This is for kids worrying about the apocalypse.

:: 2003 6 November :: 10.40pm
:: Music: Bush - Sixteen Stone

hmm... so I didn't make all district jazz. oh well, theres always..., well there isn't. sucks for me.

I hate how my furure is so up in the air. I have a pretty decent sat score, but a shitty gpa. no chance for academic scholarships. I can probably get a music scholarship to a shitty state school, but if it doesn't pay for the whole thing, I don't want it. ::Wishes he could afford Berklee:: I was seriously concidering being in the Army or Navy band program. It's three years, but I get to go to the Military School of Music, get a paycheck, play sax all day, and get $30k for college after the three years. It sounds pretty sweet, but also sounds like it would probably be the worst experience of my life at the same time. If scholarships don't pull through, it may be my only option. I dont want to mortgage the next ten years of my life to pay for undergrad.

I hate how my future is still up in the air. I hate how I've lost touch with everyone I know. I hate feeling lonely.

5 have doubts | variations on the age-old curse

:: 2003 5 November :: 7.01pm

** basics **
Name:: Vivi
Nickname:: um... Vi-ster, Giraffe!, Kitty(not to be confused with MY kitty haha), sweet girl
Location:: mouth of the friggin MOUSE, Florida
Gender:: sweet sweet lady :0P
Birthplace:: Concord, Massachusetts
Birthstone:: ummm i think turquoise
Birthday:: 12.20.85
Sign:: ummm Sagitarrius & OX on the chinese zodiac
Righty or Lefty:: righty
Screenname:: picsxstarsxdream
** your looks **
Height:: 4'11 & a half :0P
Weight:: um too much.
Shoe size:: 7-8 depends
Hair Color:: black although i've been told many times its not really black but dark brown.. sorry.
Hair Length:: its all crazy, getting long
Eye Color:: dark brown
Size:: size of what?
Glasses:: only the emo kind :0P
Braces:: no sir
Piercings:: ummmm belly button and ears i guess
Tattoos:: i'm pending
** fashion **
Where do you shop:: whereever i have free money :0)
What do you usually wear:: t-shirt and jeans
What kind of shoes do you wear:: i have over 50 pairs of shoes... i <3 my tie dye chucks though
Do you wear a watch:: used to. (Official time keeper :0p)
Color you never wear:: i'll wear anything really... i'm not too fond of like senior citizen grey though
Color you wear at least once a week:: probably green or pink or blue or everycolor
Something you wear everyday:: my necklace
Do you wear make up everyday:: generally
Make up essential:: depends when and how early i wake up :0P
Most cherished piece of clothing:: my turtlesaur shirt. <3 twins <3
You wouldn't be caught dead wearing:: biker shorts.
Do you wear belts:: no
Do you wear hats:: no
How many pairs of shoes do you have:: a bazillion ... over 50
** music **
Favorite kind of music:: i like everything i guess more emo/indie stuff
Least Favorite:: i really can't take "gangsta rap"
How many CD's do you have:: not too many that i've bought, many that i've made
Last CD you bought:: oh dear... i'm trying to remember but its not coming to me... maybe Hail to the Thief?
Whats in your CD player right now:: ummmm the Postal Service
Do you download music:: i used to until Kazaa went crazy
** Favorites **
Color:: all of them... purple, turtlesaur green, orange, pink, red etc.
Number:: 1,7,8,9,11,12,20
Season:: winter or spring
Ice cream:: oh dear. i can feel the fat already... mint chocolate chip i suppose
Website:: yo no se
Quote:: "Go directly in the direction of your dreams, live the life you've always imagined" - Thoreau
Store:: i probably spend most of my $$ at Express
Band:: Beck :0P ... any many many others
Singer:: Jolie from the Rocking Horse Winner
Rapper:: Outkast
Group:: um... Simon and Garfunkel :0P
Song:: Smashing Pumpkin's version of Landslide
Movie:: not fair. Being John Malkovich, Secretary, Amelie, American Beauty, Donnie Darko, Empire Records, Vanillla Sky, Sliding Doors, and a bazillion more
Actor:: Johnny Depp
Actress:: Liv Tyler
Kind of movies:: movies that you come out of thinking "WTF just happened!"
Place to be:: laying in bed with Greggy poo
Time of day:: 9pm :0P
Clothing Brand:: whats with all the clothes!
Animal:: kitty <3 puppy & baby kitty & elvis & Miss.Kitty aka Princy & gatito
Food:: i really like food like a fatty.
Holiday:: no preference i don't think
Shape:: star, heart, circle
Restaraunt:: i have lots of these too... the french place on Federal & Yamato, Melting Pot, La Casita etc.
Fast food place:: Taco Bell, Checkers, KFC
Boy's name:: Shane, Keith, Luke
Girl's name:: Elsa, Rainer like Rainer Maria lol i duno, others
Word:: wow.
Month:: December, June
Candy:: twizzlers, gummi bears
** love and relationships **
Sexual Preference:: i admit it. i like the cock :0P
Boyfriend or Girlfriend:: boyfriend.
Crush:: like i'll crush you up
Do you believe in love at first sight:: i don't know
What do you look for in a guy/girl:: the whole package, looks, personality, smile, compassion, chemistry
Best physical feature:: HAIR! heh , eyes, lips, smile
Best hair color:: i like darker colors i suppose
Best eye color:: anything thats not shit brown like mine :0P
** randoms **
Do you paint your nails:: ummm toenails
What color is your tooth brush:: silver i think
What's on your desktop:: nothing special, haven't set preferences on new computer yet :0)
Do you like roller coasters:: absofreakinglutely love them!
Do you do drugs:: ummm i'm taking a prescription for a sinus infection?
Are you a virgin:: a girl unblossomed me didn't she? oh wait.. that was Jessica :0P haha
Do you have any pets:: my love, Miss Princy Kitty Elvis & Baby Kitty ;0P
What time do you go to sleep:: probably earlier then you.

