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2004 28 February :: 10.12pm
:: Mood: angry
EVERY way is wrong.
ok...i was in band....
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2004 28 February :: 9.33pm
:: Music: elton john-your song
oh god.
I can't do this again.
I RUIN EVERYTHING
ok...i was in band....
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2004 27 February :: 9.59pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: edwin mcain-i'll be
I'm so dumb. It's like a destructive path I've taken. I find people that are very good and then...something bad happens. I get really mean. I don't know what my problem is. Must not let my fantasy take me too far, I'll be in big trouble. Again
ok...i was in band....
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2004 26 February :: 10.01pm
No, it was way nice. I think I was really overreacting because of my frustrations. It will be sorted out soon if it hasn't mostly been already. I'm being so silly. But there's the whole point. Something stupid like that could have happened and then I'd be very sad and very tainted.
But that scary thing happened. Shudder shudder.
1 can't stop the B.M. |
ok...i was in band....
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2004 25 February :: 10.01pm
:: Mood: okay
I think I have a lot of explaining to do.
Let me see...today sucked. But not when my Canadian Life Partner was around. Then I didn't feel so crappy...and I'm pretty good now.
ok...i was in band....
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2004 24 February :: 8.51pm
I find nothing unusual or wrong about two people getting married even if they can't procreate. They're people...isn't there something about being created equal somewhere?
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ok...i was in band....
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2004 23 February :: 10.24pm
That's just something that I'm not going to do. My life is not a Tragedy.
ok...i was in band....
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2004 22 February :: 7.43pm
:: Music: goo goo dollies
There is someone who I'd much rather see.
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ok...i was in band....
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2004 21 February :: 11.04pm
:: Mood: very sad
next week it won't even be an issue. but you're sick, so i have to wait.
it's like i never properly enjoy myself because i get so built up on these things and don't want to do anything else. it's stupid, i usually end up disapointed with the thing i'm excited for and have a greater time with the things i was anxious to get over with.
ok...i was in band....
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2004 21 February :: 2.25pm
:: Mood: really freaking stupid
No, no, no. I keep doing the dumb thing. It isn't fair to anyone. And I'm sincerely sorry.
Some questions come to mind:
Why didn't I give it a little more thought and less impulse? Or at least more time for mourning...or handled it less like a bitch.
Why didn't I continue to be bitter and stand up for myself? Or demanded answers at least?
Why should it hurt so much now?
Maybe if I had been a little smarter I wouldn't spend time sobbing, keeping secrets, feeling guilty and not being very honest.
I would spend more time with my good friend, who I miss a lloooottttt.
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ok...i was in band....
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2004 19 February :: 8.19pm
I will not take a speech class. That is absolutly insane.
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ok...i was in band....
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2004 18 February :: 9.46pm
:: Mood: Assaulted
I don't know what happened.
ok...i was in band....
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2004 17 February :: 5.19pm
:: Mood: dismayed
:: Music: faith hill
It just took a while to catch up with me.
stupid.
ok...i was in band....
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2004 16 February :: 11.43am
| What is your favorite.. | | gum: | that apple sour tape stuff or the zebra kind | | restaurant: | applebees | | drink: | most juices | | season: | summer | | type of weather: | warm sunny | | emotion: | goofy | | thing to do on a half day: | get things done | | late-night activity: | writing | | sport: | marching band | | city: | keystone | | store: | not great day | | When was the last time you.. | | cried: | thursday | | played a sport: | last fall | | laughed: | yesterday | | hugged someone: | yesterday | | kissed someone: | friday | | felt depressed: | thursday | | felt elated: | last night and the night before | | felt overworked: | i think the week before last | | faked sick: | i don't do that much | | lied: | friday | | What was the last.. | | word you said: | hey! hey! | | thing you ate: | white cheddar crackers | | song you listened to: | nfg-dressed to kill | | thing you drank: | water | | place you went to: | my aunt's for my birthday dinner | | movie you saw: | big fish or maybe peter pan | | movie you rented: | blazing saddles | | concert you attended: | clearly blind/the pilots/and that crazy screaming guy | | Who was the last person you.. | | hugged: | dad | | cried over: | myself | | kissed: | yum | | danced with: | all the ladies at homecoming | | shared a secret with: | probably dani | | had a sleepover with: | dani | | called: | pierre le bullet | | went to a movie with: | jess and hil or caleb | | saw: | dddddddddeeeerrrr | | were angry with: | my dad or sam | | couldn't take your eyes off of: | pierre | | obsessed over: | see above | | Have you ever.. | | danced in the rain: | yes | | kissed someone: | no...you're sick | | done drugs: | i take some drugs, but they are prescribed | | drank alcohol: | yes | | slept around: | no | | partied 'til the sun came up: | no | | had a movie marathon: | yes, i fell asleep | | gone too far on a dare: | no, but mitch did | | spun until you were immensely dizzy: | yes | | taken a survey quite like this before: | yes, |
The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety! brought to you by BZOINK!
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2004 15 February :: 4.58pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: lifehouse simon
so i'll make a big DEAL about the BIG deal. i think everyone will go for it. i know i'm all for it, but that's expected since it's my idea. i just need to convince someone else.
I need the band to come home right now.
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My hot date didn't go so well. Dad was being majorly crazy. And of course that made me crazy too. I was really looking forward to it too.
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