if you wanna talk for hours , just go ahead now .
it seems like one minute i blinked and the next you were standing there , like some angelic vision , to carry me away , so i let myself be taken and now i remain here , in this unrealistic world where nothing can faze me and nothing goes wrong , and i keep trying to find fault in something you do to prevent me from sinking deeper and getting used to it , because if i stay here too long , chances are i won’t be able to leave . it’s like struggling in quicksand , and all the reassurance just keeps pulling me in again , and all my failed attempts to categorize you into a category with every other boy push me down further , because you’re nothing like them . i keep trying to give in to the doubtful whispers fluttering in my stomach in an effort to protect myself from falling too hard too fast , and this inexplicable worry is driving me crazy , because there’s nothing i can do to quiet it . and i don’t know how to explain to you that i’m not used to this , and it’s all happening so quickly that i don’t know if my head is spinning from you or from trying to comprehend how somebody can affect me so much in so little time that i completely ignore the fact that i have to be home by one or that there’s some things you just don’t tell anybody . it’s the kind of situation where your head is telling you you’re in too deep but you’re in so deep that you just don’t care . so i figure , i’m already in this , and i was never one to do things halfway . so if i get hurt , so be it . but i know you’d never hurt me .

We need to talk about it