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2004 17 March :: 3.42 pm
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: tv
hahah peter=cesar's penis
EnigmaticJester9: i met your mother
EnigmaticJester9: at a weird bar
EnigmaticJester9: o.0
babaloo181: hahah
babaloo181: I MET PETER AT A WEIRD BAR!
babaloo181: :-P
EnigmaticJester9: peter?
EnigmaticJester9: at a bar?
EnigmaticJester9: *gasp*
babaloo181: haha
EnigmaticJester9: ::scolds peter::
babaloo181: HAHA
babaloo181: hmm....how did peter manage to get there without u?
EnigmaticJester9: dont ask me :-P
babaloo181: maybe he got u drunk and had his way wit u
babaloo181: AND ME!
babaloo181: haha
EnigmaticJester9: lol
EnigmaticJester9: really ;-)
babaloo181: haha
EnigmaticJester9: poor peter
babaloo181: HAHA
babaloo181: poor thaimi!
EnigmaticJester9: YOU MOLESTED MY PENIS!
EnigmaticJester9: peter's just a little boy
EnigmaticJester9: leave him alone!
EnigmaticJester9: CHILD MOLESTER!
babaloo181: HAHAHA THAT'S GOIN ON MY JOURNAL!
EnigmaticJester9: LOL
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2004 17 March :: 2.19 pm
:: Mood: better..i guess
:: Music: nothing still
update..
Happypunkjew09: hey
Happypunkjew09: what was wrong today?
babaloo181: eh..nothing...stupid crap...jealous i guess
Happypunkjew09: im not doing anything with her if that's what you were wondering
babaloo181: no i know but...i dunno i just felt bad
Happypunkjew09: i'm sorry
babaloo181: no u didnt do anything...ill get over it :-\
Happypunkjew09: i know, but i made you feel that way
babaloo181: its ok
babaloo181: dont worry bout it
Happypunkjew09: allright
Happypunkjew09: it's just it makes me feel bad if you feel jealous
babaloo181: i know...but i can't help it....
babaloo181: :-\
Happypunkjew09: mk
Happypunkjew09: well, you're my sunshine
babaloo181: hehe
babaloo181: and ur mine
babaloo181: :-D
Happypunkjew09: :-D
Happypunkjew09: my smile's bigger
babaloo181: :-D
babaloo181: i win
Happypunkjew09: crap
Happypunkjew09: lol
babaloo181: hehe
Happypunkjew09: hey, i'm a gunna sign off cuz i have to eat and joeys' bound to be here anyminute
Happypunkjew09: by lahv
babaloo181: okies
babaloo181: buhz byez
Happypunkjew09: i love you
babaloo181: love u too
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2004 17 March :: 2.03 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: nothing...listening to my grandma bitch at me
.....day went alrite i guess
well....it started off alrite....but then...i had to turn in my group stuff to the ppls in my group for euro history...and turns out i left it all at home so i had to write it all up throughout the day....took me forever but i got it done. ...today in the afternoon...we had our "lunch"...and after like 5 min of bein at lunch..this girl came up to colin and was like "oh erica needs to talk to u"......btw erica is his ex girlfriend. so i was just like w/e...it kind of made me uncomfortable but i was like big deal thaimi get over it....so ya 2 min later he leaves me and goes and talks to her....and they like go into this lil corner and start talkin and rite there....i just started feeling like crap. i would look over and they were like talking...and it was killing me. so i just went got some water and put my head down on the table. apparently throughout the convo they pointed at me.....*that's what shilpa told me* and then..at the end she leaned in and kissed him on the cheek. that just pissed me the fuck off. u know? it's like u h ad ur chance wit him and shit didn't work out ... dont try to steal him from me now. it's just fucked up. so ya w/e he was there talkin to her for like 15 min..half our freakin lunch...so he finally comes over to me....and just like sits down and puts his arm around me like if nothing. i mean im not saying he did anything...cuz i dont think he's like that...but it just....agh...it just made me feel like he would rather be wit her....he was like...what's wrong? and i was like nothing...but ya im like at the point of tears rite now.....and it's the stupidest shit in the world. funny thing is....he's freaking clueless.....he has no idea that im even .... upset. and to top it all off....as soon as i get home my grandma starts bitching at me for something i did that morning..and starts telling me how fucking worthless i am and how my little sister is so much better than me..and im just like god im not in the fucking mood for u so shut the fuck up. agh...bye
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2004 16 March :: 6.21 pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: all my life by kci & jo jo
bonjour mes amis!
