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2005 25 October :: 12.17pm
in seven and nip/tuck, they use bach's air from orchestral suite number 3 for scenes...in seven, when he's in the library, searching about the juwes, which is a code for the the seven deadly sins...its a movie in which people are killed and tortured quite viciously...and in nip/tuck, when they do a face lift on one of the surgeons mother in law.
Bach's tocatta and fugue in D is used in Dark Castle, a 1986-7 mac computer game that involves navigating your way through the mazes of the castle, within which there are bats, rats and soldiers whipping those who have done badly.
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2005 25 October :: 10.57am
:: Mood: confused
what's wrong with me. i should be more feeling than this...are people not sad when things dont go their way? when they cant have waht they want?
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2005 25 October :: 12.20am
:: Mood: morose
The tears I might have shed for your dark fate
Turn cold and turn to tears of hate.
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2005 22 October :: 9.22am
today, i really wanted to go to school. i left the house on time, but worried that i wasnt. i got down the street and realised i had absolutly no money. so i went back and grabbed a bag of quarters with about four dollars in it. i figured that'd be fine and i'd get money from the atm at the station for a ticket home (i only have one ride left on my ticket). But i got there and realised that i had no wallet, and in fact, i still have no idea where it went. i could have driven, but one dollar for a toll and six for parking...six that i didnt have.
so i came home, just like last thursday. but i made hte train on time. it's really frustrating because its mostly an online course, but my dad got mad at me last time something like this happened.
tomorrow i have to get my japanese textbook, because barnes and noble didnt order the right thing. i failed my quiz though, which is really pathetic. i just cannot memorize the symbols in hiragana. Considering im doing so badly at that, im not looking forward to having to learn katakana too. its hard because there is no latin logic behind it, which is why other languages are easier for me.
so thats my day so far and its not even ten o clock yet.
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2005 21 September :: 9.48pm
This is Eric, Paul's best conspirererer partner. We are currently right now, on the phone, and we had a little conversation with kaylee van gelder, the prissiest little gullible little annoying preppy "fun-hating" little "person" ever.
We give proof for this, see below. This is a conversation, thawt I had with Kaylee, with Paul prompting me on the phone.
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Eric Mak says:
I'VE DONE IT!
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
what did you do?
Eric Mak says:
NOT ONLY AM I THE LEAD SINGER OF A KICK ASS BAND, BUT I HAVE MASTERED THE ART OF HARDCORE SCREAMING!
Eric Mak says:
AUIGGHJJHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
awesome!
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
lead singer?
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
that is so awesome
Eric Mak says:
lead.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
eric
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
good job!
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
LEAD!
Eric Mak says:
lead.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
wow
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
yeah!
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
yaya
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
yay
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
lol
Eric Mak says:
I CAN SCREAM.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
what is ur bands name
Eric Mak says:
REALLY GOOD.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
I know u can scream
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
lol
Eric Mak says:
NO
Eric Mak says:
NO
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
what is ur bands name?
Eric Mak says:
I WASN'T ABLE TO
Eric Mak says:
I MEAN
Eric Mak says:
LIKE
Eric Mak says:
REALLY REALLY HARD.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
that is awesmoe
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
I will have to hear u scream one of these days
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
when ur band tours in Spokane
Eric Mak says:
oh yeah, Paul made a bomb threat to Freeman, and he's in juvey now.
Eric Mak says:
isn't that awesome????
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
NO way
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
ru seroius?
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
I am glad u called him tho
Eric Mak says:
yes.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
i remeber talking about that
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
are u serious tho?
Eric Mak says:
yeah, I talked to his mom.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
was he serious about the threat?
Eric Mak says:
today.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
woah
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
was he serous tho?
Eric Mak says:
he had a bomb.
Eric Mak says:
in his backpack.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
what!?!?!?
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
are u lying
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
plz tell me the truth
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
cuz u know i can be gullible
Eric Mak says:
I'm not lieing!
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
wow
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
that is scary
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
so he is in juvi?
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
for how long?
Eric Mak says:
I'm so proud of him, my little boy's all grown up!
