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angel_bob

:: 2007 18 November :: 10.11pm

You don't have to read this.
I am uber-depressed. This shit sucks, bitches.

I am still having serious trouble readjusting. I am not going to class, slacking off when I actually am in class, not writing papers until late or not at all...it's like work is the only thing I am doing. And I latch onto that to get me through the day.

It's like after four months of vacation, I can't do anything but be very lazy. It's a good thing I'm not the only one feeling like this or I'd think I was crazy.

I can totally see how that girl who went to France a few years ago dropped out of school and wasn't able to make it through. I just feel like I can't do this. And this is a thousand times easier than being in France.

It's like I can't do life anymore. This is so frustrating.

I went to help with the study abroad orientation and the coordinator of the program asked if any of us were having or had trouble with reverse culture shock. We said yeah and then she asked how bad it was. I said it was just as bad as adjusting to France but it's not. It's much, much worse. I've been home for longer than I was gone and I'm still having trouble. No one cares about my pictures, my stories, I have to work, pay bills, write papers, go to class, be in Michigan, talk to people on a consistent basis.

Oh, and the cat we were going to get died the weekend before we were going to get him.

The end.

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cowboy67

:: 2007 18 November :: 1.09pm

gah gah gah gah gah i feel like i never have time for thinking! i want to think and write!

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angel_bob

:: 2007 9 November :: 5.12pm

We are getting another cat. This girl in my science class has a dairy farm, or her parents do, and they have this indoor cat wandering around getting into trouble. It fell in a bucket of milk already.

He is fixed but still has claws (so does The Baron so it's okay). He will be joining our household on Monday so I am thinking of names.

I want him to have a title like our Baron von Richthofen so I've been going through the presidents.

None of these names can be stolen or your soul is mine etc etc.:
Mewtherford B Hayes (I woke up with this name in my head. I don't know why. It's my favorite by far.)

Mewman Capote or Truman Clawpote or Trumew Capote (He is black and white so it'd fit with Truman Capote's Black and White Ball.)

Mewlysses S Grant (Hannah says I cannot name our cat after this drunk, useless president but the name is too awesome. I promised not to do it unless the cat has a swagger. And even then, only barely. She says Mewtherford B Hayes is better since he fixed all of Mewlysses' mistakes.)

Charles G Paws (While not a president, Charles G Dawes is Hannah's favorite Vice-President so he still has a title. Also, Dawes died in the city I was born in so it's like we're connected already. Also, he looks like Houdini. Seriously. So that makes him ten times awesome.)

Jean-Luc Pawcard (Title: Captain, of course.)

Meowssolini (Title: Dictator)

William Henry Harrison (My favorite president. I think his name can stay as it is.)

Walter Clawncrite (Title: Mr. Awesome)

These I don't have titles for, they're just cat names I have lying around:

Atticus Finch

Rufus

Billy Pilgrim (Billy Pawgrim?)


I'm really leaning toward Mewtherford B Hayes. Nick probably won't like it but he doesn't like The Baron's name either.


I love you all.

P.S. Urgent message from The Baron: "3
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angel_bob

:: 2007 8 November :: 9.59am

I'm wishing my life was a Jane Austen novel again. That would be great.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 7 November :: 4.46pm

The soup turned out okay, I guess. It didn't really taste like anything at all. Well, no. It tasted like a bunch of things but none of them were particularily good or delicious.

It was a decent first try. Especially since I had no idea what I was doing. At all. And I just threw things together.

I think my dad misses me a lot. He said that there are cooking lessons at D&W we can do together and we can go to one of those places where you make a week's worth of meals. His excuse was that Nick mentioned I don't cook but I really know that he misses me a bunch.

In other news, GHIII is awesome. Nick and I did career co-op and it was a bunch of fun.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 6 November :: 6.25pm

I am experimentally cooking soup with beans. This experimental cooking did not go well last time but we will see.

And you shall know the result.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 3 November :: 8.45pm

NaNoWriMo is sucking so far. I haven't written a thing. It's my fault too but it still sucks.


I am lame teh end.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 1 November :: 2.37pm

I got pulled over because Nick's tags are expired and then I didn't have my license.

The guy was nice and let me go.

P.S. My speech went well.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 29 October :: 10.27pm

No offense but how can you not believe in things that exist?

Saying you don't believe in love or monogamy or marriage is ridiculous. It's like saying you don't believe in the sun. Sorry but it's there and it's real. Maybe you don't believe in the sun because you've lived in Seattle all your life and never seen it or you had a bad experience and got a sunburn but the sun is still there. It still exists.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 29 October :: 9.47am

I also have a test today I totally forgot about. Yay.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 28 October :: 11.11pm

So I'm pretty sure I've got the same depression thing my mom has. Which is awesome. Not. I'm happy for two or two and a half weeks out of every month. Yay. I don't know. I'll go to the doctor and check it out.

Also, I am having a very had time getting back into the whole school thing. And the whole work thing. Not awesome.

In other news, speech on Thursday, two papers due on Tuesday (one I can turn in on Thurs but...speech), NaNo meetup on Wednesday (if I end up going), then NaNoWriMo starts. Big week coming up. Not excited anymore. The timing is bad and I CHOSE the day of my speech. Good job, me. Not.

Also, feeling alienated and like an outsider again. So, that's funny.

I'm going to go write my speech now.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 17 October :: 7.24pm

I am getting more and more excited about NaNoWriMo. My 1667 words a day ends up being two and a half pages, single-spaced, in a 12 pt font. Which is less than a paper so I can do it.

Even if it is a paper a day.

Also, I scheduled classes for next semester.

Also, you're adopted. So that's funny.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 16 October :: 1.22pm

The cake is a lie
I beat Portal yesterday. It is quite possibly the best game ever with the best ending ever and the best script ever.

Seriously. Ever.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 9 October :: 12.06am

I am very angry and bitchy.

Last theology class tomorrow.

Tired.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 7 October :: 5.27am

My brother called me earlier to tell me one of their new cats had died. The little cute one that would just chill on your shoulder.

I thought I was okay after I cried it out once but apparently I'm not. She was not gaining weight and Mom thinks she died of respiratory failure because she had a cold. My sister was at a friend's house and it was homecoming so they didn't tell her. And they haven't told her yet. Mom said she buried the cat, Hero, and will tell her on Sunday when she gets home.

Hannah had a rough time when we had to put McHenry to sleep and she loved this cat so I'll be up in Rockford tomorrow.

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