Down for the count...

Down for the count...

:: 2005 2 January :: 1.28 pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: Veggie Tales song

oopsie
*looks around and giggles*
i fucked up...

it's "someone help rachel" time yall!

:: 2005 2 January :: 1.22 pm
:: Mood: confused

ok i got the background that i *Think* i want, but i dont know what to do now. where do i paste the code for it at? wait maybe i have an idea...

[edit] - take note: idea failed

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:: 2005 1 January :: 11.11 pm
:: Mood: alone
:: Music: The Scientist - Cold Play

little things
hmm so much to say yet no way to say it.

I really want to re-do my journal again. I want one of them cool backgrounds like some people have, but I don't know how to find one or how to make it my background.

HELP!! Anyone!!

Doug's been acting really weird lately. I don't know if I did or said something to cause this, but it's weird. Then again maybe I'm the one acting weird and...ahh I don't know.

I Reeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaally don't want to go to church tomorrow. I told mom and dad that I watned to stay home and they said no. I should have just faked sick in the morning.
*hits forehead*
stupid stupid me.

Monday school starts up again. That's about the most depressing thing going on in my life right now. I absolutly detest school. I really want to say that I hate the people there, but of course I don't. I just hate being in public. I'm perfectly fine being a hermit, enclosed in my house at my computer or locked in my room. It's sad, but I don't care. That's the way I feel. I don't even really like parties because there's just way to many people. I am so a loner.
Mom and dad are always telling me to "get out and go places" but what they don't realize is that I DON'T WANT TO!
I just wish they would get off my back about it.

Only a few people understand me enough to be called a good friend.
Doug, Kayla, Jacob and Tylor.
I almost put Johanna, but no. She always wants to go out places and go hang around Cassville. I don't do that. I stay home and talk to my out of state friends via MSN.
My life may suck, but I happen to like most parts of it.
[r][a][c][h][e][l]

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:: 2005 1 January :: 2.20 pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: Butterfly - Crazy Town

