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:: 2006 14 December :: 10.00pm

do you ever wonder if everyone is just lieing to you?

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 10 December :: 11.31am

omg look at my journal. isn't it awesome

okay so i can't really read the words but i dont really care. i need to figure out how to change the font cuz i can't do it the normal way but ohe well.

i'm obsessed.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 8 December :: 8.31pm

My boyfriend is wonderful.

do you know why?

because he bought us tickets to go to the Nutcracker Ballet. I went there once when I was in 4th grade. it was so fun. I can't wait.

it's gonna be great. hooray hoorah oh happy day.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 8 December :: 6.59pm

you would not believe what i just did.

so i'm not even gonna tell you.

it's for your own good. or rather, mine. totally mine.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 7 December :: 12.12pm

i cannot take this anymore.

i was just emailed by my professor letting me know that the legal memo i handed in , our biggest project that takes forever to do... is wrong. i did the wrong case. i DID THE WRONG CASE.

which means i have to do it all over again. he handed us two different cases i must have somehow picked the wrong one even though right on the front page it says YOUR ASSIGNMENT and talks aobut all the requirements and everything you need when you hand it in.

this is terrific. and i have to work all weekend.

i will never finish everything.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 6 December :: 11.34am
:: Mood: Upset.
:: Music: none.

I have come to the conclusion that I hate this so-called thing called "The Real World".

Is it wrong of me to sit here and listening to this MKTG 412 class start to leave the class room and converse with one another and feel completely certain that 85% of the words that come out of their mouths are so fake and empty? Is it wrong of me to feel that every sentance that is supposed to come out of them with feeling and emotion sounds to me as a lie. Is it wrong of me to feel totally weird that when they talk to one another it's just all an act.

is it wrong for me to think about how they are acting like robots.... when they go home don't they change into sweats and lounge on their couches?? doesn't everyone? they dont honestly go home and stay in their buisness suits and panty hose and high heels and sit in an upright chair making charts and graphs... no one does that. okay maybe not no one. but REAL people. that is what i'm talking about. real people. don't they head home after this and start using SLANG words and maybe throw a cuss word or two around? isn't that comfortable? doesn't anyone go home and open a bag of oreos and dunk it in their milk like a normal person??? can you imagine a bunch of "suits" dunking their oreos? can you? please...

is it wrong of me to walk into a church and get tears in my eyes because i feel like there are conformists. is that the right word? no... i feel like there are people who are certain of where they are going but are yet to find out they are not. ( this is not to offend ANYONE . this is not sarcasm, these are just my feelings FYI)

Is it wrong of me to hurt when people are just talking to each other? I just analyze it all too much i know. But it hurts me that people are just... yeah

where have all the real people gone

i dont want to go to this school

i want to go to a school where there are gays and there is a lesbian club and there are crazy artistic expressive people. i want to go to a school where everyone accepts each other and everyone gets to know each other. i want to go to a school that has an I LOVE JESUS club and tries to introduce everyone to the Lord. I want to go to a school that expresses individuality.

i want to go to a school where people are real.

i can't be cooped up here anymore. i dont know what i'm going to do with my life as far as a career and i can't stay here any longer pretending that i'll be satisfied with myself as a medical assistant or as a health whatever managment blah blah blah 4 year degree office type.

Is it wrong of me to want something creative and new and fresh and meaningful ... is it wrong of me....................................... i know i wont ever MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN THE WORLD. but i have to do something.... smarter with myself. please
I NEED TO HELP PEOPLE.

i need to have a satisfying rewarding career.

i need to know that with my everyday work, i make people feel BETTER. More ALIVE. More REAL.

ugh. what do i do. ? please.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 5 December :: 8.54pm

can anyone please help me fix my computer. i am getting SO pissed off.

my dvd player in my computer,,,,.... it will play dvds and the video is fine and up to speed but the sound just skips and skips and no it's not the dvd i'm not that dumb but please help me someone or i am going to throw this thing off my balcony. please!