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1 have doubts | variations on the age-old curse

:: 2003 3 November :: 12.00am

Happy 20th Birthday my love.
<3

:: 2003 2 November :: 11.30pm

despite being horribly sick, i had the most wonderful weekend <3

*Gainesville was fun.
*Orlando was better.
*Laying in his arms was the best <3

Happy 20th Birthday Benjamin John Garbarino for another 30min.

Happy 20th Birthday Gregory Luke Pishko in 30 min. <3<3<3

:: 2003 27 October :: 10.09pm

New game plan:

-Be nice
...to everyone.
-Smile. A lot.
-Be exceptionally nice to people I've been mean to.
-Be more assertive.
-Talk. To everyone.
-Don't be shy.
-Be positive.
-Pretend that I'm happy.

7 have doubts | variations on the age-old curse

:: 2003 27 October :: 5.17pm

on site admissions rock.
definately got into FIU today.
definately got offered scholarship money.
sweet ass, i'm going to college haha.

i guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens w/everything else... keeping my fingers crossed.
I think i need to actually take a trip down to Miami and see this school now that I can go there :0)

hmmmmm i think UCF is next on the reply list then Nov 25th is onsite FAU visit (you know how they like the IB folk)
then FSU & UF and thats all folks.
I think i'm going to apply to USF ... i'm not sure yet.
bother.
this sucks.

4 have doubts | variations on the age-old curse

:: 2003 26 October :: 6.29pm

this weekend was GRANDE x a bagillion!

FRIDAY~
Homecoming game vs. Dwyer. we lost. great.
we marched better on Friday then we'd ever & we got a pseudo drum war!!
Greg stayed over <3

SATURDAY~
* got to school around 1.. loved seeing everyone run around, cleaning instruments, getting uniforms.. quite refreshing
* senior speeches... made me remember how much I really do love that crazy dysfunctional organization. A lot of people said that my speech was really good and it really touched me when a lot of people who I didn't know too well came up and just gave me a hug telling me "it was a pleasure marching with you" or "i liked your speech the best"... i can't believe its almost over...
* got to FBA @ Sanataluces and warmed up... we marched out to the waiting area and what do you know, it starts raining sooo the woodwinds run for cover under the concession stand overhang and we wait. It lightens up so we went back out. Marched out and started our show. Once we started playing our first notes, the rain just started pouring down... thankfully after our first song it kind of lightened up. Our performance wasn't as good as it had been the night before but thinking optimistically as we ALWAYS do ::sarcasm:: we just figured it was the festival we wouldn't forget :0P
Finished marching and ran for cover. no pictures :0(. Mr. Lerner got the results.

we got a SUPERIOR! as he announced it I just burst into tears, I don't know if I had ever been happier in my life.. it was such a good feeling... a superior for something i'd worked so hard at and something I definately wasn't expecting. We got through it, Atlantic Community high school band is on its way back to the great band it used to be. Great goodbye present :0)

* afterward we left and Gregory picked me up and we went out for his bday dinner @ Dean Anthonys (great fettucini!!) it was nice.
* Gregory carved me a pumpkin. i love it (almost as much as i love him :0))
* picked up the boys & Cyndi from Ericas house... I said fuck in front of her mom (twice!) POOR.

SUNDAY~
* woke up early and went to church with Gregory & his padres.
* realized how much Catholic church really sucks in comparison to other denominations.
* hung out with my lovey all day and now hes gone :0(
::sigh:: i really do love him sooooo much... 5 months in a week!

