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-nightsloth-

:: 2004 20 June :: 11.55pm
:: Music: blues drive monster, the pillows

hi
Well, I feel pretty good. Theres a lot to tell you guys, oh viewers of my journal. Most recently, its hot. really really hot. and my AC broke down. Wah. Also I got my FLCL DVD's. Yay. and welll, thats really all. I don't have philosophies to discuss or other such topics. You know, I was at pauls house for a couple of days. I noticed all sorts of stuff. Him referring to this site as the journals, while talking to friends of his on the phone. Apparently this site is a more known thing among my cousin's clique groupey thingy than I thought. I also got to see Mandy's house. Thats right mandy, I know where you live mua ha! muah ha ha ha! (although i don't exactly remember where, just what it looked like. It was green!) FUCK my parents want me to see a movie. Well, I'll finish this later. until then, see y'all.

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Twitchy

:: 2004 20 June :: 4.48pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: The Sound of Money Being Torn from My Pocket

Sorry I haven't been around
The laptop's nearly dead again
I had to go out and spend much money on a new AC adapter
And the bass was not cheap
... I hate spending money

Other than that, it's been slow .... nearly got kicked by a horse ... but all's well and I'm back on the internet ... now I'm gonna go do some fix-it-yourself things on this laptop with a screwdriver and a hammer

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Twitchy

:: 2004 20 June :: 4.48pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: The Sound of Money Being Torn from My Pocket

Sorry I haven't been around
The laptop's nearly dead again
I had to go out and spend much money on a new AC adapter
And the bass was not cheap
... I hate spending money

Other than that, it's been slow .... nearly got kicked by a horse ... but all's well and I'm back on the internet ... now I'm gonna go do some fix-it-yourself things on this laptop with a screwdriver and a hammer

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chocolatemilk

:: 2004 16 June :: 1.27am

Yes...hmm today:

Vivi and Tori and I went downtown..and then walked to Value Village..We walked by a guy putting up a billboard thingy for a restaurant...and then stuff...blah blah...mleh..

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Twitchy

:: 2004 13 June :: 11.24pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: none

it's decided, tomarrow I'll go climb up that steep hill, get a birdseye view of the town

it's also decided that I'm not going to shave all summer, that'll be fun

any other things I should do this summer?

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Twitchy

:: 2004 13 June :: 12.07pm
:: Mood: lethargic
:: Music: (Anesthesia) Pulling Teeth, Metallica

This song kicks ass
it really is a great song

I haven't said anything lately ... so I'll outline my summer
.... I don't know

I've got the job at the vet's office but I haven't heard from him about the hours yet, and I haven't heard from the horse trainer either
I'll call today
I think I'll cook something
it's rather fun just to go into the kitchen, see what's there and end up making ... soup out of scratch

I would call all of you, but I'm in Chewelah, long distance and all that, I'll be back in a few days

well, I'm gonna go wake up and try to climb up a rather large and steep hill

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Twitchy

:: 2004 11 June :: 12.40am
:: Mood: visions
:: Music: Polly, Nirvana

Perfect
someone said something to me today that made alot of sense
you hear it alot but not with the same reasons or tone that he said it, not the same honest way
do what makes you happy

happy

I see the two of them at last fine and well and cared for, I imagin a grassy meadow and they look so happy, a tear runs down my face as I see the happiness

I see one moving along, seeing what he can do, accepting what is and leaving behind a bad past

I see one ... I see one that is unclear

I see one taking up something new, in a dark room, and living happily on

I see one no longer listening

I see one who finally knows what to do and how it goes

and I see myself in a room in candellight, dim and yellow, in a chair thinking of all that was good, and writing, and remembering one at a time, and a tear down my face

I see happiness when they're happy, and then I see peace for me, finally, alone and doing what I do, I see ... no fortune, I see no others, I see no care even, I see me
alone
and I see me knowing they are fine
and I see me, there ... happy

not now ... not now is this happening, never has it happened, but I will do as he said to me, I will do what makes me happy, I will help you all find some peace

much care









Today was odd ... I was drenched and walking home in a downpour of rain, and had been covered in mud ... after being in a small dark shower with all my clothes on with sever people of both gender, that was odd, and I was covered in mud before that

but all in all the fun day was interesting, and I feel like I said some good byes to people I'll never see again, I reached some ends, I tied up the year

and tomarrow I'll go in ... finished ... and just ... yell

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chocolatemilk

:: 2004 10 June :: 7.38pm

Hmm...four words to explain the day:

Wet

Cold

Dirty

Dramatic

Yes...Cody almost put that mouse on my head....that would have been amusing..