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 5 December :: 6.39pm
:: Mood: bored

The Most Random Questions You Will Ever Fill Out

1) What side of the heart do you draw first?
Left side

2) Can you dive without plugging your nose?
i can't dive

3) What color is your razor?
pink

4) What is your blood type? i think b pos

5) Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
roman or jess prob.

6) What is a rumor someone has spread about you?
ummm that i'm a bitch or that i am mean or hmm i duno i can think of one specific person who just never has enough shit to say about me to another certain...person!!! but oh well she's a bitch anyway. and that's not a rumor.

7) How do you feel about carrots??
they are orange and okay-tasting

8) How many chairs at the dining room table? well if you mean my table.. there are 2...

9) Which is the best Spice Girl?
who knows ...who cares

10) Do you know what time it is?
6.42

11) Do you know all the words to the Fresh Prince Theme Song?
no that show annoys me

12) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
i was just thinking about that today as i rode an elevator... um i would probably just relax and take a nap while someone came to rescue me. i might actually be happy about it.

13) What's your favorite kind of gum?
orbit the green kind

14)T or F: All's fair in love and war. no

15)do you have a crush on anyone? no

16) Do you know how to use some words correctly, but not know the meaning?
riiight that doesn't make sense.

17)Do you like to sleep?
way too much.

18) Do you know which US states don't use Daylight Savings Time?
are there any? i dont think so

19) Do you know the song Total Eclipse of the Heart?
yes pretty piano in it.

20) Do you want a bright yellow '06 mustang?
sure i'd sell it though

21) What's something you've always wanted?
a wonderful family

22) Do you have hairy legs?
i guess when i dont shave them :0/

23) What does "Semper Fidelis" stand for?
duno but denee' says it means 'always faithful' and since i copied this survey from her, i know that.

24) Would you rather swim in the ocean or a lake?
lake i dont like salty oceans

25)Do you wear a lot of black?
yeah actually lately

26) Describe your hair?
stupid

27) Do you have Entomophobia?
is that even a real phobia?

28) Are you an adult?
according to my age.

29) Where is/are your best friend(s)?
roman is right next to me playing video games, jess is at the airport i guess and jessie g is at school

30) Do you have a tan?
no not yet but i juust finally bought a tanning package thank goodness

31) Are you a television addict? no but i love grey's anatomy

32) Do you enjoy spending time with your mother? yes because i miss her now that i dont live with her. and she is an awesome person. *tear*

33) Are you a sugar freak? i like my chocolate. a lot.

34) Do you like orange juice? it's ok.

35) What sign are you?
pisces

36) Where do you wish you were right now?
halfway around the world. not havingto worry about money or anything.

37) Who did you copy this from?
denee'

38) How do you know them?
been friends for a long long time. how can you not know the millerings?

39) Have you kissed anyone in the past week?
yeah

40) What are your plans for the weekend?
work of course and most likely nothing else. kinda like all my weekends.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 2 December :: 11.18pm

i'm gonna volunteer to be a mentor at wedgwood . isn't that cool? i'm excited

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 2 December :: 11.40am

yeah nevermind i'll just be a nothing.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 30 November :: 11.06am

Don't you ever feel like you are just stuck in a bubble and rolling rolling rolling down the road of life just doing the same dang thing over and over and over and getting absolutely no where.

doesn't anyone ever just want to move away out of the country and just like move away from everything and get away.

........................................my life is boring and i dont like it.

i feel like i am more than what my current life is letting me be.

i feel like i'm never going to get anywhere with what i am doing now.

i need to live more. i need to live more before i settle down and just settle for being a medical assistant or whatever. but i could never go any further with working at fricken menards.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 26 November :: 6.52pm

i think i finished my papers.

wow you have no idea how long that took me.

DUMB!!!!!! college is dumb.

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