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wierdo

:: 2005 22 September :: 7.57am
:: Mood: tired

What crapy weather today. I'm at work waiting for my dad to get here and its down-pouring outside. This is one of the days when i wish i was at school, cause this means i have to work in the rain. So yeah, umm not a whole lot new with me, just working like usual. I don't really have much time to do anything anymore.

Oh yeah, Jesse, i still need to pick you up from school and take you to lunch. I haven't forgot, but i just need to have a slow day at work so i can take a long lunch break lol ! Then we can do some more catching up and talk about our "stuff!"

OK, well i have to go, feel free to leave me another cool, fun, exciting comment lol!

Kevin L. Meek

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 21 September :: 6.08am

i worked at lazerskate last night for the first time in just about forever.

finally a day off. a whole WEEK off at that. now i can just relax, be sad about the pageant... and perhaps start writing my speech! how sad is that! i have like 2 days to write my farewell speech.. ah well. im sure it'll be wonderful, its just hard for me dealing with the realization that is over.

on a side note..... did ANYONE realize exactly how soon homecomming is?! urghhh!

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swimfan14

:: 2005 20 September :: 5.30pm

Hey. I'm at Lisa's with Emily waiting so we can go to practice :S

We are watching Holiday In The Sun to prepare ourselves for the Bahamas since in the movie they are at Atlantis! We are going to watch it everyday for like a week straight before we go. It will be awesome.

Anyways I have to go get ready.

Love Always, <33

Ashley

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jennapie

:: 2005 20 September :: 2.53pm
:: Music: Midtown~So Long As We Keep Our Bodies

I have nothing.
crash!
Gilly! I love you!!


quit making me smile when I try so hard not to, it makes it harder to get over.



honestly, where are you when I so desperately need you?


I wish I could answer my own questions.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 19 September :: 7.10pm

oh

my

gosh......

Dance was soooo much fun!


right now my mom is making me type my resume for modeling but I am getting a little distracted.......obviously!!!

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 19 September :: 6.11am

its laguna beach night....

mwah ha ha.. *points at brad and keegan* that means for you guys as well.

i went to bridgeway with my friend becca yesterday... i liked it. next sunday me and keegan are gonna check out res life in rockford. we've been wanting to find a good church... any suggestions.

i dont feel like doing anything this morning.... *cries... i wanna sleep

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jennapie

:: 2005 18 September :: 6.44pm

I had a dream last night, and you were in it. I don't understand that after so long of denying everything, I can still feel like this, and it makes everything in the past seem to not matter, and it makes it all seem SO far in the past. I don't know, I hate getting myself all confused over something that so obviously isn't meant to be, but when I'm sleeping, I don't control what I think about! I've said SO MANY times that it could never in a million years happen, and I hate everything that everyone tells me about it too, but then when it comes down to it, I think, well, I don't really see why not, I mean, what's in the past is in the past, right? I wish I could take everything back that I have said about this topic sometimes, but I can't, and you only know what I've told you, so you couldn't know that I have second thoughts about it every day! oh well....the truth has a way of coming out in the end....it always does.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 18 September :: 5.36pm

I can't say that seeing you didn't hurt...

And I also can't say that it wasn't weird since I never expected to see you there in the first place.

Friday-I went to the game. It was pretty fun since I got to see a lot of people that I haven’t in a while. I told Emily my story and she made me tell 100 other people at the game. Everyone was getting so mad that it wasn't true at the end. I thought it was hilarious. Thanks to Brianna now I know a good story to tell people. I don’t remember what else I did but later on that night Lisa spent the night.
Saturday- I went out to breakfast then I cleaned my room. Kelli came over and we studied for our Anatomy test. Saturday night I went to the movies and seen The Exorcism of Emily Rose. I couldn't stop laughing throughout the movie because this guy next to us was snoring, a guy that was on the other side was coughing for 10 minutes straight, and we were all talking and the girls next to us were getting pissed and that just made me laugh even more at them. Then later on Kelli and Lisa came over.
Sunday- I went to Olive Garden and then I went and seen Cry Wolf. It was way better than The Exorcism of Emily Rose. We were supposed to go see Cry Wolf at 1:45 but I looked at the time for the wrong movie place so we just went to Olive Garden, which works out anyways since I said I wanted to go there this morning. I swear I am getting dumber by the day.