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Twitchy

:: 2004 10 June :: 12.28am
:: Mood: odd
:: Music: She's A Rainbow

I figured I'd post the lyrics to some of my favorite songs (top three of my favorite bands, not in best to worst order)
Rolling Stones Songs

19th Nervous Breakdown

You're the kind of person you meet at certain dismal, dull affairs
Center of a crowd, talking much too loud, running up and down the stairs
Well, it seems to me that you have seen too much in too few years
And though you've tried you just can't hide your eyes are edged with tears

You better stop, look around
Here it comes, here it comes, here it comes, here it comes
Here comes your nineteenth nervous breakdown

When you were a child you were a treated kind
But you were never brought up right
You were always spoiled with a thousand toys but still you cried all night
Your mother who neglected you owes a million dollars tax
And your father's still perfecting ways of making ceiling wax

You better stop, look around
Here it comes, here it comes, here it comes, here it comes
Here comes your nineteenth nervous breakdown
Oh, who's to blame, that girl's just insane
Well, nothing I do don't seem to work
It only seems to make the matters worse. Oh, please

You were still in school when you had that fool who really messed your mind
And after that you turned your back on treating people kind
On our first trip I tried so hard to rearrange your mind
But after a while I realized you were disarranging mine

You better stop, look around
Here it comes, here it comes, here it comes, here it comes
Here comes your nineteenth nervous breakdown
Oh, who's to blame, that girl's just insane
Well, nothing I do don't seem to work
It only seems to make the matters worse. Oh, please

When you were a child you were treated kind
But you were never brought up right
You were always spoiled with a thousand toys but still you cried all night
Your mother who neglected you owes a million dollars tax
And you father's still perfecting ways of making sealing wax

You better stop, look around
Here it comes, here comes your nineteenth nervous breakdown


She's A Rainbow (I more like the piano line than the song itself)

She comes in colors everywhere;
She combs her hair
She's like a rainbow
Coming colors in the air
Oh, everywhere
She comes in colors

She comes in colors everywhere;
She combs her hair
She's like a rainbow
Coming colors in the air
Oh, everywhere
She comes in colors

Have you seen her dressed in blue
See the sky in front of you
And her face is like a sail
Speck of white so fair and pale
Have you seen the lady fairer

She comes in colors everywhere;
She combs her hair
She's like a rainbow
Coming colors in the air
Oh, everywhere
She comes in colors

Have you seen her all in gold
Like a queen in days of old
She shoots colors all around
Like a sunset going down
Have you seen the lady fairer

She comes in colors everywhere;
She combs her hair
She's like a rainbow
Coming colors in the air
Oh, everywhere
She comes in colors

She's like a rainbow
Coming colors in the air
Oh, everywhere
She comes in colors


Sympathy For The Devil

Please allow me to introduce myself
I'm a man of wealth and taste
I've been around for a long, long year
Stole many a man's soul and faith

I was 'round when Jesus Christ
Had his moment of doubt and pain
Made damn sure that Pilate
Washed his hands and sealed his fate

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guess my name
But what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game

I stuck around St. Petersburg
When I saw it was a time for a change
Killed the tsar and his ministers
Anastasia screamed in vain

I rode a tank
Held a general's rank
When the blitzkrieg raged
And the bodies stank

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guess my name, oh yeah
Ah, what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game, oh yeah

I watched with glee
While your kings and queens
Fought for ten decades
For the gods they made

I shouted out,
"Who killed the Kennedys?"
When after all
It was you and me

Let me please introduce myself
I'm a man of wealth and taste
And I laid traps for troubadours
Who get killed before they reach Bombay

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name, oh yeah
But what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game, oh yeah, get down, baby

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name, oh yeah
But what's confusing you
Is just the nature of my game

Just as every cop is a criminal
And all the sinners saints
As heads is tails
Just call me Lucifer
'Cause I'm in need of some restraint

So if you meet me
Have some courtesy
Have some sympathy, and some taste
Use all your well-learned politesse
Or I'll lay your soul to waste, um yeah

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name, um yeah
But what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game, um mean it, get down

Woo, who
Oh yeah, get on down
Oh yeah
Oh yeah!

