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2008 7 January :: 5.14pm
:: Music: a day to be alone - one less reason
Its amazing how your surroundings impact your feelings.
Lately I have had more than enough time to think about things.
And I'm not sure if it's because I'm a very fickle indecisive person, or because I really truly do not know what I want out of life, but I haven't been able to come up with an answer for anything.
The more I think, the more clustered everything gets.
I'm almost positive what i want to go to college for, and career i want to pursue.
I feel that my boyfriend deserves more than what I am capable of giving him.
But I know that if that were true, he'd leave or been gone a long time ago.
Which makes me very grateful for every moment I've spent with him, every memory we've created, and anxious for moments and memories to come.
Is it possible to be so completely happy, yet feel so depressed at the same time?
Oh, and I suck at journal entries..
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2008 6 January :: 2.58am
just the line
"im already pregnant, really what other shenanigans can I get into"
that line by itself has me dying to see Juno with ellen page.
anybody who has seen it throw your opinion at me because honestly this is one of the those movies that if it sucks I am going to be really pissed because im so excited for it
I wish I had some money
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2008 4 January :: 12.17pm
i am tired.
bored and tired. I wish I had some money and something worth doing to do. valentines day is coming up and I am still not sure what i am supposed to get for andy. shit. money is tight. again. but it is okay
liveable. yar. I think that I may make a toasted pb and j and eat it with a tall cold glass of milk. mmhmm. yall got my number use it.
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2007 22 December :: 12.13pm
So i haven't updated in about a month.
Figured it was time I should.
Still looking for a job.
Christmas is around the corner.
All my shopping is done.
I have christmas with my moms family today at 3.
Christmas with my dads family tomorrow at 1.
Christmas with my dad sometime between now and monday.
Christmas with my mom monday I believe.
Christmas with Paula and Jim and the kids on Monday night Tuesday morning.
And i think that about sums up my christmas' for 2007.
The closer christmas gets, the more exited I get.
And I get to see my sister and my brother in law!
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2007 19 November :: 12.43pm
Yesterday I spent a good portion of my afternoon, and evening at the hospital.
My grandmother was admitted for observation because they still weren't quite positive why she quit breathing. They think it may have been a mini stroke.
This is already a hard time of year as it is.
6 years ago wednesday my grandfather passed away. (it was the day before thanksgiving that year as well).
3 years ago my grandmother passed away the day before christmas eve.
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2007 12 November :: 2.19pm
So Christmas came early at my house last night.
Mike bought me a 20 inch Widescreen (because they only had widescreen) Flat Panel Monitor.
I have a sort of interview tomorrow, to take an IQ Test.
There is a place in Edmore looking for an Office Assistant and April from Manpower is looking into that for me.
I think Unemployment is trying to screw me over.
That is about it.. haha
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2007 8 November :: 1.00pm
i want passion ... i want romance and most importantly, the truth.
are these the things that women leave their husbands over?
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2007 24 October :: 3.50pm
Things have been looking up lately.
Not that they had far to go, seens how things had already been going good.
But I was told today that I was recommended for a job. (in the same shop).
Hopefully I get it.
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2007 9 October :: 12.32pm
Well, I'm not pregnant anymore... and I kind of miss it.
so, I hold her 24/7 to make up for it.
She was born September 26th at 12:15 pm and weighed a whole 8 lbs. 9 oz and was 21 inches long.
I have no idea how she fit inside me.
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2007 26 September :: 3.16pm
ALLY HAD HER BABY TODAY!!
Name: Autumn Irene O'Connor
Weight: 8lbs 9oz
Length: 21 inches
Time: 12:15 PM
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2007 21 September :: 9.26pm
Interesting things have happened lately.
I was in shock for atleast a 24 hour time period.