Eric Mak says:
3 months.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
eric that is not something to be proud of
Eric Mak says:
oh, but I am.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
that is dangerous and he coud have harmed or killed someone
Eric Mak says:
I'nm
Eric Mak says:
the one
Eric Mak says:
that
Eric Mak says:
told him to do it.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
if he killed someone would u be proud?
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
well u should feel horrible
Eric Mak says:
Well...it was funny.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
no eric its not funny
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
he took what u said serously and it could have ended up hurting sumone
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
I personally dont think that is funny
Eric Mak says:
Dude, he totally freaked the whole school out, and caused it to pause for 3 1/2 hours.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
who cares eric...get over it! so what school stopped for like a few hours...he coud have killed someone
Eric Mak says:
You know what's really funny? The cops had to taser him down, and send a canine unit on him.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
whatever
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
I dont belive that
Eric Mak says:
Ok...right.
Eric Mak says:
Seriosuly.
Eric Mak says:
I talked
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
canine unit
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
sure
Eric Mak says:
to his mom just today.
Eric Mak says:
Ok,
Eric Mak says:
that'w what they do when the suspect is armed, and running away.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
ok well whatever...I just dont think u should be laughint that one of ur bf's made a bomthreat..and u told him to make it..
Eric Mak says:
whatever Kaylee, don't take it so seriosuly, it's not like anyone got hurt, just the school was in the potential of getting hurt. Danger is what makes everytthing fun.
Eric Mak says:
No one got hurt, so it doesn't really matter.
Eric Mak says:
The fact that he did it is hilarious.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
yes eric it does...ok they got lucky nobody got hurt..someone could have and now one of ur bff's is in JUVI! Juvi eric...he is in jail practically because he listened to you! do u even care that he is in Juvi? huh?
Eric Mak says:
I'm planning to visit him next week, he called me and told me it was totally worth it. Seriosuly, Kaylee, it's just juvie. No big deal.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
I cant belive that you are saying that eric
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
ur so inmature
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
"No big deal someone just bought a bomb to school"
Eric Mak says:
whatever Kaylee, at least he had the balls to do it!
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
so eric...if that bomb went off and killed someone...would u be saying that "at least he had the balls to do it!"
Eric Mak says:
That is a different story, Kaylee, no one got hurt, and that's all that matters. QUit being so immature.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
and u say...oh I am planning to see him next week...are u really eric?
Eric Mak says:
well...
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
or ru just saying that
Eric Mak says:
the Oct. 7th weekend, if I have time. I'm goign to be hanging with other friends while I'm in Spokane.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
ok then
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
but eric ur friends in Juvi
Eric Mak says:
it's only 3 months, that's nothing. It'll hardly go on his record.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
whatever
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
I really dont want to have this conversation anymore...its making me mad and upset
Eric Mak says:
you know, he got sentenced to also quit public school, and seek a boarding school, which Valley Christian is considered.
Eric Mak says:
so
Eric Mak says:
he might go back to VCS.
Eric Mak says:
Kaylee, you just don't understand fun.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
whatever eric...my kind of fun doesnt include possibly killing someone
Eric Mak says:
who cares? Serisouly, we're just kids, and making the most out of our childhood.
Eric Mak says:
the killing, yes
Eric Mak says:
it's dangerousm,
Eric Mak says:
so
Eric Mak says:
but
Eric Mak says:
it
Eric Mak says:
didnt' happen, so we don't need to talk about it, damnit!
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
whatever
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
I am leaving now
Eric Mak says:
ok, be a immature fun hating person and run away.
Eric Mak says:
I only say person, because it's rude to say what I had in mind.
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
fine
(boys stop) Its about to be a what? GIRL FIGHT! says:
bye
Eric Mak says:
bye bye...person.
Eric Mak says:
kaylee, seriosuly.
Eric Mak says:
have some fun, for once, and forget that peopel cou;d've
Eric Mak says:
been killed
Eric Mak says:
when they
Eric Mak says:
didn't.
Eric Mak says:
because
Eric Mak says:
if they didnt',
Eric Mak says:
it doesn't matter.
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The End.
Death to all fun-haters!
~Eric and (on the phone) Paul.
