boring day. the sexy men wall is back up and running. lol. and i watched that movie lucky # 7.. it was pretty good.. and i talked to my sammy !!! i missed talking to her . kinda started that politics book 4 school.. it doesnt seem too bad so far.. we'll see.. and i talked to emy.. im still feeling good too.. so thats good.. we had a pretty normal convo too.. so things are good with me for now .. later dudes .

::sigh:: .. its been a long day . yesterday i hung around the house.. everyone was out... and i found myself getting extremely depressed because i kept trying to talk to emy and i got nowhere.. and i went into this mad crying spree.. so i figured i should occupy myself..... so stupidly i go to assemble some more of my furniture and move it around .. by myself.. might i mention it weighs like.. a million pounds a piece.. and this isnt just me being weak lol.. my dad and bro can hardly move it.. so.. i put my desk back together.. actually succeeded.. and moved some stuff in.. then i was watching tv.. and eating.. and what do you know.. my little andrea called me saying she was bored without me. lol. so her papa picked me up.. and we went to get her mama from work.. and went to atlantic ave. for dinner.. me and andrea went our separate way.. and went to get some burgers at cheeburger cheeburger.. then walked to the beach.. and had some gelatos.. and walked through the valet and into the marriot lol.. aaaand.. oh it was cool cause it was i guess oldies night ? they had all these awesome old cars out on display.. and they had bands playing and stuff all down atlantic ave. it was cool.. so then we came back to her house.. after her dad followd the man in the echo through a red light and almost got hit.. lol.. and we watched some tv and stuff and went to bed.. and today we went out with her mommy to get shoes n stuff.. i got 2 pairs.. theyre reaaally cute.. and we saw... lauren furman at marshalls lol.. i was like ahhhh hide.. but i ran RIGHT into her and i had to talk a bit .. poop. lol. anywho so then my daddy got me from her house.. brought me home.. he had moved in all my furniture :) and i just moved in all my stuff.. its so purty.. but i didnt put all my stuff back up on my walls cause im not sure what i wanna put.. and what kinds of lights i wanna get up around my ceiling like i had.. i think i want those chinese lantern things if i can find em.. if not ill just put up my old ones.. k.. well im hungry so im gonna go eat.. later gater !

soo.. today was rapids. fun fun.. lol. i made a new friend ! hes really cool.. name is joe. sooo today... we went on that new ride.. it was fun.. it was mostly me andrea scott joe and these girls ashley and erica and their brother the whole day.. chaz and his friend kinda wandered off for a while. .. they shook the little kids off their floats in the kiddie pool lol. and .. the lazy river was fun too... everyone kept tippin eachother over.. joe like had it out for me and andrea.. every time we got up he came on over and knocked me over again... so.. yeah. lol. and we got into a little game of monkey in the middle in the wave pool... i almost drowned. lol. then we went to taco bell 4 lunch.. and back to the youth center.. and mr. b picked us up and took us back to andrea.s. i got my stuff.. and separated from her :( . lol. 5 days together last week on our trip.. then.. a day apart ? and another.. mon. tues. wed. thurs. together..thats.. 4 days ? lol.. what can i say i love my sweet potato ! heh.. well .. im gonna go.. sammy call me when u wake up i gotta tell ya somethin ! :D

sadie hawkins dance in my khaki pants .. oh oh oh... i love that song :) lol anderea .. humanahum ..
sooo today me and anderea went to see finding nemo again.. and then hung around that whole plaza and stuff and then mama came and took us to andreas and hung out here a little and then went to youth group......... and i found out that scotty scott was kind enough to tell people about my little sickness episode at busch gardens. lol. but yeah.. it was fun.. yeizi was there !! i love her.. shes so sweet.. she brought her daughter too .. so then we came back here to her house and ate a little and talked to shane on the phone ... lol.. good times. his doggie pooped.. and he picked it up. and yeah it was funny .. so yeah im gonna go look up crouch on a whatthehelldoescrouchmean.com lol.. later