hey guess what?! i learned how to ride a scooter today! yep yep! ::proud:: hehe well i get to school at like 6 45 when i normally get there and then at like 6 55 andres comes upstairs and sees me and he's like hey.....so ya i wave at him but i still lay sittin there on the floor listenin to music....and then i look over and he like pulls out a scooter from his locker...it was folded so it fit...haha and he's like thaimi u wanna go for a ride?! and i was like....um.....i dont know how to ride a scooter.....and he's like WHAT?! oh that's it come here i gotta teach u! and he's like...ok ... scooter lessons 101 here's wat u do...hehe so ya he taught me.....it was hilarious though cuz it's like freaking 6 o clock in the morning and im goin up and down the hallways on the third floor ridin a freakin scooter wit andres behind me hahaha it was priceless! so ya w/e then i went downstairs and hung out wit my baby. he was all wet from outside....lookin so cute....hehe we went runnin outside in the rain just cuz i felt like it...haha it was cute.....he was like wow that was so worth it! so ya at lunch.....i finally got to eat lunch wit my friends today!!!! whooooooo! so ya we were hangin out and cuddlin....and he's like "yea so im goin for a month this summer to nyc and my dad told me i could take one friend.....and yea i choose u" hehe i was like ... aww what a cutie patootie.....but i was like....um yea my parents r not gonna let me go out of the state....to ny of all places....wit some guy they think im kinda hooked up wit! haha rite! so yea he was like aww come on u and me would have soooo much fun! hehe he called me today...we talked for like an hour....he's so cute..... and such a sweetheart...hehe .. damn my eye's hurting again and it's getting on my last freaking nerve...i was sposed to be doin hw rite now but donna convinced me to log on till 6 30..so ya...hehe. ooh tomorrow's my interview....wish me luck ppls! ok and on that note....i will leave......au revoir.
tonite's song: closing line by semisonic
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2004 15 March :: 9.03 pm
last song
last song that was played at the dance.....reminded me of how much i liked it....
Closing Time by semisonic
Closing time
Open all the doors and let you out into the world
Closing time
Turn all of the lights on over every boy and every girl
Closing time
One last call for alcohol so finish your whiskey or beer
Closing time
You don't have to go home but you can't stay here
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
Closing time
Time for you to go out to the places you will be from
Closing time
This room won't be open till your brothers or your sisters come
So gather up your jackets, move it to the exits
I hope you have found a friend
Closing time
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
Take me home
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2004 15 March :: 4.51 pm
an update for my update
hehe oh yea one more thing......at the banquet sunday nite.....one of the schools started singin some french song we had never heard of...haha so we decided to bust out wit a chorus of FELIZ NAVIDAD! hahah MIDDLE OF FREAKIN MARCH......AT A FRENCH CONVENTION! AND WE BUST OUT WIT FELIZ NAVIDAD! HAHAHA EVERONE LOOKED AT US LIKE.....MORONS! haha
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2004 15 March :: 2.12 pm
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: my lil cousin's gibberish
ay que sueño.....
