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2007 14 February :: 10.56pm
Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark
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godessalthena
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2007 14 February :: 7.56pm
sometimes i seriously think i hate my parents
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aerii
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2007 14 February :: 5.26pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: tear - red hot chili peppers
today was weird.
but good.
but sad.
i unno.
<3
i got butterflies.
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godessalthena
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2007 13 February :: 7.18am
wonderful news!!!!! I got my letter from DigiPen today and I totally got in! yesssss....
i have been having a lot of dreams about children lately...
like... two nights ago i dreamt about a little girl.
last night i dreamt about a little boy.
the one with the little girl wasn't magical...
but the one with the little boy was...
and oh how i wish i could really have that.
that little boy was amazing. his name was peter.
and he was the best little boy in the whole wide world...
there was more to that dream than the little boy, but none of it is really important.
because the little boy was so great.
and seeing him leave was really sad...
<3
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poisonedheart
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2007 12 February :: 9.31pm
I found a letter that said:
"I'm sorry that you were asleep when I wrote these words down,"
You'd think I'd ought to be used to that by now.
Save for a few of those late night episodes,
Missed opportunities, and "I Don't Cares,"
There's not a lot that I feel obliged to share or talk about.
I'll have my brother stop by this Saturday to pick up my things,
Just make sure you're not there.
This may sound bad, and don't take it the wrong way..
I love you, however,
You hold me down [x4]
You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom.
How will I break the news to you? [x2]
Cancel our dinner with Max and Coraline,
feed Jacky's gerbil and try to stay clean.
We'll talk it over after I've had some time alone to sort it out.
You hold me down [x4]
You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom.
You're the leaky sink of sentiment,
You're the failed attempts I never could forget.
You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love..
How will I break the news to you? [x5]
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aerii
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2007 12 February :: 7.34pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: shout out louds
today was totally not a bad day, im going to miss hanging out with all those people at the falls :(
they're wonderful.
beau was being an ass today.
but eli was really nice, so we hung out and watched Diego in the food court.
pshha.
AND I FUCKING PASSED PORTFOLIO. beat that bitches.
with a tough reader, and i got a mofo'in compliment. sheesh.
i rock.
mmmm, and i dropped logic today.
and i miss morgan
and oli
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godessalthena
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2007 12 February :: 7.23am
i'm not looking forward to today.
just because i have to go to art...
which is great and i love art...
but i always feel soooooo pressured to be the best in the class and i am no where near the best in that class.
and then i freak out because i'm so insecure...
i hate being insecure.
grr.
i also hate being so large.
grr.
<3
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aerii
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2007 12 February :: 6.19am
i didn't know that...
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aerii
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2007 12 February :: 3.43am
:: Mood: anxious
today feels so messed up.
i keep thinking that today is wednesday but its not, lsdkjflskdjfs.
and im all anxious to talk to my english teacher
im all anxious to drop my classes
i feel like im screwing everything up slkdfjs lkblehhh
idk lsdjfsldkfj
and i couldnt sleep
today is going to be a bad day.
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aerii
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2007 10 February :: 8.20am
:: Mood: disappointed
i
really
wanted
to
go
see
the thermals
with
loren
but no
i had to go and screw things up.
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aerii
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2007 8 February :: 6.44pm
:: Mood: scared
just tie the rope
and kick the chair
just leave me hanging there, gasping for air
yeah dont mind me three feet from the ceiling
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godessalthena
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2007 8 February :: 8.36am
uh eh huh ehh greang;knrewi ;AD A G;A ;A;L kal; sg;l f;ao fg;lakh er;lacfbk adfla;hhrligauhakjdv cauh egluiahbkjblahg
the decision has been made adlsfalkskjdfa;dss
now i just have to wait for the letter...
aohga; oge aljgalkj rgi i'm so nervous...
i hope it's a yes...
gjakherglk ahrelikgj aekj galk gak joigaoig hvalhfgahf;ajflkjasdlkf akjsdhfaksjdhfkajshfdajf avjgas dhakjsa f
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godessalthena
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2007 7 February :: 7.46am
.... what the fuck is wrong with me..?
