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thedarkerside

:: 2003 13 June :: 12.16pm
:: Mood: I have to Pee
:: Music: none

Survey thingy stolen from Joe

[ series 1 - your ]
-- Name : Amy
-- Birthday : Octobere 13
-- Birthplace : Grand Rapids
-- Current Location : computer
-- Eye Color : bluish green
-- Hair Color : brownish blonde
-- Righty or Lefty : lefty OH YEAH lol and i'm serious too
-- Zodiac Sign : libra
-- Font : IF- its really like dirty and it looks cool

[ series 2 - your favorite ]
-- Music : Mostly rock
-- Cartoon : South Park and Famliy Guy
-- Color : blacks with pink and purples
-- Slushy Flavor : Coke and mountain dew
-- Magazine : YM
-- TV Show : ne thing on MTV and like the shows like American Juinor and stuff lol they are fun to watch
-- Song at the Moment:Broken- 12 stones
-- Language : english
-- Spice Girl : No
-- Food & Beverage : spicy chicken olga with a Orange cream cooler! OMG you havent lived until youve gone to Olgas in the mall seriously I live for them.
-- Subject in School : Language Arts I love mrs.klaes and i have a A+ in that class lol
-- Weekend Activity : Sleeping
-- Ice Cream Flavor : Cookie Dough
-- Roller Coaster : the raptor and mantis was fun.

[ series 3 - what is ]
-- Your most overused phrase on aol : LOL and LMAO and I kill you.. and I kick your ass lol
-- The last image/thought you go to sleep with : TV or thoughts of the day or future.
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex : Personality and ass
-- The Best Name for a Butler : Squanto lol "Hey squanto go get me some food damnit"
-- The wussiest sport : Cheerleading..as if it is a sport.
-- Your best feature : no clue u tell me lol
-- Your bedtime : When ever
-- Your greatest fear: Heights and darkness
-- Your greatest accomplishment : uhh no
-- Your most missed memory : Eh.

[ series 4 - you prefer ]
-- Pepsi or coke : coke, Diet Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King : Both..mmm.
-- Single or group dates : Both
-- Adidas or Nike : nike
-- Chicken nuggets or chicken fingers : fingers
-- Dogs or cats : cats
-- Rugrats or Doug : doug
-- Single or taken : single
-- Monica or Brandy : eh..brandy all had a baby and shit and Monica has a new song out with Missy Eliot... I really dont care for either.
-- Tupac or Jay-Z : Jay- Z although the whole thing with Beyonce annoys the hell out of me.
-- Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes : Dont care for country
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea : I dont like ice tea
-- One pillow or two : two
-- Chocolate or vanilla : chocolate
-- Hot chocolate or hot cocoa :hot chocolate
-- Cappucino or coffee : CARMEL FRAPPACHINO!!!
-- Boxers or briefs : boxers in the summer for pjs

[ series 5 - do you ]
-- Take a shower everyday? : yeah
-- Have a(any) crush(es)? : Yep
-- do you think you've been in love? : naw..in like
-- Want to go to college? : yeah
-- Like high school? : I donno yet
-- Want to get married : yes
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys? : yeah
-- Believe in yourself? : eh..
-- Have any tattoos/where? :
-- Have any piercings/where? : future- bellybutton, more in ears, and possible nose.
-- Get motion sickness? : No
-- Think you're a health freak? : no
-- Get along with your parents? : mostly just my dad
-- Like thunderstorms? : yes! except for when they get scary lol

[ series 6 - the future ]
-- Age you hope to be married : before 30 at least
-- Number and Names of Children : I plan to adopt but persue the method of baby making lol
-- Where do you see yourself at age 20? : Hopefully with a career and something that pays good.
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding : Beach wedding..not to complicated.
-- How do you want to die? : I dont want to
-- What do you want to be when you grow up? : something along art or writing
-- What country would you most like to visit? : something not to gross..eh..France.