HEY IM BACK! oh it was soooooooo much fun! k well ima give u guys the full run through day by day. well so i get there saturday at like 12 and we were chillin walkin around gettin situated in our rooms and junk. the piece du theatre was that nite (that's the play) and so we were all rehearsin and stuff....haha we finally got in our costumes...and like i told u guys i was sposed to be a hoe...so i put on this really short tight ass skirt wit my really tight black tank top.....oh lordy! ... haha i come out of the room and andres (this cute junior who flirts with EVERYONE!) was like DAMN THAIMI! YOU LOOK HOT! hahah so he's like u gotta take a picture wit me girl! haha so ya we took a pic......we did the play at like 10 30 that nite....i screwed up like twice.....but i fixed it....so it wasn't that bad.....jasmine forgot her line completely! but alexander saved her by goin on to the next line...haha but not after a 20 second pause, as our faces were splashed with looks of concern and fright! haha! so anywayz that was over....and so we went and chilled in ppls rooms and lied down and talked and stuff....andres was in our room like the whollllle time! haha! ooh yea after like 20 min of bein at the hotel i was like fuck this shit ima get comfy! so i put on my pajama pants and my spongebob shirt and andres was in his boxers hahah we were all like walkin around the hotel like if nothin....everyone was like wtf...haha that nite we went to tgi friday's for dinner.....haha omg i said the stupidest thing! haha well..i was like....y is it tgi friday's.....y not like...tgi tuesday's or wednesday's?! and kristen goes......cuz it's not thank god it's tuesday.....and me and hilary (this awesome freshman i met) just looked at each other and go OHHHHHHHHHH THAT'S WHAT IT STANDS FOR?! hahahah omg everyone was like wtf! hahahha then on our walk to tgi friday's hilary was tellin me bout how she's half australian and i swear i almost asked her if she spoke australian!!!!! hahahahha omg we laughed sooooo hard! haha and then we were in the elevator and hilary saw this girl wit a cowboy hat and she goes "i love ur howboy cat!" hahah....and then she's like "wait..." hahahahhahahha omg it was sooooooo funny! we kept screwin up our words like that! like on the bus instead of sayin im sleepy or im tired....i mushed the two words together and said man im so teepy! hahaha daphne was like....wtf....haha it was hilarious. well w/e we had dinner and did our play and eventually by like 12 30 we went to sleep. the next morning we woke up at 7 30 cuz my competition was at 9 and daphne's was at 9 45 and stuff....so i went and took a shower and what not and got dressed.....i went to my competition and i kicked some major french booty! i knew every question on there! (turns out i only missed one but that was just cuz i looked at one answer and decided that was the correct one but accidentally bubbled in another letter....haha retarded i know!) but w/e so i took my test and then i went to go get breakfast cuz i was starvin so i go to the food court and i see andres out there and he waves to me so im like ill be rite out.....so i went and got me a cappucinno chiller and some cookies.....and i came out and chilled wit him at this table outside by the pool. so it was me, him, britanny, and caitlinn out there...haha and we were like checkin guys out....it was hilarious! and then...this hairy bum lookin kid came out and started playin his guitar....and rite behind us these haitian men were like talkin and stuff....and andres goes ima give em some change....and caitlinn and brittany just look at each other and they're like omg andres that's terrible! hahaha they thought he was talkin bout the haitians and not the bum guy! hahahha omg it was priceless! haha so he's like thaimi come wit me....so me and him went to go give the guy some change and andres is like "i dig ur tunes man...i dig em" hahah the guy was like thanks thanks....i appreciate it hahah! so ya w/e then i went back upstairs and met up wit hilary and we stayed in the hotel room and ate some crap while watchin tv......and andres came up wit us....hahaha omg! we started watchin willy wonka and the chocolate factory....and there's this line when they're talkin bout the everlastin gobstopper and willy wonka goes "you can suck em and suck em and suck em and they never get any smaller" HAHAHA OMG ME AND ANDRES STARTED BAWLIN ON THE FLOOR LAUGHIN OUR ASSES OFF AND EVERYONE JUST LOOKED AT EACH OTHER LIKE.....I DONT GET IT.....! hahahahhahah omg we laughed sooooo hard! he was like i can't believe u got that! i thought i was the only pervert! hah ahe was like omg i love this girl! haha it was priceless. so ya w/e then anne marie and andres went down to the pool.....i didnt bring a bathing suit....but me and hilary went downstairs later and like sprawled out on some of the lawn chairs and got a lil bit of a tan....not really...haha she did......i didnt get any darker....but w/e we were sittin there and all of a sudden these guys start hittin on us and askin us our names and how old we are and junk...haha before i could answer hilary was like we're both juniors...17.....hahaha i was like psh! haha but they bought it......mostly cuz