"I, Patrick Jay French, do solemnly swear that I will support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic; that I will bear true faith and allegiance to the same; and that I will obey the orders of the President of the United States and the orders of the officers appointed over me, according to regulations and the Uniform Code of Military Justice. So help me God."
Thats what I was saying yesterday at about 2PM for the Navy. I've got a 6 year contract active, 2 reserve, currently shipping on April 5 2010, however ill be submitting a form saying id like to roll it up a ways if possible to sometime in late July.
I went to Lansing MI Thursday, and took the ASVAB that night, (a score of 36 is passing, 99 is the best you can do), and by the grace of god, I managed to score an 88, which came as a huge shock to me. At the same time, however, it opened up almost every job the Navy had to offer to me, but ill get to that in a moment. My current job is in the Advanced Electronics / Computer Field which has the 9 weeks of basic training in Great Lakes, IL, and then 12, or 17 weeks further training based on which of the two subclasses you get into. This job guarantees the rank of E4 (petty officer 3rd class) upon completion of training, which is pretty huge, since it would take quite a while to get there otherwise. However, since I did so well on the ASVAB, and since some of my more specific scores worked out, I may be eligible to take the Navy Advanced Programs Test, which, if I pass, would allow me to get into their jobs in the Nuclear field, which would be absolutely phenomenal. The Nuclear job fields carry a 25k enlistment bonus, and a 60k re-enlistment bonus as it was described to me. Passing this is obviously my goal, since when I got out, I'd be making 100k easy in a civilian job. The test however, is very algebra, geometry and trigonometry based, and math has always been my weak point, so we'll see what happens there. The nuke program is 9 weeks of basic, and something like a year and a half of training elsewhere, (SC I think), and carries an 8 year commitment, which i'm WAY more then ok with.
So I have only had My new dog since Wednesday night and he has already developed a bra fetish and has ran off twice. Not to mention he chewed up a whole tune of chap-stick, taken over tanks peanut butter roll and completely demolished a chew toy while playing a rough game of tug-a-war. He is definitely a running little bastard! I sprinted for probably 3 blocks to get him today like 5 seconds after I got home from work and spent an hour looking for the little shit last night. He is definitely not a lazy dog like My little baby doodles that is for damn sure!
I finally got some new tires and rims for My car. I had the seats taken out so that I could clean it out and I got My headlights adjusted so they work a little better. Now I just need to wash it.
My sister, Derrick and seth are up for the weekend and i'm super excited about that.
And I am feeling better about everything so that is another plus. I love having a washer and dryer! Best inventions ever.
So i'm feeling better than I did on Friday.
Much much better.
I just really wish I could find another Boston terrier for me or at least a Boston playmate for my dog.
I'vr narrowed things down to the fact that I hate my job more than anything. Seriously, to the point where I am miserable every single day and I don't want to get out of bed.
Life was better on prozac..
I've been at this place before..
Where nothing makes sense, but at the same time, everything makes sense to me.
I have everything most girls dream of, yet I am lacking so many things that other people have and dream of.
Sometimes I think that I want to be single and live alone.
But the problem with that is, I haven't ever lived on my own. I hate being at home alone. I tried living on my own once, and Mike was over everyday, and then he moved completely in.
I need to balance independent and dependent.
I'm back to where I was when I was in high school..
Crying about every little thing.
Making everyone miserable because I'm sad all the time..
Even though I really have no reason to be unhappy..
And seriously, I have no idea how Mike deals with it.
He tries to cheer me up, but it only lasts for a little bit..
Until I start thinking about how much my life is lacking in different areas..
I have so many hopes and dreams that I don't put into action.
So many ties..
And sadly I think the only fix is prozac.
And the problem with that is, I don't have health insurance!
Things are starting to look up.. Other than I have 6 exams due by thursday.. and being that I have to work monday-thursday, I have no idea when i am going to be able to make it up to the college before the lab closes so that I can get all my exams in..
Kind of worried about it.. but who knows.. maybe something will work out for me..
I still have work for 2 classes to do yet.. And there are a couple of assignments for one class that I can't figure out how to do certain things.. so yeah, im screwed!
I've been putting some serious thought into a career path, and I still have no clue what I want to do with my life.
I want out of this factory crap.
I keep thinking that there is a job out there that I will enjoy every moment of, and the people won't irritate me.
But lets be serious, that doesn't exsist.
At least not for me.
Well here is another thing to add to the list of things that keep making my life worse..
Mike's daughters mom and step dad are buying the house that I want more than anything so that their welfare kids can rent it from them..
I am super fucking pissed because they knew that I wanted that house, and was trying to get it..
Right now I am beyond super fucking pissed.
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2009 21 April :: 5.54pm
:: Music: Hate my life - Theory of a Deadman
Not sure if it is because of the rain, or the sudden load of shit that has been dumped on me lately, but the song "Hate my life - Theory of a Deadman" is my theme song for the moment.. One verse in particular.
I still hate my job, my boss is a dick
"I don't get paid nearly enough
To put up with all of your shit"
Growing up I was never told that cheating was a good or bad thing. I have formed my own opinions on the subject.
But I can't believe she has the audacity to ask me not to be mad at him. I can understand that she wouldn't want my brother to know. But I honestly cannot believe she can ask me not to be mad at him. I may not have a lot of respect for the woman and she has done somf pretty questionable things in her life but I figured she'd make things right by not forgiving someone for doing the same thing she has done to every guy she has been with.
So right now out of all the things that were bugging me the only thing left is how emotionally disconnected I feel from my family. Well, I guess you can add friends to that too.
I feel like everyone is against me. Sometimes when I spend time with my family I feel like they aren't even my family and it is a horrible feeling.