Tell me baby, what's my name
Tell me honey, can ya guess my name
Tell me baby, what's my name
I tell you one time, you're to blame

Oh, who
woo, woo
Woo, who
Woo, woo
Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Oh, yeah

What's my name
Tell me, baby, what's my name
Tell me, sweetie, what's my name



Beck songs


Soul Suckin' Jerk

I got a job making money for the man
throwing chicken in the bucket with the
soda pop can
puke green uniform on my back
I had to set it on fire in a vat of chicken fat
I leaped on the counter like a bird with no hair
running through the mini mall in my underwear

I got lost downtown couldn't find a ride home
sun went down I got frozen to the bone
'til a hooker let me share her fake fur coat
as I took a little nap the cops picked up us both
I tried to explain I was only trying to get warm
I knew I never ever should have burnt my uniform
he said 'too bad, better bite the bullet hard son'
I didn't have no teeth so I stole his gun
and I crawled out the window with my shadow on a spoon
dancing on the roof, shooting holes in the moon

get busy, get busy, you know it

I ain't gonna work for no soul suckin jerk
I'm gonna take it all back and I ain't sayin jack
I ain't gonna work for no soul suckin jerk
I'm gonna take it all back and I ain't sayin jack

standing right here with a beer in my hand
and my mouth is full of sand and I don't understand
fourteen days I been sleeping in a barn
better get a paycheck tattooed on my arm
whistlin dixie with the dixie cup filled
with the barbecue sauce and the dental floss chill
big fat fingers pointing into my face
telling me to get busy cleaning up this place
I got bent like a wet cigarette
and she's coming after me with a butterfly net
ridin on a bloodhound ringing the bell
black cat wrapped in the road map to hell

pencil on my leg and I'm trying not to beg
taking turns bakin worms with the bacon and eggs
well they got me in a bird cage flappin my jaw
like a pretzel in the stars just waitin to fall
so give me what I got to get so I can go
cause I ain't washin dishes in the ditch no more

and I ain't gonna work for no soul suckin jerk
I'm gonna take it all back and I ain't sayin jack
and I ain't gonna work for no soul suckin jerk
I'm gonna take it all back and I ain't sayin jack


Derelict

I dropped my anchor in the dead of night
I packed my suitcase and threw it away
I fell asleep in the funeral fire
I gave my clothes to the police man
Blow back derelict wind,
lay my soul in the fallow field
Blow back derelict wind,
lay my soul in the fallow field
Shooting venom at the passers-by
Hijackers tie the heavens down
I put my eyes in a paper bag
I'm spinning round like a gambling wheel
Blow back derelict wind,
lay my soul in the fallow field
Blow back derelict wind,
lay my soul in the fallow field
I dropped my anchor in the dead of night
I packed my suitcase and threw it away
I fell asleep in the funeral fire
I gave my clothes to the police man
Blow back derelict wind,
lay my soul in the fallow field
Blow back derelict wind,
lay my soul in the fallow field


Lord Only Knows

AHHRRRRHHHH!!!
you only got one finger left,
and it's pointing at the door,
and your taking for granted,
what the lords laid on the floor,
so i'm picking up the pieces
and i'm puttin' them up for sale,
throw your meal ticket out the window,
put your skeletons in jail
cause lord only knows it's gettin' late
the senses are gone, so don't you hesistate,
give yourself a call,
letcha' bottom dollars fall
throwin your two-bit cares down the drain.
invite me to the seven seas,
like some seasick man.
you'll do whatever you please,
and i'll do whatever i can.
titanic, fare thee well,
my eyes are turning pink
don't call us when the new age,
gets old enough to drink,
cause lord only knows it's getting late,
your senses are gone so don't you hesitate,
move on up the hill,
theres nothing dead, left to kill,
throwin' your two bit cares down the drain...
yeah...
๓rale
๓rale
๓rale
๓rale
๓rale
๓rale
just passin' through...
๓rale
๓rale
๓rale
๓rale...........
dYow!
goin' back to houston,
do the hot dog dance,
goin' back to houston,
to get me some pants.............


Green Day Songs

Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.