she's like 5'6 and a D cup like me...so we pulled it off! haha well they were like over 20 cuz they had drinks in their hands. they were offerin us pizza and stuff....well me and one of the guys hit it off and we were like talkin and stuff....and so he's like what's ur name? and im like thaimi and he goes ooh wow that's unique i love it and so i was like what's ur name? and he's like greg...it's no thaimi but it's alrite...i gotta deal wit the cards im dealt hahaha! it was so funny he was soooooooo hot! i was like damn baby! he was half italian and when he found out i was cuban he was like damn.....that's hot rite there haha! but ya me and hilary went upstairs later cuz we didnt wanna be hangin out wit them and gettin in trouble or anything like that....so ya we hung out at the rooms....i went into the juniors hotel room and hung out wit andres and me and anne marie were lying on the bed watchin this movie wit him...haha omg him and anne marie got all touchy feely....like her leg was in between his legs and she was like rubbin his arms and stuff....i was like whoa....haha after a while i was like ok that's it ima get down...haha i didnt wanna be involved wit that.....but andres kept tryin to flirt wit me....like while we were waitin outside the hotel room for these ppls to get ready so we could go outside....i sat on the floor and he like lied down and put his head on my lap...i was like....umm.....haha and then he's like thaimi come sit here on my lap...and i was like umm ill just sit next to u instead...hehe but yea then w/e we had the banquet.....where they talked a bunch of baloney.....and then.......THE BEST PART OF THE WHOLE WEEKEND! the dance!!!!!!! omg it was sooooooo much fun! i went crazy we were dancin all over the place! there were soooooo many hot guys i was like damn baby hubba hubba! haha me and andres started dancin when they put my song....cuz me and daphne requested yeah by usher....and so we were dancin and stuff....then me and daphne went off and started dancin and andres was dancin wit anne marie and caitlinn....hahaha the dance lasted from like 8 30 to like 1 in the morning.....so we were there the whole entire time dancing! they started playin some spanish music and iw as like "uh oh here i go baby!" haha and this random guy comes up to me and starts dancin wit me salsa and i was like......alrite...heheh and hilary hooked up wit this boy! cuz they put a slow song and the dj's like alrite it's girl's choice and so she goes up to him and she's like u wnana dance? and the wholllllllle nite they were dancin together....and he came up to our room to say good bye to her and brought his guitar to like play for her and stuff it was cute! hahah then melissa was dancin wit this boy and he started tellin her how he wanted to get in bed wit her!!!!! hahah omg it was hilarious! he was like "hey baby im on the 8th floor...wat floor r u?!" hahahah she was like omg save me! haha so ya at like 1 in the mornin we went back to our rooms and andres ended up spendin the nite in our room....eventhough that's against the rules but shhhhh haha him and anne marie were all cuddly in the bed....she has a bf and everythin....but apparently they're on terms where they're allowed to flirt wit whoever and junk...so yea. hehe and andres was like damn thaimi i didnt know u could dance like that! haha he was like man i love this girl! y havne't i ever talked to u before woman! hahah it was funny. well w/e we fell asleep at like 2 in the morning and had to wake up at 6 30 cuz we had to check out by like 7 30 and be at the ballroom by 8 for the awards ceremony...well the awards worked out like this....1st place was superior, 2nd place was excellent, 3rd place was good and anything below didn't get a mention. so yea i ended up gettin a superior for my lecture test and we got an excellent for our play...our school was 7th in our division....but that's ok cuz we only had like 15 students as opposed to the other schools who had like 20 students which means they could score more points......so yea then we waited for the bus..and andres sat on me...and then anne marie sat on me.....haha it was funny! omg i forgot to tell u! hahaha well we weren't sure if we wanted andres to sleep in our room cuz we didnt want him and anne marie to get all freaky in the middle of the nite...and anne marie's like no don't worry bout it nothing will happen...and then we were like but the cot is too small for the both of u (we ordered a cot so anne marie could sleep in the room wit us) and she's like no dont worry bout it cuz i dont kick or move around a lot in my sleep....and then she goes and i quote...."I'M GOOD AT SLEEPING WITH BOYS!" hahahahhahahahha omg me and andres were like haaahahahahhahahha omg! it was hilarious! haha! but yea....so we got on the bus and came home....and here i am.....tired as fuck....cuz i haven't been well rested...and in dire need of doin tons and tons of hw.....okies well ima go get to it...buhz byez
update: i forgot one more thing.....haha at the dance we were tryin to hook daphne up wit some guy..and she's like maybe i can't find anyone cuz im too picky...haha i was like "yea daph u gotta lower ur standards to anything with legs and a penis!"