sadie hawkins dance.. in my khaki pants.. theres nothing better.. oh oh oh.. girls ask the guys.. its always a surprise.. do you like my sweaterrrrrrrrrr ? lol andrea
arrghh. im so pissed off. emy still wont talk to me. i dont even know what i did. whatever. i guess if he wants to ever talk to me again he will.. theres nothing else i can really do. maybe we just need a break. whatever. as long as i dont think about it im ok. if i keep busy. and i will be :) , yesterday andrea was bored so she called and wanted to see if i wanted to sleep over but i was painting my room.. so she came over and helped me.. and we finished the white last night.. and went swimming till the invisible cow scared us out .. lol . so then we watched the emporers club for school.. it was actually a pretty good movie.. and then we just talked n stuff and went to sleep.. and this morning we did my spongepaint all over my walls.. its soooooo pretty. its GORGEOUS. kind of weird looking in some spots tho lol.. but its covered by furniture there. so its all good. and we put our handprints on one wall too :) so then we cleaned up.. went swimming.. went to publix to get those texas toast garlic bread things that scott said we HAVE to get.. blockbuster.. we rented they.. that we have yet to see.. and we got us some pizzas.. and now andreas on the phone with shane while were waitin to get my dvd player and camp out in my room in sleeping bags for the night :) and tomorra were gonna tan.. and go to youth group at night.. and im gonna sleep at her house .. and thursday youth groups going to the rapids... so were gonna go.. she insists i show scott my farmers tan.. but im gonna try even it out a little at least otmorrow lol.. its sooooooo bad. it looks like im wearin kneehighs. lol. so it shoul dbe fun... k.. g2g.. adios amigos

eh.
today kinda stunk. well it was indifferent. last night me and emy got into anothrer "fight" if you will.. or whatever you want to call whatever that is we do.. i guess it was partly my fault though.. i kinda snapped at him.. cuz he left to go call some of his friends after talking to me for like 10 minutes with half his attention when ive been gone for 5 days.. and i guess i was also upset cuz he didnt email me or anything while i was gone and.. it just seems as if he never has time for me.. and then i tell him how i feel.. and heslike no i always have time for you cuz i love you.. and then he doesnt really do anything about it.. and it gets me upset.. and worse.. it gets me thinking.. and thinking for me isnot good. so today i woke upfeeling kinda bad about snapping at him.. and i wrote him an email.. and i left a message up for him to check his mail and he still hasnt written back.. so i dont know. but other than that.. i cleaned out all the junk from my room.. all thats left is furniture. which my dad said he'd move for me.. so for the next few days ill be living here in the office/guest room .. and then we went to home depot where we spent ohhhhh about 3 hours. no exxageration. he is suuuuuch a slow shopper. the only reason i actually went was to get my paint.. its purty :) .. that was the high point of my day.. then we went to Tom's .. and came home cuz pinchapenny was closed.. and i ate.. a lot.. i was sohungry.. and then i just hung out in here playing snood and surfing the web .. kinda hoping emy wouldve come on.. i guess not.. i hope hes not mad at me.. and if he is.. i hope we can work things out tonight.. im so depressed.. i need to fix this.
i feel like i dont have anyone anymore.. well besides andrea.. i know its just my messed up head.. but it feels like everyones moved on from me.. like emy.. we all know that story.. sammy has summer school... liz is in new york.. rachels always at the gym or surfing or something.. and everyone else im just really not that close with that i really wanna hang out with them i guess... its not that i dont want ot hang out with any other people.. but im just used to those 5 or so.. but i just feel so alone right now . i miss him . :(

bananas !!!!
i just got home an hour ago.. and im already bored out of my mind.. sigh.. lol. so im gonna give a detailed report of my trip !

Tuesday : andreas daddy came n got me and took us to the youth center to meet up with everyone.. and scotty drove us all out to fort lauderdale to work on this foster home thing... we did landscaping and stuff like that.. hotttt man. we went to phil's subs across the street 4 lunch.. and then we hung out at the youth center at night and i gave hemp lessons to everyone lol.. we went to checkers to get some food.. GOTTA EAT ! ... and we had a big dispute about banana/ chocolate shakes.. and me and this girl nikki loved the banana ones and andreas like oh well theyre fake bananas and this whole banana thing started throughout the whole trip lol. soooooo we were trying to go to bed but this girl was on the phone till like 1 am and then this other girl started fighting with her and it got louuuuuud and me and andrea and nikki were so scared lol.. so no one really got sleep that night cuz we had to get up at 3:30 to drive out to ocala the next day...

