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2005 28 April :: 8.05pm
Today was a pretty good day. Even though my dad and I did butt heads because we are stubborn.
The opera workshop was swell. Now I cannot wait for the opera itself. I was surprised at how humorous it was. There was one part thought were they were talking about the "ultimate human pleasure" Anthony and I looked at each other and tried to keep in our laughter.
And today I noticed for the first time, I’m usually the only girl sitting at me lunch table.
Huh....weird.
I ordered Chris's boutonniere, did my nails, bought a camera, things of that nature.
Now I’m ready for prom. The test will lie in my patience. If I can make it through tomorrow without checking the clock every five seconds, I will be ok.
YOU are a silly WANKER!
Jackie
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2005 22 April :: 10.01pm
I really do hate venting on things that i dont want to talk about.
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2005 22 April :: 6.03pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: stelar - incubus
How YOU doin?
“I’m Irish, I hope I don’t die from a wee bit of consumption!”
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2005 19 April :: 9.12pm
Lenny rocks hardcore
Are you gonna go my way?
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2005 19 April :: 8.34pm
:: Mood: Lost and Found
:: Music: The verve pipe - spoon full of sugar
BANANNA!!
I really don’t need constant reminders on how messed up my childhood was. I would like to leave behind me what happened. I cannot change the past. Even though what happened was a serious crime, and mentally scarring I forgive him. That’s what I have been taught and it is what I believe in. So for a little while I think I have to cut off all communication with Justine. Just until she stops bringing up those issues that have nothing to do with how I’m living my life now. Like I said, it’s over and done with.
Today I placed first in discuss and second in shot. So i made a total of 8 points today. You need 10 to earn your varsity letter. Oh I’m almost there! I even managed to stay hot thought the meet, even after I ran!! Woot woot!
I mostly finished the song; here is the first verse...
G+ H3 H2 Am
The sun sets low on a crimson horizon
G+ H3 H2 Am
The day dawns inversely, admittedly wizened
F#m5 Ga Em F#m5
The night that impends upon pastel creation
G+ H3 H2 Am
The dark that unites in the hearts of all nations
It’s not to elaborate, but it sounds good i think.
All the verses are the same, and i still have to figure out something to spice it up in the middle.
I had to make up H3, H2, F#m5 and Ga.
IM TIRES!!!
(Tired)
Peace Love,
Jackie
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2005 17 April :: 8.38pm
I did have fun. And I hope Chris did too.
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2005 16 April :: 8.33pm
KIRISHIMA WHERE ARE YOU?!!
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2005 16 April :: 8.26pm
:: Mood: quixotic
:: Music: q.o.t.s.a - little sister
If you give a mouse a cookie.....
I think its funny hes comming to do yardwork.
But im excited.
:)
Make LOVE, NOT war,
Jackie
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2005 14 April :: 10.27pm
i know my life is not falling apart, but right now it seems that way.
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2005 14 April :: 10.36pm
Track invite today was really bad, i suck so much.
I used to be good, now im not good at all.
i want to be the best at something. this brings up another point,
solo tryouts. for "Let all Mortal Flesh" Everyone thinks that Cecelia will get it, but have they even heard me sing? I love singing classical, and this is a Hymn-Anthem!! So i guess i want this to prove to myself that im good at something. I just want to be the best. (and i am probably expecting too much)
The track invite on Saturday is in grand rapids all day.
My sister called me today, telling me she couldn’t give me a ride to Max's birthday party. I didnt ask for a ride, but this mad me think "max is having a birthday party and im not even invited??" I was so sad. Then all my anger kind of bubbled up,"why does my mom feel the need to keep me out of ALL the family events?!" the only time i hear about it is from liz, or when liz gets invited and i don’t. I just feel worthless, like im not fit to be her child. And i know latley why she has been doing it. Because i dont agree with the way she handles some situations. But i still love her.
i love her so much it hurts, and it hurts because i dont get the feeling in return.
And these things go on that I cannot change, and it strains me because its just that
and this is not it, by no means. that just scratched the surface.
so now im going to go to bed, fall asleep with my stuffed unicorn in my arms and pray for a better day.
im so sorry. :,,(
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2005 13 April :: 8.10pm
i dont really expect anyone to fill this out, except jenny, return the favor you ungreatfull wench!!!
-Who are you?
- Are we friends?
- When and how did we meet?
- What do you think of me?
- How long do you think we will be friends?
- Do you love me?
- Do you have a crush on me?
- Would you kiss me?
- Would you hug me?
- Would you go out on a date with me?
- Emotionally, what stands out?
- Do you wish I was cooler?
- Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
- Am I loveable?
- How long have you known me?
- Describe me in one word.
- What was your first impression?
- Do you still think that way about me now?
- What do you think my weakness is?
- Do you think I'll get married?
- If so, to who?
- What makes me happy?
- What makes me sad?
- What reminds you of me?
- If you could give me anything what would it be?
- How well do you know me?
- When's the last time you saw me?
- Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
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2005 13 April :: 7.31pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: My own sun - The Proctologist
Maybe i try to hard.
I got into an argument with my mom. Today was day of silence; it was to support gay rights. My mom said that because I was for gay rights, that I was going against my religion. She said I was being "Selective" taking the good from my religion, and the good from my political stand yet none of the bad.
I AM catholic.
No I don’t follow the rules to the line, but I try. And I’m not going to believe in something just because I’m told to. I am not a mindless zombie without an opinion. There are so many things I DO support and believe in my religion that outweigh the trivial topics that I DONT agree with. Are gay people not people too? Should they not have any rights because of something they can’t help, that being love?
Oh does it bother me.
But on the lighter side of news....
I LOVE JAMES!!!
Today in choir I laughed SO hard I startled most people.
I have not laughed that hard in a long time.
Not that I don’t laugh hard, just not as loud as I did today.
I had tears in my eyes :.)
Then track.....ugh.
I felt like I was going to scream, or cry but I didn’t feel like doing either so I went and lifted weights.
I need to buy a dress one of these days.......soon.
Well I’m off to practice.
Peace love,
Moomoo
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2005 12 April :: 8.39pm
come on hide your lovers, underneath the covers
Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me.
track is busting my ass.
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2005 11 April :: 8.57pm
Oh how i love D.M.B. i would kill to see them live.
Crash is such a great romantic song.
I have love it since before 5th grade.
Good night kiddies.
love peace,
jAckie
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