tonite's song: welcome to the jungle by guns n' roses
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2004 12 March :: 9.27 pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: avril
PEPPERMINT FLAVORED CONDOMS!
haha dont mind ^^^that .... hehe.....well today i took the national latin exam..and if i calculated it well i only got 1 wrong out of 40....i wasl ike the 3rd person done.....if i only got one wrong i get a gold medal! and my latin teach told me that looks really really good on college applications so thats good. umm i stayed after school today to practice for latin..and we had our final play practice for french durin lunch. hahaha after school it was just me and charles (carrolus) workin in the room and we were quizzin each other...haha one of the questions asked for the name of some emperor who died from eating too much cheese!!!!!! haha omg we laughed sooooo hard! he's a cool kid..haha we have the same kind of sense of humor and he's soo good at latin! he's like better than i am...cuz im only good at vocab and grammar but he's good at history, mythology, vocab, grammar.....the whole enchilada. hehe..but ya....tomorrow's the french competition! im so excited! im so scared that ima get up there and forget my lines..i haven't practiced at all for lecture (read passage in french and answer q's) but im hopin my spanish and latin will kick in and help me out wit the vocab....they almost always do so no biggie. ill do okies. i talked to my cousin a couple minutes ago (yes donna the cute one..haha loser) and he took 2 years of french....and i was tellin him how ima take it for all 4 years and then in college...and how i wanna minor in french as well as italian in college.....along wit my major in psychology and maybe philosophy.....but yea! he was like omg woman! u and all those damn languages! haha u've surpassed even me! but yea my aunt and uncle called me and wished me good luck and stuff.....im sharin a hotel room wit anne marie and daphne......that's gonna be so much fun! 3 girls alone in a hotel room wit no supervision! r u kiddin me?! that's like chaos waitin to happen! might as well supply us wit masks, a gun, and a bag to put the bank's money in....haha dont mind me. wellz im takin 50 bucks...i think that'll be more than enough. i gotta practice my lines! i made the lil posterboard thingies that say the scenes on em....and the giant one that says the play's name. ima borrow daphne's skirt for the play and she's gonna loan me another one for the banquet cuz i hate dresses and the only skirts i have r jean...so ya...and ima wear my adorable black heels....i love those shoes! i only wore em to prom 8th grade......but they are sooo purdy. im soo excited! manana im wakin up at 8 to go wit my mommy to kash n karry to buy me a chicken salad so i can eat it on the bus ride.....i hope they dont just serve like beef and pork at the hotel room cuz if they do that's it im screwed....haha......ooh my baby's in ny rite now.....lucky bastard....i wish i was there! i was like come on we'll switch! ill go to ny u go to orlando. hehe but ya....we're gonna go out next weekend. he was bein bitchy wit me online today... iwas like sheesh calm yo lil ass down hoe! hehe but naw he apologized. WHIPPED I TELL YA! haha jk alritey wellz now ima go......cuz i need to go pack my cd's .... just realized that wasn't in my bag.....which is insane cuz i can't sleep without it.....alritey buhz byez ppls!
tonite's song: naked by avril lavigne
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2004 12 March :: 9.24 pm
HAHHAHA
Crazystingaree06: oo yeah have fun on the trip
Crazystingaree06: haha almost wrote tree
babaloo181: haha hahve fun on the tree?!
babaloo181: hahaha
babaloo181: sure can do
Crazystingaree06: bueno dont lose ur virginity...say no to drugs..no to sex...no to cigarettes....no to any other kind of peer pressure..and yes to edumacation
Crazystingaree06: oye and i know those smart types
Crazystingaree06: once they out of school...they go buck wild
babaloo181: HAHHA
Crazystingaree06: so watch out!
