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2025 19 January :: 6.44am
put in an offer on a nice ass house, it was accepted. getting major cold feet.
feeling abandoned by my family.
fucking on my wits end with this child. only because I'm having pms. and that makes me feel so incredibly guilty.
I'm tired. and heartbroken. and frustrated.
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poisonedheart
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2025 12 January :: 5.09pm
It honestly feels a little surreal how “together” my life is these days considering what an aimless shithead I was for so long.
I’ve got a good union job that will carry me to an early retirement, and I even enjoy it. I’ve got a loving wife, an amazing kid. My only remaining debt is my car payment and $2100 in student loans. I’ll probably be buying a house within three more years.
I feel like I don’t deserve it, but, it still feels amazing.
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godessalthena
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2024 16 December :: 10.29am
that feeling when you find out your best friend has cancer and there's really nothing that can be done.
I'm not ready to say goodbye.
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godessalthena
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2024 16 November :: 8.13am
I am so thankful and grateful and just beyond in awe of this process.
but man do I feel lonely and isolated.
and the closest therapist in network is two towns away. and there's only 8 for this whole metro area. I haven't reached out yet, idk who to pick.
I've lost 15 lbs in a month and a half. ultimately I'd like to lose a total of 100, but baby steps is where I'm at. I think I'm definitely looking better. soon I'll be able to fit into my pre-baby clothes. my lightest weigh in was 227, I'm at 242 right now. slowly but surely. all this Halloween candy doesn't help... we only had 5 groups of trick or treaters! super lame turn out.
we are sleep training the baby right now. it is exhausting but I think we are making progress. she's so smart and strong, she just amazes me every day. now if only we could get baths to be fun.
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godessalthena
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2024 4 November :: 8.11am
my life is perfect the literal American dream
to complete it all I need is a prescription of Xanax for this intense morning anxiety I feel for no specific reason. makes me want to jump out of my skin and run away.
my baby loves dancing to old house music. she can't dance on her own but she loves when we make her dance. she's so fun
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