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| .j.e.s.s. (profile) wrote, on 12-6-2006 at 11:34am | |
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| I have come to the conclusion that I hate this so-called thing called "The Real World". Is it wrong of me to sit here and listening to this MKTG 412 class start to leave the class room and converse with one another and feel completely certain that 85% of the words that come out of their mouths are so fake and empty? Is it wrong of me to feel that every sentance that is supposed to come out of them with feeling and emotion sounds to me as a lie. Is it wrong of me to feel totally weird that when they talk to one another it's just all an act. is it wrong for me to think about how they are acting like robots.... when they go home don't they change into sweats and lounge on their couches?? doesn't everyone? they dont honestly go home and stay in their buisness suits and panty hose and high heels and sit in an upright chair making charts and graphs... no one does that. okay maybe not no one. but REAL people. that is what i'm talking about. real people. don't they head home after this and start using SLANG words and maybe throw a cuss word or two around? isn't that comfortable? doesn't anyone go home and open a bag of oreos and dunk it in their milk like a normal person??? can you imagine a bunch of "suits" dunking their oreos? can you? please... is it wrong of me to walk into a church and get tears in my eyes because i feel like there are conformists. is that the right word? no... i feel like there are people who are certain of where they are going but are yet to find out they are not. ( this is not to offend ANYONE . this is not sarcasm, these are just my feelings FYI) Is it wrong of me to hurt when people are just talking to each other? I just analyze it all too much i know. But it hurts me that people are just... yeah where have all the real people gone i dont want to go to this school i want to go to a school where there are gays and there is a lesbian club and there are crazy artistic expressive people. i want to go to a school where everyone accepts each other and everyone gets to know each other. i want to go to a school that has an I LOVE JESUS club and tries to introduce everyone to the Lord. I want to go to a school that expresses individuality. i want to go to a school where people are real. i can't be cooped up here anymore. i dont know what i'm going to do with my life as far as a career and i can't stay here any longer pretending that i'll be satisfied with myself as a medical assistant or as a health whatever managment blah blah blah 4 year degree office type. Is it wrong of me to want something creative and new and fresh and meaningful ... is it wrong of me....................................... i know i wont ever MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN THE WORLD. but i have to do something.... smarter with myself. please I NEED TO HELP PEOPLE. i need to have a satisfying rewarding career. i need to know that with my everyday work, i make people feel BETTER. More ALIVE. More REAL. ugh. what do i do. ? please. |
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sugarmouse0587 | 12-06-06 2:29pm come live under my bed. actually i'll kick my roomate out and you can have her bed. i love you i love you i love you i love you. and i'll support whatever you do and you can come a be a social worker with me and everything will be okay and we can be frustrated and talk about people and say the meanest things and be grumpy and then sometimes happy and tell people to fuck off and then give them hugs. i'll feed you treats that will be delicious, but also good for you and you can bring elvis. and roman can come over sometimes too and i'll leave so you guys can make out. it will be fun. and meaningful.
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m&ms487 | 12-06-06 5:55pm You could just start a gay and lesbian club, or an I Love Jesus club.
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tare | 12-06-06 9:52pm It's never too late for anything and it's okay to feel this way. I'm not going to school next semester because I changed my major and I'm going to go to Ferris next year. I realized that if I don't become a nurse I am going to regret it for the rest of my life.
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.j.e.s.s. | Re:, 12-06-06 11:16pm i know... i just can't because there are other people involved.
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tare | Re: Re:, 12-07-06 8:25am I was going for journalism and technical writing... something I would have loved but I won't regret NOT doing it like I would nursing. |