King For A Day

Started at the age of 4
My mother went to the grocery store
Went sneaking through her bedroom door
To find something in a size four

Sugar and spice and everything nice
Wasn't made for only girls
GI Joe in panty hose
Is making room for the one and only...

King - for - a - day
Princess by dawn
King - for - a - day
In a leather thong
King - for - a day
Princess by dawn
Just wait 'til all the guys get a load of me

My daddy threw me in therapy
He thinks I'm not a real man
Who put the drag in the drag queen
Don't knock it until you tried it

Sugar and spice and everything nice
Wasn't made for only girls
GI Joe in panty hose
Is making room for the one and only...

King - for - a - day
Princess by dawn
King - for - a - day
In a leather thong
King - for - a day
Princess by dawn
Just wait 'til all the guys get a load of me

Sugar and spice and everything nice
Wasn't made for only girls
GI Joe in panty hose
Is making room for the one and only...

King - for - a - day
Princess by dawn
King - for - a - day
In a leather thong
King - for - a day
Princess by dawn
Just wait 'til all the guys
Just wait 'til all the guys
Just wait 'til all the guys get a load of me.

Redundant

We're living in repetition.
Content in hte same old shtick again.
Now the routine's turning to contention,
Like a porduction line going over and over and over, roller coaster

Now I cannot speak, I lost my voice
I'm speachless and redundant
'Cause I love you's not enough
I'm lost for words.

Choreographed and lack of passion
Prototypes of what we were
Went full circle 'til I'm nauseous
Taken for granted now
I waste it, faked it, ate it, now i hate it

Now I cannot speak, I lost my voice
I'm speachless and redundant
'Cause I love you's not enough
I'm lost for words.

Now I cannot speak, I lost my voice
I'm speachless and redundant
'Cause I love you's not enough
I'm lost for words.

Now I cannot speak, I lost my voice
I'm speachless and redundant
'Cause I love you's not enough
I'm lost for words.


Guns N' Roses

Don't Cry (Origional Version)

Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Somethin's changin' inside you
And don't you know

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you, baby
And don't you cry tonight

Give me a whisper
And give me a sign
Give me a kiss before you tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinking of you
And the times we had... baby

And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you, baby
And don't you cry tonight

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember
how I felt inside now, honey
You gotta make it your own way
But you'll be alright now, sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now, baby

And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you, baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby, maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight


Live And Let Die

When you were young,
and your heart was an open book,
you used to say live and let live
[You Know You Did 3x]
But if this ever changing world
in wich we life in
makes you give in and cry
Say live and let die
Live and let die

What does it matter to ya,
when ya got a job to do ya got to do it well
you got to give the other fella hell

When you were young,
and your heart was an open book,
you used to say live and let live
[You Know You Did 3x]
But if this ever changing world
in wich we life in
makes you give in and cry
Say live and let die
Live and let die


New Rose

Is she really going out with him?
Hey !
I got a feeling inside of me,
It's kinda strange, like a stormy sea
I don't know why, don't know why
These kind of things gotta be
I got a new rose, I got her good
Yes, I knew that I always would
I can't stop to mess around
I got a brand new rose in town.
See the sun, see the sunny skies
Don't get too close, it'll burn your eyes
Don't you run away that way
Come back another day
I got a new rose, I got her good
Yes, I knew that I always would
I can't stop to mess around
I got a brand new rose in town.
I never thought this could happen to me
Oh so strange, why should it be
I don't deserve somebody this sane
I haven't met her, maybe too late
Hey !
I got a feeling inside of me,
It's kinda strange, like a stormy sea
I don't know why, don't know why
These kind of things gotta be
I got a new rose, I got her good
Yes, I knew that I always would
I can't stop to mess around
I got a brand new rose in town.


Led Zeppelin Songs

Dancing Days

Dancing days are here again
As the summer evenings grow
I got my flower, I got my power
I got a woman who knows

You know it's all right
I said it's all right
I guess it's all in my heart
You'll be my only, my one and only
If that's the way it should start

Crazy ways are evident
In the way you're wearing your clothes
Sippin' booze is precedent
As the evening starts to glow

I said it's all right
You know it's all right
I guess it's all in my heart
You'll be my only, my one and only
If that's the way it should start

I told your mama I'd get you home
But you didn't say I got no car
I saw a lion, he was standing alone
With a tadpole in a jar

I know it's all right
You said it's all right
I guess it's all in my heart
You'll be my only
my one and only
If that's the way it should start

Dancing days are here again
As the summer evenings grow
You are my flower, you are my power
You are my woman who knows

You know it's all right
I said it's all right
I guess it's all in my heart
You'll be my only, my one and only
If that the way it should start


Stariway To Heaven

There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven.
When she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for.
Ooh, ooh, and she's buying a stairway to heaven.

