where have all the liars gone?

:: 2003 29 September :: 6.28pm

"You must remember this, a kiss is still a
kiss". Your romance is Casablanca. A
classic story of love in trying times, chock
full of both cynicism and hope. You obviously
believe in true love, but you're also
constantly aware of practicality and societal
expectations. That's not always fun, but at
least it's realistic. Try not to let the Nazis
get you down too much.

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HASH(0x87e8280)
borderline

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:: 2003 28 September :: 6.20pm

Blue info
Your Heart is Blue

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:: 2003 28 September :: 5.44pm

You are Prince Charming!!

how come no girls think that?

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:: 2003 28 September :: 12.28pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: something corporate - not what it seems

ok, so yesterday me jack and ralph went to the u of m game. it was awesome. me and jack come up with a few good sayings that i probably shouldnt post. so we went to guitar center after the game. some girls watched me and jack play and then they took pictures of us. we messed around on the acoustics and i found i am actualy not that bad of a drummer. i look good playing too. ralph wants me to teach him moonlight sonata on the piano now. that is probably the intrument i am most underrated in, that and anything other instrument. we went back to ralphs house and watched confidence. then we practised somewhat.

right now i just need time off from just about everything. i need to find myself, i need to see what i need and dont need, and who i need.

Info Grey
Your Heart is Grey

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According to the Which Something Corporate Song Are You? Test...

Take the test, by Emily.

:: 2003 27 September :: 8.56pm

again i go unnoticeed
Again I Go Unnoticed

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:: 2003 26 September :: 6.06pm

Tony don't love me no more....:(

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:: 2003 26 September :: 5.45pm
:: Mood: thirsty
:: Music: phone

none
WANTED:
Hot loser emo-kid; who likes Brand New, Dashboard Confessional, and going out for Coffee.
Wanted by a not so hot loser emo-kid...

preferably in the Battle Creek/Kalamazoo area

*sigh* this is what I have been reduced to

woohoo...

"I don't think that you know what you've been missing" - Taking back sunday

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:: 2003 26 September :: 5.40pm

JENNY SHALL HAVE MY BABIES

whoa...

:: 2003 26 September :: 3.06pm

Season = Winter
You're Most Like The Season Winter ...

You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.

Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)

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:: 2003 24 September :: 5.47pm
:: Mood: cynical
:: Music: straylight run - mistakes we knew we were making

Your: Mysterious eyes. All in the title. Your
independant secretive and myseterious. You
appear cold and distant, but hey, at leats no
one messes with you.

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for some reason i am still with my old band, but barely. i swear, i do all the work and get no credit.

:: 2003 24 September :: 3.43pm
:: Music: Story of the Year

Anthem of our Dying Day
The stars will cry the blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
Here I am pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
Thats exactly,
Exactly what I need...

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day...

For a second I wish the tide will swallow every inch of the city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face if you were here
Cause then I wont miss a beat cause I never,
Never have before...

Of our dying day
Of our dying day
OF OUR DYING...

For a second I wish the tide would swallow every inch of this city
As your gasped for air tonight...

:: 2003 24 September :: 3.40pm
:: Mood: headache
:: Music: Nickelback

bad week
This has been a REALLY bad week...I don't have the strength to post about it...all I can say is that my arm looks like a fucking autopsy table

:: 2003 24 September :: 3.38pm

NOW I HAVE PROOF SHE WAS LYING HER ASS OFF!!!
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Suzisport: the thing is, is that if she had really talked to my parents and they knew it wasn't true they would've talked to me about lying to my friends and shit like that

x x suicide doll: she did talk to your parents .. and so did i.

x x suicide doll: except your mom didn't wanna talk to me about you me, and ben, so i just left it at that.

x x suicide doll: nothing about the whole leukemia thing. i'd like to talk to your mom about it.

Suzisport: things is there's a lot they won't admit, i mean really would you really admit to one of your daughters friends or aquaintences that you bveat them?

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA!!!

:: 2003 21 September :: 10.59am

HASH(0x86ffdd0)
Protector

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^so true

Season = Autumn
You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...

You're warm, and the most approachable. You have
that gentle prescence about you. People can
relate to you, and find you easy company.
However it's likely you've been hurt in the
past and it has left you scarred so things can
become rather chilly with you at times. Being
the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy
and loyal to your friends but prone to
depression and negative thinking.

Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)

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cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed

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:: 2003 20 September :: 9.20pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: glassjaw - lovebites and raorlines

wow, my day just keeps getting better and better. nick forgets to tell me some inportant details during the week and proceds to tell me the night before. and its going to cost me $50!!!! there goes eating for 2 weeks.

:: 2003 20 September :: 8.18pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: glassjaw - secret song

"and now you leave me in defeat
leave me battered, broken man
The amount of love you wish to give is more than i can stand"

"Now I have you where I want you
I know that you are listening
This is my chance to tell you everything
my chance to tell you I love you
but I've waited too long
Now the record's over
Now the record's over"

ok, so i quit my band today. i get no credit for anything. i work my ass off and i get nothing. im very pissed off as you can tell. hmm...i was told i have issues, why yes, i do, thank you for that grand statement, did you just figure that out? so i write music without choruses, so i listen to classical piano and instrumental pieces. yea, for some reason i feel like everything i've ever worked for and cared about is falling apart. you know what, fuck love again. i hate everything. goddammit, fuck everything. nothing matters anyway, i'll be dead in 3 to 80 years. i dont see the point in anything anymore. word of advice, dont try and make me feel better. i dont care anymore. fuck it, this is shit.

:: 2003 19 September :: 8.41pm

I hate crying, it hurts, it feels like needles are coming out of my eyes....

4 | failed the crash test

:: 2003 19 September :: 7.07pm

omg...

:: 2003 19 September :: 3.49pm

I actually believed that everything between us would be ok and maybe with luck work out. guess I was wrong....

:: 2003 19 September :: 3.46pm

If I died would anyone care??

...........

2 | failed the crash test

:: 2003 17 September :: 7.15pm

I would kill for the atlantic but I am paid to make girls panic while I sing

"They call them rougues they travle fast and alone, 100 foot faces of God's good ocean gone wrong. What they call love is a risk, you'll always get hit out of no where, by some wave and end up on your own." - Brand New

:: 2003 17 September :: 5.40pm
:: Mood: unloved

boys suck

:: 2003 15 September :: 4.32pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: brand new - flying at tree level

I think I'm crazy, baby, let you off the hook to easy
If you were a telephone, you'd still be off the hook
This is my last leg
Been awake for days
In a minute I'll die of starvation
I'll come back a ghost if I can haunt you
and float around your room.

What do I do when you get close?
If I kissed your neck, would you slit my throat?
Are you thinking of me when you're putting on your makeup,
darling, and dying your hair like you do
Well you're wasting time if you're trying to impress me
I waste all my time just thinking of you

And I'm not imagining how you give me the shivers,
standing up to your waste in your river
You're the sweetest boat-builder I think I've ever seen
Dream in Japanese, dream in Japanese,
some language I don't even know how to speak
You're still pretty and I am still choked up,
it's probably just the same
The more I hang around you,
the more hang-ups I get (more hang-ups I get)

Are you thinking of me when you're putting on your makeup, darling,
and dying your hair like
you do? (dying your hair like you do)
Well you're wasting time if you're trying to impress me
I waste all my time just thinking of you

I know that you're an angel,
though you could never stay true (you could never stay true)
Hey angel, I think your halo has a screw loose,
'cause you dropped me like a brick off the rooftop of your high school
Could I watch the next time you're applying your eyeliner?
I waste all my time just thinking of you

5 | failed the crash test