TOK essay due tomorrow... i haven't started. go me. oh yeah. i heard homecoming was fun but i wouldn't have given up my weekend for anything.
<3

:: 2003 20 October :: 9.42am
:: Mood: relaxed

Damn, maybe I should try to go to school more often.
Lemmie see.... Haven't been to class since wednesday, and haven't been to a full day of school since last tuesday. go me!

5 have doubts | variations on the age-old curse

:: 2003 16 October :: 1.59pm

fuck you ticketmaster

:: 2003 16 October :: 12.42am
:: Mood: goat

Holy FUCKIN shit!

1 have doubts | variations on the age-old curse

:: 2003 14 October :: 11.24pm

Oh FUCKIN snap!

:: 2003 6 October :: 2.12am

helllllllo!
guess whos sitting right behind me right now (done guessing?) :0)

heh he loves me :0)

thats all.... will be cross posting from LJ when my lazy ass gets up and does something.

oh yeah. i'm in Gainesville woooo!
<3<3<3

:: 2003 27 September :: 1.07am
:: Mood: drained

Somehow today I went from alphabetizing 40 year old jazz charts to being less than 10 feet away from a team of professional baseball players drinking champagne, beer, smoking real cubans, and freestyling in a crazy celebration.

Man, I'm fucking tired.

I'm proud to say I saw the Marlins get the oh-so desired Wild Card in person. I'm also proud to say that I'm a real fan. I'm not the person that came because they're winning. I'm the person that came all season, and came as often as I could, even when they sucked. I'm proud to say I'm a fan.

Well anyways, I had a lot of fun. My dad and I met this med school student from UM. He was an awesome guy. Sorta reminded me of Clark Rosesweig. School: sucks. I can't stand health. Art history bores me to death. Once we get out of this B.C. bullshit, I'm sure I might enjoy it more. Holy fuck. Me: pissed. Can't go to the FIF farewell show because I have to work. If I'm late or absent more than two times before Dec. 15th, I get canned. FIF is cool and all, but they're not cooler than payday.
payday > FIF.

peace
-A.J.

:: 2003 24 September :: 11.06pm

i'm kind of peeved.

this needs to be a real confrontation but, things need to change.

regardless of what (you) may think or regardless of what (you) can or can not do, it isn't your decision, its mine.

i don't need extra drama and I know that (you) don't either. I know you think you know everything but guess what buddy, (you) don't.

there are many more of us who have been doing this for a heck of a lot longer then you, when there was actually something worthwhile at the other end. Maybe you'll learn from your mistakes, I tend to learn from mine.

thats all for now.

in other news, Gregory Luke returns on Fri <3

:: 2003 20 September :: 2.44pm

i'm far too lazy to fix my last post. It's beary purdy @ www.livejournal.com~plainmornings

:0)

:: 2003 20 September :: 1.56pm

fuckin fuck
I was all happy: I got suspended from work for a week. Great. So today is my first day back. About a month and a half, or two months ago, I said that I could work Saturday mornings, which was a big change from having not worked a Saturday at all in over a year. It was all cool, I worked Saturday mornings until I got suspended. So now I'm off suspension, and what am I scheduled to work? Saturday, 6pm - 9pm. Fuck you Publix. Only three hours too. Maybe I wouldn't be so pissed off if they actually gave me a full shift. I was all excited about going to Sharif's show too. Fuck. Sorry bro

7 have doubts | variations on the age-old curse

:: 2003 18 September :: 8.25pm

news straight from Gregs horridly messy room:

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the.end

:: 2003 14 September :: 9.53pm

Rebecca Romijn-Stamos on her first appearance in Sports Illustrated:

"...I mean, how did Louis Armstrong feel when he was the first man on the moon?"

What a wonderful world....

:: 2003 14 September :: 3.23pm

hes gone again :0(

I guess I really have no reason to be sad because I'm really lucky I get to see him so often and we had an amazing weekend.

Him staying over was the best idea we've ever had :0) i woke up Sat morning to him just staring at me... kinda creepy but ultra soothing too. We took a crazy long nap yesterday and watched One Flew ove the Cukoos nest. Last night I awoke to Greg laying on my arm and VERY loud purring.. my kitty was sitting smack on my stomach and chest, it was a very weird thing to wake up to but kinda funny. I tried to wake Greg up but he was all sleepy. shame. I got to see him after my class this morning. I miss him already :0(

BUT! I get to go to Gainesville on Thurs so that'll be nice :0)

oh yeah. We lost Fri night vs. Glades Central. (46-27 i think) it was... sad. I was kinda out of it Fri night.. I went wake/kneeboarding & tubing with Paul and Matt before the game. Sun exhaustion + crazy bruises EVERYWHERE! + no water or food = very worn out Vivi ... although i'm all in pain and stuff it was really fun. (<3s for Pauly & Matthew.)