Sometimes I think the person I want the most is the person I'm better off without. We both know it.

Thats how it always is.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 17 September :: 11.55am

Like this with no spaces

< b >what you want bolded < / b >


I hope you understand Brianna lol

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swimfan14

:: 2005 16 September :: 6.05pm

Bold anything that is true.

001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more TV than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own a home.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games.
008. I've done something illegal.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I like my handwriting.
013. I have acne-free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
015. I curse frequently.
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I've been to another country.
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. I'm really, really smart.
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain.
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now. And probably will for a long time...
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I like school
030. I have long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin.
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way the I look.
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings. (sometimes)
043. I think prostitution should be legalized.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent.
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I've been intimate with someone
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. (haha never!!)
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I'm bourgeoisie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I'm obsessed with my diary!
058. I don't hate anyone.
059. I like to dance
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a cell phone Instead of a landline... (whats a landline?)
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I've rejected someone before.
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I've had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
076. I'm not deadly allergic to anything.
077. I have a lot to learn.
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.(eww)
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
080. I am shy around the opposite sex if I have a crush on one.
081. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. I say the word "like" alot
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
085. I own the "South Park" movie.
086. I have avoided work to play on OD.
087. When I was a kid I played "doctor" with a neighbor.
088. I enjoy country music.
089. I love music
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
092. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
096. Halloween is awesome!
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
098. I have dated a close friend's ex.
099. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
101. Had a crush on somebody you have never met.
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest movies/books ever. (lets try, dumbest)
110. I'm obsessed with the TV show "The O.C.".
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
112. I am an entirely different person around different people.
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
114. I think ramen is one of the best foods in the whole world.
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. I am a nerd.
117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
118. I am left handed and proud of it.
119. I try not to change who I am for someone.
120. My heart resides below my feet.
122. I enjoy smoothies.
123. I have had major surgery.
124. I have adopted a pet from the SPCA.
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
126. Some people call me by a nickname. (little one and ashmeg)
127. I once stole a music stand.
128. I like pumpkin pie.
129. I love NASCAR! (hate it)
130. I own over 200 CDs.
131. I work 7 days a week.
132. I have mono.
132. I don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor.
134. I'm still in my PJs.
135. I'm looking for love in all the wrong places.
136. I have a tendency to fall for the wrong guys/girls, or have them fall for me, so I can't help but reciprocate.
137. I'll try anything three times.
138. Done drugs other than alcohol or cannabis.
139. I'm having trouble sleeping.
140. I am a cuddler.
141. I love John Waters films.
143. Sloth is my favorite deadly sin.
145. I know all the words to the "Firefly" theme song.
146. I'm in love.
147. I'm a programmer.
148. I can't explain why I'm unhappy at times.
149. I have read all of the Harry Potter books. (ugh. I hate those books)
150. I like to smell my own hair. lol
151. I carry a book with me almost everywhere I go.
152. I have an eating disorder.
153. I have flown to a different country to see a band.
154. Been hospitalized for "mental issues".
155. I have survived totaling a car I was driving.
156. I have been to at least five different countries, not including my own.
157. I make the same mistakes repeatedly.
158. Writing is my passion
159. I sing in the shower.
160. I have at least 4 really good friends.


Thats all for now. Britt, Lisa, and Emily should be here soon. We've got places to attend.

