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2004 3 September :: 10.23pm
:: Mood: Infuriated
:: Music: The patient, Tool
I know no one is to blame. But how the hell do you explain this? the world is so fucked up. Am I the only one that gets it? How did I jump so far ahead? She's back where i was last january. jesus' shit on a stick, I am about rady to kill something! Stop apologizing to the world!!! your full of this dramatic "Oh I'm horrible because I dumped a couple guys and stepped on a couple friends feet" shit! And then the "your not in my life so you wouldn't know, but just for your information I'm perfectly fine" shit. Shitty shit shit! Your not fine and I know it, I knew then, and I know it know. My intuition has never failed me. Not once. I don't think it'll start to now.
A groan of tedium escapes me,
Startling the fearful.
Is this a test? It has to be,
Otherwise I can't go on.
Draining patience, drain vitality.
This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old.
But I'm still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
And I'm still right here.
Wait it out,
Gonna wait it out,
Be patient (wait it out).
If there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
Gonna wait it out.
If there were no desire to heal
The damaged and broken met along
This tedious path I've chosen here
I certainly would've walked away by now.
And I still may ... (sigh) ... I still may.
Be patient.
I must keep reminding myself of this.
And if there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
And I still may.
Gonna wait it out.
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2004 31 August :: 2.09pm
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School starts tommorrow.
So, with that in mind, its hard to think of good news. But, there is some.I got a new guitar. It is very cool. To depressed to go into details. Ask paul. Good news no. 2. I got converse hightops. Wee.
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2004 27 August :: 10.47pm
And now i'm back! From outer space!
I WILL SURVIVE!
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ok. I'm back from the mystery trip. We went to camp perkins idaho.Our youth minister spent 5 summers there as a counsiler.It was fun. In the day we did stuff. At night we carried a flashlight on the way to the bathroom. Then shined it on anything we saw move and screamed NAKED GAY GUY NAKED GAY GUY! I'm tellin ya the naked gay guy story was the scariest of all scary stoies. But thats kinda gross. And i just remembered 90 percent of the people who read my journal are irls. sorry. Well thats a wrap. Bu-bye.
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2004 27 August :: 3.41pm
:: Mood: helpless/weak
:: Music: silence
Patrick
I'm leaving for whidbey...I'll miss him....now he's finally gone. My Angel is gone....
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2004 27 August :: 11.44am
:: Mood: infuriated
:: Music: piggy NIN
My battle...
I tried. i really did...look, laura, just don't come near me. my past...don't tangle yourself with it. I really liked you...it just wasn't enough. I wasn't enough. I'm not the man I have to be. I'm sorry...I really am...I know i'm horrible and cold. please...stay away from my past. it's just...too much. I have to handle it alone. It's my battle...and it'll either kill me, or make me stronger.
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2004 21 August :: 2.34am
Damn
I'm bleeding.
Red blood, I think.
I am sorry.
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2004 21 August :: 12.18am
Coolest. Secret. Ever.
Once there was a dog. He farted. He loved his master very much. His master loved him. His name was really ol' yeller. But once he got rabies. His master beat him to death with a shovel, then cried, then went insane because of a chemical imbalence in his brain. The end.
D'OH
I just remembered what the greatest secret really was. Wasn't the schfifty five thing?
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2004 10 August :: 7.06pm
Dammit Kalie you deleted all your entries. Why?They never hurt you. . . Poor little entries. . . .
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2004 7 August :: 6.18pm
oi!
I'm back in bla- errr wait. Back from the wedding. It was fun. I'd say it was worth the drive there, but not the drive back.So yeah. Updating. Like mandy says i should. :P
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2004 3 August :: 4.39pm
What would we be doing if we were alone in my room right now?
Post this in your journal to see what people want to do with you
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2004 23 July :: 3.50am
:: Mood: enfuriated
:: Music: Tool
morals
what is he trying to tell me? this doesn't make sence... it's like john said. You have a dragon to fight. go fight it. is this deep rage suppossed to help me? somebody explain to me how the fuck I'm suppossed to do this. WHAT ARE YOU SAYING TO ME!!! WHAT IS THIS MADNESS!!!!!!!!!!! what am I saying...I'm just and ignorant male...I'm worthless... just whip me...whip me to an inch from death. every day, whip me. because i deserve it. I'll never accomplish this... I'M SORRY FOR WHAT I AM, OKAY?!?!?!?!?!?! i'm fucking sorry... *cries*...i wish i were different. my morals...my fucking morals... they hold me back. like drizzt. he swore he would never kill another drow. now he can't kill drow, no matter how hard he tries. I swore i would die a virgin. now i will. goody. tori was right. i know she was. how can i possibly expect to find a lover if i sacrificed a crucial part of love: intimacy? so fuck it. fuck love. fuck it all. I JUST DON'T CARE ANYMORE. I HATE YOU KALIE!!!!!! I'll never loved you. i never did. so give it up. i don't know why i did what i did so don't ask. I was once the hunted, but now i'm the hunter. I am the monster now. fear me now. fear me, for i am hatred in it's purest form. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! i...hate...me....-cries-
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2004 23 July :: 2.58am
:: Mood: enfuriated/soothed
Suck and suck like a little parasite. drinking my blood and more flesh goes with every bite.
dear god what have I done...what am I? what is this primal fury I feel? she puts out the fire that burns, and replaces it with the twinkle of stars... look me in the eyes.... you'll know the difference from when she's with me and when she's not.
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2004 23 July :: 12.52am
Paul Reed Smith
I'm pretty tired really. I'm supposed to go to marks biirthday party tomorrow. my parents want me to go boating with them but I don't know... OH MY FUCKING GOD. MONDAY!!! FUCKING MONDAY!!! that's three more days!!! Then it shall be mine!!! mwahahaha!!!!
I'm getting a PRS!
I'm getting a PRS!
I'm getting A PRS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's red and its shiny and it has a five way rotery switch (Ewww....those suck....but with some brains and the help of a soddering iron I should be able to make it a three way with a tap!)
any who...yeah...I'm excited.
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2004 17 July :: 2.27pm
:: Mood: Nyah
:: Music: Washing Machine
See you around, Cowboy
Give me three random colors
1.White
2.Silver
3.Black
Your name is: Emily
You love: Him
You want: Non-diet Dr. Pepper
You wish: that I was at home
You have: cow slippers
You need: my mommy T.T
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2004 17 July :: 11.24am
poopty peupty pants-ss
Hey little girl, do you want to know a secret? It is a very good secret, and it is sooooo good to hear it. Do you want to know what it shwas? I'll tell you what it shwas.
I know
how to count
alllll the way
to shfifty-five
and i can do it
faster that you can say
poopty
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Ok. Shwam. doo. doo ein hief. Shforteen-teen. Twenty-seven hief. Twenty seven trirty seven
WHAT"D YOU SAAAAAAAAAY
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