more surveys
I've decided my life is boring and I never really have anything going on to talk about thats interesting, yet I need to keep this damn thing updated since I Did pay for it. So, I shall fill it with surveys and quizes when nothing of to high importance is going on in my life.
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Three Things
Created by andy and taken 12170 times on bzoink!
Three things that scare me:
1	Pigs
2	Ladybugs
3	Scary movies
Three people who make me laugh:
1	Doug
2	Johanna
3	Jacob
Three Things I love:
1	Friends
2	Books
3	Computer
Three Things I hate:
1	Pigs
2	Lady bugs
3	Talking on the phone
Three things I don't understand:
1	Computers
2	Mom
3	Why I cain't dance
Three things on my desk:
1	Nail file
2	Candle
3	Lotion
Three things I'm doing right now:
1	Chewing gum
2	Singing
3	Filling out this survey
Three things I want to do before I die:
1	Have sex
2	Get married
3	Have kids
Three things I can do:
1	Cartwheel
2	Make a few people laugh
3	Put on mascara with my mouth Closed
Three ways to describe my personality:
1	Unique
2	Funny
3	Strange
Three things I can't do:
1	Dance
2	Put up decorations
3	Rap
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Layers
Created by andy and taken 10239 times on bzoink!
Layer.one
Name	Rachel
Birthdate	4-29-89
Birthplace	...hospital...
Current location	desk
Eyes	hazel
Hair	redish brown
Height	hehe
Righty or Lefty	righty
Zodiac Sign	Taurus
Layer.two
Your heritage	What?
Your weakness	being to scared of shit
Your shoes you wore today	house shoes
Your fears	pigs, lady bugs, spiders, scary movies, getting killed by a psycho
Your perfect pizza	PEPPERONIE!!! or bbq chicken
Goal you'd like to achieve	good career making good money
Layer.three
Your thoughts first waking up	"god i dont wanna go to school"
Your best physical feature	eyes
Your bedtime	well i have to be off the computer by 11...not that i usually am
Your most missed memory	having a Good boyfriend
Layer.four
Pepsi or Coke	coke
McDonald's or Burger King	mcdonalds
Single or group dates	single
Adidas or Nike	adidas
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea	nestea
Chocolate or vanilla	chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee	coffee
Layer.five
Smoke	no
Cuss	yes
Sing	yes
Take showers daily	sometimes twice
Have a crush	yes
Think you've been in love	yes
Want to go college	ehh
Want to get married	yes
Believe in yourself	ehh
Get motion sickness	sometimes
Think you're attractive	ehh
Think you're a health freak	haha No
Get along with your parents	depends on the day
Like thunderstorms	oooh yes
Play an instrument	yeah
Layer.six - in the past months
Gone to the mall	yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos	no
Eaten sushi	eww no
Been on stage	dont remember
Gone skating	no
Made homemade cookies	yes
Gone skinny dipping	no
Dyed your hair	no
Stolen anything	no
Label.seven - ever..
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated	no
Been called a tease	yes
Got beaten up	haha i kicked HER ass thank you
Layer.eight
Age you hoped to be married	20-25
Number and name of children	2 kids. haven't figured out names yet
Dream wedding	small one in a church
How do you want to die	peacefully in sleep
Where do you want to attend college	ehh
Dream job	Realtor
Country you want to visit	none
Layer.nine - In a guy/girl...
Best eye color	doesnt matter. whatever fits them but i like green
Best hair color	dark
Short or long hair	depends on the person
Height	guy - taller then me
Best weight	thats dumb. weight shouldnt really matter
Best clothing	Cowboy!! lol no, really...well yeah.
Best first date location	fast food joint
Best first kiss location	dunno
Layer.ten
Number of drugs taken illegally	what?
Number of people I could trust with my life	7
Number of CDs that I own	oh shit...a ton
Number of piercings	2
Number of tattoos	zip
Number of times my name's been in the news	a few
Number of scars on my body	a lot
