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| Sputnik (profile) wrote, on 9-25-2004 at 9:36am | |
| Current mood: Incredibly depressed Subject: Worst Morning Ever! |
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| To all you who don't know, my grandma died a little while ago ( like April or something) and I was okay with it. It was okay because I hadn't seen her in a long time because she lived in Kentucky for the last 3 yrs or so and I saw her like every 3 mnths or so. And I was prepared for it to happen because she had so many complications and such it had to happen. Well last night or this morning I guess I had a dream that this woman came up to me and she did everything like my grandma- even looked like her but wasn't. She sang the same stupid annoying old songs and liked to kiss me on my neck just to hear me giggle. Anyways, So I started feeling really bad in my dream and I saw this dog that looked just like hers ((a pomeranian)sp?) and I just sat there cuddling it and talking to it about how much I missed her. I woke up and I couldn't stop sobbing for Hours. I'm still hicupping a little. So anyways after about five minutes of crying and I think I'm under control I need my Mom really bad. I go upstairs and she's sitting on the couch and Dina has her friend over and they are all watching TV with her and I go and sit by her and she see's I'm crying and I tell her I had a sad dream about Grandma and just starty sobbing so hard and crying so much it hurt. My Mom's all hugging me and crying too. And the whole time I feel really dumb because Rachel is sitting on the couch and the night before Dina told her I was the cool sister and all. Oh well. I hate crying in front of people and will be emotional all day. I'm so ready to just have a good old time today. I need my friends. I need my music. I need my Grandma back. I need to stop crying. My head hurts. |
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jennapie | 09-25-04 11:48am I love you! and that made me really sad. At least your mom was really cool about it, and comforted you, mine would have told me to get tough. ahhaah. I love you and be happy! |
sugarmouse0587 | 09-25-04 11:48am i love you. |
holiday | 09-25-04 1:35pm Oh Becca :-( I'm sorry. You can talk to me about it if you want to. I love you hun. |
jbandkg | 09-25-04 3:57pm you shouldn't have a problem with crying I mean everybody does once i awhile. Hell I even cry yes it's been like a good 5 years since but it happens. |
brianna | 09-26-04 6:48pm Becca- that made me cry just reading it. Grandma died at the beginning of January and I still cry sometimes. I'm sorry that I didn't even know you were crying yesterday morning. I wish I could offer some kind of advice up- something of any use, but I have nothing and anything I say would sound superficial and empty. So, all I can do is tell you that I love you and that if you do ever need to talk about it, I'm all ears. I'm sorry, Bec. |
Sputnik | Re:, 09-26-04 7:46pm I'm okay now, I guess I just needed to break down about it eventually. I'm just prone to tearing up more often now than before when thinking about it.
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