Ariana

Ariana

:: 2006 30 January :: 5.33pm
:: Music: Coldplay - We Never Change

I wanna live life
And never be cruel
And I wanna live life
And be good to you

And I wanna fly
And never come down
And live my life
And have friends around

We never change, do we?
No, no
We never learn, do we?

So, I wanna live in a wooden house
I wanna live life
And always be true
I wanna live life
And be good to you

Oh, and I don't have a soul to save
Yes, and I sin every single day

We never change, do we?
We never learn, do we?

So, I wanna live in a wooden house
And making more friends would be easy

I wanna live where the sun comes out

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shannonw55

:: 2006 29 January :: 11.49am
:: Music: Coldplay - See You Soon

~~I wanna go run away to Chicago. Hopefully someone will mug me to death.~~ -no
What a terrible week. And another disappointing weekend.

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shannonw55

:: 2006 25 January :: 6.15pm

I'm being absolutely screwed into this. You won't let me be right.

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Jacqui-Chan

:: 2006 25 January :: 3.56pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: nothin'

Fuckin' boys
I am in love with a boy. A boy who is no longer my boyfriend. That's right kids, JD and I are over. It sucks. Crying sucks, breaking up sucks, seeing the sympathy in everyones eyes sucks, not hugging him sucks, not kissing him sucks, not being able to touch him at all sucks. But do you know what sucks more than any of this put together? Trying to be his best friend. That's why we broke up ya' know. To get back on our feet, relationship wise, and set the ground work for it. We didn't do that at the beginning, and we think that may be why we've been fighting so much lately. So yea, not something I'd recommend. Don't try to be your ex-boyfriends best friend... at least not starting the day you break up.

Last night was terrible, trying to figure out what to do next. We kissed good-bye a hundred times. We just cried together, only wanting each other. Is this really the best way to fix things? Do you think it'll help? I don't know. I just want everything to be good. I love him so much. I don't like losing him. I told him I don't know if I want this to bring us back together. Because I don't want to chance ever feeling this way again. Lonely... being lonely is the worst feeling in the entire world. And it can't change, no matter how many of my friends tell me they're here. Because that spot can only be filled by the one I love... and he's not here. He won't be here... because it's over.

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bigty623

:: 2006 25 January :: 3.09pm

well.... it's official, i have braces now :(

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bigty623

:: 2006 25 January :: 11.59am

well... this suck, only another hour and a half and i'll be getting braces on :(. i really don't want to get them but i guess i have to :(
-Ty

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liz	:: 2006 22 January :: 10.07pm I hate Jake Delohmme.(sp) more than anything in the whole world. he is suckfest wrapped up in a panthers uniform. I want to play softball real bad 1 Red Hairs Left \| Leave a Red Hair

jacqui-chan

:: 2006 20 January :: 10.35pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: B-Ball Blitz on FOX

I had a bad day...
Can't he just care? Is it so hard for him to just hold me and make me feel better? Last night all he could really do is say "It's gonna' be okay," but today he could've helped. He could've just come over, or brought me to his house. ANYTHING! All I wanted was a hug and his love. But I got nothing. Even when we said good-bye after school he wasn't paying attention. He just kept talking to Jeremy and ignoring me. I said "I love you" and he didn't even hear me! Then I said "bye" and he still wasn't listening. I was a foot from him and talking loudly, he just didn't care. And now we can't hang out at all, just because of this stupid weather. (and his refusal to go to an f-ing basketball game.) So, when I figured out today was a no-go I asked him to hang out tomorrow. But no, of course not. He's hanging out with Caleb. And we couldn't possibly all do something together. I just love that. When the two of us hang out, Caleb's ALWAYS invited, but when those two hang out I'm shunned. It's so stupid!! I swear, all I wanted was a really big hug from him. That's all I really needed. Instead I get yelled at, argued with, and hung up on. How wonderful is that? Man, what an awesome boyfriend. I told him it'd be nice if he'd at least pretend to care once in a while... he just said he was gonna' go. I let him. I really didn't know what to say after that anyway. I didn't want to talk to him about anything anymore, becuase I was too mad. I still am, but I really do wish he'd call me back and tell me how much he cares, and how sorry he is. But he won't... cuz he's JD... and he thinks he can get away with anything. And he can... because I let him. It's my fault... it's always my fault...

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shannonw55

:: 2006 19 January :: 10.04pm
:: Mood: frustrated

Look at my freaking livejournal, darn it.

It's important now.

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Jacqui-Chan

:: 2006 19 January :: 3.52pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: Mercyme "Undone"

S.W.E.E.T.
Truth. It's odd, everybody seems to think something different of it. Can there really be truth with all the opinions on right and wrong? What is really true, and will we ever really know for sure? It's been so twisted and screwed up so many times that it just doesn't seem possible to find anymore. I don't know. Some people think God's word is truth. Others believe science holds the key to real truth. It's all really a matter of faith, isn't it? My faith is in God, but somehow I feel like that's not necissarily truth. Not always. Maybe truth changes as time changes. What's true today isn't necissarily going to be true next year or in 10 years or even in a week.

Kinda' interesting to think about isn't it. Truth just depends on faith, trust, and knowledge. So my truth may not be yours. Now, will SOMEBODY PLEASE tell the Supreme Court that? Or how about the President? This is some screwed up stuff man.

Anyway, I'll leave you all to ponder truthfullness, even the truth in this little entry.

Love always,
Jacqui

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liz

:: 2006 19 January :: 10.39am

last night was so good.
we went ice skating.
ray fell and kicked me in the leg when he went down so I have a sizeable bruise on my leg but thats life anyway.
then we went to the center but all the pool tables were busy and so we watched a movie.
that was fun.
then we went to movie gallery but they were closed which sucks because blockbuster costs twice as much.
now im just thinking about taking a shower because ive got a couple of hours before class, then I am going to babysit and go to my moms.
good stuff.

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liz	:: 2006 17 January :: 1.50pm Hey, Hey! If it was up to me I would've never walked out So until the sun burns out Oh, I hope you're waiting Leave a Red Hair

jacqui-chan

:: 2006 17 January :: 12.07pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: news 3 at noon

This SUCKS.
So, we kinda' broke up Sunday... then we un-broke up. It was complicated. Now we've been trying to decide what to do. He won't just talk to me about it though, of course not. He just says "I don't wanna' deal with it right now". So I tell him that he's never going to want to deal with it, but he's gonna' have to. We need to talk about some stuff to decide what's best for our relationship. But no, we can't. Which just pushes me closer and closer to the end-it-now side. NOT GOOD.

Ya know what's really weird about all this though. We'll fight and be angry and talk about possibly breaking up, but we still say "I love you" when we say good-bye. It's just odd, I mean, I'll probably always love him... he is my first love... but wouldn't ya' think after talking about breaking up we'd just be too angry to say it? It's silly.

I don't know. I'm so glad we had a snow day today. I was seriously up WAY too late thinking about stuff... not just JD stuff... work stuff too. And exams... oh lord exams. Not good.

Anyway, I'll get going now. Love ya'll, Chao.

-Jacq-

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shannonw55

:: 2006 14 January :: 9.44pm
:: Mood: giddy
:: Music: Campbell's Soup song

I was looking at bridal pictures with my mom (since my sister is getting married) and look at this one. Read more..

I thought I'd spread the feeling...

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liz

:: 2006 13 January :: 12.27pm

i love walking around in the rain.
everything is soaked right now and i have class in a half an hour then straight to work.
I want to cozy up in my bed with ray but he is at work and i have school.
i just love walking around in the rain though.

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