:: 2003 1 December :: 12.09 pm

everything is moving in slow motion. not spending time or talking to ryan as much as i want to is definately something i am getting used to.

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:: 2003 25 November :: 10.48 am

those are the two that are getting published. go me.

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:: 2003 25 November :: 10.47 am

Some where down the road
We talked about God,
But because I wanted too
we talked about band,
life,
family,
about some people,
hanging out,
kissing,
Ice cream,
Dark places,
and about somewhere down the road.

Casey Starr Volkers

Copyright ©2003 Casey Starr Volkers

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:: 2003 25 November :: 10.45 am

so two of my poems are being published. and i decided to stop whining about ryan and i. oh well. i am going to let things play out. anyways...today is our two week! lol everyone starts somewhere.

Escape
Trying to think but nothing comes
Trying to run but legs dont move
Try to strike out but no power is given
Try to find some kind of escape,
but there are no options
try to speak but you are numb
feel as though time has stopped
feel a blade slowly run through you
you are released
but you have been fighting yourself the whole time.

Casey Starr Volkerc

Copyright ©2003 Casey Starr Volkerc

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:: 2003 21 November :: 12.49 pm

Your soul is bound to the Rose Petals: The
Wronged.

"'ve come undone and all hopes of mending
me are gone because the pain took my soul.
Can't you see? The only one who can put me
back together again is me."

The Rose Petals are associated with sorrow,
reflection, and wisdom. They are governed by
the goddess Persephone and their sign is The
Teardrop, or Broken Love.

As a Rose Petal, you are always self-reflective and
may be hard on yourself. You probably have
been hurt in the past by other people and can
sometimes distance yourself, as a result. You
don't usually let other get too close to you,
but you are very good at mending your spirits
back together by yourself.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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:: 2003 20 November :: 9.59 pm

so i tried out for the play...i think im in it now. um...ryan and i are okay i suppose. i hope. he said he would think about trying out for it. i really want more time with him. i already miss him and we have only been away from eachother for a matter of hours. how pathetic huh. well anyways no matter how bad it seems with him i like him still. no bad how i get treated by him i go back setting my self up for more abuse. but i cant help it. i like him i really like him. someone asked me why though and i honestly didnt have very many answers. can something just simply be? well i hope that him and i can just simply be an us. i hope our honeymoon is over soon. i want to rape jessi. im at her house right now....hold on here it goes.........................okay im back. only took me five minutes. shes been raped

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:: 2003 20 November :: 4.00 pm

so ryan said he was going to try out for a play but decided not too. I told him i was going to try out too and i asked him if he would still try out. you would think that if he knew i was doing it hed change his mind and want to do it so we could spend more time together but nope. i guess its just the way its going to be. aside from that we only kissed once today. oh well. anyways. i went to youth group with him ...yeah that was "fun" i can tell now that i dont think its going to work. i really want it to though. maybe im just not good enough to have a real boyfriend that wants to be around me as much as i would like to be around him. habing a boyfriend is a lot more depressing than i thought. i really care about him though and i guess thats why its so hard to know he doesnt feel the same. is there shame in that? well i think thats all i have for my negativity department.

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:: 2003 20 November :: 1.00 pm

so i dont know if friday is going to work but i found two more couples that might come with us. i dont know if ryan can even come yet. does it strike anyone as a shock sense my boyfriend is the only one out of everyone who doesnt know if he can come yet? hum...surprise surprise. oh well talk to you later.

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:: 2003 20 November :: 12.59 pm
:: Mood: sad

so ladies what do you do when your boyfriend says he finds you annoying? and he tells you. oh yeah and he doesnt specifically tell you why? gosh.

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:: 2003 20 November :: 12.53 pm

Divots along the track

So our journey begins
after the twisting turmoil
the kiddy roller coaster unloaded
figuring our new adventure...
will lead to only better times
when you find yourself relading once again.

the roller coaster sppeds over another hump
this hump leaves a feeling
unfulfilled in the least
butterflies return again
it takes you up the hill
then falls reaching the climaz of intensity
leavin you breathless whipping around all turns not knowing what's to come
finding yourself debating
whether you want to get on once again
or leave it for once unloaded
could you find a better ride?
the answer unresolved
the roller coaster
dangerous in all respects
keeps you scared
problems start occurring divots along the track...
it stalls and you find yourself in a tunnel
wondering when it's going to start again.

this is my attempt to show what is going on with relationships. anyways thanks for reading i love you all. please respond with what you think of my poem. criticism is well accepted.

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