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godessalthena (profile) wrote,
on 2-28-2006 at 7:48pm
Current mood: drained
beauty in the break down
so, i think i'm pretty much okay now... i don't feel so horrible. i'm getting ready to feel confident like i used to. i'm almost to the point where all the english assignment/in class writing opinion things don't dwell on the horrible aspects of how i feel and all that deep stuff that i think about when i'm sad.

i don't feel worthless to the extent i did. i don't feel useless or like i need someone there to force me to be a good person, i can do it by myself. i know i don't need anyone else for the most part. but i do need people ot help me move forward because that's how our lives are built.

i know i'm not pretending when i'm happy anymore. and i like that. now the only real problem is i have to work too much and i liked it better when i only worked friday through monday. not thursday through monday.

the human body is so... strange... and beatiful.

i'm sorry if i've been a shitty friend to anyone lately (especially jeremiah)... i'll do better now. i can't live like this forever. and i can't go back to the old way i was living.

so yeah, jeremiah... we're friends. friends...

i want to go to bed... damn it. i should read that fucking piece of crap.

'do you ever want to talk about this..?'

love,
nothing much to say.

p.s. i totally donated blood today because i'm awesome like that.
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lillypad

02-28-06 11:40pm

hey, in response to all the ranting i've done today, i guess i'm not mad at you after all.
i'm mad at him, but it's unjustified.
so i guess it was easier to (not really, because i didn't...) passively take it out on you...because that is justifiable.

i love you and thanks sooo much for everything.

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lillypad

Re:, 02-28-06 11:41pm

i hope that didn't sound bad....
i meant it in a fun...friendly way...
no hard feelings...
not that there ever were...

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godessalthena

Re: Re:, 03-01-06 8:38am

nope, it doesn't sound that bad. and no hard feelings.
i love you!

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xSwtLilAngel666x

03-01-06 2:59am

I wanted to donate blood, but I'm not old enough :\

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godessalthena

Re:, 03-01-06 8:38am

try again next year! i'm happy to hear you wanted to. a lot of people are too chicken and it's shameful.

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poisonedheart

03-02-06 10:55pm

I wanted to donate blood, but I apparently had a fever of 103.2.

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