Drums__Sisters
Dude, drums suck sooo much ass sometimes. I get soo frusturated w/ it. It's not as easy as you think. I can never be in a band, or at least not right now. School is keeping me away from practicing, so it makes me do terrible at practice w/ Collun.

It sucks when I can't a simple thing down. i get soo angered w/ it tha I can even doa simple 4 beat measure w/ 8th notes. I threw my drums sticks at my wall today and made a dent....oops!

I ahve all this pressure on me w/ my parents expecting to do good in school and get all a's..yea right! Plus, my school is hard b/c of the frikin IB. It piles me w/ work most of the time. When I have no studying to do or ne thing school related, my parents pile me w/ house work to last till the night. I don't know why they do that. My family thinks that I am a lazy ass that just sits on the couch, but that is the old me. I use to do tah in Middle school b/c middle school is oo frikin easy, but now I work on Hw until sumtimes 3 to 6 an donce it was to 9 pm. then i sit on the couch for a half hour and then i do my drums or w/e that i have time for.

casandra still thinks that i'm lazy and she doesn't do ne thing around the house. It's true and amazing that Casandra, my oldest sister, has become mor elazy than me.
Amanda is too busy w/ color guard and when she has time to clean she doesn't. She talks on the phone w/ Davy.

Casandra mostly treats me like crap. when ever I'm on the phone and it doens't matter if i just got on she kicks me off when she gets home from work and keeps the damn phone until the morning. but when i try to do it too her oohhh noooooo!!! she bitches and says go get the other phone that we are not soppose to use.
One time she asked for the phone and I said i am expecting a call so no. well she gets on AOL! I was like hello! I need the line open and she said well i need to talk to someone. I was like bitch! Then when I complain to her she's like stop bitching geez! GOSH! SHe is a true bitch! Now that she will be leaving soon she's being more of a stubborn bitch b/c she wont be here next year. that gives no excuse what so ever to treat siblings or loved ones like that.

I'm gonna go and eat the whole damn thing of ice cream!

AndI

whatevas is on my mind
heya! School was actually a-ok today. Nuttin interesting happened though. I may be going to the mall today w/ Gin. (woo!)

I am gonna slightly change the way i dress. I'm not gonna try to change it too much though.

Madison got suspended fom school and no it's not from smoking..lol. He faught some kid, i dunno even who.

I don't think I am gonna go to the V dance b/c well..i don't wanna get dressed up and I may have to go to Tampa :(


I will ahhhh....c u lata, or rather type lata? Yea..type lata.


AndI

Holy Shizz!!
I finally saw the site!!!! I saw the porn site that the girl looks like me. HOLY MOther!!! It's halarious and scary..eeek!! The girl kinda does look like me, but not so much in the close up ones. Her body does w/ the hips and ass and stuff, but our boobs are different...hehe. mine are more round. not like u care. yea..too much info, yes? lol.

The girl isn't that bad though. if u want the site to judge for yourself then IM me and I"ll give u the site.


Lata..

AndI

Sunday!!!
On sunday for the superbowl I went to an awesome party. It was 3 houses in a row opening their house to anyone and i mean anyone! One house was for the food and they had actually chefs from the south sea resort and a big ass projecter and screen to watch the game and it was clear as ever! The next house was for drinks and stuff and the next had a big ass table full of desserts! that's where I went a lot. haha.
the porter potties, omg! They had candles there and lamps and o this is great....porn!! LOL!!!! I went in tehre and looked at it. interesting enough. lol. Jesse went in there and stoled it! LOL!! He came back and threw it at alan. it was great. no one wanted it, so my sister cassie took it. hey she can make money off of it. haha.

When I was going to get more chocolate covered strawberries (yummy!) a 25 yr. old hit on me! He was like heyyy how r u honey? I just kept walking and gave him the look. huh....he followed me for a while until i got to jesse and i made jesse put his arm around me to make it look like we're together. Alan found out about the guy and he was like let me at him! lol. Jesse too. it was great.

Alan and I actually talked that night. it was nice. It wasn't normal talk. it was sexual talk about what we want from eachother and shizz, stuff u don't normally say to ur b/f's u know? but it was soo comfortable to talk like that to him and i like it.

OK the song 'Heya' by outkast turned me on the other day...is that wrong? lol. I dunno what to think of it.

(SIGH)

Ok..Sunday was GRAND!!! I loved it!

AndI

My Weekend
This whole time so far i've been at Ginny's. Wow.

Friday- Someone brought a gun to my school. Got caught. He got suspended from any school in Lee county for 2 yrs. Stupid ass.
Went over ginny's. Went to a TubuLAR hockey game. Slept over.

Saturday- Ginny and I layed around the house and watced Moulan (sp?) Rouge. Then we went to Bell Tower and Harrassed the workers and got our make up done and hair done in the publis bathrooms. lol. we shopped and then went to the movies w/ everyone. Then I slept over again.

sunday (today)- I am going to church. i am home now. Later I am going to a superbowl party. Woo!! hehe....

OK I am done now. Lata.

