So tomorrow...I'm pretty much skipping golf to go shopping with Mindy, Eddy, Jessica, and Holly. It should be fun. I have more stuff to get for prom and I need new Khakis for golf so yeah. That all needs to be done. I have an all day turnament on friday, hoping that goes well. But I dont know. Depending on what time we get back from the mall I might go to the course and do a little bit of practicing by my lonesome. Yup...that's pretty much the plan. And then Friday night is the Battle Of The Bands! I'm soo excited! I might get to be a judge! That would be awesome. So yeah, if you're not doing anything Friday night at 7, head over to Tri County and check it out. It's only 3 bucks and there are like 6 or 7 bands playing, It's going to be awesome. And Mike's band is playing, so yeah, we're pretty much throwing bags or shit at him so dont miss it! lol!

Soyer Reed is the baby's name. Like Tom Soyer from Tom and Huck. At first it reminded me of Forest Gump but then I was like "No,no, no...Mark Twain..." lol. yup, he's the cutest thing sense sliced bread...aww...



At first I was confused, then I was hopefull, then I was hurt, then I was pissed with a passion, and now...I really dont feel anything...it's like nothing really matters anymore. It's kinda a weird feeling that nothing is...I dont know. All these emotions came in about a week and a halfs worth of time too. I think I like the feeling of nothing better than all the other ones. I'm just going to go with the flow for now on. And yes, I know I've said this before time and time again, but this time I'm more than serious. I'm just not going to try ever again. If anyone wants anything to happen, they're doing all the work because I could really careless now. This was kinda my breaking point I guess. And you'd really think Mike would have been the breaking point, but then I just let things go too far with people and I'm left alone in the end and I really don't like that feeling of lonelyness...it really sucks way too much. But yes...in conclusion:: Realationships are too much to deal with for me lately. I'm not going to try. I'm sick of all the stress and hurt I get in the end from it all. If there is someone out there that is actually interested in ME...like my personality and thinks I'm cool, and wants to hang out with me more than they want to do me...you know, that's awesome. We'll talk I guess...I'm not promising anything because I'm not even going to try, like I said before, I'm done with doing everything I can to make things work, I want someone to break their back for me for once...

ugh...work is gay. I got the biggest pay check I've ever had though! WHOA!!! I could buy...uhh...cool stuff with that. I love working with John. He's hillarious. I work from 2 - 10 on Easter Sunday...now granted I think Easter is a gay holiday..but still...that's dumb...! Kevin and Kelly are basically stalking me now I guess...lol and uhh.. yeah...That's pretty much how awesome my life has been...

Anyone know how much Cedar's prom tickets are?

Today is a nice day it looks like. I think I'll hang out outside before work today. Maybe I'll take my doggy for a walk or something. But I gotta find the leash cause we live in town now and they have those weird rules about your dogs being on leashes. Dont ask me why, I think they're really dumb rules but oh well...rules are meant to be broken though so who knows if I'll even find the leash..lol!

So yesterday was my first golf meet of the year. I didn't do too bad. I actually did really good but my score didn't count...damnit..! but yeah, and then last night was our poms dinner things. I was late but I walked in as soon as they were annousing my award. I have excellent timing. I got Most Improved Rookie. Pretty awesome I suppose. And I got my varsity letter, my varsity athletic award thing, a cd with a bunch pictures on it, and a dvd with some of out performences on it but it isnt working...=( but yeah...my couch is retiring which is cool in a way cause she was a bitch and because the couch from the rage dance team is going to couch us I'm pretty sure anyways. Yeah, awesome indeed I guess.

My sister plays the same game on her computer that Kevin and Kelly play all the time. I thought it was funny. I told her she could go to the next geek fest and not feel left out or anything. lol.

Yesterday was Lauren's birthday. We had a bonfire at her house. It was pretty fun I guess.

Tonight is going to be the first night that I work with John! yay! I'm so happy for him...

I need a hair cut...


Next friday is Battle Of The Bands at our school. It's going to be awesome. I guess a band from Cedar is going to be there. And then a few from our school (including JAJA SWAB!!! which I am in love with!) and then Mike's gay band and then one from Newaygo and one from Rockford. It's going to be awesome. JAJA SWAB is going to win. I just know it. Well they would anyways if I were the judge cause those are my boys! I love them to death!

I sorta have been missing Brixon alot lately....=(



You know, I really dont like Easter. I've always thought it was a gay holiday...

my sister is walking around without a shirt on, brushing her teeth. She's sucha fucking crackhead. oh well...


well I think I've babbled for long enough...

welp...John had his first day as an essential worker. I went to visit. I'm so proud of him. He's growing up just too dang fast. Mindy looked lovely today. She bought me a strawberry shake and I played video games in the BK Arcade, pretty much where I'm having my birthday party this year so be ready for that one. lol. Me and Ashley went to McDonalds and bought about 7 dollors worth of food...in coins. The dude looked a little annoyed. I called Kelly today...haha! He thought I was Mindy for a minute but I tricked him! cause it was for sure me! haha! SUCKER! He didn't seem too happy to speak with me though, I dont know why...? I think he secretly hates me because...*whispers* he knows Mindy loves me more than shes ever will love him...lol. *stops whispering...* I'm terrible, I should work on being nice. It might make people like me I guess...but...I dont really like people so I dont really care if anyone likes me to be quite honest. Some people I really hate. Like with a thousand fires I hate them. And it's sorta really bad because some people I'll have reasoning to my hate for them but some people...I just hate them...! It's not nice I know and I am trying to fix that, But I am not doing too well on that yet. I'll let you know when I got it down. *winks*....BYE!

Somedays you just need to take off...

work sucked so much butt. I had to stay an extra hour. I did counter for like the 4th time in my life and we had a bus come through. I felt bad cause I messed up this girls order. I accedently gave her a whopper and she wanted a jr and when they were ordering she was picking on her boyfriend for getting a whopper. she was like "that's a huge sandwich! you must be hungry!" but Matt explained to her that I was still learning and she was like "oh it's okay hunny! no problem" I was like "I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Sorry!!!" I felt terrible...lol. but yeah...it blows. I guess I didn't do too bad though.

Matt is sucha good guy...what a sweetheart...lol. I found out yesterday that he was going to try to date me until he found out I was 16. (he's 23 mind you!) haha! I thought that was pretty funny. Made me laugh for quite a while.

I work tomorrow from 10:30 till 8. ugh...and I'm probably doing counter too cause the new girl will be there and she does back cash because she sucks at counter. errg...I'm so tired. I cant wait until Mindy comes back.

My back hurts....=( I wish my mommy was home so she could rub it for me, but noone's here cause noone cares. lol

OH MY GOSH!! I came home to find The Cronicles Of Narnia sitting on the table! I'm soo happy! I LOVE THAT MOVIE! and now I dont have to go out and buy it! yay!!! =)

welp...bye