Number of things in my past that I regret.	only one. everything else sucked, but i wouldnt take them back
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Layers
Created by andy and taken 10239 times on bzoink!
Layer.one
Name	Rachel
Birthdate	4-29-89
Birthplace	...hospital...
Current location	desk
Eyes	hazel
Hair	redish brown
Height	hehe
Righty or Lefty	righty
Zodiac Sign	Taurus
Layer.two
Your heritage	What?
Your weakness	being to scared of shit
Your shoes you wore today	house shoes
Your fears	pigs, lady bugs, spiders, scary movies, getting killed by a psycho
Your perfect pizza	PEPPERONIE!!! or bbq chicken
Goal you'd like to achieve	good career making good money
Layer.three
Your thoughts first waking up	"god i dont wanna go to school"
Your best physical feature	eyes
Your bedtime	well i have to be off the computer by 11...not that i usually am
Your most missed memory	having a Good boyfriend
Layer.four
Pepsi or Coke	coke
McDonald's or Burger King	mcdonalds
Single or group dates	single
Adidas or Nike	adidas
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea	nestea
Chocolate or vanilla	chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee	coffee
Layer.five
Smoke	no
Cuss	yes
Sing	yes
Take showers daily	sometimes twice
Have a crush	yes
Think you've been in love	yes
Want to go college	ehh
Want to get married	yes
Believe in yourself	ehh
Get motion sickness	sometimes
Think you're attractive	ehh
Think you're a health freak	haha No
Get along with your parents	depends on the day
Like thunderstorms	oooh yes
Play an instrument	yeah
Layer.six - in the past months
Gone to the mall	yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos	no
Eaten sushi	eww no
Been on stage	dont remember
Gone skating	no
Made homemade cookies	yes
Gone skinny dipping	no
Dyed your hair	no
Stolen anything	no
Label.seven - ever..
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated	no
Been called a tease	yes
Got beaten up	haha i kicked HER ass thank you
Layer.eight
Age you hoped to be married	20-25
Number and name of children	2 kids. haven't figured out names yet
Dream wedding	small one in a church
How do you want to die	peacefully in sleep
Where do you want to attend college	ehh
Dream job	Realtor
Country you want to visit	none
Layer.nine - In a guy/girl...
Best eye color	doesnt matter. whatever fits them but i like green
Best hair color	dark
Short or long hair	depends on the person
Height	guy - taller then me
Best weight	thats dumb. weight shouldnt really matter
Best clothing	Cowboy!! lol no, really...well yeah.
Best first date location	fast food joint
Best first kiss location	dunno
Layer.ten
Number of drugs taken illegally	what?
Number of people I could trust with my life	7
Number of CDs that I own	oh shit...a ton
Number of piercings	2
Number of tattoos	zip
Number of times my name's been in the news	a few
Number of scars on my body	a lot
Number of things in my past that I regret.	only one. everything else sucked, but i wouldnt take them back
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The Survey Where You Say The First Word That Comes To Mind. Yay.
Created by -ambiguous and taken 40584 times on bzoink!
What comes to mind when you hear..
..snow?	ashley
..rain?	romance
..tornado?	peirce city (got hit by one)
..summer love?	grease (the movie)
..Jon?	stalker
..Mike?	uncle
..Shea?	weird name
..banana?	karl
..dizzy?	spinning
..Laura?	stuck up snobby bitch
..Juan?	zero
..car?	wreak
..white?	christmas
..peppermint?	pizza hut
..New Found Glory?	band?
..placebo?	huh?
..orange juice?	oj
..candid camera?	SMILE
..sister?	ash and tay
..brother?	trev
..hate?	pigs
..school?	fucking hell hole
..President?	bush
..football?	tight pants licks lips
..rap?	50 cent
..pop?	n*sync
..rock?	scary
..punk?	good charolett
..sex?	doug
..death?	scary
..baby?	brooklyn
..duuude?	kayla
..the end?	of the survey
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lmfao alright i could do this all fucking day.
*sighs* i really have no life. its so sad. lmao later
(Rach)

