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WhitePony

:: 2004 9 November :: 8.38am
:: Music: the music of Mr. Holland's Opus

Danielle to Laurence: What is something you’ve learned about Joe since he’s been here?
Laurence: Uh….um…when we were watching the Ellen DVD I noticed he blinks a lot.
Joe: WHAT!? I blink a lot!?
Laurence: Yeah, I dunno, I guess. I just noticed you blinked a lot.
Joe: Why the hell were you paying attention to my blinking rather than watching the DVD? I feel violated!
Laurence: Hahaha

Of course this is not verbatim, and it was 4 months ago, so I don’t remember exactly, but its close enough.

So a few weeks ago I remembered this conversation and I put it to the test. I was watching Law & Order at a friend’s house and I was competing with the actors on the show, and I’d blink like twice before they blinked once. But I wasn’t convinced, it could’ve been some trickery of television. So I tested myself against the three other people in the room. I was sitting in a position where I could creepily watch them and not be noticed. And again, my eyes would dry out quicker than them. So I’ve concluded that these Caribbean Blues need to be reunited with the sea a bit more often than regular folk.

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moana

:: 2004 8 November :: 2.23pm
:: Mood: appreciative
:: Music: b'jork - unravel

marriage

in words exchanged between a separated mother and her first lover, madison garths wrote:

Your company soothes my misery
Floating away in tobacco air
When, seven smoke rings later, I realize:
We're practically engaged and I'm married
Until death do my Love part

(from "Death of a Family")

in a conversation with kaileen on marriage, these words were exchanged:

bo3riki says:
so what happens if you lose all your rights as a US citizen?
Kaileen says:
then i shove uncomfortable stuff up bush's ass
bo3riki says:
noted. but what would you and mel do? would you ever consider divorce?
Kaileen says:
no way in hell. maybe i don't believe in the church, but i beleive in "until death do us part"... nothing's going to separate me from the woman i love but death

it's remarkable how my two favourite women think about marriage.

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moana

:: 2004 7 November :: 7.22am
:: Mood: mechanical yet inspired
:: Music: deftones - lotion

girl: where's my cab? i called it ages ago. aren't cabs supposed to come fast?

me: no.

girl: they are. cabs come fast. that's why they're cabs.

me: oh so that's what CAB stands for.

girl: what?

i was very tired by the end of the day. don't judge me.

i have work to do now.

p.s. thank you for inspiring me. just so you know, i picked up the pencil again.

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moana

:: 2004 1 November :: 2.52pm

i wish i could make everything possible. i hope i can hold it together just for a few days. this is the ditch and all time low i've been waiting for and dreading.

this is me carrying my home on my shoulders.

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moana

:: 2004 30 October :: 3.36pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: deftones - battle-axe

just a girl's eye
this is yasser arafat. the president of occupied palestine. he's having some health problems, but sadly, he's ok.



this man is a great leader. he supported saddam hussein during both his wars and turned a blind eye to his own people's suffering and misery for decades. ahhh... the makings of a true president.


this is Osama Bin Laden. head of a very prestigious and elite terrorist group driven by religious discrimination and mindless hate.



he is a truly great leader. he promotes the murder of innocents as a religious campaign and sells the idea that dying and killing a couple thousand other people along the way is a glorious thing that will get you into heaven. he promotes such important 21st century issues as racism, anti-semitism and the general hate of all that is different.

this is islam. it's a strange religion, based on mutual love and ethnic equality. it's a religion that oddly enough, values the human life. this is a religion that says "do not kill unless it is in self-defense" and "forbidden to you is another man's life, money and loved ones". so who are these men, standing there in all their earthly might, crying out "Allah is great!" when they do the very acts that He has damned?

what makes them right...

and the remainder of the 1.2 billion muslims wrong?

what makes you right...

and me wrong?