<3Always, Ashley

LiL BiT Of HeLp!

brokenmentality

:: 2005 15 September :: 10.52pm

i spoke to soon.

what was i thinking?! it was only 10... i should have KNOWN that there was still time to end on a bad note and go to sleep pissed off. i should have KNOWN that i wouldnt be able to sleep tonight because somebody doesnt care when im upset. but wait... "what was he supposed to say" it wasnt the time nor the place was it? because you were off busy having fun werent you. well ya know what... i dont KNOW what time i'll get around to calling you in the morning. and when you read this late at night when you get home, i hope you're just as upset and pissed off as i am. because there are things you're gonna wanna talk to me about and "you cant" because i'll be sleeping. bummer huh. to bad how that works. how one of goes to school and the other doesnt. ya SORRY i cant answer my phone during class by the way.

goodnight darling.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 15 September :: 10.11pm

me and danielle just went shopping.... i didnt know it was possible to laugh so much in one simple trip to the mall.. giggles.

less than 2 weeks.... and then our reign is over. im so sad... but at least im out of denial! laughs.... and i havent had a nightmare in a few nights.... woot woot.

keegans out dancing right now... well practicing anyways. *smiles...... all it takes is his name.. and ughrlekjraslk... i dont even know. every day it gets stronger, everyday he becomes more beautiful than the last... emotionaly, physically, spiritually.... and i love it because we're growing into one relationship instead of 2 different parts of one. and that doesnt even make sence, and i dont even make sence, but thats ok. because it doesnt have to.

i got the CUTEST little boxer shorts from american eagle tonight.. aww.

alright.. off to bed.


SEPTEMBER 25TH DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES COMES BACK!

could i BE any more excited?! *giggggles

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swimfan14

:: 2005 15 September :: 8.14pm

The O.C. is on right now!!! I am in love with it.

I am pretty sure for Spring Break I am going to Atlantis. It's a resort on Paradise Island in the Bahamas!! Go to www.atlantis.com and that is the resort were probably staying at. My dad is going to get a travel agent in the next few days and I'm pretty sure Lisa is going to come too.

I'm taking dance now. I haven't started yet but I am going to start on Monday. I think it will be fun. I'm only doing hip-hop right now but eventually I will probably do more than one.

My mom called all these modeling agencies that my agency that I work with now recomended us. We have to send out all my comp. cards and resumes soon but I have been so busy. I guess I'm excited that things are finally going somewhere.

Anyways I am getting yelled at so I should go.

Love Always,

Ashley

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swimfan14

:: 2005 14 September :: 8.55pm

Hey.

So school has been alright. Today wasn't all that great. It was raining this morning so I got soaking wet and that just pissed me off and ruined the day for me and yesterday Lisa & I were late and we were supposed to get there before second hour but that never happend.

Last night I went to the soccer game with Lisa and Britt. It was alright I guess but there was a moment of silence for the people fighting in Iraq and right in the middle of it my phone started ringing, and no it couldn't be on volume one or two, it was at seven and my ringer was Mike Jones- Back Then, so everyone heard it and they all looked at me so then it said "take call from so and so" and I clicked no, that way it would stop ringing and then they left me a voicemail so then it started ringing again for my voicemail and by now it was the National Anthem. It was horriable and Lisa wouldn't stop laughing at me. I was so embarrassed.

After that we start walking out to Lisa's car and it was getting dark may I add. Lisa tried unlocking it and it wouldn't work so I went around and tried the other side and it still wouldn't work. We tried for about five minutes and then the windows were down a little so I stuck my arm inside to try to unlock it and then I looked in the back and I seen things that Lisa never had in her back seat and shes like "dude, this isn't my car." We started cracking up. I couldn't stop laughing.

Andrea. I bought you one thing already from one of your wish lists but I'm going to buy you something else too but my computer is being retarded and wont let be go on like two or three or your wish lists because of this pop up blocker thing we have so when I get to my dads I am going to buy you something else. You just have to be patient lol.

Yesterday was definately the most civil conversation we've had in months.

I have more news but I'm out of time. I'll write in here when I find some time.

Good Night Everyone!

I love you!

Ashley

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jennapie

:: 2005 14 September :: 10.48am
:: Music: No Reason~Sum 41

I HAVE THE MOST WONDERFUL FRIENDS IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD!!! YEAHH!!!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!

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