to focus on them right now. This problem has an end, which is Friday, thank all, so I'm not going to think about the other stuff (too late, oh well). | |
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godessalthena | 07-01-04 11:15pm You can't help anyone but yourself. I feel bad about stupid things too, and it ruins you. It isn't your place to change people, it isn't in your hands to decide who needs help. They'll ask if they need it. You can comfort them, but don't try and throw yourself into their life... |
| fadingintoblue | Re:, 07-03-04 8:35pm But...I have to help. It's my job. And these are such little girls (6 to 8), and I know that one week at camp can really change things, because it did for me. If they were older, and if I wasn't paid (peanuts) to be responsible for them, I'd try not to care so much. I know what you mean by being ruined by caring about other people. |