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moana

:: 2004 28 October :: 6.22pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: phil collins - another day in paradise

halloween
can i just say that this day started out as one of the hardest most cruel days in a long time and ended equally horrid? however, the meat, the in-between, was fantastic. i learned to do the time-warp!

first, i regreat to inform you all that there were no pictures of toto/fay(go)/erm... no that's all you call me.

i arrived there shortly before futoor and we were instructed to paint a witch face.

toto: there should be a buckle on her hat.
andy: what?! why?!
toto: it's a pioneer thing. that's when they burned all the witches.
andy: those were the puritans...
toto: so? they still had buckles!
andy: but not on their hats!
toto: ... i still say she should have a buckle on her hat.
andy: *exasperated*FINE!

oh and, did someone want the all-natural look of elijah from unbreakable?



anyhow. i inspected the decorations of the house and found what used to be a little boy hung in the window.



sandman seemed in an especially delighted mood. it must have been the ribbon.



that ribbon.



everyone was in costume! laurence, you're afraid of andy's dad? you didn't run into this all night.



although summer warmed up to him. that expression on her face? that was her going "terroreeeeest!"



barney and summer had a great time together.







then we tied up andy in summer's abaya. look at her facial expression, please!





did i mention we did the time warp? in this picture barney took, you can't see me cuz i'm on the far left. your left.



poor andy worked like a dog, cleaning spills and stains and things.



in the end, this is what she looked like.



we all had fun. i don't know why no one thought to take any pictures of me. not even me. but for your knowledge, i opted to go as the slutty catholic school girl part i've pulled off so well in the past. andy was very disapointed i didn't go as "edwardia", but alas. next time?

i guess that's the end.

oh and laurence! i ate doughnuts and thought of you.

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WhitePony

:: 2004 28 October :: 8.05am

-Budget allotted to the 9/11 commission to investigate the terrorist attacks:

$15 million

-Amount spent on Kenneth Starr's investigations of Bill Clinton's sexual and financial affairs:

$70 million


It's nice to see where our priorities are

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moana

:: 2004 27 October :: 5.39pm
:: Mood: festive
:: Music: gargai3an oo gargai3an

gargai3an oo gargai3an
bait ig9ayir wir'maythan
3adat 3alaikom 9iyam
kil sina oo kil 3am
Allah y5ali DANIELLE
Allah y5alha lomha
3asa il bog3a mat5omha
wala twasi 3al'omha

salim waladhom y'allah
5ala lomah y'allah
salim LAURENCE y'allah
5ala lomah y'allah

Allah y5ali JOSEPH
Allah y5ala lomah
Allah y5ali JOSEPH
Allah y6awel 3omra

kil 3am wintaw b5air!

for a rough translation: Read more..

traditional song for this time of lunar year. enjoy! it's called gargai3an, and it's like trick-or-treating. kids dress in traditional clothing and go from door to door. they sing these songs inserting the name of the children of the house, and in exchange get candy and things. if the house you go to doesn't ahve any candy to give, you say:

wees wees, fee baitkom ja3amees.

wees wees (ew ew), there's shit in your house. well, not shit, just manure. you get the idea.

it's like a kuwaiti halloween. it's fun! there's a song for girls and two songs for boys. which worked out great for my americans!

p.s. i needed a 2-syllable name so i expanded joe. i can't think of a single kuwaiti guy name with one syllable. the end.

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WhitePony

:: 2004 27 October :: 10.19am

This feeling gets old

And so do your eyes

This is why....

I Hate You

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WhitePony

:: 2004 25 October :: 8.36pm
:: Music: The Used - Let It Bleed

Don't you love how cell phones provide people an excuse to bitch at you about not answering? I remember back before cell phones were the norm, friends actually had to call the house to find you. I can scroll through my list of contacts and not one is a house number, save for my parents' houses. Before cell phones you had to leave messages with either parents or siblings or on an answering machine, now all I get are voice messages containing: "where the hell are you?" "why are you ignoring me?" "Yeah, its cool that you don't answer your phone" Well y'know what.. FUCK OFF! Cell phones are meant as a convenience to the person in possession in order to call in any situation, i.e. car trouble, insane murderers chasing you, etc. not for people to always be able to get a hold of you. I'm not at your beckon call, I'm not always available, I don't always want to talk. Cell phones have turned us into assholes, as have many other things that we have around nowadays. Plus its helped us forget all kinds of numbers. When my cell phone died a few months ago, I was screwed. I didn't have ANYONE'S numbers. Well that was my rant... I can't delve into the deep recesses of my soul and pull out the dark goo that plagues me and paste it on here for everyone to see, so instead I bitch about cell phones.. ah well.