There's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
'Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
In a tree by the brook, there's a songbird who sings,
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.

There's a feeling I get when I look to the west,
And my spirit is crying for leaving.
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees,
And the voices of those who stand looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it really makes me wonder.

And it's whispered that soon if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long
And the forests will echo with laughter.

If there's a bustle in your hedgerow, don't be alarmed now,
It's just a spring clean for the May queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.
And it makes me wonder.

Your head is humming and it won't go, in case you don't know,
The piper's calling you to join him,
Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow, and did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind.

And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul.
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.

And she's buying a stairway to heaven.



Dazed And Confused

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Twitchy

:: 2004 9 June :: 10.50pm
:: Mood: little foolish/little amused

well, that was amusing
I was a bit insane today, I'm sorry bout that, but I'm just living up the last few days at Sac for some reason, might not see anyone for months, might not see some people ever again, so I'm just screwing around as much as I can, like I said sorry
what's there to say about it I guess, kinda fun doing a bit of idiotic dancing, but I did make a fool of myself really
glad I could have a bit of fun, glad some issues could finally be resolved, and glad it's over really ... that's that

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Twitchy

:: 2004 6 June :: 2.23am
:: Mood: unable to pin down
:: Music: How To Win Friends And Influence People, Everclear

life, love, here and now
it's all laid out on a path before us and what we do with it is decided at every turn
maybe the best thing to do is to close your eyes, sing a tune, and wander into the endless road, wish for the happy end, and see what we get at the end when we have to open our eyes

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chocolatemilk

:: 2004 5 June :: 2.04pm

Haha...yesterday i was babysitting and Cyler walked by, and it was funny cuz the baby was butt naked..and Cyler was like, "Yea...that baby doesn't have any clothes on.."

It was amusing..

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Twitchy

:: 2004 5 June :: 3.41am
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: Tristessa, The Smashing Pumpkins

Ah fuck it ...
I fucked up
I fucked up really bad
I had a really bad week, I felt like a jackass for everything, even that stuff that wasn't my fault
now I'm alone again
not for long, but I'm alone right now
and I feel like shit
I need vacation, I really need it, very badly
I need to get away from all these ... people
FUCK, I can't get away
it's not a big problem I know, but I'm antisocial, I'm not used to people and all of a sudden they're all over
and bad shit is happening
and I just need to get away

of course there are a few people I care about who I'll try to keep in contact with
but for now I just need some solitude and quiet to ... just to think, and write, and work
I need to get away, and the weekend doesn't look much better ...

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Twitchy

:: 2004 29 May :: 9.16pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: Taking Over Me, Evanescence

few things about the day
I like cooking in this house ... it's very difficult
the serch for some clean dishes, seeing how much a plate can be like a frying pan ... using very basic things to make a good meal
making sure things aren't so old they'll kill you
I managed to make a good sized, filling and tasty meal out of some butter, some hard ... cold wheat bread, three slices of ham, a shoddy and dirty frying pan and some aged but not yet moldy cheese ... very good

I went up to Colville today, I love that no matter where you are there's always a great view of hills covered in lush green trees
went down to a little hole in the wall occult shop that just opened up and got some incense ... and had an hour long conversation with the owner about crystal frequencies, empire building in America and possible ethnic breakup and fall, totalitarianism moving into America through the contradictions of our democeracy, and the relative truths of people like Orwell and Huxley ... very interesting person
while I think these things happen and that's just it some people get really freaked out and defensive about small business, and only haul themselves aways from society, this guy was like that and that's the on;y thing I didn't like, he was a little to cautious and seemed to have given up
but a good time none the less
the house is (after a year) almost up to perfection, all wired, fixed up, moved in and gardened ... nice place
I'm going to go see about some more food now and to all a good three day vacation

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chocolatemilk

:: 2004 27 May :: 7.22pm

Nate and Vivi are over...

Yep..mmhmm....

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