[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
-- Best eye color? : blue or green
-- Best hair color? : i go for dark hair
-- Short or long hair? : guys are hot with semi long hair
-- Best height? : Tall and built
-- Best weight? : dont really care
-- Best articles of clothing? : PANTS lmao (carinna)
-- Best first date location? : Movies or beach
-- Best first kiss location? : beach
-- What facial feature do you find the most attractive? LIPS

[ series 8 - other ]
-- When's the last time you slept with a stuffed animal? : uh prolly like 3 years ago.
-- How many rings until you answer the phone? : I have to check caller id
-- What's on your mouse pad? :nothing its green
-- How many houses have you lived in? : 2
-- How many schools have you gone to? : 4
-- What color is your bedroom carpet? : blue
-- Would you shave your head for $5,000 dollars? : thats a hard bargan.
-- What was the best time of your life so far? : donno
-- Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? sure..
-- Would you marry for money? : No
-- Have you had braces? : ya
-- Do you pluck your eyebrows? : no
-- Do you ever cut or hurt yourself? : thought bout it but no
-- When was the last time you had a hickey? : uhh
-- Would you live without a computer? : I couldnt
-- Do you drink enough water? : yeah thats basically all i drink
-- Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: take off
-- What is your favorite fruit? : strawberries
--Do you eat wheat bread or white bread? : white
-- What is the last movie you saw? Legally Blonde
-- Do you kiss on the first date? : sure
-- Are you photogenic? : no JESUS take a look at my school pics holy shit lol
-- Do you dream in colour or black and white? : Color
-- Are you wearing fingernail polish? : ya chipped pink
-- Do you have any dimples? : i dont think so
-- Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? : sunsets
-- Do you want to live to be 100?: no id be wrinkly
-- Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair? : yes lmao
-- Do you like salty food or sugary food the most? : both
-- Is a flat stomach important to you? :sure
-- Do you or have you played with a ouija board? : Yes..lol its scary common people
-- Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? :Yes. saying that you tolerate it makes it sound like you force yourself to...Saying you accept them sounds better because you should
-- When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? : off
-- Do you believe in magic? : kinda
-- Do you have nightmares frequently? : no
-- Do you like your nose?: sure
-- Do you think you can draw well? : Yeah look at the klaes poetry book ...the 3 drawings towards the back and you can see my signature in them if you look.
-- Do you listen to music daily? : ya
-- Do you like to watch cartoons? : yes
-- How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? : too many to count
-- Do you like your friends? : Most of them lol

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 11 June :: 8.32pm
:: Mood: okayyyy
:: Music: none- watchin Fame

Ahh....sigh....ahhh....sigh...yeahhhh
Summer has been boring so far kindof. I've cleaned everyday. My mom got home from Meijer and her doctors appointment w/ my sister and she says to me "what have you done today" me"nothing" mom"well you could have atleast done something...now go clean the bathroom again and start getting the kitchen clean. You arent going online until you get laundry done".

Its never ending. Summer vacations are ment for cleaning. My parents are thinging about going on a vacation without my sister and I to Niagara Falls. THANK GOD. I dont know how long they will be gone..but we will have the house to ourselves and we can do whatever we want. I would actually feel freedom for once but it would eventually slip through my fingers and get sucked out the door when they come back.

Ah...How I long to finally figure out the missing part of me. I always feel as if where ever I go..no matter what I'm doing whether its something I love or something I hate...I always stop and i feel a sudden sense of emptiness like theres something missing...somethin thats eating away at me but I just ..cant figure it out. Its self exceptance..but theres more to it. More than anyone including myself would ever know. I'll continue to be not completely figured out even to myself. Life is complicated thats for sure.

I want something to happen that will make me smile and possibly forget about my troubles for a long amount of time. I'm still waiting for that "thing" to come. My horoscope says Fathers Day will be one of my lucky days. I hope so. I donno If i'm going to go to start of summer yet. I want to..but again..that part of me pulls back..the anti social amy.

I want my reportcard damnit. I want to see how i did on my exams. It better come tomorrow or i'll kill the mail lady.

Its always the sneaky mail lady damnit.

i'm out.

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 11 June :: 10.37am
:: Music: 12 Stones- Broken

Partay.
The party at krystals was pretty cool. Not as many people showed up as she probably would have liked but overall it was pretty fun with the people we had there.

Other than the dry humping it was ok. lol

The cookies were good.

John Wheeler showed up out of no where lol Poor kid didnt know his band didnt come. boohoo.

This summer i gotta do something with dannie and them. My soon to be new possie. lol possie thats a great word.

Carinna called me the other day but called back and she wasnt home. I wonder what she wanted. I bet she just wanted to hear my beautiful manly voice lol

I've given up on trying to talk to joe..thought he'd be a good friend but guess not. He has his band and his world and I have mine. I can live without another person lol

Kyle..damn him. Never gave me his tape. He made a bunch of mock movies like 8 mile and stuff and he wanted me to see them. I wanna see them so bad I'm going to make a copy of the tape when I get it. Ahh...next year will be fun. I'll have my guys to back me up.

I sneezed and snot went all over. I thought i should let you know. It was gross. .. I cleaned it up dont worry..but i cleaned it up with my tongue....lol jk.

I'm out.