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moana

:: 2004 25 October :: 1.59pm
:: Mood: vulnerable
:: Music: manic - old song

cheesy song, but i can't stop listening to it
Can you undo the handcuffs, please? I need to go to the bathroom and run away.

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moana

:: 2004 24 October :: 1.12pm
:: Mood: total mental meltdown
:: Music: music

i've got a total of 6750 words to write, 31 math questions to solve, three applications to compile and encode, among other things, but this is what i choose to do when my brain threatens to explode


you know what i love about radiohead? their individuality. i wish more people would realize how unique they are, how it's as much the presentation of their music as it is the songs themselves that make them what they are. you take a song like creep and you're left with nothing, you can't even see what an unusual theme the song has behind it (a boy in love with his teacher), but then you're given a song like the gloaming and you have to, have to, stop and wonder what it means.

you know what i love about rob zombie? his audacity. it blows me away everytime i put hellbilly deluxe on and listen to what this man, this forty-something year old man, is growling about. sex, politics, self gratification, hate-violence, it's mind boggling.

you know what i love about tool/a perfect circle? (before you jump down my throat about them being two totally separate things, i know, i just put them together because it's more about maynard than the rest of the bands) their eroticism. something about his voice makes things warm and slow so that it's hard to think clearly. there's something so hypnotic, so mesmerizing about the mood, the tone, the...

you know what i love about new found glory? their adaptivity. i'd rather listen to their cover of so-and-so than their original work any day, because i'm so fascinated by how they can take anything, anything, and make it their own, be it shania twain, bryan adams or britney spears.

you know what i love about interpol? their basslines. i wish i had an equalizer on this piece of crap stereo that i nicked off my dad when he moved out, but i don't, and i can't turn the bass up! i hate how in a lot of bands, the bass is totally disregarded as if it's not important, when bass is everything because it's... not sound. i love interpol because you can turn everything off and just listen to the bass and it's a whole independent song that can live on its own without anything else.

you know what i love about muse? the passion. i wish i knew someone that could sing like that, spill their blood and guts into their mouth so that when it comes out in words, it's this beautiful mass of raw human insides. he sings like an angel.

you know what i love about godsmack? their aggression. i wish i could channel all that hostility into this writhing beating sound so that it makes your head real hazy and your heart beat faster and you breathe harder and it's almost like - almost exactly like - ...

you know what i love about oasis? their calm. i wish all people had the ability to remain so cool and collected no matter what they were discussing, no matter what important lesson they were trying to hammer into your thick numb skull. it's alright if you don't understand, you don't even have to listen, but i won't get myself worked up over your ignorance.

you know what i love about apocalyptica? their romance. i wish we could all find this sort of great love and immerse ourselves in it, angrily, happily, sadly, desperately, but in the end, just love something so much it covers all those emotions anyway and it doesn't make a difference anymore.

you know what i love about distorted penguins? their persistence. their ability to just pick up and go on no matter what, their ability to keep laughing no matter what miserable stuff is going on.

deftones.

you know what i love about deftones?

the fact that no matter what i'm thinking, no matter what i feel, there's at least one song i can play at that moment that'll move me to tears.

i love deftones because they're everything.

then i love them more because they're more.

Read more..

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WhitePony

:: 2004 21 October :: 7.06pm
:: Music: What do you think?

I'd steal a carcass for you....

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moana

:: 2004 23 October :: 8.09pm

You're Ava Adore! You little lovebird, you.
Obsessed with love and your lover, you're a
great song with some experimental techno stuff
and great lyrics.


Which Smashing Pumpkins song are you?
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moana

:: 2004 20 October :: 8.23am
:: Mood: grumpy
:: Music: bright eyes - waste of paint

hoo-hah

If you and I were alone in a room right now, what would we be doing?


Reply and then copy this into your Woohu and see what people want to do with you. I hope it's kinky.

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