AndI

Tonight
I walked home in the rain!!! Geez! It sucked. I was wearing a white shirt of course. Good timeing right? hehe. My mom was home too and she didn't know it was raining, so that's why she didn't pick me up.

My sister got her lisence today. woo. it's scary i think.

Ginny and her friend brandon and I went to the Everglades Hockey game. It was the best one yet even though we lost. boo!! :( but in every quarter there was at least 3 fights. I mean awesome fights. The first one had blood all over the ice. They all were fists fights w/ gloves off and masks. I can't believe the Refs let it go as far as they did.
The game went double over time. it was great. Brandon was an interesting character. he's a sweet kid though....

Now I am frustrated b/c I can't hold of ppl that I need to talk to right now about tomorrow night. grrr dawg..grr. But hey....I guess there's nuttin to get frustrated about right? wait..that gets me more frustrated. LOL yea...i'm not laughing.


AndI

YO YO Dawg! hehe
Hey hey and um..Hey! Time for another update. Here's what's been goin on that is interesting:

Nuttin



AndI

holla
Hey, what's up??? Today went ok. I went to church and made peace w/ Levi (yay) and I hanged out w/ Junior and KK, my buds yo dawg. then I came home and amanda, mom, dad, and david went boating and i was just fixing up my room w/ the paint, u know, touch ups. AAAHHHH...Anne and kelsy called me and anne picked me up and we went to Mcd's and then to nick's house where devon was. Kelsy was like oo i love you! You have such hot friends. lol it was great.

Anne and kels and I should hang out more often. It's soo fun being around them.

After nick's house I went home and finished putting my room together.

Ok I'm done.


AndI

..:Last night & Today:..
Today was not all that bad. I didn't go to school. The funeral was today at Memorail Gardens. It was a nice one u can say. I cried. Ginny was there. (yay) Alan's dad was there, but no alan. (poo) After the funeral I went to my aunt's house for the rest of the day. Almost anyone who went to the funeral was there too. I'm gonna have to go through this again b/c my grandpa is getting creamated (sp?) so o joy???

I'm mad at Alan o sorry Anal. hehe. He keeps bringing up to my attention that I don't open up and it bugs him, so finally last night I did and it seemed like he just buzzed me off. When I really needed to talk he just buzzed off. I don't get it. He was soppose to call me at 10 but he didn't so I called him and I opened up about how i was scared or what not about today and he was just like yea..so the sky is blue huh? It was like umm..hello?? then he said he has to go b/c he has to call his sis before he goes to bed. I was like fine. I called him an asshole though. But he didn't hear me.

Grrr....thats all I have to sa yabout everything. gr gr gr and more gr.

AndI

..:*:..Today...Poem..:*:..
Today was my project day! Woo! Wee! I had not one, but 3 projects due today. It's crazy yo. I had an oral for spanish today and I cheated..hehe. I had my web site due today too. I got it done at the last 5 minutes of class and i was soo happy b/c i've been working on it for a month, but my teacher says that she's gonna show me something to have done to the site to make it look more "clean". I was like ok w/evas. Then I finally had my english prject due today. My last one. That was really fun to explain my epithat. We had a 10 minute conversation about my braces that i had 2 times..lol it was fun.

The lights in the school went out in the last 5 minutes left of school today. lol. It was great! The halls were all dark and shizz. I was afraid to get raped or get trampled b/c i was wearing sandals. PPL were screaming and running and scarying (sp?) ppl in teh hallways. The stair hallways were really dark. I didn't go down there b/c I know i was bound to get hurt or scared. hehe. I want it to happen again!!!!

OK yesturday I ahh...ate yogurt, listened to my cd player and wrote a poem in Bio b/c I didn't want to do the work, so here is my poem: O and it really isn't about who ur thinking of, in the matter of fact it's not about ne one that I know...

What I love about you,
I love your eyes, so gentle on what you look at,
I love the way you listen, even though that,
You may not care.
I love your white, bright smile,
I love how you share your thoughts; what's On your mind even though I may not care,
I love your gentle touch,
I love how you make me feel loved and such,
I love your distinct humor,
All of this makes me want to see you sooner.

Its what I love about you,
I want to keep you forever,
I want to say this to whomever,
As long as they'll lend an ear,
You are my tear,
When I am sad,
You are my laugh,
When I am happy,

Your whatever I say or do,
How can you have this over me?
Can this be true?
Could it be?
For once I adore someone,
Who I care about as a loved one,

Its what I love about you,
Your different from everyone else,
Your not like every other guy,
Your unique,
Your true to who you are,
I love everything so far,

Around you I'm so shy
I jitter,
I stutter,
When I'm around you,
I'm nervous,
I have no clue,
On how to act; how to speak,
I'm afraid to say the wrong thing,

Its what I love about you,
When I'm firious
And I go to you,
You make me calm,
I feel relaxed,
I'm no more blue,
When we hold hands,
my sweat goes to my palm.
I refrain myself from shaking,
I hold my breath, afraid to breath;
To ruin the moment
It will last forever,
Its what I love about you.


AndI