Wednesday .. we were outa there by 5 am.. and drove out to ocala.. to rainbow river and we went tubing in the river for 4 hours.. me and andrea hung out with this girl yaezi ( sounds like jc ) .. and we thought she was in high school but shes 30 and has three kids.. we were like.. wow ! shes really really sweet.. and we stuck together.. scott knocked andrea over.. then he headed to knock me over.. it took him like 10 minutes, but he did. lol.. so we went down the river 4 miles ( 4 hours ) .. and i just layed out on my stomach... and i didnt realize it was so sunny... and i got burnt soo bad... u can even see the bow tie thing from my swimsuit tie on my back.. and the sofee burn. but after a while we got really sick of being in the water.. so we found this guy to tow us to where we had to go with his boat lol. cracker boy. he was tryin to hit on adnreaa..heh. so that night we spent camping and had a service and smores and stuff.. and i was OUT that night... so tired from the night b4.

Thursday : we went canoeing for 2 hours.. so funny. lol . that and busch gardens were my favorite part. this river was filled with snakes and alligators and u couldnt see past the top of the water it was so murky.. and so it was me and andrea in a canoe, and every time we went near bushes id start to scream cuz i got so scared .. lol. and scott and poppie and nina started splashin everyone and our boats were filled with water.. we saw some turtles.. and a baby alligator.. it was really fun though. so then we drove out to tampa.. and we went to this joint 2 eat at.. ( later to be adressed. lol ) and the girls had a devotional in one of the hotel rooms.. it was really good. i loved it.. we all really connected, it was so amazing.... but then we went back to our rooms.. me and andrea and jc ( not even gonna try the other way 2 spell it .. ) had a room.. and our connecting room was candice taleia sara and nikki.. and sara and taleia had met these guys at dinner earlier and gave them their #s and they were talking n stuff and they were supposed to meet up at busch gardens ... continues on friday.

Friday : we were at the park by 10... me and andrea hung with scott ... paul.. juan.. chaz.. heather.. and some of the old guys for most of the day.. it was SO much fun . first we hit montu.. had some people think their feet would hit walls if they didnt tuck em in lol.. then gwazi.. the new 4D show.... thennnnnnnnnn.. ::sigh:: i started my trip to the new nickname : chunks . we rode that boat thing that goes upside down and just holds u there and it made me sooooo sick i felt like i was ognna puke my brains out.. then scott made us do bumper cars.. didnt really help. but i felt strong.. so we went on kumba. ( big roller coaster . ) . by the first 360 i knew i was gonna be pukin.. and by half way through i had to hold it in so bad.. and as it stopped i just ran off to the grass... and it wasnt too bad. but yes scott named me chunks after that . lol.. i guess its no fun if u dont have awellrounded experience. so then we had lunch and went playing in the arcade and won a million gagillion stuffed animals between all of us.. and a GIGANTIC BANANA FOR OUR BANANA GIRLS !!! it was funny . lol. so then we went on rhino ralley... and to congo river rapids but it started pouring and lighting so they closed down all the rides so we hung out online for a whilke... and just talked to jc.. shes so sweet. and paul was buggin us too.... hes funny.. but he got annoying.. fast . lol. then we did congo... and tidal wave... :D forced andrea onto bridge, went to ....... i dont even member.. but we went to montu and it was broken down and a car was stuck up there so .. we went to eat.. and then we went back to montu and rode it a few times and bought some crap then.... we went to see the sigfreid and roy show... front row.. and it was really funny. scott got the whole crowd ( it was easily a few hundred people ) .. while we were waiting for it to start he got the whole crowd doing the wave.. it was so funny... then after the show we got some food.. and left... : / . it was suuuuch a fun day tho. many funny moments. so THEN when we got back to the hotel the guys that sara and taleia had met were outside our rooms. they brought their friends and they were telling people they came to get some.. they were like... no. and they wouldnt leave. and then scott came out and whoooooo it got kinda bad. but then they eventually left... they were all drunk and dressed up and they drove an hour and ahalf to come meet the girls.. i was like what the hell why do they give out their #s to strangers like that... so.. w/e..

