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2017 18 December :: 10.59am
When I say the bridge is burned it stays fucking burned
When I say things are over they are over.
If you all want to waste your time worrying about what I'm doing, help yourself, but I don't give a fuck about you or what you think.
Leave me the fuck alone.
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2017 15 December :: 10.00am
I saw Star Wars last night. There are sooo many things I want to say but no one to talk to about it.
Without ruining it I'll say I enjoyed Adam Driver's acting most of all.
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godessalthena
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2017 3 December :: 12.58am
You insist I stay home when you go out to have fun
Makes me feel like I'm the secret
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2017 2 December :: 9.48am
when the puzzle is made of squares and you are a hideously deformed circle piece
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2017 30 November :: 12.06am
the warm embrace of a friend
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2017 28 November :: 12.50am
Please don't make it 3
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2017 24 November :: 5.26pm
I had a beautiful day with a beautiful friend, teacher, and mentor. It's been pretty shitty since I got here, but mostly that was fabricated in my head. I love my family and friends. I love that I can count on them for support.
I never needed to come home. I just thought I wanted to. I think I'll do fine here... I just have to change my mindset from feeling like a teenager in my parents' place to feeling like an adult who is still in charge of her own destiny.
There was nothing causing this to happen. I didn't fall on hard times. I was never forced to do anything. I could have stayed there far longer. I could have probably got on the management track. But honestly, I think regrouping and deciding on a different course, one I will enjoy more, is going to be far better for me in the long-run.
There was no doubt, but just to reiterate, I'll be okay.
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2017 23 November :: 10.52pm
I try to be sweet and loving and caring and helpful and yet I ALWAYS manage to ruin the night by being a psychotic bitch
Im not made to live on this planet. Im not made to love other humans. Im just worthless. A sack of shit. A piece of useless garbage.
Same as I always have been same as I always will be. You can't change the core of a person, only the nuances surrounding them. I give up.
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godessalthena
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2017 22 November :: 12.14am
I just want a stupid smoke
But no lighter no matches no flint stone
No nothing
>:(
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2017 16 November :: 9.02pm
I do feel like I've accomplished alot there. I showed that I can swim when the tide gets rough.
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2017 16 November :: 6.53am
My least favorite way to be woken up is by phone call
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2017 11 November :: 11.57am
:: Mood: defeated
Same as it ever was.
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2017 6 November :: 3.08pm
I hope it still hurts
The hole I made in your heart the day I left
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2017 1 November :: 10.47pm
I'm not a good person
Ask anyone who knows me
I'm mean and bitter
And a failure at everything that I say I believe
I'm not a good person
Ask anyone who loves me
I never write, I never call
I never think about anyone at all
I'm not a good person
No matter what I do
My exhaustion will consume me
And I'm too tired for the truth
I'm not a good person
I'm sure you're not surprised
It must be pouring out my sweat glands
It must be someplace in my eyes
I don't know why I am this way
I've been like this since I can remember
I try to keep up with everything I know I should do
But then I'll fall to pieces anyway
I don't know why I am this way
I'm not a good person, not even to you
I'm staying home because I can't stand the sound
Of another heartbeat in the room
I'm not a good person
Fuck it, you know it's true
I'm lazy, I'm a coward
I'm asleep all day in my room
I don't know why I am this way
I've been like this since I can remember
I try to keep up with everything I know I should do
But then I'll fall to pieces anyway
I don't know why I am this way
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godessalthena
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2017 1 November :: 2.07pm
So so tired of existing
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