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2004 12 March :: 9.14 pm
:: Mood: content
cool song
Tearjerker
by Fenix TX
Your picture's on the wall,
Just waiting there to fall.
Still remind me,
That painful holiday.
Can almost here you say,
"Please don't miss me, too long"
What did I do wrong?
Could of sung a different song.
You were my tune.
Make my heart believe,
A want is not a need,
And I'm alright without you.
The days go by,
The nights don't change.
The stars still spell out your name.
I will wait for you.
The world has let me down.
Is it you're just not around?
I've lost my reason.
All the memories,
And every smile you gave to me,
You can keep them.
The days go by,
the nights don't change.
The stars still spell out your name.
I will wait for you.
I will wait for you.
I will wait for you.
I will wait for you.
I will wait for...
The days go by,
And still, I will wait for you.
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2004 11 March :: 9.10 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: the greatest fall by matchbook romance
umm..nothin much really
well im excited as hell for this weekend....i can't wait! umm...nothing exciting really happened today...i just came from goin grocery shoppin.....i bought yogurt! ah yes..the highlight of thaimi's day...hehe. physics is really aggravating me..i keep failing the quizzes and i dont understand how to do it.....and she intimidates the hell out of me so i dont like askin her questions.....cuz she responds my question by askin ME another question...im like how the fuck am i sposed to answer ur question..REGARDING my question......when i was the one who asked! agh! but w/e.....hehe.......haha omg look at this quote i found on the forum "love is like mexican food. as fast as it goes it leaves." HAHAHAH! omg priceless! i came up wit one that was really stupid but kinda cute i guess..haha......."love is like a noodle. you keep suckin it up and it leaves u feelin empty." haha...wow could i BE any more of a loser?! well im kinda just babblin on and on......pero here's a message to my fellow woohu-ers...UPDATE UR FUCKIN JOURNALS DAMNIT! ..... cough cesar cough.....cough yara cough......cough OTHER PPLS TOO cough hehe alritey buhz byez g'nite muah!
tonite's song: bounce...by some chick....
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2004 9 March :: 5.31 pm
great poem i just found..haha i adore the sarcasm in it!
Depressionville Hotel
Shelley Haggard
Welcome to Depressionville.
I see you found your way here once again!
Have you any guesses
as to how much time you’ll spend?
Please just sign the register
and we’ll let the critics know you’re here.
Remember, you should mumble words
and keep communications quite unclear.
I see you have some baggage;
actually, you’ve brought quite a lot!
But, of course, this is the place for it;
this is the perfect spot.
Oh! Guilt and fear are with you;
yes, of course, that’s quite all right.
We wouldn’t want you sleeping well;
that really ruins OUR nights.
There are things to eat at the sideboard:
just words and junk and pain.
All the things that you can’t swallow now
will, of course, be served again.
Yes! Welcome to Depressionville!
We’re all so glad you’ve come.
Let us know what we might do
to keep you feeling numb.
May your stay be long and bitter;
may your problems keep piling on.
May your tortured soul keep bleeding
until all you love is gone.
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2004 8 March :: 7.02 pm
fave songs from the cd :p
Promise
by Matchbook Romance
what would you say if i asked you not to go
to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
would you take my hand and never let me go
promise me you'll never let me go
and the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right
i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy
i never thought i'd be the one to say
please don't, please don't leave me
i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy... (easy, easy, easy...)
take my hand and never let me go,
take my hand and never let me go,
promise me...