Saturday (today ) : we packed up the vans... had another devotional in the morning to end the trip.. and got on the road.. and of course i was so lucky and got to sit with paul who wouldnttttttt shut uup the entire drive home. lol. but it was a really fun trip.. i learned a lot.. i met some really nice people.. it was awesome. soooooooooo now im back lookin for boards.. im starting the painting process tomorrow.. school work.. then warped tour.. and then im OUUUUUUUT . to new york and such . so.. its gonna be busy . anywho.. im gonna go and unpack now.. i missh my emy soo much. i dont think he missed me tho :/

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arggh.. started to pack.. got most done. i figure since im sittin around on my ass today.. i might as well pack it all up and hope i might do something tomorrow.... ! now since i pretty much finished that... im gonna tryyyy and clean my room.. but god.. i dont think its EVER been this messy.. i seriously cant see the floor. its kinda scaring me.......... so i guess i should go n get started ? ... later doodies : )

i mustve called every single surf shop from sunrise.. to juno beach.. and no one has boards that work for me.. the best i found was a 7'6 funshape at ronjons.. new .. so i think worse comes to worst thats my pick . and i looked at the site and theyre purrty.. so that'll be good. but i remembered seeing boards at costco so i started calling them all again and one said they might have em in a week.. so ill try back then.. adn if not.. i duno.. i might go for the ron jons one.. but its 350.. and i dont know if im looking to spend that much on my first board.. we'll see i guess. .
anywho .. so yestserday i went over emys for 4th of july.. :-D .. my parents kept telling me thered be like a million kids so i got kinda sad.. cuz i knwe that meant i couldnt be alone with him.. but at first there was one.. then 2.. then 3 besides us.. and they all had other things to occupy themselves so that was good :-D for a while... but then emys little sister and andas little sister came into the room......... and God.. i dont htink ive ever heard anyone talk as much as andas little sister did last night.. she like .. would not stop. i swear i think she had like a million cans of coke. she was so freakin hyper.. and she started talking about her friends and sister and telling us info we did NOT need to know .. (someone had some kind of bacterial infection ... ? lol.. picture info like taht for about 2 hours.. ) and yeah it was funny.. but it got annoying .. realllllly annoying... so we kinda lost em and we hid under his bed lol.. it was kinda nice actually ; ) .. and then everyone went outside for fireworks and we had the house empty : ) .. soooooo yeah it was fun lol . hope everyone had a great 4th of july !

happy 4th of july !
hola people.. time for my real entry. lol.
sooooooo wednesday i went over andreas 4 dinner adn then we went 2 boca surf n sail and to youth group.. man that guy at boca surf... he was so freakin happy.. no one is naturally that friendly. lol. so then we had the meeting for our trip.. and it sounds like so much fun!!!! :-D .. although they clearly told us that for camping not to bring clothes that ud ever wanna wear again lol.. so im a little skared there.. but i hear we gonna attck with fireworks and stuff and now were gonna be at buysch gardens till 10 insteada 9.. and it just sounds liek fun. i just gotta figure out how to fit all my shit into ONE bag.. i think me and andrea are gonna split our bags lol.annyyyyywho.. so then her dad was takin us to see 28 days later.. and it was supposedddddddd to be good. but it sucked major assness. we left after like 20 minutes, and went home. so much for our spontaneous movie night lol. so we just talked and went to bed n stuff and in the morning the computer guy came.. we ... hung around.. walked to subway.. went ot blockbuster.. we WANTED to see They but the store didnt freakin have any.. so we got how to lose a guy in 10 days instead.. its really funny.. but no matter who i see it with now i can only picture emy by my side making fun of me the whole way through like the first time lol.. sooooooooo then we soaked up our feet and then my daddy came to get me .. and ...... i dont member what i even did last night.. today i got up.. and i went to blobkbuster in my pjs lol.. and then to publix cuz mommy needed a newspaper so she sent me in.. and im waiting on line.. and i look ahead of me.. and ITS MR . MCMANUS WITH HIS DAUGHTER !! im like hiding behind ppl lol, cuz 1, i was in pjs, 2, its mr mcmanus. he woulda stopped me for like 10 minutes to talk lol.. and ask me about my brother. member amy, how thats ALL he could ever talk about !??! lol.. so then i came home.. and here i am... natalinis coming in a few to borrow my yearbook.. havent seen her in a while.. i guess i should go downstairs now lol... i get to see emy tonight!!!! but theres gonna be like a million other ppl there .. nothin like a million romanians celebratin an american holiday ............. so lets just hope i get some alone time with him.......... :-/ .. i misss him . k.. goin to meet natalia. adios amigos !