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:: 2005 1 January :: 1.28 am
:: Mood: bored/bouncy
:: Music: shut up - black eyed peas

lots of surveys

A pretty long survey...
Created by scary-stares and taken 10 times on bzoink!
So, tell me some basic things about yourself...
Name	Rachel Elaine Prewitt
Age	15
Gender	Female
Country you live in	us
What is your natrual hair colour?	light brown
Eye colour?	hazel
Your interests/hobbies...
What music do you like?	country, some rap, hip hop, r&b
What food from a different country do you like?	chinese!!
What sports do you like?	softball
Do you like shopping?	Yes!
Do you like to read?	yes
Do you like school?	fuck no
Do you like anything?	...yeah...
Favourites...
Favourite Singer?	depends on my mood
Favourite Band?	maroon 5
Favourite Singer/Band Logo	huh?
Favourite American president	Bush
Favourite games console	...huh?
Favourite Game for that particular console	and again...huh?
Favourite poster	What?!
Favourite sports star/athlete	not into that
This or that?
Boy/girl	boy
Water/soda	depends
Curls/straight(hair)	doesnt matter
Guitar/Violin	guitar
Black/white	look better in white...?
English/Maths	english! math sucks balls
Dance/P.E	dance
Cameron Diaz/Christina aguilera	Cameron
Justin timberlake/Brad Pitt	Brad
Night/Day	night
Plane/Hellicopter	plane
Coffee/tea	ooh nooo thats so sad i caint decide!!...coftea!
Sofa/chair	chair
TV/Computer	COMPUTER!!
Emotional...
How are you feeling now?	lonely
When are you happy?	when i have something to be happy about
When are you sad?	a lot
When are you angry?	when mom doesnt let me tell her off
When are you scared?	omg like all the time
Happy/Sad	happy
Anger/Fear	anger
Who?
Who is your Idol?	me
Who do you most despise?	cain't say
Who do you most love?	its a secret
Who in your family do you dislike most?	oh thats sad...MOM
Who in your family do you like most?	trev. good ol' bub
Who really annoys you?	Katie & Zach
Who really makes you happy?	dougals
Who do you think really cant sing?	friends or famous? jess caint...and neither can...aaron carter
Who do you think really can sing?	jo and kelly clarkson
Who do you think is the sexiest model?	i dun know, dont really pay attention
Who do you think is the ugliest model?	look above
Friends
Who is your best friend?	oh geeze...kay, doug, sama, chlo, jo, jacob, tylor, jess
How many friends do you actually have?	counts geeze like more then 15
Which of your friends do you like least?	thats a mean question...jess
Which of you friends have you betrayed?	none thank you very much
Who of you friends is most loyal?	all of them i think...i hope... <.< ... >.>
Loudest	Jo
Craziest	jo
Scary	jacob
Shy	...none
Dominent	jo
Popular	jess
Sexiest	dougals and tylor
Prettiest	i dun know
Funniest	doug
Which one of your friends has betrayed you?	best be none of 'em...bitches
Love and kisses
Have you had your first kiss yet?	well you see....no sighs wait! does cyber kiss count?!
If so who with?	looks around then cries
Do you think everyone has a soul mate?	yes
Love or lust?	love!
Kiss or hug?	kiss
Flowers or teddy?	aww flowers And teddy? no? ok...teddy
Have you ever been in love?	yes
Have you ever been dumped?	yes
Have you ever dumped someone?	yes
Who is your perfect 'other half'?	its secret
Hate
Who do you know that you most hate?	chris
Which singer/band do you hate most?	scary ones.
Which celebrity do you hate most?	geeze i dont hate no one!
Do you hate George Bush?	absolutly not
Do you hate Tony Blair?	who?!
Do you hate religion?	no
Random
Do you like the colour green?	not really no
Do you believe in the paranormal?	depends
Do you like chocolate?	yes please! holds hand out
What would you do if you couldnt have chocolate?	cry
Do you belive in santa	lol no
Are you glad this is over?	kind of
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My Fucking Survey
Created by robbie and taken 4 times on bzoink!
Have you ever percied your self?	peirced? yes
What is your favorite feeling?	love
Do you smoke?	no
Do you drink?	no
Do you have any percings?	yes
How old are you?	15
Are you in love ? With who ?	i dont think
What do you not like about yourself?	my weight and teeth
Have you ever tried to commit suicide?	yes
Do you have a New Years resolution?	no
Do you have a faverite holiday?	ehh not really
Whats your faverite food?	zoo chicken
Do you have any pets?	ooooooh yeah
Have you been to any concerts?	yes
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Random Questions
Created by KindofMonday and taken 6 times on bzoink!
Randomness with yoru name
What is your full name	Rachel Elaine Prewitt
Type it backwards	ttiwerP enialE lehcaR
Switch your name around to create another name	Rena...?
switch it around to make a word/a sentence	Geeze!! ok...twine
Objects around you
If you have a year book, go to page 15 who do you know that's on that page?	Johanna
Go to page 34 of any book you have and read the third line	The eye of the beholder will always follow you, no matter how far you run, or who you turn to. You will never be safe my dear...
Take a random CD, what's track 3?	Don't tell me
shake your keyboard while it's upside down, does anything fall out?	Nope
if so what?	-
Actions
Do they speak louder than words?	sometimes yes
IM someone and say "I have balloons in my bud junk a junk junk"	...k...?
what is their reaction?	"WTF?!"
Sing very loudly these lyrics -OO BABY WORK IT WORK IT SMACK THAT THANG LAA	...k...
does anyone say something to you?	yes
If so who and what did they say?	"shut up! get off the computer and go to bed!"
Can you blow spit bubbles?	hehe Yes
what about snot bubbles?	Eww! .. Yeah
Can you do anything interesting with your tongue?	i suppose
what is it?	roll it 2 different ways
end of the quiz
-	why
-	are
-	there
-	blank
-	spaces
-	?
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Unorganized--Just the way I like it
Created by shattered-window21 and taken 7 times on bzoink!
Getting to know you (but i really don't care)
how tall are you?	5'4"
are you male or female?	female
what color are your eyes?	hazel
what color is your hair?	brownish red
do you have a lip piercing?	no
if you have a lip piercing, a red beard, is your name chad?	...nooooooooooooo
oh, cus you would've been perfect for my friend charlotte	hahha funny
Fun stuff....kinda....