Wednesday night around 10:15 we heard a knock at our door. So Mike told whoeverit was to come in because we were doing one of his Criminal Justice Quizzes online.. But whoever it was just kept knocking. So he got up and answered the door. Much to his and my surprise, there stands a man saturated in blood. From head to toe. Covered. Mike jumped back about 2 feet, and my eyes grew as big as they could possibly get. Mike asked the guy if he wanted us to call 911. But he just kept repeating 'i crashed my bike, please don't call the cops.. please man, don't.. i'll go to jail.. im drunk" So we got the guy a wet towel, so he could put it on the gaping hole he had in his head. Mike followed the guy out to the pavement when the guy realized he was at the wrong apartment. He took him down to his nephews apartment and the cops showed up. When Mike was talking to the cop, and the guys nephew one of them asked the guy if he got beat up. And the guy, who entirely intoxicated, said "yeah I did. that guy punched me in the face" (pointing at Mike) and Mike was like "dude, you just showed up on my door step, I don't know who you are". I went outside after swallowing my stomach, and there was a massive blood trail. Blood all over my door, bottom of the door frame, side of the door frame, our door mat, steps. In the mean time we're trying to find out where this guy came from, and what happened.. And we notice that his BICYCLE was leaning against one of the garages out back, and the door as well as his bike was covered with blood as well. So then we followed the trail back the other way, and found the spot where he crashed. He either hit a parked truck on his bike, or just simply fell over. There was an extreme puddle of blood on the ground and then smears on the front of the truck.
I haven't ever witnessed ANYTHING like that in my life.
When I went to try to go to sleep that night, I had knots in my stomach so bad that I thought I was going to puke and everytime I'd close my eyes, I'd picture that guy. When I did fall asleep, I'd start sweating so bad that I'd wake up, or Mike would wake me up.
I had nightmares.
Now Im just paranoid of everything and anything that could possibly be in the dark.
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2007 6 September :: 12.41pm
:: Mood: crazy
baby
Wow... I can't believe how longs it's been since I actually updated either of my journals. How crazy life has been!
I never talk to anyone anymore and it makes me miss all those sad pathetic days of blink 182 and parties with the group.
I saw james about 4 months ago. He looked healthy. I think. I havn't heard anything from him since then.
I saw Joe yesturday while I was working. He's doing good it seems. Working third shift at family fare and his dad is out of the hospital.
I saw david with his very pretty girlfriend a month ago (yes while I was working). They both seem happy.
Everyone seems good but, you don't talk to anyone like you used to. I have finally been talking to Raych more. The problem was. I am poor and she is altell. I have verizon therefore talking to her takes up my whole 700 minutes that Jared and I share.
I can't believe I am going to have a baby. What is life going to be like? OMG it's so crazy. It isn't going to be just Jared and I. We are going to have a real family, all the time. I mean. Jared has a daughter but... it's different. I try to make it not different. But it is and it always will be. I just can't wait to bring her home and put her in her crib and dress her in all the clothes we got. And of course.. for me to loose all this stupid weight I have gained. A part of me is scared that she will turn out a he. Haha.. knowing my luck I wouldn't be suprised. Anyways.. I don't know what to write. Now that I have internet maybe I will keep this thing updated. doubt it but maybe.
If you want to look at any pictures or anything go to my myspace. You can see how fat I am now. :)
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2007 5 September :: 3.40pm
So it's been awhile since I have had something of some use or interest.
I still work the same shitty job.
Mike and I are doing great. Wonderful as a matter of fact.
I spent a lot of time with my dad, sister and brother (in law) this weekend.
I had a lot of fun.
Mike went to fireworks with my sister, dad and I.
We walked.. Pretty amazing.
Hopefully this time next year, Mike will be a probation officer or whatever he decides to be, and I will be able to not work haha..
I got my first speeding ticket..
I just called to see how much it is going to be..
$86 dollars isn't bad. :)
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1988 1 January :: 2.11pm
so I am at school right now just dicking the time away.
I had to take the bus because my car broke down and so I borrowed one from my parents but then it broke down too. its been a bad week and now i have to go and buy books and that will be pretty damn hefty in itself. yuck on book buying.
andy and I seem to be pretty okay all things considered. we moved and our new apartment is awesome sauce.
no other news.
im going to trek it across campus to see if books are cheaper at brians. im fairly sure they are also I have three hours to kill before my next class.
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2007 26 August :: 12.26am
Thursday my friend Katelyn had her baby. I am way excited because I get to see her tomorrow!!
I also went to see Ally and her pregnant belly today.
I cannot wait until she has her baby..
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