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2004 5 August :: 5.19pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: Los Lonely Boys--Heaven
YES... I got a Ricky Williams jersey--you go smoke that marijuana you stud!
blahblahblahblah...
Once again I feel like I should update...
Yeah so the village DID suck. I was really dissapointed. It was a great idea but it wasn't really thrived on that well. And the "scary" parts were a joke--I was like laughing, parts of it were actually so ridiculously stupid.
Things are getting better. I had the day off today because my boss said it was "going to be a monsoon." It rained for like 10 mins, oh well. It was so funny, yesterday it was this boy's (see prev. post) birthday and my boss who is just old and nuts and just crazy was like 'So it's ya birthday robbie, gabi's gonna give ya a big kiss.' It was really funny and totally random.
Anyway, things are getting better and I'm having fun--I just miss people and I hope all my visits work out.
I totally refuse to watch TV for the next 2 weeks--ENOUGH with the back to school commercials it's still summer...It depresses the crap out of me. But I'm really not TOTALLY dreading school actually.
and i have a birthday coming up--and this year there's things i actually want--yum. can't wait.
ergh, ashlee you are SO not punk simpson screw you and your stupid #1 album. you suck.
big kissss<33
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2004 1 August :: 8.40pm
:: Mood: weird
Just Got Paid...Fri---Sunday Night :)
Blah, I knew this day would come. I haven't updated in a while, and I just have to update even though I don't really want to. I just have to. Blah.
Where did I leave off? Edgemont? Okay, yeah so I'm here upstate for good. It's been a little slow but I think it's gonna be fun. I've been hanging out with Meredith a lot so that's been cool. I guess it's just hard to break into your second home...I still feel like I'm staying in someone's house. But I'm really excited for friends and family to come up. REALLY excited for things to fall into place.
Then there's work...I work at this stand at the race track selling famous horse photos--sounds horrible but it's not bad--I do a lot of people watching, people come and talk to me when it's slow, and it's very fun when I get sales and get to be all professional. The people I work with are great too. My weekends are a little distorted though, Monday and Tuesday. It's fine but I think I'll love it when it's super busy. I hope so at least.
Plus, my handicapping skills are SICK...I've been winning so many bets and I give tips to customers and then if they're right they have to come back and buy something.
Have I mentioned how much I MISS everyone. It's insane. I need my stellars. I hope people can come visit :-/ ...every once in a while I'm just like "WAIT, why am I so EMPTY-feeling?" It's like a part of me is incomplete :(
How about them Yankees, eh? Adios Jose...and adios Nomah--ha.
I can't really get this lump (metaphorical lol) off of my back...it's like I'm scared to have fun and that I'm not gonna have fun. There's just a lot of things I hope to be able to do and I hope work out. I also miss my tiny jockey friend Rudy...he's so cute/cool. I need to hang out with him more--even though he's like 30 lol. And I think I may be babysitting John Velasquez's kids...that's like kind of a scary responsibility :?)
Bottom Line: It's like I have it all planned in my mind of how i want this trip to work out. I hope it does. I hope it effing does.
Blah, I'm so confused about soccer...It starts so fucking early and I'd miss like at least 2 weeks of preseason and I just don't knoooow. Eeeeeks. And I hate the fact that I have to make a decision.
Tomorrow drive-in to see The Village (even though it sucks, Cheriii)... I think that will help tame the "lump."
Oh, and I think I've acheived the impossible--I've met a really NICE guy...his dad's a jockey--muy cool.
Well, I hope everyone's having fun...miss you all.
anddddddd i'm off...xo
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2004 22 July :: 3.42pm
:: Mood: good
Raining in Scarsdale?
Beginning of Yankee Game:
Michael Kay: Well we're getting this weather report that its raining in Westchester, but really only in Scarsdale. That's very interesting.
Ken Singleton: Well...It's a good thing we don't play Yankee games in Scarsdale. It'd probably be pretty expensive to build a stadium there anyway.
haha. good god. yeah so it seems like its only raining here (or it was)..kind of strange.