what do you do in your spare time?	read, mess around on the computer and watch tv
do you like bungee jumping?	never done it
are you a thrill-seaker?	no
do you hang out with your friends a lot?	sort of
what's the one thing you ALWAYS love doing?	getting on the computer, going out and eatting chinese food
do you play any sports competitively?	no
Random Time!
do you like milk in your coffee?	eww no
do you like coffee at ALL?	yes
how many pencil sharpeners do you own?	...like one cheap-o plastic one thats around here somewhere shuffels through drawer
what do you think is in my mouth right now?	DICK
it's a ruler...it's a wood ruler...but anyway, do you like school?	well i had the wood part right and no, school is evil
have you ever pulled off a hangnail and then had it REALLY hurt?	...yeah...
do you like digital cameras better than the "real" thing?	shrugs
is technology an advancement in society, or a mistake?	depends on what it is
have you ever wished you could have lived during the renaissance?	when was that again?
did you know that today is new year's eve and i have nothing better to do?	diddo
how much money is currently in your wallet?	62 bucks
have you ever had your driver's license taken away?	have i ever gotten my drivers license? no
if so, why?	....
what's your favorite color to wear?	pink orange or brown
do you have really long eyelashes?	sadly no
do you sit there and randomly fiddle around with anything?	yes
do YOU have anything in your mouth right now?	yes
if so, what? if not, what WOULD you?	gum
what's your lucky number?	4
what was the worst day of your life?	have yet to have it i think
are you one of those people that has bad days on fri. the 13th?	not so far no
whoo! someone just randomly gave me a gift card! did you get one?	no. lucky you
do you like using white-out?	YES!
do you cheat on tests?	i have on one
what type of mail or email do you get?	letters and spam
what's your favorite tv show?	csi
do you have an anger-management problem?	yes, though not diagnosed
do you have an inferiority complex?	a wha?
do you have a superiority complex?	and again...a wha?
do you know what the word "repensive" means?	no
haha you shouldn't, i made it up. but it's my word. so can i kill you?	...psycho
no, i wouldn't do that. can i hug you?	Yay! yes i love getting huggles
if you could have ANYONE hug you right now, who would it be?	DOUG!!
when's the last time you went on a bike ride?	like when i was 10
did you get snow this christmas?	no :(
if so, how much?	:'(
have you ever had surgery?	yes
what's your pet peeve?	like when an article of clothing is rolled. like just one sleeve is slightly messed up or folded over...ahh
do you have any pets?	fuck yes
do you use your napkin while eating?	no
is your family disfunctional?	more then anyone knows
have you ever accidentally shaved your eyebrows off?	...no
have you ever made a painting?	yes
did it look pretty?	no
how much does a stamp cost in your local area?	dunno dad buys them
have you ever won an award?	yes
when's your birthday?	4/29/89
do you like ranch dressing?	not really no
have you ever had an anxiety attack?	yes
in four words, how would you describe yourself?	different, clutz, weird, ditz
in four words, how would your friends describe you?	funny, strange, ditz, dork
where's the computer that you're on located?	fire room
do you like cemetaries?	omg i Live by one!...but no
have you ever been out of state?	yes
if so, where? if not, i'm sorry.	arkansas and dc
when being expressive and asking a question, do you type "?!" OR "!?"	haha...yes
what song can you listen to on repeat for an entire day?	here without you by...3 doors down?
what's your favorite kind of dessert?	strawberry cheesecake
can you think of any word that has a double meaning?	fuck
do you like free stuff?	yes!
do like wallets or purses?	um-hmm
have you ever been in love?	yes
have you ever been dumped?	yes
have you ever had a prayer be answered in the way you wanted it to be?	i dont think so...
do you believe in any religion?	yes
do you play video games?	no
have you ever seen anchor man?	on tv...
have you ever played with sparklers inside the house?	haha
have you ever set off any kind of alarm accidentally?	yes
do you think you're intelligent?	ehh so so
do you believe in magic, in a young girl's heart?	?
what do you wish you could do, but are physically incapable of doing?	flying
have you ever lost your best friend?	for a moment, but she was just around the corner
what time is it right now?	2:07 am
do you have a curfew?	yes
have you ever shopped online?	no
if so, what did you buy?	...
what do you think about actors and actresses?	alright
what's your favorite country, and why?	us...because its the only one im familiar with
do you like playing in sprinklers?	no
how old do you think i am?	15-20
how old does your other half think i am?	40
how old does your evil twin think i am?	30
what's your favorite restaurant?	Oriental House
are you a procrastinator?	................................................................................................................yes
on a scale of 1 to 10, how much do you weigh?	5?
who knows what surprises a wonder ball can hide?	the things inside of it
do you have to share a bathroom with other people in the morning?	yes
do you talk on the phone a lot?	no
what was the best day of your life?	the day i got life?
if you could be doing anything but this right now, what would you be doing?	talking to doug but he didnt get his ass back on msn...
do you like chocolate?	yes
do you eat your vegetables?	some of them
are you healthy?	well im not dead
what's your favorite kind of weather?	fall weather
how many eggs are in one container?	12
how many things are in a dozen?	12
how many pints are in a gallon? (i don't even know that)	me either
what's your favorite color combonation?	pink and black
do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?	sadly no
if so, are they nice?	my make believe one is, yes
what's the best day of the week?	friday Night
when the last time you had to take medicine of some sort?	like 8 hours ago
do you believe in life after love?	yes, you just have to be strong enough to get through
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:: 2004 31 December :: 7.36 pm
:: Mood: ditzy
:: Music: Redneck Woman - Gretchen Wilson

