Last night I had the time of my life, and I broke out of my shell a little bit..
I don't EVER dance, because I have no rhythm, and I just feel awkward when I try..
But I danced A LOT last night..
And had a blast.. there were several pictures taken.. i have some posted on facebook.. but there are some that are better left off the internet.. lol
I wonder what is in store for the rest of the weekend!!
So I got a new puppy for my birthday, and his name is Dozer..
He's a little ass hole terror with a 'gina..
(And yes, I said HE has a GINA).. when they neutered him, they only took his nuts, not the sac, so my poor baby looks like a hermie!! :(
Anyway, he has chewed up a slipper, stretched out 5 of my socks in a rough game of tug-a-war, and today he managed to eat half a flip-flop, and chewed the rest to pieces..
When I came home to find it, I yelled at him, and went to spank him but he ran onto my bed because he was scared and tried to hide, and when I went to grab ahold of him, he started peeing and pee'd on my ARM and my bed..
I felt bad because I scared him, but I was so mad that he chewed up my flip-flop, and then pee'd..
Also, he's a bad influence on my poor doodles..
So now he gets caged when we leave..
Which is mean, because doodles will just sit in front of the cage and taunt him, and then pounce at him trying to get him to play..
"I, Patrick Jay French, do solemnly swear that I will support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic; that I will bear true faith and allegiance to the same; and that I will obey the orders of the President of the United States and the orders of the officers appointed over me, according to regulations and the Uniform Code of Military Justice. So help me God."
Thats what I was saying yesterday at about 2PM for the Navy. I've got a 6 year contract active, 2 reserve, currently shipping on April 5 2010, however ill be submitting a form saying id like to roll it up a ways if possible to sometime in late July.
I went to Lansing MI Thursday, and took the ASVAB that night, (a score of 36 is passing, 99 is the best you can do), and by the grace of god, I managed to score an 88, which came as a huge shock to me. At the same time, however, it opened up almost every job the Navy had to offer to me, but ill get to that in a moment. My current job is in the Advanced Electronics / Computer Field which has the 9 weeks of basic training in Great Lakes, IL, and then 12, or 17 weeks further training based on which of the two subclasses you get into. This job guarantees the rank of E4 (petty officer 3rd class) upon completion of training, which is pretty huge, since it would take quite a while to get there otherwise. However, since I did so well on the ASVAB, and since some of my more specific scores worked out, I may be eligible to take the Navy Advanced Programs Test, which, if I pass, would allow me to get into their jobs in the Nuclear field, which would be absolutely phenomenal. The Nuclear job fields carry a 25k enlistment bonus, and a 60k re-enlistment bonus as it was described to me. Passing this is obviously my goal, since when I got out, I'd be making 100k easy in a civilian job. The test however, is very algebra, geometry and trigonometry based, and math has always been my weak point, so we'll see what happens there. The nuke program is 9 weeks of basic, and something like a year and a half of training elsewhere, (SC I think), and carries an 8 year commitment, which i'm WAY more then ok with.
So I have only had My new dog since Wednesday night and he has already developed a bra fetish and has ran off twice. Not to mention he chewed up a whole tune of chap-stick, taken over tanks peanut butter roll and completely demolished a chew toy while playing a rough game of tug-a-war. He is definitely a running little bastard! I sprinted for probably 3 blocks to get him today like 5 seconds after I got home from work and spent an hour looking for the little shit last night. He is definitely not a lazy dog like My little baby doodles that is for damn sure!
I finally got some new tires and rims for My car. I had the seats taken out so that I could clean it out and I got My headlights adjusted so they work a little better. Now I just need to wash it.
My sister, Derrick and seth are up for the weekend and i'm super excited about that.
And I am feeling better about everything so that is another plus. I love having a washer and dryer! Best inventions ever.
So i'm feeling better than I did on Friday.
Much much better.
I just really wish I could find another Boston terrier for me or at least a Boston playmate for my dog.
I'vr narrowed things down to the fact that I hate my job more than anything. Seriously, to the point where I am miserable every single day and I don't want to get out of bed.
Life was better on prozac..
I've been at this place before..
Where nothing makes sense, but at the same time, everything makes sense to me.
I have everything most girls dream of, yet I am lacking so many things that other people have and dream of.
Sometimes I think that I want to be single and live alone.
But the problem with that is, I haven't ever lived on my own. I hate being at home alone. I tried living on my own once, and Mike was over everyday, and then he moved completely in.
I need to balance independent and dependent.
I'm back to where I was when I was in high school..
Crying about every little thing.
Making everyone miserable because I'm sad all the time..
Even though I really have no reason to be unhappy..
And seriously, I have no idea how Mike deals with it.
He tries to cheer me up, but it only lasts for a little bit..
Until I start thinking about how much my life is lacking in different areas..
I have so many hopes and dreams that I don't put into action.
So many ties..
And sadly I think the only fix is prozac.
And the problem with that is, I don't have health insurance!
Things are starting to look up.. Other than I have 6 exams due by thursday.. and being that I have to work monday-thursday, I have no idea when i am going to be able to make it up to the college before the lab closes so that I can get all my exams in..
Kind of worried about it.. but who knows.. maybe something will work out for me..
I still have work for 2 classes to do yet.. And there are a couple of assignments for one class that I can't figure out how to do certain things.. so yeah, im screwed!
I've been putting some serious thought into a career path, and I still have no clue what I want to do with my life.
I want out of this factory crap.
I keep thinking that there is a job out there that I will enjoy every moment of, and the people won't irritate me.
But lets be serious, that doesn't exsist.
At least not for me.