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2005 20 October :: 12.36am
updated pictures. see previous entry for link.
so i went to arizona and i really wont say much cuz it wasnt that amazing...but twas fun.
went to my first party on friday...but didnt drink, no worries...i havent dropped my morals.
it presented me with an interesting question. why do people do so if they address the choice to not drink with such positiveness?
perhaps they feel it rids them of their stress because thinking further into it made me notice that responsibility and drinking are on opposite sides of a scale. those with loads of responsibility (hmwk, cleanliness, job) tend to feel that its ok with more vigor, versus those like me, who dont hold those things as high, hold that choice above opportunity. tell me if you agree or disagree...am a little theorist lol.
i should go to bed because i have school tmro...but its only 10:45 in AZ and am used to going to bed at 2:30am there.
in other news, jill asked why i hadnt been talking to her and i told her honestly. i dont feel bad because she asked and i feel i handled it maturely (with patrice to back it up), despite some bitchy, cold-heartedness, but i almost think it's expected.
"Unabashed honesty
would be ideal,
but a prophet did once say
that honesty's a lonely word."
~Have You Ever; Incubus
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2005 15 September :: 12.31am
i have a photo bucket.
the pics from the carnival are on there...they're under attempts...for my lame attempts at photography...look at the one titled Toy Gore...its almost as if they meant for it to read that subliminally...
have fun woo! good day.
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2005 14 September :: 9.20am
:: Mood: calm
you know how everything is so stressful and then all of a sudden, everything's alright and calm. thats now starting yesterday. just everything...i think i realised that there is nothing to worry about. am in school, i have a schedule that i know how it works, am hanging out with people, justin issues are not pressing, and i've been doing stuff i want to do like take pictures and look at art. strangely, like always, its the opposite for everyone else. so sorry for anyone who has loads to do. ill read something for you. :)
that's really all. good day.
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2005 27 August :: 11.40pm
im excited because i finally registered for classes. i did things people said i wouldnt. my mum said id never graduate high school. my brother said id never get into college. too bad that i did, eh? so i've found that i can take a language, no matter what it is...its a new language that will help me decode anything i run across. i'm finally done with trying to please them, and that's why i did well last year in school. so i'm happy making myself so by doing things that please me and make me proud. i found someone who has pride in me for at least my excitement and determination for learning language and it seems like ill almost start working for him soon enough. it's like when you normally like a guy and you'll do things simply to impress them, only the things that impress him are also the things that make me happy.
they dont think im responsible at all and that i have no respect for anyone, including myself, which is ironic if you know them. maybe it's because they want me to fill in the gaps that they are too old to complete now. i know i will succeed, because ill allow myself to be let down by me. i think i have a strength a lot of people dont, which i suppose is thinking very highly of myself, but it keeps me going in my head, believing that ill end up alright.
so now, im not all that excited about college at all, although earlier i was so excited just to have the opportunity to learn japanese. i think that it will be great, but i have no desire to prove anything to anyone.
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2005 27 August :: 10.57pm
i dont really have much to update. ill post something i wrote a few days earlier...although am not going to reread it just for authenticity becuase then i probably wouldnt post it.
went to another wedding today...he liked some of the pictures i took....now if only i could learn to focus it right...
nada nuevo con la nino. que triste.
i dont know what to do for my bday. it seems lame to turn eighteen and do nothing fun. like even just with friends. patrice cant on monday cuz of school and everyone has school btu then theres the evening...but why just chill. i wnat to do soemthing but its beginning to look like a lot of nothing.
i also want to do something because im turning eighteen and i dont know if my dad'll take me skydiving but we are going to the race track sometime next week. thats the best thing considering im doing nothing with cigars or porn.
the masks i painted are no longer satisfactory. they're too simple and not original enough. that means ama have to do another one and i have an idea.
ama paint it like the muscles in ones face. i dont know how well it'll work, in fact, im fairly confident it wont...but oh well because no one ever really ahs to see it.
know what sucks about having your bday close is that everytime you get the urge to say "i want..." or "it'd be so great if i had...", you know everyone's tuning in...and youd rather they didnt bother in that case...because its just a spur of the moment and something that'll probably end up in the garbage three weeks from now. besides...that was the whole reason i didnt want to have a party. i hate when people get you stuff cuz you feel like you have to get them something in return...but then theres that curiousity that you'd want to know how inventive people have gotten from last year...or if they were original at all.
oh and the reason i dont like flowers. i found it out. not because neil always got them but because they were so easy to get. they are either the "shit i didnt do something and i need to" last minute...or "i didnt even try" worthless attempt. but no matter. that can stay in here, eh?
g'night. dont spend money on me, kie? my room's messy enough as it is.