I have a spanish oral tomorrow. I don't know ANY SPANISH!!!!!

i have to go to work in like 10min. This sucks.

6 have doubts | variations on the age-old curse

:: 2003 13 September :: 1.46pm
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: Big D and the Kids Table - Checklist

"Oh no Lois. A guy at work bought a car out of the paper once. Ten years later, BAM. Herpes"
Theres a FIF concert in Palm Beach Gardens on Saturday the 27th at some church. fuckin christians. it's their farewell tour. im soo there.

So on to real news: I got suspended from work for a week, so im pretty relaxed. I'm a little pissed though, because my gym membership expired, and I finally have time to go. It's been hard to get there while juggling school, marching band, and work all the time. Hopefully after FBA I'll be able to get there more. Im getting more and more out of shape every day.

Speaking of band, I'm not really happy with everything that is going on, but I can say I'm having a lot of fun. Everytime I see something that I really don't like, I just think that this is my last year, and I should try to enjoy band, and not be pissed about the little things. I had three years to do that. This is the fun year, and I'm keeping it that way. If people want to be pissed off about drum wars, or this and that, they can. I'll just sit back and watch. For real, it's not that important to me. I just want to have fun and enjoy myself, not be upset and complain every game.

Anyways, this Peter kid is such a fucking awesome sax player. I think I can honestly say that hes better than both Fowee and Bethany, back when they were here. My new goal for the year is to strive to play as well as he does. I need to practice more.
I'm out.
-A.J.
<3's

14 have doubts | variations on the age-old curse

:: 2003 9 September :: 7.00pm

i think of how frustrated i've become with everything. Today just pulled my last string with band. After class I went in to tell Mr.Lerner that I was going to miss the Sept 19th gamve vs. Martin County because I am going to be going to Gainesville to meet with the music school up there... Lerner breaks out with "well, you have a commitment to the band, you made a commitment to tuesdays, thursdays and fridays" to which I responded "I understand but that was the only date that I could get a meeting with the administration and I could go up to gainesville" to which hes like "well you have to stick to your commitments" & I said "Well I also have a commitment to myself to go to COLLEGE!" to which he responds "well maybe you shouldn't pick conflicting commitments" and at that point i just kind of blew up saying "If i have to choose between band and going to college, i'm going to college" and dashed out.

Its funny... something i used to love so much has become the bane of my existence. I truly despise what this organization has become. I can honestly say that i am ashamed of meeting other band members after they have seen our show (or lack there of) ... I am co captain of this band, whatever that happens out there is a direct reflectiono n my leadership skills (or lack thereof)...

if things get worse (and i thought i'd NEVER be saying this) then chorus & Mr.Houchins aren't looking too bad...

::sigh::

3 have doubts | variations on the age-old curse

:: 2003 8 September :: 11.18pm

Do you hear the people sing?

:: 2003 7 September :: 9.39pm
:: Music: thrice - kill me quickly

its about time I do a real update
Jeez, I musta bought this album around january, back when I started going to river. Everyone was telling me how awesome thrice was, so I thought what the hell. I gave it about 2 quick listens and I really didn't like it. Recently I gave it another listen, to see if I wanted to trade it in, but I found that I was really diggin� the first track. I can�t really say I like the rest of the album, but maybe I'm just unenlightened.
I also bought the new Deftones album this week. The songs are all rather slow, and some sound alike, but they surprisingly fit together perfectly, and make it a nice chill album. It's a little reminiscent of White Pony, but I don't find any of the songs on this album to be "single worthy," with the slight exception of Minerva.

Now on to bigger and better things.... My friend�s mom told me I look like the guy from the show The O.C. But more importantly, I owe a big one to Heidi, Jess, Dave, and Alex. Sorry about the kegger. It turned into a buncha guys at the beach with an empty keg we couldn't get filled, and various other bottled beers. Sorry for not being home. I'll make it up to you guys. I promise.

But besides the alcohol, my life has been pretty lame. It seems that I have no free time anymore. When I don't have school or band practice, I'm working. It really sucks, but the money is good. Speaking of that, I'm getting a new tenor sax. I have twelve months of no interest to pay off, so I figure I'll be broke for the next year, and won't be driving until sometime after that.

Well stay tuned for the next tale, as our hero A.J. does absolutely nothing, and writes a whole entry about it. What pointless things will he say next? Tune in, same pointless website, same pointless journal. Good night folks!