Found this at www.spacefem.com. so cute

:: 2004 31 December :: 6.49 pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Hottest Thing - Usher

*loved*
ooh someone read my journal and **Commented**!!! ahh i feel so loved. no one has read this old thing in FOREVER. lol thank you xjak and torn prince!!
*huggles you both*
anyways. spending new years on the computer as promised unless forced to vacate it by mother *cough*horribleheartlessbipolarbitch*cough*cough*
Geeeze excuse me....*rolls eyes*
im not even going to bother making a resolution this year. i never get done what i promise to do anyways.
when we have to *cheer* when the ball drops, ill just tell them that my plans are to get knocked up. that'll do it
*giggles*
anyways im off to go eat. yum yum.
lol oh, and xjak, i don't really make a habit of drinking. only done it twice ever.
-ho-hum-
Rach

:: 2004 30 December :: 5.23 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Boulevard of broken dreams - Green Day

random thoughs
i feel so...strange. like i've been reading all my old journals, and i've never deleted any so there's all the ones from when kelly and i were going out, then when we broke up and then when we started going out again and then of course when we broke up yet again. i've been thinking about how we were and how everyone was back when. it's really depressing. i need to stop but i doubt that i will. i have 15 entries on every page i think it is, and so i think i have about 30 left to read. im not sure, im just assuming.
i got informed tonight i can't go out to any parties tomorrow night. that sucks. at the last party i went to i took a swig of whiskey and i told mom and dad and they said it was fine but yeah, whatever i guess they dont want me to do it again or some shit. ill just spend the night at the computer like i did last year. god im a loser *sighs and shakes head*
today at the court house there was a guy and apparently he wasnt pleased with what the judge said, and so when he got into his van, he hit the bailiff with his door, and then he ran over the guy. the other bailiff shot the guy in the van three times i think it was, and both the guy and the first bailiff had to be air lifted to the hospital. it was quite the situation. i dont know how they're doing, i suppose itll be on the news later, but im not going to watch, ill hear about it sooner or later.
god i feel so pathetic. i like doug a Lot, but...i dont know. i want to be with him and everything but then its like were to close of friends but then That doesnt make sense and so then i just feel stupid. i dont know, its weird. or maybe its just me thats weird.
im giving up on tylor, thats for sure. hes hot, yes. hes a great guy, yeah, but its the same way as doug. were to good of friends and so...i dont know. i mean doug and i have tried to have a relationship twice and it didnt work out either time. friends with benefits...but im to chicken to do that. i talk big and thats it. its pathetic.
anyways, im sick of talking about this so later.
-�-Rachel-�-

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:: 2004 23 December :: 6.04 pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Fall to pieces - Avril Lavigne

to merry of a merry Christmas
too many presents to buy, too many presents to wrap, too many cards to hand out, too many decorations to put out and up, too many candy canes to hang, too many things to bake. I'm about Christmased out and its not even here yet. that sounds bad, but its true. it doesnt even seem like it should Be christmas. i dont know, it seems like this year went by way to fast, its strange. trevors almost six for gods sake. it seems like he was born only a short while ago. time seems to just keep speeding up.
anyways, thats it. i have to get back to wrapping.
Rachel

:: 2004 19 December :: 12.26 pm
:: Music: Take me away - Avril Lavigne

ahh! omg last night was the christmas dance. i had Soo much fun, it was a blast. i had to take like a million pictures and my feet are killing me this morning but it was so worth it. my hair looked so good, tammy did such a good job. its really curley and all pulled up with bobby pins (Soooo many bobby pins) and then i have my bangs and stuff but yeah i like it. my dress was this pale yellow and it was all flowey and stuff and spaghetti straps and yeah i liked it.
um...finally out for christmas break. we had a half day friday and we dont go back until the third of january so thats good.
i Really Really like tylor. he, jacob and i are best friends. jacob likes me as a friend and as a girl friend, and tylors to good of a guy to do anything to hurt jacob so im stuck not being able to go out with the guy that likes me, and he does like me too, he told me, and another friend that likes me though i dont like him. it fucking sucks ass and it makes me mad. i dont want to lose jacob though because hes so funny and sweet. i just think of him as a brother though so its really messed up and i want to cry. Buuuut then there's doug. hes like so far away from me and we can never seem to make a relationship last, but i still like him and suppose he still likes me. i dont know. life sucks.
but anyways im out of things to say for now. later
--Rach-