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aaron

:: 2007 25 April :: 10.33am

I feel like a fucking Hipster
Next essay is a research paper deriving a concept from Schlosser's book and using documented incidents to make it relevant to the local populous.

We can choose from marijuana laws, illegal immigrant labor, and pornography and the surrounding controversy (free speech and such).

I'm thinking...pornography and free speech. I've never formally written anything on free speech, and I've already written more essays on pot and immigration than I care to remember.

So here's what I want to know from everyone.
(this is the hipster bit)

How is pornography is relevant in the free-speech controversy, and in what way does this impact us as citizens of the pacific north west?

(That sounded terrible. I should vomit just on principle)

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aaron

:: 2007 22 April :: 1.58pm

Fear of a blank planet, the new porcupine tree album, is amazing. Highly recommended.

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aaron

:: 2007 16 April :: 1.32pm

I ended up writing about my drunk dog terrorizing Schweitzer. The essay blows...

I think I'm losing my edge.

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aaron

:: 2007 12 April :: 9.49am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: "and I can't fight this feelin'" (southpark)

Whoopty doo
I'm exhausted. I left home at 7:50 and won't be home until 9 ish. This blows.

Oh well, still better than high-school.

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aaron

:: 2007 9 April :: 4.09pm

English Essay
I'm writing a first person narrative of an event in my life that has taught me something about the world I live in.

The milestones of my life have been such epiphanies, but I can't think of a single one to write about. Maybe something funny. I was considering the time my dog was drunk at schweizer... but I'm having a hard time seeing a thesis for that one.

Any ideas?

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aaron

:: 2007 9 April :: 4.06pm
:: Mood: I have a head-ache.

This quarter
is going to eat me alive.

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aaron

:: 2007 20 March :: 9.14pm

Actually, I get it tomorrow.

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aaron

:: 2007 18 March :: 1.26pm
:: Mood: ...yeah.

So I got my car. It's a 2004 Ford Taurus. It kicks ass...in that grandma-man way. I get my license thursday.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2007 15 March :: 12.10am
:: Mood: angryannoyedbusyconfuseddepresseddistressedexhaust
:: Music: edjealousmelancholyrestlessrushedscaredshockedsleepystressed

JustEverything
You know that famous scene of I Love Lucy where she's working the chocolate factory and everything's going okay, but it quickly gets out of hand and the women start to do everything they can to get rid of the chocolates they can't wrap?

That's pretty much how I feel. Like everything's going alright, but it's going too fast for me to handle and I don't know how to take it. Everyday it seems like there's something new that needs a deep breath, but I just try to keep taking it.

Like my speech: Easy and slow does it...I get through most of it. I realise I've messed up. I start thinking. How can I fix it? They won't know why he's said that. Just continue. Oh, gosh, where was I? Keep talking. You know what you're saying. I can't breathe. Talk. Can't breathe. Words. ::Gasp:: Line. ::Gasp:: "Omg, I'msosorry, I'mkindahavingapanicattack." ::sob:: ::run::

It's like that. I want to dunk my head underwater and study the sandy bottom of a pool. Or sit on a wall, feel the wind, read all day, and forget everything else. Or go home and take a long, hot bath and watch a movie before going to bed.

I can't though.

No time. Luckily, Patrice and I are getting along which makes life so much easier. Because she and Ryan talk to me and make living here and being frantic bareable. And they're fun when we actually get to hang out. I just missing having more time to do it.

Mushroom came today. We hadn't talked since winter break. Then yesterday, he texted me, pretty insistant that we get together. Which is weird. He wondered why I didn't call him to tell him stuff. But why would I call someone who's mad at me? And suddenly, because of my family issues, all friend issues with him are forgiven, healed, and sealed? I questioned him on it, and though it doesn't make any sense, that's definatly what he said. It's unnerving and I don't agree with it. It's like in movies when the popular, dreamy guy asks out the nerdalicious chick, there's always a bet or a catch of some sort.

Then there's Kristen with whom I am also having issues. I just feel rejected. And I understand that she's still in high school. But that means it's going to be worse when she moves away to Indiana. I just hate the fact that I feel like I have three family members (Patrice, Ryan, Tyler), a boyfriend and one friend. Other than my mum and dad, she's the only reason I go home and the only reason I actually spend any amount of time there. We have all the same shit and better in Chicago. So it's actually her I want to see, not VH.

Bill's good though. He's a positive in my life, mostly. He's such a sweetheart. He really cares for me. Which is also mostly good. Because I know I dont feel exactly the same. I definatly care for him, but not the way he does for me. He's fantastic to whine to, but that's all I do, as far as I can tell. I think that's annoying though, but he's not much of a conversationalist. I don't know. It's nice to have a companion, but I almost feel that he's not exactly going to be the right kind. Right now, like I said, it's nice to have a companion like that, someone that'll hold me and stuff. It's comfortable, which is a horrible reason to have a boyfriend and most of the reason I didn't want one. It's all very selfish reasons, not simply because I like the guy.

I like my job, too. The new one. I still have to quit the chocolate place. I'm going in tomorrow to quit and try to get the shift for tomorrow covered. Wish me luck. I don't know what to say.

I'm trying to pick a mood with which to head this. It's tough. I'll just type a bunch because there are so many things that I'm feeling.

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aaron

:: 2007 14 March :: 9.18am
:: Mood: scurred.
:: Music: All the love in the world

...I get braces tomorrow...

*gulp*

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aaron

:: 2007 9 March :: 9.07am
:: Mood: Jovial
:: Music: Ian's Song

"Their Language is unspeakable, their hygiene is deplorable, their Germans Yeah, Germans yeah!"

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aaron

:: 2007 8 March :: 4.35pm
:: Mood: Down
:: Music: Michael teaching a guitar lesson to a seven year old.

Defining moment in my day
"I'm sick of sex."

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aaron

:: 2007 6 March :: 6.54am

ack!

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aaron

:: 2007 28 February :: 12.33pm
:: Music: rap on the ethnic diversity corner's laptop

Corn-chips are no place for a mighty warrior.

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aaron

:: 2007 26 February :: 12.35pm
:: Music: Jolly

Frost
Shock

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