Anyway, yesterday I went to work with my dad. It was great fun even though I had to work. I love going to his office and having everyone suck up to me because they know I can be their boss one day. It's kind of scary though. I'm not used to so many people being so nice to me. I got $100 and a Coach wallet, ha. I went to Coney Island too for "lunch break" and I went on the Cyclone, it was so fun. But really scary because it's so old and i thought i was going to die.
I talked to Kate and Stacey...I can't believe it's been a month since everyone left. It makes me sick to think how FAST this is going by. And I had a conversation with my mom last week and she was like asking me out of all my friends..."who's the most---"who's the least likely to do---" It was a fun conversation and it helped me clarify many things. And it's not like I think "God why are they like that?" I embrace their flaws because I know I have plenty of my own. It makes you unique. And I think finding what you don't do too well in yourself and other people helps you work to a better friendship and teaches you how to react to things and what to avoid and how to say things. It also helps you realize what you love so much about them. It's certainly worked for me. The conversation also made me sad because I miss so many people.
I'm off to Saratoga either tomorrow or the next day...Excited to start the second half of my summer.
Okay well I gotsta go...great Yankee game on.
Big Kiss~GG
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2004 17 July :: 11.22am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Tamyra Gray~Legend
What's on my mind/happening these daYS
1) So I'm back in Saratoga--We're moved into our house...it's by no means all furnished but it is so precious. I love it...and I can't wait for visitors..it's gonna be a really fun house.
2) I come home Monday and then...I come back like Saturday for good and for work. I'm excited. I love the track and the track people. It's just too much fun up here. The townies are a little bizarre--its that whole upstate state of mind but whatev. Everyone has a summer place--I think mine's a little different than most people's though.
3) And also, now you can't say I didn't try. Maybe we should just stop. And frankly, that's fine with me. It's no longer my fault. I blew my chance and tried to make ammends for it, but now you blew yours.
4) I just found out some unfortunate news about myself. And I really have to keep my composure in times like this....I know it will be okay in the end if I just don't go insane and can do it.
I hope everyone's summers brighten up a bit.
Love you all~
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2004 11 July :: 10.02pm
:: Mood: nervous
It amazes me how hypocritcal some people can be..it's really everything that defines Edgemont and it's major flaw. People pretend that order and society doesn't matter and that individuality is key to success and blah they're all "rebellious" and then meanwhile deep down they DO insanely care about all of those things and have no shame in showing it. It's just a bad message too, like you can just get whatever you want if you whine. And unfortunately people here feed into that and will give you whatever you want even if it's not right for you.
RENT was fantastic. JAI from queer eye was in it omg what a surprise! And we got autographs and pics at the end :) WOW it was great seeing scary...she wasn't a great Mimi vocally but it was awesome seeing her. I missed Manley though :( I honestly pity anyone who hasn't had the privelege of seeing that show. IMO, it's brilliant. And the people who say they don't like it are just talking out of their asses and pretending to be such non conformists.
haha, i'm quite nice today aren't i?
WELL that's all.
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2004 9 July :: 10.13pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: yanks game
there's no place like home...(couldn't resist)
It's GREAT to be back.
For once, it really is. I'm sick of being around my bratty cousin, the three-month- behind radio stations, the boredom and the marlin fans. (had to go to a game ugh...it was fun but the fans are pathetic and there's these whore cheerleaders...it's an atrocity to the sport it really is) It was a really fun trip though lol. I got so much driving practice (on the street..uber scary)!
One good thing that came out of my cousin's mouth on the trip:
"Anyone who says High School is the best part of your life, is living really freakin small."
RENT tomorrow! Words can't even say how excited I am (I'm sure you can tell and are sick of my away messages lol) But seriously...I cannot freaking wait!!
I'm also excited to be able to just take it easy, hang out with the edgemont crew and whatnot. There's one thing in the near future I am highly not looking forward to...but I know it'll be fine once it's over with. Not everything can be perfect.