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2005 26 August :: 4.18pm
I GAVE BLOOD TODAY!!!
so the government gives grants to families with a lot of medical problems and not a lot of money, especially those with cancer patient children and such. and donors give blood and platelets and marrow and hair to those patients, just as you can give your old clothes to salvation army for people who arent as well off. you pop your kindness on a tax return sheet for the clothes and it gives back, partly so you actually go through with it. it helps so that the people can get jobs and get off of welfare, costing the government less in the long run. so why, if the govenment is giving grants for medical, should blood and other donations not have the same effect? except this is the problem: you can't say $3 worth of blood, $9 hair like you can with pants.
so, ama write a letter to mr. congressman, blajoavich(?), and whomever else passes laws and see what happens. usually, i get ideas like this and dont go through with them but i have nothing else to do right now cuz someone's not responding to my text so ill get right on that.
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2005 11 August :: 10.29am
In what could only be a strange turn of events, my confusion was turned to understanding last night. I expressed my confusion to Justin and just sort of text-ranted, and decided that I’d just shut up because he wasn’t understanding. Then, about an hour later, he returned that he did understand and did like me a significant amount and that we learn so much from each other that I couldn’t possibly impair his learning. I agreed and he responded that he was scared of losing his friends because I would become his priority. I told him that it wasn’t right to just forget about them because they are the ones that will always be there, no matter what happens with girlfriends and such. We began to ask questions and set rules, one of which is that no matter what happens, we’re still going to be friends. He needs to ask Ian because he doesn’t want to hurt Chanel(his ex), but he isn’t “sensitive enough to ask her [him]self.” There’s another part that’s kind of weird but I don’t know if I want to put it on here because it’s a little rough as it is having no one approve of him. How do you fight your desires and when do you stop working for them and start for you? He also doesn’t want another girlfriend that cries because he doesn’t say I love you every half an hour. I don’t think that will be a problem. I have yet to ask him just not to ever be drunk around me. I can’t change his decisions that he made before I came around, but just that would be respect enough.
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2005 10 August :: 11.35am
I’m currently very excited and can’t wait to get out of school because I have someone to visit today. Not only has Justin been flirting with me again, which, in case you aren’t that intuitive, is a good thing, but I found out yesterday that he genuinely cares about what happens to me and isn’t afraid to tell me so. He told me not to mess up school, but not in the parent “you better not way”. It was more along the lines of “don’t do that to yourself.
We spent Monday in the city, visiting the art museum and then two bookstores and Virgin. I think he realized that I wouldn’t hold him back, but possibly teach him more, because he got friendlier as the trip went on. Today ama visit him, which is why I’m so excited. He got his teeth pulled and his friends want him to come out on Thursday and I asked why they wouldn’t visit him at his house, and he said he hates being at his house, but oddly enough, was fine with me visiting him.
Jen is clearly very upset about leaving and it shows in how she has been treating everyone. She is trying to break ties with mushroom just enough so that it doesn’t hurt to leave, but tie ends up with everyone else so she still feels at home when she returns.
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2005 2 August :: 10.42am
Recently, I’ve been on one of those missions to change myself. It’s interesting, how much you can do once you decide that it’s important to you. What’s more surprising is its source. Despite how much everyone doesn’t like Justin, he seems to be inflicting the changes on me unintentionally. I’m assuming it’s a good thing, because some people have taught me different ways to think and points of view, as well as helped me to practice my virtues, and he is yet another fire whose scar will be all that remains in some time. Stunkel preempted the revolution.
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2005 27 July :: 10.29am
:: Mood: tired/sore
strange that my horoscope would be so close to true.
Mars will end its stay in your eighth house this week, where it has been encouraging you to take action concerning your joint financial affairs. It has also notched up the passion in your love life, which has no doubt helped your relationship to perk up. On Thursday it moves into Taurus and this is going to put you into explorer mode. You will want to seek out new ideas, new people and new places. If you should happen to be going away on vacation this would be the time to relax as much as possible.
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