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
make this last forever
i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know, you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
so fall asleep tonight, cuz' that brings me closer to you
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Tiger Lilly
by Matchbook Romance
we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go...
i'll never let go.
as we round the corner
to your house
you turned to me and said,
"i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent."
and, i want to speak these words
but i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from.
and i... don't want to speak these words.
cause i, don't want to make things anyworse.
why does tonite, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.
and i... don't want to speak these words.
cause i, don't want to make things anyworse.
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Themeless
by Matchbook Romance
My eyes burn from these tears
You think you'd learn over these years
Good things won't last forever
So what the hell am I suppose to do
You only wanted the things I couldn't give to you
And you had it all anyway
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
Tell me i'm wrong when I say
I can't expect you to stay forever with me
I live for that single moment
I take back everything i've said
You would those words on your lips
As if they meant anything anyway
Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth
It seems I do more harm than good
And I don't know if it's worth me loosing sleep over this
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
Tell me I'm wrong when I say it
I can't expect you to spend forever with me
I live for that single moment
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2004 8 March :: 5.23 pm
:: Mood: high
:: Music: number 6 on matchbook romance cd colin made me
pure bliss
hey. well today was an awesome day....u know? lately...i've just been having such great days...im so scared that ima wake up one morning and everything's gonna suck again..and ima lose everything...im so scared that im gonna wake up and lose colin...and donna....and shilpa...and things'll be awkward again wit cesar....and spanish guy will bitch at me again.....i dont know im just so scared that this happiness isn't gonna last......im trying hard not to focus on the "what will happens" cuz if i spend so much time thinkin bout what mite happen in the future i wont enjoy the present...hmm well moving on lemme tell u y today was so wonderful. well colin was extra cuddly today. like at lunch...i was there for like 2 seconds and he wouldn't let me go to french...he's like who needs french anywayz?! stay wit me! and he just like held me close and refused to let me go....he's like no ur mine ur stayin...hehe and then he sat down at the table.....(btw i stayed at lunch for like 5 min cuz daph had to go to her locker) well anyway he like sits down and rests his head on the table cuz he was tired....and so i start like playin wit his hair...and i leaned in and gave him a kiss on his cheek and he's like....u need to bring me ur perfume bottle so i can spray my pillow wit it!! it was soooo sweet....he had his eyes closed and he just kept like caressin my hand..but then i had to go bye bye so he gave me a really big hug and i was walkin away and he's like BYE THAIMI! it was so cute....hehe then after school...i waited for him outside and as soon as he sees me he gets this big smile..and i smiled too....hehe and he comes up to me...grabs both my hands...puts his forehead on mine...starts singin "you are my sunshine" ... and i go..."my only sunshine"...hehe so yea we keep singin like that......till the end of the song where he goes "so please dont' take" and i go "my sunshine awayyyyyyyyy" and he looks at me...leans in and gives me a lil kiss...oh it was the sweetest thing in the whole wide world!!! i was like ....... wow.....i practically melted...hehe well friday i asked him to burn me a copy of this cd....and im listenin to it rite now...it's wonderful....just like he is.......haha could i BE any cornier?! hehe...i can't help it! alritey ima go before i make u guys throw up....hehe bye
tonite's song: yea by usher
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2004 7 March :: 8.59 pm
great song
What I Really Meant To Say
by Cyndi Thompson
It took me by surprise
When I saw you standing there
Close enough to touch
Breathing the same air
You asked me how I'd been
I guess thats when I smiled and said just fine
Oh, but baby I was dying
What I really meant to say
Is I'm dying here inside
And I miss you more each day
There's not a night I haven t cried
And baby here's the truth
I'm still in love with you, yeah
That's what I really meant to say
And as you walked away
The echo of my words
Cut just like a knife
Cut so deep it hurt
I held back the tears
Held on to my pride and watched you go
I wonder if you ll ever know
What I really meant to say
Is I'm dying here inside
And I miss you more each day
There's not a night I haven't cried
And baby here's the truth
I'm still in love with you
What I really meant to say
Is I'm really not that strong
No matter how I try
I'm still holding on
And here's the honest truth
I'm still in love with you, yeah
That's what I really meant to say
That's what I really meant to say
That's what I really meant to say
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