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poisonedheart
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2007 6 February :: 7.38pm
Oh how I wish I could disappear
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aerii
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2007 2 February :: 10.59pm
:: Mood: crushed
i feel so alone
and i dont fit in anywhere.
sldkfjsldkfjsdlkfjsdlkf
can i disappear now?
please...
i hate this.
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aerii
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2007 2 February :: 8.51pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: Crystal Ball - Keane
kasdjflskdjf
so basically
i forgot what i wanted to say.
but i feel good.
life is good.
and you should feel good too.
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aerii
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2007 2 February :: 5.24am
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: longest winter - pedro the lion
my daddies birthday is tomorrow.
im so sick of being grounded.
i just want to leave this place.
uslkdjfsklsskjfjfjfksloooplsdj
anyway, im glad its friday. i'm really starting to not like school. a lot. i just want to give up. thats bad. hmm. and i hate riding the bus yuk yuk yuk.
so basically i dont know whats going on with me anymore.
i feel like i dont know myself and i feel lost.
but i feel content too.
my stomach is twisting around and driving me crazy.
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aerii
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2007 1 February :: 7.30pm
:: Music: you will never take me alive - the paper chase
today was... different
and i don't really know how i feel about it.
so many things came at me.
i feel happy
i feel.... new
im wearing a big grin.
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godessalthena
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2007 31 January :: 9.47pm
well.......
today has been rather uneventful...
my art teacher told me i made a few good drawings and implied that he expected more out of me... i don't know if that's a good thing or not...
gaaaaahhhh i want to know if i got into digipen..... i want kevin to mail that letter!!!!! gaaahahahahgkjrbalkjrgba;lkjgba'dvb
yeah...
i'm starving... but i don't want to go buy food. and bread is gross plain...
hm...
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aerii
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2007 30 January :: 6.33pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: how can i tell you - cat power
i feel like no one cares what i say or what i do
or who i am
i feel forgotten
and hated.
i feel judged and i feel like they're all mad at me.
i feel immature and gross.
i feel like a fake.
and i dont want to anymore.
i want to be me
i want to be real.
help.
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aerii
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2007 30 January :: 5.01pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: we got to get away - caesars
learn to take a joke.
and stop assuming things about me.
im pretty fucking complicated
and its hard to read me
so dont just go around preaching how i feel
when you dont even fucking know.
but im super excited for thrusday
AHAHAHAHlkdfjslkdfjlskdfjlskd
butterflies
major.
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godessalthena
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2007 30 January :: 1.33pm
today. and yesterday.
those days.
bitter.
and i want sweet.
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aerii
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2007 29 January :: 5.26am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: the killers
if the answer is no, can i change your mind?
p.s.
Samantha had her freaking baby!
ahahahaha
ima go see it today!
yay!
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aerii
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2007 28 January :: 11.07am
:: Music: tokyo police club
i'm scared.
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aerii
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2007 27 January :: 4.05pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: maria taylor
i really should be writing that paper.
right now i just want to drop out.
bleh.
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aerii
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2007 26 January :: 8.46pm
:: Mood: anticipating
I can't explain the state that I'm in
The state of my heart, he was my best friend
Into the car, from the back seat
Oh admiration in falling asleep
All of my powers, day after day
I can tell you, we swaggered and swayed
Deep in the tower, the prairies below
I can tell you, the telling gets old
Terrible sting and terrible storm
I can tell you the day we were born
My friend is gone, he ran away
I can tell you, I love him each day
Though we have sparred, wrestled and raged
I can tell you I love him each day
Terrible sting and terrible storm
I can tell you...
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aerii
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2007 26 January :: 7.26pm
:: Mood: disappointed
this sucks.
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aerii
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2007 25 January :: 5.28am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: The One I Love - Sufjan Stevens
i didn't know that the score you got on your IQ test depended partly on how long you took.
maybe thats why my score went down last time i took one
ahaha
i would answer a question then walk away for 5 minutes
im cool
haha
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godessalthena
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2007 24 January :: 6.28pm
i'm incredibly tired today.
i don't know why...
i hope this isn't going to become a pattern.
ouran high host club is a really, really funny anime.
i <3 it.
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aerii
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2007 24 January :: 4.46pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: Am I Wrong - Love Spit Love
shes like a clone.
eww.
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