El Report Card came. There were a few things I was baffled about. 1) Spanish fourth quarter grade was much better than I thought 2) Espanol final was much...worse 3) 90 on the regents..holy shit!!! The hardest final was the one i did the best on! (I got the same grade on all my other finals, ehh w/e) I KNOW I could have studied a lot more...But I'm just NOT an overacheiver, I never will be...thats not who I am. And I'm fine with that and happy about it. I'm proud of myself.
just saw dodgeball haha...too funny.
I feel really bad for Mary-Kate Olsen...sorry that was extremely random but for some reason it really makes me really sad :(
I'm so excited for summer...I get the feeling this is gonna be a great one.
goodbye love<33(ahhh rent omg lol)
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2004 4 July :: 11.04pm
:: Mood: quixotic
HaPpY bIrThdAy AmEriCa!!!
Just finished a nice lil fourth of July. Fireworks across the water were nice but our home fireworks were siiiiick...so much fun! And my american flag cake was gorg.
It's been a good trip. My cousin who everyone worships (nicknamed "The Messiah") just got back from Asia so I'm happy about that. We've done a lot of things I used to love to do here but lately stopped doing so I'm very happy about that too. I saw The Terminal, it was muy bueno. Did some awesome shopping as well and got my first juicy item (GASP! I'm prob the only one in emont)!! A cute white peasent skirt :)
I've also had some driving lessons from my aunt!! She's taken me to the church parking lot in her lexus and I was so scared I was gonna total it but I'm doing pretty good actually. She says i dont give her whip lash like her kids gave her.
and some SICK yankee v. red sox games this past week--they were just swept by the mets, yikes, but its all good. I may be dragged into a MARLINS game this week--Gads!!
hmmm...not really much else worth talking about. I'm excited to get home in a few days and hang out with the e-mont crew.
I hope everyone's having fun.
CiAo
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2004 29 June :: 2.25pm
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: RENT
All my life I've longed to discover something as true as this is...
I haven't been woohu-ing for a few days due to my excessive time spent on the computer which lead to a "whole-summer restriction" but now I'm in Miami, on vacation so I'm allowed. But I don't think that the punishment will last very long.
My Mom & I have been having plenty of problems lately...She told me that it's not the same and won't be for a while and never imagined us fighting the way we do. That made me very sad but I know it will go back to normal in a few years...we have a very tight relationship...But she's reading this book about mother/daughter relationships and I read a few pages and one part really stuck with me. It was all about seeing another half of someone's story--like many times with your mom you say/think often (or at least I do) "She sees me as a...." Or "She doesn't see why/how..." And the truth of the matter is that we don't truly want to be seperated completely from our mothers, that's a myth...all we really want is "connection, respect, and recognition."
I've been thinking about my grandpa lately. Well, not actually thinking...like he comes into my mind and I quickly scatter to find something else to think about. I'm not ready to go back just yet.
Anyway...it's been a fun few days in New York. Saying goodbye to people was very tough and I think it'll be hard this summer...but besides that...Sunday the city with Mer & Elise, American Girl Cafe is too cool...and the Gay Pride Parade, Carson from Queer Eye totally waved at us! Too funny. (And we just got the tix for RENT for the three of us. Ahhh Scary Spice here we come!) And then that night the Subway Series--a little shoutout for my dad's bday in the Stadium's marquee thing was very fun. And these few days are the Red Sox! Niceee. But I don't think all get all 3 on TV down here, grrr.
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And now I'm back here...it's like 1000 degrees, but I'm happy to be here...I hope it's a fun trip. It's certainly very hot...the weather in New York was perfect when we left.
I hope everyone's summers are off to a great start.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAUREN!<33
ciao
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2004 25 June :: 12.18am
Why Do I Just Want to Cry Right Now?
Maybe it's because a few of the friends I've grown with and experienced with this year are just suddenly--leaving and gone. Like that. Tucked into a world that I feel I may never be able to live up to.
Maybe it's because of something I never thought I'd let myself get upset over.
Maybe it's because I feel like everything I thought I had I really never did.
Maybe it's because I just don't believe in everything I want to accomplish.
Or maybe I'm just being dramatic. Maybe I'm delirious and I need to gather my emotions and figure it out. Yeah, I think I'm okay. I just need to...organize myself.