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 10 June :: 2.44pm

Hey...I was thinking and...I thought i should update the journal.

Yestday my sister took me shopping finally and I got krystal an early bday present and me a shirt. AND i would have gotten jeans but noo my sister wouldnt buy them for me. grr.

oh well.. jeans i will get you later.

Uh..I'm egar to go to krystals party i want to get out of my house. I have an hour until i leave.

I cant wait to go. I'm so bringing a camera. HEHHHEHEHEHEEHEHEHE CAMEERRRRA. lol

I'm bored again...

and have to pee
peeee
pee
peeeeeeeee
p
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pee lol

The basement makes me have to pee cuz its always cold lol

I have found the conclusion to my pee problem. Thank you ...Thank you.

i'm out

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 8 June :: 6.27pm
:: Mood: mad
:: Music: none

none
Note to self: sister is useless... she wonders why half of the time i trash talk her because she doesnt even act like shes my sister when it comes to her friends and other shit.
She never takes me anywhere unless shes forced to. what a lovely sister i'm honored to have.

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 8 June :: 5.10pm
:: Mood: pissed

grr............
Ok....Medically...she could be in bad health...or she might not. But she doesnt know that. For all we know she could die tomorrow...in 5 minutes ..in the next hour..or maybe its not that serious. She doesnt know. We dont know. Yet she still continues to ruin my life and still be the ignorant bitch she always was. How many times have i helped her when she needed me...how many times have i cried wit her...how many times have I done everything she has told me to and its never good enough.

Now she wants me to get a job. I'm fucking 14 going on 15. No one would hire me...plus i would not want to bag peoples grocerys especially all the fuckin snops that go to d&w that would probably treat me like i'm their buttler. Im fucking 14. My sister is going on 18 and she doesnt have a fucking job so why should i have to get one.

Dad:"Whens the last time we've been to Old navy? ::chuckles::" (because my dad loves that store)
Amy:"Not in a llonngg time"
Mom:"well you'll have to make some money"
Amy:"How do you expect me to make money i'm 14 and no ones going to hire a 14 year old."
Mom:"Babysit."
Amy: "there no one to babysit around here."(true)
Mom:"Thats because you always turn them down."
Amy:"Excuse me. Who have I turned down?"
Mom:"Ramsays."
Amy:"I have never turned them down.. Why would i turn down the chance to even make money?"
::Silence and the subject gets changed::

God damnit. I hate this.. I hate the constant push to be better...to try to grow up. I have my whole life a head of me i dont need someone nagging on me to do something thats totally not necessary.

She wonders why i dont confied in her or talk to her.

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rachelle

:: 2003 6 June :: 6.57pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: none right now

im gonna go eat, so i dont have much time
_________............................
lindsay and i made cookies today, we experienced the 1000 and 1 ways there are to crack an egg.
_________............................
it doesnt seem like school is over, but im glad it is. the thing is, is that I am bored out of my mind, all of my saturdays are full, i would really enjoy a phone call here and there, and maybe a movie or 2. as for now though, all E all, if you care, leave a message.

::reguards::
rachelle
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peace
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out
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thedarkerside

:: 2003 5 June :: 5.38pm



I went to theresas house. very lovely. Met her dad. Rob was there too.

I got gummi worms ...hehhehehe

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rachelle

:: 2003 5 June :: 4.34pm
:: Music: celine dion-creed

one more day, thank you
one more day until the world comes to an end, or at least the world we've known for the last 9 months...
the last 3 years.
day by day, we do not notice the little footsteps we take. but as we look at the weeks past, the strides we've taken catch up with us, and we begin to learn how far we've come.

the days should become slower, yet quicker they become. the later the nights get, the earlier the mornings. they're not short to change. we all hope that summer will be like it used to, fun in the sun, vacations, playing outside, going to the beach. though we find ourselves looking forward to sleep, and the endless hurdles to jump. no, the race is not over, but the first checkpoint has been marked.

and we move on.

the challenges that come, the new and sometimes unbearable changes that await, we have no idea what to expect. each of us are different, yet we all have the same ideas. we've been taught the same things, set the same goals, had the same mentors. this is where it stops. he insinc bunch we are, is now loosing is consistincy. we break off into paths, having to choose what forever contains in a matter of minutes. who knows what lies ahead.

Love changes.
Ambitions revive.
Who once succeeded, now seceeds the path to success.
Remember those who taught you to yearn.


Regards to those who care,
rachelle

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rachelle

:: 2003 5 June :: 2.24pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: celine dion/creed

hello, this is the help line, what's your problem?

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