Or maybe--I do just need to cry. Maybe I am upset and angry and feeling shitty.
Maybe for once I just need to let myself accept the fact that I can't always be happy and pretend that I'm "just being dramatic." And maybe things aren't so easy.
Acceptance.
"My simpleness threatened by my own admission."~No Doubt
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2004 21 June :: 11.21am
:: Mood: almost perfect...
first day of summer!!!
Saratoga was nice...i'm excited that i get to like design my room and stuff..the house is really pretty and cute and i'm so excited to get up there. It's just too much fun.
The thing I'm a little annoyed about is that I have to work until the end of the track meet which is like septemberrrr...but hopefully it will lighten up and i'll be able to come home more frequently...and hopefully I'll get some visitors! I know florida people are coming but I want some edgemontians to come too.
i saw the day after tomorrow this weekend. i really enjoyed it. scares the hell out of me to imagine something like that happening. but it got me into quite the movie mood.
I dont think i updated about everything being OVER! Earth sci i found very hard and it was def. made out to be much easier than it was. But w/e it's done and finished...not going to worry about it.
Wow...sophomores. I just can't believe it. We're growing up so fast. This is the last week that we're all like home before we go our respective ways. It's really kind of sad. 10 months of drama and what-not and then its like a fresh slate.
But for once I'm actually not dreading the end of the summer. I'll be excited to go back and see everyone. I feel like this year I finally found myself and my place here.
so here's to summer '04...hope everyone's is awesome. Don't forget your roots.
...Until September
*Gabrielle
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2004 14 June :: 7.00pm
:: Mood: mellow
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Hmmm, interesante.
It's been quite the interesante weekend actually. Between Briggette's Saturday and my house yesterday and ahem something else. I'm sure you probably know what I'm talking about. But yeah, it's been crazy and fun and funny.
Global was fine today. Mult. Choice not so bad. Essays easy. I was so stressed last night much to my surprise. Now espanol, should be okay.
Not much else to say. I'm looking forward to these next few days and also kind of dreading them. It's odd but exciting.
Wow, weirdness.
And Erica congrats about Japan! Thats freakin awesome!
xoxo
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2004 12 June :: 12.48pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: movie awards...
Boston was fun. Very short...hardly 24 hours but it was very nice to see the family.
Pre-prom was nice. Wow, the girls in our grade looked so gorgeous. I hope you all had a blast...you looked stunning.
Finals have been okay. English w/e I didn't do amazing on but the multiple choice is only .5 points each so I think I'll be okay. Math was very easy for me. Only 3 more to go. I'm so scared for global. 2 Essays aghh. This will be the test I am going to need every minute I get.
But besides that I'm so excited it's almost over. I have a job at the track in Saratoga now so I'm really very excited for summer.
Hmm...not much else to say. I love this whole finals state of mind...It's very laid back...take a test...relax, hang out. Things are going very well.
Ciao
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2004 8 June :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: satisfied
Tis Ova
Today was strange. It really didn't hit me that it was the LAST time for going to my classes this year. All the things I was worried about or thought about regarding school, are just--over. As I mentioned a few posts down, it's been a crazy year.
But this post is here to discuss the more school parts of school. My work has been very consistent this year.
Earth Science: Ha. Mr. Weiner=horrible teacher but great guy. He's so nice. I feel bad for him, he's tortured. The class was fine though.
Spanish: Ugh. Mrs. Lehv could be nice but she could be a total bitch. It was by far the most I ever worked in Spanish and I'm thrilled to get out of that class and very much look forward to Mr. Thoren :)
English: Sproulean. Loved her, hated her, loved her, hated her. As Kate would say "You start to like her again, and then she wears a Polo shirt and Coach belt and you hate her again." She is SO Charlotte from Sex&The City
Global: Best, best, best class ever. So entertaining. Not just that, but Mrs. Kuklis is the best teacher I have EVER had. Her dedication and time spent just trying to make us want to learn is unbelievable. And she had to put up with us. I respect her soooo much and wish I could have her every year. It was a pleasure and relief to have a teacher like her.
Math: I did very well this year with Ms. A. I'm really happy I have her next year.
Ceramics/Studio Art: Some great memories. Gonna miss the Joan.
And to my girls: S/E/K/J: Best friends a girl can ask for. So many memories. Lysm. B: it's been a bumpy road but I still cherish our friendship with all my heart. Love you more than you know. E/D: So glad we got closer this year. Love you. {EMSSMCKKEELLJHN}<--some oldies, some newies.. Love you girls...thanks for the laughs and for always being there. Guys too...thanks for the crazy moments...sab: greatest seniors ever, thanks for all the advice.
And while I read some of your posts and hear what people have to say, I was wondering about the whole closure issue. I think it's going to get harder each year actually. It just comforts me to know that I have worked to become the best person, student and friend I can be. And as weird as today was, that's closure for me. But if you don't feel closure, just remember sophomore year is just 3 months away and you can always just pick up where you left off. But I think everyone is happy this year is over. I think we can all agree in saying its been insane for all of us. Just be proud of all you've accomplished. As Brig pointed out to me, we're halfway through our times at Edgemont, enjoy it and live it up.
Great, just got Professor Snape. Dammit. Now I have to worry about it during finals and Boston. UGH. No wonder I took a 2 hour nap today. ERGH!!! Frustration alert.
and now, I must go study for finals..Oh God...it's not THAT over. Ha.
*goodbye freshmen year...it's been real
>Gabrielle
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2004 6 June :: 5.06pm
:: Mood: cold
So my little fiesta seemed to be a success. I'm so happy to hear that people enjoyed themselves. I really did too. It was fun just listening to those songs come on and people like looking around to find people that they have a joke with about the song or something...it really brings people together. I love those/you girls so much. We're all so different and I just think we have such a good grade and I love having all of us together.
Belmont Stakes was extremely sad. I thought he won. I was so upset :( Poor Smarty. Damn Mexi haha Kate.
2 days left...wow. Craziness. I studied a bit today, yay! I have a good week ahead: 2 days of school, 2 finals...and only 3 of those days do I have to get up early which is a WONDERFUL thing for me. (math final at 12:30..I know some people hate that but it's like my savior)
Thursday is my cousin's business school graduation, so after the math final my Dad and I are gonna fly up to Boston (since the final is at 12:30 we can't make the ceremony...I could've rescheduled the final but I just didn't want to) and we'll have dinner with the fam and spend the night. I'm excited but a little worried since I'll probably be missing the whopper global review.
I'm so excited for these upcoming few weeks before everyone leaves...They're gonna be a blast.
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2004 3 June :: 6.34pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: Natalie Imbruglia~Torn
...I'm cold and I am shamed bound and broken on the floor
Yeah, so the yearbook isn't wonderful but I think it's still cute and I'm obsessed with it.
Yanks are kicking ass lately...quite happy about that.
I've basically quit school. I'm really not doing any work, at all. I'm really winding down when everyone is supposed to be gearing up. Haven't done anything and haven't started studying for finals. I know people think I'm probably exaggerating...But I'm really not at all. It's really quite bad.
I'm excited for mi fiesta tomorrow. I totally forgot about it and people are like reminding me, and I'm like wow already? It should be fun. It's just weird because my birthday isn't for three months and people are gonna be like "happy birthday!" and I'm gonna be like what?
I should be going to the awards but I'm not. The thing is that I know I have a PTSA award but I don't know about academics (last year they didn't tell me I was getting one and I ended up getting two...quite scary) So, I'm not gonna go and sit there for 2 hours and only get one or two awards...It's not that important to me anyway. I set my own standards and it's nice that the school recognizes them but I'm proud of myself for my accomplishments even if it means that I have one too many B's for an award or just enough. And it's kind of hurtful. People should be proud of themselves for acheiving their own goals and it's really kind of a self esteem knocker when nobody in the school seems to care and it's all about A's, A's, A's.
So, that seems to be sufficient for today. I must go figure out a way to study.
Peace, enjoy the sun
Much Love<3Gabs
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